So on Monday, I get back to school. I'm facing down the last eight weeks of spring semester, and thus finally finish the junior year that I didn't finish before because I left school last year in the middle of junior year.

Of course, if we're being techical, I'm not finishing junior year, because at the end of this semester, I should have about seventy-eight credits. To count as a senior, I need ninety credits. To reach graduation, I need 124 credits. This means I need forty-six credits between June 2009 and May 2010. This is where I get into what's been bugging me- to make up the credits and graduate in spring 2010, I need to take two classes during summer session, and two classes during winter session. This is on top of taking about 16 credts for fall 2009 semester and spring 2010 semester. So I'd be going full-throttle from now until I walk across that stage in about fourteen months.

What I'm worried about is that I'm going to burn out. Considering that I do think about going to grad school, I'm not sure if it's a good idea for me to get to the point where I don't even want to look at another book by the time I finish undergrad. So this is where option two comes in- taking an extra semester and not doing the summer and winter sessions so I get a nice break. On one hand, I wouldn't have to take a heavy courseload each semester. On the other hand, aside from the financial strain of doing another semester, I'd also be unable to walk across the stage with my friends, and I'd miss out on the whole spring graduation experience. I've seen what they're like, and they're pretty amazing.

And then there's option 3- do a 5th year, graduate in spring 2011 instead of spring 2010 or winter 2011. I'd be able to pick up a minor, have the spring graduation experience, have a much lighter courseload, and-this is pretty important- I'd have a lot more time put in between myself and the one-year suspension I had to serve starting in December 2007. The drawbacks would be financial, of course, and I don't think my family would be cool with me still being supported by Mom at the age of 25.

So three options...all of them kinda suck, but I know that I have to choose one. I've gotta make the best out of a bad situation I placed myself in because of certain decisions I made- such as transferring to another school my sophomore year and getting suspended junior year.

Now I just find myself staring at these last couple of weeks of my re-attempted junior year, and know that sometime very soon, I got to make a decision about my future. Kinda scary.