You know what I thought about what Libbonobo and the rest of you said and you guys are right. Maybe I was just hanging on to something that wasn't there. I decided to go back I'm actually back home now and I will tell Selene and Chaz what happened tomorrow. The thing is I think Chaz is attractive but I don't see anything beyond that. Even though he might, I just see him as a friend. A good one, dont get me wrong but that's all. I know what I felt for Julio is real but we weren't good for each other in the long run.

He called today and we talked. He told me the same thing and he said that he's rather see me happy with someone else than miserable with him in the long run. I told him that he should have talked to me about it rather than leaving a note on a computer screen. He said that he is sorry for that but he had to catch his flight. He said he had tried to call but his phone wouldn't work.

Either way I have decided to stay where I'm at. I put away all of the stuff he left and I'm going to try and get a roommate. I don't know, it was pretty rough for a minute but I know now that it's better for me in the long run. Well anyhoo I Leave you all and I thank you for your comments they really did make me feel better.

GREEN back at home.