So a little while ago I was taking this personality/interests test online. See a couple of weeks ago (before my epiphany in church ) when I went to see the 2nd counselor she told me I should take this test to better gage my interests, THEN I actually figured out what I wanted to do without taking the test. So not actually having any good reason to take the test I hadn't gotten around to it. But I did pay a fee to sign up for it and I actually kinda like taking tests like that so I figured, "why not?". Anyway I need to go back and talk to them about what I'll need to do to become qualified and find a job in counseling/social work. SOOO I figured I'd might as well take the test so that we could discuss it if they wanted to.
Well I'm taking the test and it gets to a section which asks me to evaluate how interested I am in performing various activities. So I'm going along answering, when I come to a very odd activity, "making risky comittments" Now of course I indicated that I "strongly disliked" making risky comittments, but it made me stop and laugh uproariously for several minutes (which probably sounds like a big deal but it isn't, I'm kinda a laughy sorta person anyway, and I was already giggling my head off as I imagined myself doing the various things the test was enquiring after ). But it really struck me, who on earth would actually mark, "yes, I strongly like making risky comittments". "Promising to do things there's absolutely every possibility I'll never do, raising people's hopes when, hey it just might not happen, all around being a constant let down to myself and everyone I interact with...Yep, I love to do that!" I began to wonder what exactly they would suggest I do as a career if this were indeed one of my interests? "ohhh, you like to let people down I see. Well we've got just the job for you! Hmmm they'd probably get me a job making those recording you hear when you call technical support, "you're call is very important to us and please rest assured that we'll be with you momentarily." Yep after waiting an hour and then finding out there's nothing the tech. can do to help most people tend to be pretty dispirited.
I imagine I'd run into people occasionally in the supermarket and after a polite "hi", get back, "Hey, aren't you the voice that tells me someone will be right with me to help troubleshoot my beyond repair computer?", "Why yes I am, and I've got more bad news for you: this is the last carton of milk, but don't worry the cows are working diligently even as we speak, and if you stand here for a couple of hours someone may come by to restock the shelves."
In other news I've had/and will have an interesting next couple of days. Yesterday was fun, due to the shuffled schedules at work for Spring break I had to work with Kim. This of course wasn't the "highlight", but actually it was fine, we're at that nice stage where we're politely disinterested in each other and even overly formal to avoid setting the other off. Polite and overly formal? Believe me growing up in preppy private schools I'm fully comfortable in this arena. There was even a nice bit of gossip throw in (another hallmark ), when Coressa told me privately that Kim was pregnant and attempting to hide it from our employer (for silly, not practical reasons).
Anyway it was nice working with Coressa again. We had so much fun we ended up making plans to go eat boiled crawfish (A southern Louisiana tradition and MMMMMmmm) that evening. It was great, we went and picked them up at a local grocery she knew of which served excellent ones. I happened to be the only white guy there and I got the impression people were regarding us as an interracial couple, but I was actually pretty comfortable with that. I immediately thought it was only fair since often minorities are the only ones of their race present. Besides I love being exposed to new cultures etc. And everyone was very nice. Anyway it was alot of fun and afterwards we went to a park near my apartment and I got her "life story" . Then I took her back to my place to introduce her to Lucky and Timmy, and shockingly Timmy was actually very gregarious (Lucky's always a doll). The only unfortunate incident occured when I was holding Lucky and Coressa mistakenly turned on the garbage disposal while looking for the light switch . My chest is a little worse for wear but I'll cope. Anyway in the course of things she expressed an interest in learning to drive a standard, so I took her to the now mostly empty parking lot at work and taught her. She caught on really quickly!
So after that I took her home and went and visited Mandi for a bit. We got some ice cream then she showed me how to bake some sort of pumpkin cake rolls. She quite likes to bake and was happy to have the company, I of course have no experence with baking (though I love regular cooking) so I was happy to be exposed to something new (well newish, she's exposed me to baking a couple of other times).
So today I slept in and awoke to a phone call from my mom, which contained unfortunate news . My grandfather was climbing on something and fell, landing on a rather unyielding block of wood. He's mostly okay, but does have FIVE broken ribs . I'm just such a mess whenever he, my grandmother, or my mom are sick/hurt. . Anyway it's just really scary, I mean he's almost 85 and.... Well anyway he's the "dad figure" in my life.
But on the bright side I'm meeting my mother tomorrow in a city midway between our two homes and we're traveling to see my other grandmother and aunt. It's basically a combined "Easter visit" and "going away visit". I probably won't see either of them again before I move...or for quite awhile afterwards. It may seem odd that my mom wants to go, but she's always been close with her former mother and sister-in-laws. That and it's a good 3 or 4 hour drive so I'll be happy to have the company, not to mention the navigational skills. I've gotten much better of late, but I'm still not sure I could find my grandmother's home completely on my own (well I guess I could but not without a good map and detailed directions).
Anyway after the visit we'll be driving back and I'll just stay the night with my mom and grandparents, then spend Easter with them. Of course I'll be very happy to see my grandfather and make sure he's okay, talk to him, sympathise etc. . But on the down side I really do hate to sleep away from home (my own apartment I mean). I never minded sleeping away from home before I moved out, but after I got my own place, filled with all my things in just the places I wanted them, I found that I wasn't eager to have to try to pack all the stuff I require and make do with other accommodations. I'm one of those people who believes you should back two outfits and a couple of pairs of shoes for every day you'll be away. I also have quite a few bath, bedtime, and morning accessories and undoubtedly I'll forget my cucumber bath scrub, or my moisturizing/SPF containing face wash.....yeah yeah I know what you're thinking, but hey I'm gay so it only makes sense right? Anyway I guess I'll just "rough it". I'm really not a big queen though, I like sports and outdoorsy stuff, heck I even do some of my own plumbing and other DIY-ing. I just like to come home and clean up nice.
Anyway I'll be away until after Easter, so I hope you all have a fantastic time and spend it with the people you love. Take care and I want you all to have a smile on your lips and a song in your hearts. Pleaseeeeeee
....seriously you guys better be smiling Darnit!