What is the little red monster? That's a good question. While I seem to be at a point where I am not depressed as much, there seems to be something else emerging. Occasionally, the little red monster comes out to play. Anything can set it off like a hungry lion being unleashed. I guess one could say that I need to get it under control, because I'm just irritable, and that is not a good thing at all. What causes it? Well, sometimes people, like me, spend years being self-sacrificing. It takes an emotional toll. One might ask what I am doing about it. Well, I am trying meditation. They often talk about reaching a state where one is not thinking as much. So far it seems to be helping. One thing is that I think I may need to return to counseling at some point when I am truly ready to get through this. I think it also boils down to the fact that I need to work on some of my life goals and really work on a plan to escape. It's about time for me to take care of me. What I want is to basically start over with my life. I figure that the Midwest has nothing to really offer me, so I want to save up money and get the hell out of here.

Added: I wrote a poem of the same name. It's here for anyone who would like to read it.