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I believe I mentioned it like, a page ago, thank you very much.

He's the main character of one of my favorite movies ever, and definitely one of the best movies of 2006, Brick. It's an amazing movie and he does a phenomenal job in it.

We are talking about gay THEMED movies. Not movies with only gay characters or relationships. Gay THEMED movies; Billy Elliot is one of them. While it is true that the movie isn't focused on homosexuality, that doesnt mean it doesn't have THEMES that relate to the gay community. Just like when seeing the second X-Men movie, there is a scene where a character comes out to his parents that he is a mutant. No, he is not gay and the movie has no gay characters, but that doesnt mean there aren't THEMES in these movies that we all can relate to.

My favorites, in no particular order: A Beautiful Thing Get Real Angles In America Billy Elliot Hedwig And The Angry Inch L.I.E. Theres more I can't think of right now, but oh well.

This sounds disturbingly like a heated debate I had to endure in Psych.

Wait - you really think that if tomorrow we prove that being gay is in our genes - that the church would stop seeing us as an abomination? For some reason I disagree.

Ok, lets say you're friends with someone for a very long time. He has always been there for you and all that and now you live together as roommates with another person. Now lets say there's a party at your house and you both get pretty tipsy and you end up . . . well . . . ever seen Gray's Anatomy? Yeah . . . so anyway, what happens now? The tension is still there but we haven't really talked about it. I mean it was an accident, I think. Like, it was the booze, right? It was really good though. Surprisingly good . . . I have no idea what I'm saying. In other news, I just got a singing contract thingy! I've never done anything one might consider professional, but it's one of those weird like, totally uncontrived happenstance type of thing. The thing is, I just got the contract and figure it would be a smart move to get a lawyer look at it. My dad is a lawyer but there's no way in hell I would ask him. Although the thing is like, this is a legal document and I'll probably have to get my parents to sign something, but we havent spoken since they threw me out (mostly for being bipolar and without treatment, and a bit for being gay), which was 4 years ago. I've heard of a place in Hollywood thats like a coffee shop type thing, but lawyers hang out there and give free advice to the people who go in, on anything from divorce to taxes and things, and its all done for free. Anyone know of it? Well, thats all thats new here. Sex with my roommate/best friend and a recording contract. And on my AP's, I got a 4 in Calculus, and 5's in English, Psych and Spanish which is cool. And get my SAT results Thursday. That's it. Til later! A few years ago (starts at like 1:10 then again at 2:45):

That was a good article. A bit long . . . but good.

One of my favorites: "Jim Henson's Dead" - Stephen Lynch Pokemon's a silly faze Barney's now just purple haze The Power Rangers lost their will to fight Yeah the pigs in space, they rule the sky And Oscar's still a grouchy guy And Animal is looking dyno-mite Oh Jim Henson's dead and gone But his muppets will live on, and Kermit's still hot, 'cause it's still not Easy being, green Bert is mad 'cause Ernie can't hear With a banana in his ear They must learn how to cooperate Yeah The Count is counting One Two Three And no one laughs at poor Fozzie And Scooter's pissed 'cause Raulf is always late Oh Jim Henson's dead and gone But his muppets will live on And Kermit's still hot, 'cause it's still not Easy being 1 2 3 4 5, 6 7 8 9 10, 11, 12 Now Miss Piggy's just a big slab of pork To the Swedish Chef who says "Mmm, pork pork pork" And Cookie Monster wants another, bite Yeah and Big Bird well he just can't see Why the two old guys in the balcony Think Snufalufagus is out of, sight Oh Jim Henson's dead and gone But his muppets will live on And Kermit's still hot, 'cause it's still not Easy being, green Oh Jim Henson's dead and gone But his muppets will live on And Kermit's still hot, 'cause it's still not Easy being, green Easy being green, no

Hahahaha! That was funny...

I'm getting one! A present for myself on my eighteenth birthday (which is in 6 months and 10 days). Still coming up with what it will be exactly but I found the man to do it and he's incredible and...yeah. I'm excited though!

River Pheonix. Thats all I got to say.

My two cents: I do not believe in ghosts or high level deities or whatever. But, with my step-mother being from the deep south and being around that culture and seeing some really strange things, I will say that sometimes, there really are some weird things that happen that can't be explained.

Me and Krista well said? What? Thank you!

Oh man...I am definitely a slut. Aww well, I can live with that.

I read this and thought, this is me. Now this subject is so personal to me, I started typing out everything I wanted to say at least 20 times, didnt like what I wrote, deleted everything and started all over again. Disclaimer: Opinion I think a person should put everything they are into their relationships or attachments or whatever. Its scary and you get hurt and it sucks, but I believe that's better than keeping people at arms distance. I used to do that, not let people really know me and whatever, but I think you miss out on way too much. Youll miss out on how truly wonderful most people are. I dont know. Im not really sure what Im trying to say so, thats it, Im done now.

Yes! I LOVE Dead Like Me! Finally, someone gets it. You are now like, on my favorite people list! Congrats, its a huge honor!

So graduation was today - actually I just got home. It was interesting watching all the seniors walk across the stage. I mean, I've known most of them through choir or soccer or whatever, for about seven years. And now theyre gone. Laura is off to Pepperdine and Gavin, MIT. Taylors going to UCLA, and Sam and Maryann are going to NYU. All these people are gone now. There's promises of keeping in touch or whatever, but truthfully, thats it. They are gone now and I'm now a senior. Its a bit depressing and I will miss them all. Im writing more now. As I think I said in my last post, going through some MAJOR revisions and edits of older stories. I think Im going to try and find a publisher. Ive gotten a few (well two) things published in a few magazines, opinion pieces on the death penalty and medical marijuana (against the former, for the latter), but for stories its very different. I dont really think Ill get anywhere (we all know how tough it is) but I figure Ill try and work from there. Its summer and have a few things planned, mostly Hawaii to see an extremely old friend who I havent seen in about 9 years, but somehow kept in touch. Most of us had a friend when we were kids, the one you played doctor with or something (you all know what Im talking about); well he was that to me. Okay, truthfully, I fell in love with him - figured that out in therapy, and Joeys his name. I could say what we did together but I dont think Ill go there - but thinking about it I cant believe we did that. Now I dont think we'll like, do anything together, but hey, two weeks together - ya never know! Thats mostly it for now. Ill update when I feel like it. Later!

It took a while to cut the list down to a respectable size, so here it is: Now: Ugly Betty Grey's Anatomy Dexter The Riches It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia Forever: Dead Like Me (Hands down Best Show Ever!) Battlestar Galactica Weeds Aeon Flux

So I think Ive just cut three people, one an asshole named Jake, one was a fairly good friend named Kevin and the other would be ranked as close to best friend as you could get, Rafael, out of my life. As friends I mean. The problem is that we're all in the same show and classes at school, and see each other constantly for hours and hours. Its not like Im ignoring them; I hear them say stuff to me - Im sorry, It was wrong, blah blah blah, but I really just dont care. No thats a lie. I do care. A lot actually. But in my head its like, they ended this friendship when they did that. Now a part of me feels like I should let this go, but my head says no, they deserve it. They deserve to feel like shit. And what they did wasnt terrible (stole money from me, bought food together and lied a few times about it) but to me its like, I wouldnt do that to them. I really wouldnt and thats my problem. And, to me, theres a certain line you dont cross and they crossed it. And I know Rafael feels like shit cause he talked to my roommate (Aiden) and told him about the whole incident. Aiden knows me pretty well so I know he told Rafa why I was so upset about it (the whole line thing and that I wouldnt have done it to them). The other thing, is that, among the three of them, he should have been the one to "stick up" for me. The one to say, this is wrong and we shouldnt do it. I think it really comes down to the principle of the whole thing ya know? I wouldnt do it to them and they did it to me. Bastards. I think Im unsure how to feel about this. Too harsh? Should I let it go? Is it warranted? Oh, and thats the whole reason for no updates recently, going to school from 7am - 3pm with rehearsals everyday from 3-11pm were taking their toll. I think Ive done homework for one class, once this entire week. The good thing is that most teachers understand, so its okay. And theres 8 days of school left. Then, Hawaii! And Cancun! And Las Vegas! And ...summer school. But thats just to get ahead in school, so no I didnt fail a class. Okay, I have to be at the theater at 4:45 and I have a bunch of other stuff to do. So, until next time!

Thanks - Ill remember that for next time.

Yesterday was the bestest. But today not so much. More details if I feel better. Thats it...

Going to Prom! And then PARTY!

I confess: I foolishly stopped taking my medication, slipped into depression and tried to kill myself, twice. But that was years ago and Im over it. Anything else? Umm...As a kid I ran into a plate glass window. Like STRAIGHT into it. But I think everyone does something like that.

So prom is Saturday. I really hate to say it but Im kinda excited. Im going with one of my best friends, Laura. We are so alike its amazing. She is also salutatorian and is going to pepperdine in the fall. And shes hot. Like REALLY hot. Like the-only-girl-I-could-ever-get-with-well-not-really-but-you-know-what-I-mean. A total catch. And she asked me! We really only knew each other for the past year but we totally click together. We went shopping for clothes together last week and got the hottest clothes for both of us. We look so awesome together! And then afterward??? PARTY! Sorry. So that was me gloating, and Im over it now. Yesterday I decided to look through everything I had written saved in Word: stories, poetry, essays and other things and I think Im going to do a huge revision of most of it. I mean, a lot of them I like (it actually took me three hours to read through all of it, theres a lot there) but I realized some of it sounded forced, like I stopped feeling inspired to write and couldn't think of anything else. But some of it was really good. I was really surprised how much I liked a few stories in particular. Eventually I might get the courage to post some up. But dont hold your breath. And with that said...Im not feeling inspired to write anymore. So, til later! EDIT: And I just found out Im going to see an very old friend in Hawaii this summer. Gods this has been an awesome day!