Warning: This blog may contain graphic contact and/or TMI. Read at your own risk.

So this week is my last week of undergraduate school. Papers, exams..... blah. Just so glad to be done with it all.

Saturday I walk the stage, sometime in January I'll have my Bachelor's degree in hand....

From here, I don't know where I'm going to go. I'm still going to apply to the University of Pennsylvania, though I'd rather go to Princeton. I'm going to be applying to a bunch of grad schools actually. I'm also going to be applying for a temporary teacher certification for the state of Florida as a back up plan. The only requirements to get it are to have a bachelor's degree with at least a 2.5 GPA, a teaching job lined up, and to send all the application forms in. If my plans for grad school in public administration don't work out, I'm going to apply to law school and take night classes while teaching to support myself....

I don't really want to be a lawyer, my ambitions for a career in law would be to become a federal judge. I may not be thrilled about the idea of trying cases as a lawyer, but hearing cases and determining a just outcome is something I am both good at and enjoy doing.

My personal life... well... there have been some interesting developments there...

I went out with Gavin a couple times last weekend. Friday night I ended up in a long conversation with his parents about politics before going out to dinner with them. They're independents like me, and I enjoyed talking with them about some public policy issues and the present election cycle. When we got back to Gavin's place I went into his room with him. We played gears of war on the xbox for a while, then popped in an absolutely terrible movie called "going overboard" starring adam sandler. That was okay, though, my interest wasn't really with the movie anyway. That night I gave him his first blow job, which he enjoyed intensely... he almost came in the first minute or so, but I stopped so he could recover a bit. For a brief but very enjoyable time we laid together, his arm around me. I wished I could have gone to sleep like that but I had to get back home.

Saturday we went bowling together... I don't even remember what my score was but I do remember getting four strikes in my second game. I had a lot of fun but I'm not sure Gavin had as good a time. I'm not sure if he just doesn't know how, or just doesn't like to, but he doesn't use the holes in the bowling ball. He actually did pretty good though, considering the form he was using. I thought about throwing off my own game a little bit so our scores would be more even... but I decided against that. Misrepresentation just isn't a good way to go in a relationship. I'm not going to pretend to be someone I'm not. We went back to his place and fooled around for a while...

I was confronted with a couple facts about myself that I can't change. First, I'm a pretty damned horny guy. My sex drive is high enough to the point that there's rarely a time when I'm not interested in sex. Gavin is not like that though. He's actually a little disconcerted to find that my sex drive is so high because his own is not. I assured him though that I wasn't in the relationship for the sex, and he's since told me that he doesn't think its that big of a deal anyway.

The other problem is somewhat... mechanical in nature. Simply put, I'm pretty big around. Gavin is... well, Gavin is how you would expect someone who has never had anal sex before to be. I tried stretching first (and not for a short while), but to no avail. I know if there is more and more frequent stretching eventually I will "fit" but I'm afraid he may have been turned off from it now. I hope not...

He has a friend of his flying down on Sunday, he talked about going to busch gardens... we might go together... we'll see.