Today’s Reflection - i’m sorry

i have failed and found myself in a dark place. i said and did stupid things of which i’m ashamed. when i hit rock bottom it finally hit me. i should be on top of the world but inside i was hurting. past demons came to live in my head again. your not good enough - you will never amount to anything and the scary one was you would be better off dead.  i went through the day to day never caring of what happen. my daily life was getting harder and harder.  i then knew i could not do this alone. so i asked and got some help. to some that may meaning nothing but for me it is what is saving my life. The first think we are working on is we need to let go of past mistakes and move on. The hardest thing is to forgive myself first but i need to let things go. 

This is the reason for this message I want to tell everyone if I hurt you or said unkind things “ i’m sorry “ 

My actions at that time are no excuse for bad behavior. 

With the help of a good shrink we will get past this. 

This is also my wish for those i have hurt that we can also get past this.

rick