I woke up this morning with tears streaming down my face, tears of pure joy. As a lot of you know, when I first joined here, I slept very little and when I did it was with nightmares so horrific I would wake up sweating and screaming.
Last night was a first. So here is the dream:
I wasn't alone, I was with Qtee, Mike and lil'q, we were in a shopping mall (I have never been inside one, but I have seen them on TV) it was Christmas, every store festooned with sparkling lights, Santa and everything else Chrismasy. The aisles where people walked were a minefield of toys that children (and adults) could interact with. Here is where the fun starts. Lil' q squealed and screamed her way through the toys. With each new find, a new squeal and a giggle, talking endlessly at such a rapid rate of speed, my heart raced.
Playing hide-and-seek with daddy and papa, running back to grab my hand and tugging me towards her next find. What she didn't know, she gave her own words for. My chest swelling with joy and pride, feeling an exhaustion as I tried to keep up with her. What affected me most was her giggle, that is what was making me cry.
I've heard children giggle before, Lukey's two girls Moira and Ruth are so lively and loud, so very,very different from my own childhood.
So, from nightmares to tears of joy, from a scared boy to a man, Moving onwards and upwards all the time. I had to come here and write this, it was a must. This is still my second home, even though it has vastly changed, people come and go, but there is still the same feelings of a place to belong, to feel safe, and to spout words of poetry, fiction and fantasy, Where reality merges with tales of horror, love, romance and all other manner of themes.
I love and miss you all, and I truly do all round
Has anyone else had dreams like this, or have changed so much over time???