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Hey everyone! I don't post much anymore since college kind of consumed my life. And it's about to consume more of it. I am going to be co-president of my college's GSA (nobody else wanted the job) and part of my responsibilities involve taking care of the room that we meet in every week. Right now the room is rather blah. It has outdated/boring posters and I'd like it if it didn't look like a time capsule from the early 90's. Does anyone know of any good sites where I could buy posters, or other items to make the place nicer to be in? Price really isn't an issue (if only I could say that for everything...) so don't worry about that. Does anyone know where I could start looking or have any specific recommendations? Thanks so much! //shadows

THANKS everyone! Though... Is everyone on a (way) different timezone than me? It's been my b-day for all of six minutes now.

Hey, we could've been twins!* Happy Birthday! *almost.

It changes. When I'm in a good mood it's Beethoven's 9th 4th movement (yeah, Ode to Joy is overplayed but I love it anyway). Everything other mood chances are the Dead Kennedy's "Holiday in Cambodia" works. Then again I might be being slightly melodramatic tonight. "It's tough kid, but it's life."

You may never go back, but you do move on. Camino is much, much nicer for the Mac.

Margaret Cho doesn't die? Not worth my seven bucks.

Don't you mean mathematical radicals? Btw, someone misspelled intelligent

Q: Are you free tonight?... Or do I have to pay? I love that line.

Yeah, most normal barcode scanners will work. They just input text like a keyboard after all. Even a modified cuecat (remember those?) will work. For the Mac Lovers out there, check out delicious library. http://www.delicious-monster.com/ It's beautiful. Though I could never justify spending money on something like that... //shadows

Inspired means you need inspiration. What could we all do to help? Hmmm. If you don't want the red suit you could always try wearing a cape. Very formal, and it gets you noticed. //shadows

Actually cut out the pasta. That stuff isn't that good for you. Fruits, Veggies, Nuts, and a nice tall glass of milk. Eh... most diets suck anyway. The only way to really lose weight is toss/give away all the junk food in your house and only have food that's good/decent for you around. Then. Eat when you're hungry. Ignore meal times. Just eat when you're hungry and drink a lot. You'll be surprised how much less you eat when you actually listen to your body instead of sticking with your habit of eating three meals a day. This works best if you work on eating slowly I might add. It's worked for me and several of my emaciated friends, so good luck //shadows

That'd just be weird. The Connor and Toby relationship that is. They're more like siblings or really close friends at this point. Maggie is a single mom supporting three children. She has to pay for chemo for Toby, pills for Connor, and therapy none of which is particularly cheap. I'm sure she'd like to be home more often, but the reality of it is that someone like her would have to work as often as she does. And forcing someone to go to counseling isn't particularly effective. It just creates resentment or they lie. People have to want to change their behavior in order for counseling to work. I still think Ryan is pusing Connor away because he doesn't want him to be hurt. And as for drugs and alcohol, I don't think we've seen any evidence of that. The only one who's shown any use of illegal substances is... Toby. //shadows

This chapter seemed... off. From Connor's sudden hatred of Maggie, to the expansive timeframe, to Ryan's behavior (doesn't anyone care? You give people time, you don't give them months...), to Connor's consideration of a relationship with someone other than Ryan: it just felt wrong. I felt like all of the characters were acting out of character. I posit Ryan as a suicide risk in case anyone's taking bets. //shadows

People comment when I wear a color other than black or dark blue. I've had people pause mid-sentence when they see what I'm wearing. For example, last week I went to the beach and wore a tan shirt with red swim trunks. I walked up to a group of friends, and conversation ceased entirely. It was several seconds before someone managed to blurt out "What are you wearing?!" My mother has refused to leave the house with me until I changed clothing. This all sounds like typical teenage rebellion right? Sadly, no. I never mean to cause a scene... but apparently my sense of fashion is so atrocious I can't help it. Though I have learned one thing: Style isn't linked to price, and something that's fashionable won't necessarily make you look good. //shadows

Well, I'm probably going to be hated for saying this but Mikey was never really my favorite character and if someone had to go... *winces* Ok, you got me. I was really depressed when I found out he died. I'm just glad it wasn't Cody. I think I'm in love with Cody. He's like a Connor... just without the personal issues. Plus his mom is like a composite of a bunch of people I've known so that's cool too. P.S. LB, sorry I was away when you messaged me earlier. If I see you on later, I'll message you

I don't have any siblings. Meh. Edit: Of course, anecdotal evidence is the best kind...

Happy Birthday!

You have made me once again seriously consider using my contacts in Taiwan. I'm afraid however if they're overly harsh we may not see SOOTB 21 and that would be... tragic? Fitting? Satisfying? I hope nobody else has landed in the hospital. Toby is enough. There's only so much sorrow you can feel before you start feeling "enough is enough too much is happening." If Toby ties I'll be sorry to see him go, even without Ryan's emotional isolation I've grown to like him (Toby) better. And I think Ryan is making himself not care. He's gone through this, the fear of his brothers death, once before and he doesn't want to face the reality of its possibility again. He's not being callous, he's just tired of feeling pain every time he cares. Well LB, you've come far as an author. Look at the reactions you're provoking from your fan(atical) base. You've given Connor, and your readers, a very rough life. I still can't believe I started reading this as a "light" alternative to DomLuka. I'm eagerly looking forward to Chapter 21... and there better be a chapter 21 move to the states or no.

Isn't defacing money a federal crime? //shadows

Happy B-Day Snowy!

"I can no longer sit back and allow...Communist infiltration...Communist indoctrination...Communist subversion...and the international Communist conspiracy...to sap and impurify...all...of our precious bodily fluids". That lines comes to mind whenever anybody mentions water flouridation. It ties in nicely with the last line of your blog entry. Congrats on being done with your thesis though! It's a nice feeling being done with all that work, isn't it?

That's funny. Mine has always been in some one elses jeans! Generally, I'm in favor of discarding the clothing, but to each their own...

My parents have been fairly understanding of the fact that I'm gay. No tears that I know of, and certainly no demands to go to anything like Love in Action. There was an article on NARTH & Ex-Gays in the LA Times and my mom was disgusted so I really don't have much to worry about. Yet my mom let it be known this Sunday that she want s me to see a therapist/psychologist down in Los Angeles by the name of Ethan M. Grumbach to discuss my homosexuality. Her reason was: "Well, I don't know, you're just so young..." I don't particularly think I need to talk to a psychologist, but I have a feeling my mom is doing this because she needs to hear that I'm gay from somebody else. It doesn't bother me, and hey maybe I'll see a cute gay guy in the waiting room! Now, the reason I'm posting this in the general forum and not on my blog is because I want to know if anyone is familiar with this Mr. Grumbach? He's gay, and is a psychoanalyst/licensed clinical social worker (slightly worrying, hopefully no discussion of absent father figures will occur... and overall he seems perfectly suitable for the task. Do any of the many poeple living in SoCal from Gayauthors know something else? Google gave up little information. Does anyone know of a psychologist in the L.A. area they'd reccomend over Mr. Grumbach? Thanks. //shadows

whoa. 21! Wanna buy me drinks? Haha, kidding. Now you get to be a real adult! lucky... //shadows

Thanks for a new chapter. I'm starting to develop a Buddha Addiction to supplant my Dom one which is weakening (though I'm glad to see Dom is still alive). You know, if you can't get a job in Natl. Security, look into writing soaps. You've got enough drama in SOotB to keep even the most voracious addicts satisfied. And I'm intensely jealous of your meeting Ma Ying-Jeosu though I must confess I'd not known of him beforehand. Honest, decent, and interesting politicans are a rare find. I think my cousin, when he was in Taiwan a few days ago, met one of the past presidents so now there are fewer degress of separation between us! Or something. Anyway. Glad to see the cats are still doing well and I can hardly wait to read your new story! //shadows