Cia

I'm a sticky noter...I put down any ideas I have on a pad that is always kept nearby. When I write, I just put them on the side of the computer screen (I have a huge screen) and type away. I am very fickle about word choice as I write so it is easier to delete than erase!

I am fortunate that my children are way too young to be asking about any of that yet. As for walking in on the parents, the second my daughter hit 3 and started roaming the halls to go to the bathrooms at night, my door got a lock!

Once I was told to go and get something out of a cupboard of my dad and stepmom's waterbed. I went to the wrong one and regret it to this day. I found their sex toy and lube..gah.... What makes it soo much worse? It wasn't a real toy...and lets just say there are certain things I do not touch or eat in my parents house, EVER! Excuse me, now I must go bleach my brain, trying to eradicate that mortifying memory again..

Gorgeous horse..not to detract from you Just had to say.

Just as funny today as it was last night, thanks Rizan!

Okay, for the chat peoples.. My kids made me take this picture. They were playing with my hair while I was trying to photograph the mushroom. The sun really brought out the red and orange in my hair today.....

Hee hee, closest you are going to get to a picture of me! Can you see me?

Everyone looks great! Even the ones in costume!

Umm, wisdom teeth taken out. I haven't had extra limbs etc.....but I do have one metal rod down the length of my right thigh, a pin holding it in place, 2 screws in my right knee and 3 screws in my right hip due to a car accident. Only they didn't measure my thigh bone that wasn't shattered so my right leg is now shorter than my left...I've got a bit of a gimp limp going on when my arthritis acts up in that leg...

I agree that chapter ended just too freaking badass! Brad is pretty much the coolest character in this story! Sweet, caring, and totally able to kick some crazy bitch ass! It's great. I can't wait to see the whole thing blow up in the next chapter...drama, so much fun in print even if not in real life!

Nah...I was just giving you a hard time. It was vaguely unsettling but didn't detract from the story at all. If anything, my fault for picking up a story anywhere but from the beginning! Looking forward to the next 2 chapters!

LOL never...I still don't believe my drivers license..28? NO WAY! When did that happen? Glad you had a good birthday!

Wow, this story has definitely set off some intense conversations. I thought I would check it out since I had seen so much chatter about it. Reading it all tonight at one time was super easy. The continuity in the story is awesome. No big opinions on the story or characters other than I really liked it/them and look forward to more. Plus the happily ever after that was mentioned. PS..One critisism..I feel like I need a damn who's with who chart sometimes, so many names, so many relationships..how people are related to each other. Maybe it's just because I stayed up all night reading but I really had to work at remembering that. Maybe there could be some sort of guide for losers like me who can't keep names straight, even in real life?

Happy Birthday!!! Warm Wishes on another year!!

My dad was a butter-aholic. Big giant cubes of it...It makes everything better, especially pan-toast and pancakes. I always bake with butter. And recipes that call for just shortening? I don't even think so!! That is even worse than margarine!

I'm mainly straight..I am a woman who likes men...really likes them. But I liked girls growing up too, enough to appreciate looking at them, even today and doing some "experimenting" before I was in my dating/marriage to my husband in my teens. It is totally reasonable to be able to be attracted to one sex, even if you normally gravitate towards the other one. I believe you love who you love, sometimes even when it makes no sense at all. It should never be passed by because it doesn't fit in with a label you or someone else has given you. That being said, I remember those first relationships..most of them are pretty tame as teenagers, they seem to tend to be more emotional than physical for the most part. I agree with Napervic, even if you weren't in a physical relationship, you were in an emotional one, and your "girlfriend" and best friend betrayed that. That is bound to be hurtful, no matter what, especially if this was your first. And, as to the drink...I still remember why I drank Dr. Pepper for years each time I have one...my first crush then boyfriend influenced my choice since he loved them and that was all he drank. The relationship ended when he "cheated" one me, very hurtful even at a young age since it was my first relationship. I still remember him, his likes, dislikes, things he did..and this is 15 years later...emotional wounds are the hardest to forget.. Hang in there..hopefully some of the answers on here make you feel less alone with this issue...

I like how accepting you guys are. I wouldn't say that I am a completely "straight" woman, I like to read playboy and I go to strip clubs with my husband..but I am married and do have kids. It's been a long time since I did anything with anyone other than my husband, though, I mostly just consider myself monogamous to the one I ended up with. It was never a foregone conclusion that it would be a guy..just mostly. I have been welcomed, included and appreciated for myself by pretty much everyone I have talked to. Plus, I like reading all types of erotic fiction, straight, bi or gay..I am not made to feel weird here for being that way. I don't really believe in labeling myself or others one way or the other either. I guess for the most part, you "gay guys", facing discrimination a lot yourselves, just are more including/accepting...it's appreciated. Just my own viewpoint, hope it answers a least some of your question... Cia

Good for you. I hope all goes well during your talk. You know you can always chat it out or pm me if ya need to vent... Fingers crossed Cia

This is a tough topic. You seem to blame yourself for not stepping in when he started smoking, but it's not that simple. Children who do drugs, especially that early, can be really stubborn and sneaky about it. I was one of them, so I am not just spouting crap. Anyways, I agree with FW up there, apologize for the incident that occured, even though/if you are not to blame. As you say he is not old enough to come to these realizations that you have on his own. Perhaps you guys can repair some form of relationship before you leave. Don't worry it won't be unfixable even if not. I didn't become friends with my sister until we both left home, about 8 months apart. Adulthood seems to be the great equalizer. As for the drug use, I would say that you could try to talk about it but if he isn't ready to stop he won't. So don't blame yourself if you can't get through to him on that topic. Big hugs..I hope things work out for you!! Cia

I love the song "We Shall Be Free" by Garth Brooks. It is a country song but everyone should listen to the lyrics just once. It is profound. http://www.playlist.com/playlist/18255673099

I gave my husband a beautiful white/purple carnation, single, when we were just dating. Purple is his favorite color. He actually liked it. And I hear you, Nephylim. Lilies are my very favorite, I love the deep orange.

Yeah, back in the good ole days before we all became repressed, uptight and too damn nosy about other people's private business. Anyone notice how society's views on the individual's right to freedom to be who they are actually became worse as we "progressed" into modern society? We are just now starting to realize non-conformity isn't a crime against nature!! I hope that we can return to those "enlightened" times.

Does anyone experience temperature changes when tired? The second I get sleepy I start putting off massive btu's. I have actually had people move away from with me cause I was too hot. Course I feel like I am freezing when that happens.

NO, even with Prison blues nowadays being so much more stylish than the stripes!! Guess I am just too fashion oriented to want to do that to myself Though it would be a free costume!

I continue to torture my dog, lol. Decided last night he was a gladiator and needed to look the part! Don't mind the hand, he really really wanted to wear the helmet.