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Welcome Lily I best go off and read those reviews now I've always said this is my second home, hope you like it as much as I do.

Hi all JMH, I'm struggling with the meds, but it's only the second attempt, I've always said I wouldn't take them. I won't be a zombie when I have animals that depend on me. So, the meds are light, and they are not even touching on anything that helps. Like Unc (Comic) says I have my Stuby and my studies. I'll be glad when the weather warms and dries up, on a farm there is a whole lot of mud and an icy wind to make you feel like a brass monkey. I had snow this morning. Jo, send me an email if you want to let of steam or have a shoulder and ear, they are always here for you and anyone that needs it. And Unc take care of yourself please, you are so important to me and many others. Hugs all round

Still my second home, even though I can rarely get here. My deadline is tomorrow at noon for my assignments. You're a wonderful person Jo, always thought it, I still have a long list of authors to catch up with. I try and share my support in other ways like buying authors books. And join in for the free competition ones too. Great blog Jo, just don't tell Roberto you like his music Please xxxx

Hi Guys, So glad to see you all still talking and welcome leshwar My sleeping patterns have changed recently, I've gone from 4.45 start day in day out, too, not wanting to get up at all. I'm on my second trial of meds, I don't think they are doing anything. Stuby says I don't "dip" as much as I used too. But, is that because i'm to busy with study? The other night while we were watching tv, I just cried, for what seemed like ages. I don't really know why either, I felt down, really down, that I'm trying to be somebody by studying.I think my meds need changing again, maybe, I don't know. Hope everyone stays as UP as they can be, I love and miss you all

Roberto my man I answered your status not realising this was here, so I feel bad for that. I know i'm a young pup to you, but I do know stuff. Like Kates oldest son moved away from her, got a lass and gave her two kids, and then started on drugs, he ended up in a crack house and then homeless. Kate got a call out of nowhere, from a hospital, saying he'd injected into his groin and got a life threatening clot. She went up and took him back with her and 5 years on he has a new girlfriend, a job his own house and a new daughter, and he's back in contact with his other kids too, so there is a way out, you just have to admit you need help. You should feel very proud of what you did, and what your family did too. Your are an awesome person Roberto and I am proud to call you friend. Even if you do keep pushing that crap shit music on me All the love in the world my man

Awwww shucks Roberto my man Making me blush takes some doing I can tell you lol. Putting things in my gob? now thats a whole naughty scenario going through my head You put a grin on my face with the card yesterday, and you made me grin and blush with this. You too are one amazing fella, not your fault in your music tastes, but never mind eh? Love ya Roberto as always, Marky Moo (thats what Stuby's mum and sis call me) Many hugs Hugs all round

Just gonna hug you Unc as always,

Thanks all You don't know just how much I appreciate you all . I see the doc again in the morning so we will see what he has to say. The pigs go tomorrow, leaving me with just four sows but they will stay as long as I do. I've got workmen here installing a new wind turbine and generator, hell of a cost, but my accountant said I wouldn't be able to sell without it. Doing my psychology module this week, and I have a mentor too she talks to me for an hour just about the coursework. It gives me a different view point. Doing the authoritarian personality, absolutely fascinating, I didn't even know the word existed last week So, some of what I'm taking in, is staying in, I owe so many post cards, and emails, they will get answered I promise to all

Funny and clever too

I didn't get to play a lot of games as a kid, but Kate's reading aids for me were Scrabble and doing crosswords, I'm now very good at both

Hey all Well my first two weeks of meds failed badly, they had a side effect of "feelings of suicide" and these are supposed to be uppers? I didn't get suicidal but I did feel despair, I have been staying in bed longer, not because I was sleeping more, but because I couldn't think of anything to get out of bed for. Anyway new meds today, so we'll give them a go. My shrink says he can't actually diagnose me of one condition because my issues and hang ups spread over several. Only me eh? Studying is keeping me sane, head full of Dr Faustus and discovering psychology is more than enough to think about, the rest of the time it's Stuby. So my time is used up but I hope I can pop in from time to time. How you all doing? Please keep me informed. Hugs to all

Happy Birthday Bleu! Have an amazing day dude

Hi all Hi Bee, I know you don't want to hear from me, you've made that clear, but here is the best place to vent when you need to. People here are genuine and real, they also really do care about you, whether you like it or not. Keep pushing us all away, isn't going to make us go away, we reply to you because, when you need us we are there, when we can be. Tim, I've sent you a mail about my thoughts, maybe they will help, I hope they do. I pop in here everyday, not always into this thread, but just to have a look round. I wish I could be here more, I miss everyone so much. I hope you find that solitude can be your best friend sometimes, and other times well it can be your worst enemy. Try and stay happy

Hi Tim Why not give us a rant about why you're angry? It might help you sort through it. I'm always getting on my soap box about something, either to Baz or Stuby, and it helps my mind to clear. Try it Hugs all round

Hey Guys I miss you all so, so much. Ashes, please talk to us here, writing it down can be so much easier than saying it out loud. That is why you first started this thread and now we are our own little group, who all share the same moods and emotions. We are all here to listen and share. Roberto, My man, what can I say? So many hugs to you, so glad you came here to vent and please, please keep venting, we may not be able to help much, but we can listen, send you hugs and support. You have my email and Skype if you want to talk just say. I really feel for you buddy, we all do. Hugs and any support I or we can offer is here Hugs all round

Happy Birthday Cassiekins Love ya loads Cassie

Happy Birthday Matt? Ummm thought you were Tet? Never mind, Happy Birthday dude!

Hey All Hi Alex welcome to the thread It took me a long time to admit I needed help, after a failed attempt with a shrink, I finally decided to have another go, and it's good. Just baby steps is all i'm doing, but I don't want meds not yet anyway. Maybe not ever, but we'll see what advice I'm given. I will go along with it But, as always it's each to their own. Thank you Layla, wisw words as always Hugs all

Happy Birthday Krista A birthday wish for you to sleep

Hey Lily, Yay does that mean I might get an email again? I forgot who's turn it is LOL Have a great New Year girl you deserve it Hugs all round

Happy Birthday Kyle

We are all right with you Jo and always will be

Ran out of likes Unc, but you know i'm thinking of you

Awww Jo, loads of hugs for you and your family, you will find strength to cope because you are you and you're amazing. Thinking of you dear lady

Hey Roberto my man Funny tale that gave me a few laughs anyway LOL. Music still stinks but you can't win em all. You and mum have a great New year, love from the Wildman and his Stuby xx