Fantasies and Random Things about me
Hi all,
I've recently been corresponding with a new friend online and his questions/comments inspired the following passages from me. I decided I'd might as well share them here:
This one's poorly written, but the nature of the message was quick and casual, and I'm not going to edit it, because for some reason I instead feel that it's better to present it unaltered.
Emotional Fantasy
My boyfriend and I have a fancy, romantic, at home dinner. I'm thinking formal dress, white table cloth, Seafood - probably lobster or poached fish (I'm a vegetarian who only eats seafood BTW) - candles, maybe some soft music playing in the background. Then we just sit and eat and talk about our feelings, our lives - past and future - hopes, dreams, fears, that kinda stuff, then we kiss gently but passionately, go up the stairs, undress each other, climb into a hot tub filled with bubbles, wash each other, continue the intimate conversation, and gentle, passionate kisses, climb out, dry each other off, and then proceed to the bed (made up in fancy, soft sheets of course, I'm thinking white satin), and have an extremely long sex session during which both lovers are focused primarily on satisfying the other's tastes and desires (which of course they'll know intimately by this time), finally in the throes of intense simultaneous orgasm (although I'm thinking ideally each partner should have cum several times by now), we look each other in the eye, say "I love you", then share a long, tender kiss as that afterglow feeling takes over. Finally we fall asleep in each other's arms.
There was a companion "Sexual Fantasy", but I'm not going to post it here since 1) it's pretty graphic and IMO not appropriate for this blog, and 2) you guys really don't need to know all of my sexual proclivities
I also made the following list of "random things about myself", figured I'd might as well post it. Some them most/some of you probably already knew, but the person I was sending it to didn't. It's also in its original, unaltered form.
Random things about me
-I think if I had to pick three words to describe myself they would be: Absurd, Optimistic, and helpful, but undoubtedly the words I would choose would vary on a day by day basis depending on my mood.
-Do you believe in destiny? Well really what I mean is one, possibly preconceived but in any case unavoidable, outcome for things.
I don't. I think the smallest change has drastic ramifications for the rest of one's life. Like perhaps if I'd opted to call up some friends and go out tonight instead of being here right now responding to this message my life would have ended up dramatically different (for better or worse). Like obviously this response would be different because I'd have been having different thoughts when I responded to it. Maybe I'd have met someone new that would have forever altered my life (for better or worse). Perhaps I'd have learned something new about one of my friends that would have coloured our future relationship (for better or worse).
And I also think my decision to go out versus remaining home tonight would have forever impacted the lives of 1) You since one of the things I'm doing instead is responding to the message and that response will have some sort of effect on you that it otherwise wouldn't have. 2) whichever friend(s) I'd have decided to hang out with. 3)Everyone whom I would have come into contact with, however seemingly insignificant the contact would appear to be (like if we'd gone out to eat I think it would have forever changed the direction the waiter/waitress' life would have taken, I even think it would have forever changed the lives of whomever WOULD have been at the table instead of us, as well as even the lives of the people at the neighbouring tables since they would have looked at different people and caught different bits of conversation). Perhaps my decision to stay in tonight ultimately caused hundreds of people to die sooner, or hundreds of people to die later (or more likely a combination of both...which I'm oddly okay with since I think they're all having similar impacts on myself and everyone else, and it's pointless to sit around trying to change it or predict how it will come out).
So there's something you probably didn't know about me and how I think, lol.
-Here's another, I think being told that I'm "boring", "conventional", or even "average" or "normal", would be one of the most insulting things someone could say to me. Well, I'd try not to take offense since I'd realize that most people probably wouldn't realize how much those labels would bother me, but they WOULD bother me if the person really believed them, and they would bother me even more if *I* believed them.
-I really dislike the words: "Disgusting", and "poo"
-I definitely believe perception is reality.
-I like that the mechanisms and workings of most modern technology is so mysterious to me that it almost appears to work by magic, and as much as I like to find out how it really works - and I do - I think I prefer to keep thinking about as "magical".
-I think "Into the Ocean" by Blue October is a really good song that's been so horrifically overplayed that I almost want to THROW MYSELF INTO THE OCEAN whenever it comes on.
-Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie are both super-hot, and super-cool, good people, who've done a great deal of good for the world, IMO.
-If I could meet any deceased writer, right now (and my opinion's likely to change with time), it would be Edith Nesbit. I've never read any of her work, but I read her biography, and I think she's the kind of person I'd love to know.
-Of all the combinations of gender and sexualities (straight guys, straight girls, gay guys, lesbians, bisexual males, bisexual females), I'm by far most comfortable in the company of lesbians, and I've had an extremely disproportionately high number of close friendships with lesbians. In fact when I meet a lesbian I automatically assume we'll be good friends if we get to know each other.
-I can compare apples and oranges, and oranges are best.
-I never spell the words: Colour, Neighbour, Favour, etc. with their American spelling (color, neighbor, favor), it's not even a conscious decision anymore.
-I consider myself a "pacifist" and a "Christian" (no connection implied, just two random ideologies that for me happen to have the following in common), but both groups would probably "disown me" - or perhaps "excommunicate me" would be a better choice of words - if they knew my full and very complicated philosophies about aggression and religion respectively.
-In most arguments, regardless of what they're about, I firmly believe that 9 out of 10 times (if not more), it doesn't really matter who's right and who's wrong, only how the people involved feel and how they proceed.
-I used to have atrocious spelling; now I can spell the word "atrocious" (and almost any other) without thinking twice about it.
-I often find myself wondering if one has to write a (presumably unpopular) novel before one can be a "failed novelist". I've often failed to write full novels...that should count.
-I don't think any child should ever wonder if his (or her) parents love him (or her)
-I've never been able to be bothered by favourtism, even when I've been the "victim". I've always thought it quite natural and fair that one would do special things for a friend. The only exception would be parental favourtism since I *would* view that as unnatural and unfair, but having been an only child I never experienced it.
-Bribery does bother me.
-I'm virtually never bored, instead I always seem to find myself faced with TOO MANY appealing things to do with my time.
Comments are welcomed, especially if you disagree about some of my viewpoints in the "random things about me" section. These are the kinds of things I really like to think about, and also discuss, so I'd be happy to have a debate about them.
Take care all and have an awesome day!
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