The holidays are upon us. Cards, gifts, shopping, and a whirlwind of activity are happening already and we aren't even at Thanksgiving.

People are already in the mood. Some have smiles and are singing holiday songs. Others are taking this time to rip into employees who have no choice but to work these jobs to pay bills. Some are happy and others are miserable.

This year I am facing things a bit differently. Dad will not be out of rehab for Thanksgiving. In fact on Tuesday I have a meeting with what seems like half the rehab center to discuss Dad and his future, when he might come home, and in what sort of shape.

Of course, my father still feels like he is running the show, telling me he is due to come home Monday and he hopes I am ready for him. He acts like this was just a small blip and he can lie about why he is in there or what affect it is having on him and his body.

I will get to spend a few hours of his birthday with him. His birthday this year is Thanksgiving. I also work for one of those wonderful companies who are open on Thanksgiving so Thursday, Friday, and Saturday I am working wild hours and hope to get some sort of sleep.

Add to the joy of this I have a cold that I think is mostly brought on by exhaustion and yeah not really in a holiday mood.

However, this doesn't mean I am ignoring things. Just don't know if I will get out cards in time, never mind any sort of gifts. This year has me straining and feeling off. So while I wish everyone the best, if I am not acting like I normally do, you know why.