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Good Luck!!! Green and Chaz...I have yet to figure out which is worse...having surgery performed on you or being the person in the waiting room. I know this is rough on both of you, so please remember to smile. Smiling has a way of making some of the worst fears and nerves diminish just a bit. So...to give you a smile I had to go looking for something entertaining. Please keeps us posted when you can. Hugs for you both!!! - Kaiten

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAMY!!! And I Wish You MANY MANY MORE!!!! - Kaiten

Green! Holy cow! I cannot believe he did that! I feel like going and smacking the poor guy upside the head for you! I am so sorry! It sounds as if you had an awsome evening planned. I have never had a guy go to the trouble of renting a limo!! for me! What a turd bucket!!! If he forgot his key, why didn't he pound on the door or call to wake you up, instead of sleeping outside??? I don't know what you do when you need to go vent, but go try something active/solitary so you don't necessarily have to think. Go running, swimming, beat up a punching bag at a gym, draw or write. I asked him where he was and he told that he went out with some old friends. Which is totally fine with me except when he knows that I had planned something great for him. I feel a little bit rejected and I have been staying at my mothers house. I can't believe it...that doesnt' sound like the guy we've been hearing about?!?! Is he ok? I mean has anything big happened in his life recently? It just sounds very uncharacteristic of him. I'm glad and very proud of you for not running though. Please keep talking to David and tell Selene while you appreciate her worrying and anger, now's not the time to keep harrasing you...it's just not going to help. I'm also proud of you for realizing and NOT taking out your anger on "The Liar", even though at the time it may have felt good...I'm proud of you for not doing so. Please take care and keep us posted and know that I'm wishing you and, yes even the stinker known as "Chaz" the best. - Kaiten Edit: I agree with you Michael to an extent. I agree that they both need to talk and communicate...but I really don't think Green is running right now nearly as much as he has in the past. If I were in his shoes I know for d**n sure that I wouldn't feel like talking to my s.o. within a day or two of such a huge f-up b/c I wouldn't be able to keep my mouth shut and "not nice things" would surely screw things up even more. Saying Chaz A) new that something special was going to occur that night and B] never even called to cancel or say something else came up, I'd say he deserves the silence treatment for a day or two. As it sounds like this is the end of the second day, I would also say that it's time to calm down and bite the bullet by going and talking to Chaz on your own terms (Green) and A) give him chance to explain himself w/o interuption and then B] say your piece while maintaining a calm demeanor. Either way, I'm still very proud of your for not running and panicing as you have in the past. Please try to stay calm and find out why he completely spazzed out...b/c that just doenst' sound like him. Does it??? Is he having troubles with his brother? I don't know, either way another big hug and good luck!

Ok! hahaha you don't know what your missing my sqeamish young friend! They are YUMMY! lol as long as they are breaded like a chicken nugget and deep fat fried, then coated liberally in ketchup...they taste just like chicken! hehehe But seriously, if they are cooked right and you don't think of WHAT your eating, they taste great. And come on, people will eat liver, heart, HOT DOGS...but not rocky mountain oysters?? So what brought this up by the way?? I might have missed that part of your blog entry... I was all excited...something I can talk about! YAY! Ok to much sugar for Kaiten tonight. Good Luck. Good Eating. And Have an AWSOME weekend!!! - Kaiten

hehehe...fake moldy potatoes...nice Glad to hear you had a good Saint Patty's Day and I'm sorry that your getting your butt kicked by the tax system. I hope you have an awsome weekend though!!! - Kaiten

Hey Kevin! I've always kind of went with the idea that people/places/websites and what-not show up when you need them the most and faded away as they were no longer needed. Some individuals/places/websites will be with you a lot longer than others as need requires. My parents and family I will always need. Friends from high school and some from college have drifted away due to the fact that we've grown up differently and no longer need each other as much. We now need other's to fill particular voids. Me, when I needed a safe place to talk, I stumbled accidently across G.A. almost a year ago now. Web friendships I don't think are too much different than "face-to-face" friendships, although explainations and other artifacts may be slightly altered. But in my opinion I guess they are pretty much the same. They appear when you/they need them/you the most and as each party continues to change or grow each reaches out to others and the party disbands to be reformed somewhere else. Ok, I have no idea if any of that made sence! I Think that's the longest blog I've ever written w/o a smiley face. This feels REALLY odd. In just a few more hours I'll have been up 24 hrs and I have no clue if the above even makes sence, but I'm not rereading it tonight, maybe tomorrow night! Anyway, I really do hope that you had a great "Saint Patty's Day!" and that you have an awsome weekend! Take Care!!! - Kaiten

Hi! That's great you two are having a great time just being by yourselves for once!!! I bet that feels really nice. hehehe *smirk* I'm also glad to hear that Green's ankle is feeling better. Might Mouse! Great cartoon. That story made me think of some of the dumb thing's I've done. The best involved my broken toe, a beachball, and falling out of the top bunk in my dorm room. Anyway. I just wanted to say congrats on being able to sneak away for a few days and to the peace and quiet. So, does Selene have you guys bugged or does she use GPS??? J/k but still funny. Good luck and I hope you both have an awsome last night and day away before having to return home to the zoo. Take Care!! - Kaiten

Happy Birthday Tim!!! - Kaiten

It's odd that I've always been slightly preoccupied with death. I mean it's sort of morbid, and I'm generally not that morbid of a person. You'd think something must have happened; like I'd lost someone at an early age or something. But no. I've never lost a close family member, or even a mild friend. I've lost distant, elderly family members I hardly knew, and I've seen and been affected by the death of close friends parents', but even that didn't happen until high school and later. No I really don't know why I've always jumped to the conclusion "they must have been in a wreck!" . Or why I've always worried when someone goes to the doctor that "they'll find out something awful". Oh well, the upside is I generally try not to leave things with people unresolved, and I don't say mean things and walk away. So I guess that's something. Anyway I had a nap this afternoon so I'm not tired, but I HAVE to go to bed. So goodnight everyone. Have an awesome day and take care (see even "take care", I mean it like "be safe", "don't get in any accidents", "take care of your health", "avoid prolonged exposure to the sun's harsh ultraviolet rays"). Hi Kevin! I have to agree with the whole morbid thought process. I have no idea why, but before I ever really had a reason to think along the "may be the last time I see them" thought process, I've worried about people never coming back. I kind of wonder if it's just not something that's programmed into us, that we worry about being left alone, by ourselves with no family/friends. I mean, small children go through a panic stage when if their immediate care taker leaves them they tend to freak out and sometimes, with some children they refuse to be consoled (sp? "calmed down") because they just KNOW that they have been left behind. I sometimes wonder if as we grow older we just learn to "put those feelings aside" b/c they have been deamed unimportant. I mean, as humans, especially in some parts of the world we, we are pretty safe. I don't live in an area where I worry (no more so than my neighbors anyway ) that if/when I go to sleep that I'll be waking up in the moring. I mean if we lived 100 years ago that thought would probably be perfectly normal, but times have changed to an extent. So, to be perfectly honest...I don't think that's weird at all. I've been doing that my whole life! lol, to me it just means you care and worry about the person your thinking about. And that's a good thing! Good grief, I say "Take Care" to everyone I see/talk to. Now I'm going to have a complex. My closing line on nearly any and all face to face/phone/writing is: Take Care and have a good evening/morning/day/ etc. In closing I'm going to say: Take Care, Have a great weekend (what's left of it) an awsome spring break (just simply cuz there's NO CLASSES!) and I hope your Monday's a good day! - Kaiten

First off. Hi! I'm glad to see that you, Chaz, can now blog under your own name. Nice. Second - How'd the party go?!? I hope it was great and everyone had an awsome time! No "little debbie cake" accident's I'm hoping? Take care both of you and let us know...the suspence is KILLING me!!! - Kaiten Edit: p.s. I really hope that your brother, Mike?, had a good time and was able to just relax and have some fun just being himself. Was "the Liar" invited? If so, I hope everything is going good in that direction as well. Well again, take care and I hope you had a great night!

Hi! I'm so glad that both of you are getting out of town and relaxing for spring break. That'll be great for you both, I'm sure! But maybe you should consider just staying in a hotel room the entire time or something, lol I mean with your luck Green will get attacked by wild boars or something in NYC no less! hehehe I'm so glad that Selene's calming down a little bit, that's still really odd though. Oh well, what can you do. I hope you all have a great party and find it very relaxing and fun. For the party and your up coming spring break I wish you: no fights, no crazy ex-boyfriends, no unruly siblings, no falling cereal boxes, and absolutely no "Little Debbies" boxes. I won't say no "little debbies cakes" because those tend to be very tasty, just discard the boxes before bringing them into the house. Green! How did you trip over a Little Debby display?!?!?! Do you need your eyesight checked????? Sorry, J/k! Sorta! lol Anyway, good grief I hope things settle down for you both and that you can enjoy this up coming weekend! Take Care and Have a Great Weekend!! - Kaiten

Mikie! You are too cute, you know that right??? Hugs to you! - Kaiten

Kevin! Ha! You sound just like me, I know exactly what you mean about "getting plenty of rest" before the test...you know, that way your 'wide awake' during it and you have plenty of mental energy...HA! lol Me, I usually try studying the before, give up around 9pm, go to sleep, get up early....drink lots and lots of coffee and study like mad until exam time!! Congrats on the easy Anthropology test, I hope it turned out the way you wanted it too. That's great that you got a B in your last Latin exam and I'm sure you'll do great on your next one as well!! As for the hot/sweet guys you were talking about, lets just say that boys are super confusing and the sweeter they are the worse it is . All guys should come with owners manuals. hehehehe Anyway I hope the rest of your week is awsome!!! Adios! - Kaiten

Hey! First off, I can't say much because I have a decent sized collection of DVD's, but now where NEAR that many CD's!!! Holy cow, I didn't know that much music existed! But to each their own, that's cool. And look on the bright side, by getting rid of a few of the duplicates, you now have room for some new ones!!! I will say though that Selene confuses me. And please don't take offense at this and if (and I probably am) I'm way off track here, just please ignore it...but there's no way that she might have a thing for you, Green, is there?? I mean I tend to be a bit over protective of certain friends and family members as well, but good grief an accident's and accident and it just seems like she's over reacting by A LONG shot. And I don't know past history's or anything, but it just seems like something more than that incident is going on. I don't know, now I'm curious, just ignore it. lol I hope the rest of the week goes better for you both! - Kaiten Edit: I agree completely with Bev. Neither of you have anything to feel guilty about, you've both tried talking to Selene, now the ball's in her court.

Chaz, I'm so sorry you have to go through this. This has got to be so mind numbingly confusing for all of you right now. The best I can do is give you and Green an on-line hug and say that I'm wishing good thoughts for you all. - Kaiten

Kevin, If that wasn't a depressing blog I don't know what is. It wasn't bad in anyway, if anything it was too honest. lol I'm going to say what I've been wanting to say for a while now, but never actually type it. And now that it's not at all "appropriate" for this blog, I'm going to say it: you make me smile. Nearly everytime I read your blog or one of your comments for that matter, I have to smile. You say your not really needed here, that may be I have no idea. But I don't think that's true. Everyone who participates here has something completely different to offer. Your comments always seem to be right on noggin' and very well stated. I can definately tell your Soc. degree . I know exactly what you mean about friends drifting away over time. I've been out of undergrad for 10 monthes now. Since then I've talked to exactly 5 of my "close" friends and none on a regular basis. Really is kind of depressing when you stop and think about it. I can understand one of my friends, we were really close and now we live on opposite sides of the country and he really has troubles with goodbye. Pisses me off to no end that his way of dealing with pain is to cut people off, but what to do. I don't know what to say except that you're going to be fine. After college I moved several hours away from home, started over, made a few close new friends and am still alive. You're going to do great and have a blast at the same time! I mean really, if you consider the "terrible" problems you have in bars **insert jelous sigh** , I'm sure your going to have absolutley NO problem making new friends. My best advice would be to make some new hobbies so that you can meet new people there. Make a "niche" for yourself. Go out for some team sport/league, take a pottery class (throwing clay is fun!), join a book club thingie...do those really exist?? Sorry, I really didn't think this was going to be ANYWHERE near this long! Hope your mood lifts for the weekend! OH! Did you have a good day off the other day??? Do anything fun? Take Care and I hope youre weekends great! - Kaiten

Hi Camy!! I did the exact same thing! lol That "draft" button is a doozy! And no, you're not "stupid", a very wise person told me to completely eradicate that word from my vocabulary...I know call myself a "fruitloop"! hehehe Hope you have a great weekend and it's good hearing from you! - Kaiten

Chaz, I hope your doing ok. - Kaiten

Hi!! Ok, first off...I think that's great that you all were able to get together for a nice "family" meal. I'm sure that ment a lot to your mom and stepfather...and I'm positive that it helped The Liar feel as if he finally might be starting to "belong". I think that's so cute that you both are so intent in beating the crap out of each other in video games. I can remember my own brothers doing that. Game System = $200; Video Game = $40; new controllers = $20 - - - - Rubbing your brother's nose in his loss...PRICELESS! hehehehe Anyway, It sounds as if Steve is a really cool person...and as bad as it's going to sound, I'm glad he's had a few bad breakups because that means he KNOWs how bad it can hurt and he's less likely to inflict that type of pain on David. Screwy way of thinking of it, I know...but from the sounds of him, I really like the guy. And finally....lol if you HAVE to be second to ANYBODY it might as well be to the person who sleeps on the other 1/2 of the bed! Congratulations CHAZ!!! hahaha Way to go! Sorry Green...the Silver medal is just as good as the Gold one. I SWEAR! - Kaiten

Hi Kevin! That sucks you basically got chased out of the bar on Valentines day. But I suppose on the ego boosting side of it, you seem to have NO problems what-so-ever of picking up guys. lol sounds like girls too for that matter! hehehe and it sounds like you could have had an interesting conversation with the cute blonde if the other guy hadn't walked up! I really like RHawes idea's. My personal favorite "brush off" is to act really uninterested...."uh-huh" **as my gaze scans in opposite direction** "really, that's interesting...uh-huh". After five minutes or less they get the clue. I guess I don't really look at it as being rude b/c, even though it kind of is, your saving them time and energy in the long run as well. Either way, I think that's just something we each have to learn on our own. I really do think that it's really awsome that you're confident enough to go to a bar by yourself. I'm still in the "safty in packs" stage myself . lol Good luck! - Kaiten p.s. Just out of curiosity...still have the red hair???

That's awsome! I'm so happy for them both. But especially David. I really hope that they can work things out and at least temporarily set aside old hurts and anger and simply talk before rehashing things. I bet David's mind is going in over drive right now. Either way! Huge Hugs to all! That's still awsome! - Kaiten p.s. Call me a pessimist but I'm still irritated that his brother didn't do anything in the very begining.

Hi Kevin, Where ever you work, it sounds like a very "interesting" environment. I have to agree with Michael about your boss though. Did he not realize what Pam was doing? She sounds like an awful person! I'm glad to hear though, that your remaining days there will be/should be happy ones. It's sometimes sad leaving a place where you've worked for so long, but at the same time very exciting because your moving on to new things. I hope your remaining three monthes there will be excellent ones and go ahead..take nice long looks at the "cute" passerby's. lol Hope your weekend has gone good!!! - Kaiten

Hi Camy! I just wanted to say hi and welcome to the GA blogs!! I'm from the U.S. and have never been to London, but that's a place I want to visit "someday". - Kaiten *welcome music fills the room*

Happy Birthday!!!!!! - Kaiten

I HATE it when the days get confused. It usually happens the same way for me. I'm all pumped b/c it's a Thursday and the weekends almost here! YAY and no. In reality it's Tuesday and I have SEVERAL days to get through before the weekend. *mutters 'stupid mind games'* lol Anyway, what's your puppy like? Not the determined one from your dad's, but you said you have a second one as well? I love dog's. I hope both of them are getting along great! - Kaiten