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Happy 21st Birthday Ben!!! I hope you have an awsome day!!! - Kaiten

I "lizard-sat" once for a professor who had 2 gecko's, 2 aligator lizards, and some other type of lizard I can't remeber. But some ate melee (sp?) worms and others ate crickets! Now imagine pulling out these little gross white worms and putting them in food dishes!!! ewww!!! lol but the aligator lizards were cool. I really liked them...they kind of reminded me of Golum from lord of the rings. Sooo....I really don't know the point here except to say I think lizards eat some funky type of worm or crickets. lol I'll take the cat eating the lizard over touching more of those funky worms!!! Take care all! - Kaiten

hmm....maybe you could introduce the puppies to the salamander/lizard thingie. Suggest a play date perhaps??? Knee biters vs. possible toe cruncher!!! Good luck! - Kaiten

Hmm....a question...now if this is delving too close then ignore it. So this is for both of you...when you were kids...say 5 years old...what did you want to be when you grew up. And why. So does that count as 2 questions or as 4??? And if it counts as four...do I get a gold star for asking multiple questions?? I hope you both have a great week! - Kaiten

Hi Luc, I'm sorry to hear about your kitten troubles. I grew up on a farm and there was always an endless stream of kittens, baby chicks, ducklings, or calves. Between my small harem of cats and any injured animal (a calf that had been stepped on or a twin baby that the momma couldn't support) we always had a lot of baby animals around. You can try so hard to help them, but sometimes it just isn't enough. Nobodies fault, it just happens. It always hurts when something so innocent has to have such a short life. Especially when there is nothing that you can do about it. I heard something a while ago...I think I read it somewhere I don't know...but it was something along the lines of "Pets are the most wonderous creatures in the world. They have the capacity to bring such sweet and pure love into one's life...but only for a short while." They can bring and offer the greatest happiness with no expectations except for love in return, but it sucks because we live so much longer. I guess I don't want it to sound as if I'm complaining that we live longer, I just wish they did too. I don't know. I think I'm rambling again. Sooo...can I ask how many cats DO live with you? hehehe...I'm jealous, I can't have a pet right now, but I'm moving soon and my new roommate has a cat. But that cat is part demon...I swear!! She literally stalks you!!! *sigh* I miss kittens. You are right, something so tiny and innocent, is so sweet. I really like both of your poems, but your second one made me want to cry. Which I suppose was a good thing. I hope you have a great week and take care!!! - Kaiten p.s. Good luck with all of your kittens, and I agree with Camy...pictures???? (of your kitties of course)

Hey Kevin!!! I'm sorry you're scared. That's a crappy feeling. The good news is you'll be just fine. You'll move, get settled in, find a good job, and find some activities (intramureal sports, clubs (as in something mentally stimulating not alcoholic), the alcoholic clubs and bars) that will help you to socialize and meet new people and you'll do great! As for moving hundreds of miles away from those that you do know, between the internet and phone you'll be fine. I promise. That's so neat you drive a stick shift. lol my first vehicle was a 93' chevy pickup that was a manual. I love driving them now...they're lots of fun when you're in a cranky mood and need to vent some anger. My dream is to have a manual GTO. I'll probably wreck the thing, but I'm sure it'll be a blast doing it!!! I haven't really failed that often. Offhand I can't think of anything that's really mattered that I've really tried at and failed. I make mistakes, I have to try harder, revise my game plan, whatever, but if I really try I usually get it right in the end. .... I know that some people are just mean and hateful, even evil perhaps. And yet I choose to believe that everyone I meet does have something good in them, some redeeming qualities. So far I haven't met anyone I'd say was completely devoid (or even somewhat devoid) of goodness. That's really impressive that you have that attitude about life. There are two things that I fear. I mean really really fear (not like my fear of spiders ), and they are 1) that I will loose my family and I'll be all alone and 2) that I will be a failure and disappoint my family. In away I know what you mean when you say that you haven't failed all that often. I haven't either and it seems the longer you go without failing the more you fear doing so. lol As for the mean and evil people out there, it always shocks me every time I hear of a person doing something horrible to someone else. I just have trouble grasping "why"?? I think I'm just too "innocent" or naive or something along those lines. Oh well. I believe life's a great big self-fulfilling prophecy....And I believe in happy endings So I'll move to a new city. I'll be broke. I'll fall in love with someone and get hurt. I'll make new friends and I'll lose some of them. I'll be rejected. I'll be lonely. I'll be stressed out and worn down. I'll regret moving in the first place... You'll do great. I just hope you can avoid the "getting hurt" part. Although, that tends to go with the "growing up" territory...or so I've been told. Either way you'll be fine and have a blast while your doing it! I hope your Monday was great! Take Care! - Kaiten

I loved this story! It's so sweet! - Kaiten

Happy Birthday Adam!!! I hope you had a great day!!! - Kaiten

Hi Kevin! YAY, my test is over I can finally start blogging again! *big cheesy grin* "Then I had a nice shower, and danced about naked for awhile, while I was waiting to dry off. " "Anyway I had a great time and this family in the next booth were having an interesting conversation (what?? I didn't have a dinner companion what else am I going to do? ) Anyway it was this girl having dinner with her parents and her boyfriend, and I must say she was talking about stuff I wouldn't have chatted about with my family! Sperm, pregnancy, sexual pleasure, relationships in general! Anyway eventually the topic came to gay relationships. Her mother seemed ambivalent, whereas her father was opposed, even using the line, "we're put on this earth for the sole purpose of multiplying",,,,well forget him; I always had more fun with algebra anyway! Her boyfriend remained silent for pretty much the entire dinner (of course this was probably a wise move on his part since she was in constant disagreement with her parents and he couldn't have said anything without ticking off someone). Anyway she did a fine job defending gay rights . In fact when I was leaving I had the strongest urge to pause at their table and say, "You tell em, honey!" in my best "gay" voice. But ultimately I decided it wasn't my place." Good Grief!! I still have trouble watching sex scenes in movies with my parents in the same room!!! lol There is no way I'd be having that converstation with my parents let alone my s.o.'s parents!!! lol *shakes head violently* no no no! Anyway then when I got home I decided to go for a nice walk around my neighbourhood while listening to music. It was really fun. So anyway I was just getting into one of the really nice sections when this medium sized dog (I'd say about 40 or 50 pounds) runs up to me barking his head off. Of course my first thought was, "ahhhh!" since he wasn't chained or anything and seemed quite ticked off. Then I remembered I quite like dogs and am not afraid of them. So instead I just kept walking along at my normal pace and chatted amiably to him while he swore at me in dog. That's the one thing that I miss about the town I used to live in. It was really small, and I felt reasonably safe walking around at night either by myself or with a friend. Walking on a summer night can be very relaxing. I laughed and laughed at your line "While he swore at me in dog"!!! I like that! While I ultimately didn't let him intimidate me I also didn't grab him, turn him around, and lift his tail (thought he was so cute I probably woulda played with him if he hadn't seemed so grumpy). So you're right; perhaps it was a lady dog. In fact now that I think of it he was acting like a bitch. I'm really lousy at taking notes, most of the times I don't even go through the motions. Of course all my life people have been saying, "that's going to eventually bite you", but really it hasn't. I know what you mean about the "lousy at taking notes" bit. I swear there is something in the air vents in my classroom. I can be wide awake walking in but as soon as I'm in my seat... ...never fails. My hand writing is hilarious...it will go from nice to legible to barily legible to chicken scratches. Makes it hard to reread but still good for a laugh! Anyway I graduate next month Awsome! Congratulations!!! It really is a lot of fun to get all dressed up just to walk in front of a camera and be handed a piece of paper and shake some old guys hand! That's so neat! Well I hope your exams all turned out great! I'm sure they did. I hope you have an awsome weekend!!! Take Care!!! - Kaiten

Grr! That would suck! On the other hand perhaps not, I feel like seeing the country. I'll stay in Houston a year or so then hopefully go back to school and if I have to move to some other cool new city...well oh well I have to agree that the traveling bit sounds like fun! I'm thinking that if I ever become a "post-doc" I want to go overseas...maybe Scotland or Switzerland. That sounds like a good idea, you'll know in a year whether or not you want to even stay in that city for an extended period of time.

Hi Adam!! In my humble opinion, if you are friends with this guy (not just passing aquantances (sp? )...I would say go give him a huge hug and if he says anything about it...tell him you were "soooo scared of his unexpected revenge and didn't want to feel his wrath!" all the while batting your eyes and looking totally innocent. This way you can either A] pull it off as a joke if he starts to act a little weird saying how you were just doing as you were told. or B] give him another quick hug if he looks like he enjoyed it and simply say "hugs are nice, we should do this more often" and leave it at that. I don't know. Just a thought, but I think boys need to come with instruction manuals. lol I hope you have a good weekend! And go have some fun! - Kaiten

I wondered how long you two would really stay away. Glad you're back and I hope you're week's been going well. - Kaiten

Kevin!!! I had a huge smile on my face while reading this blog. I think the "epiphany during church" is what did it! "A counselor/therapist. " I can totally see you doing this. In every blog entry and comment of your's that I've read, you always seem to know the right words to put down. "I was sitting in Church a little while ago (went to the 8pm mass) and my mind wandered a bit . And I suddenly realized I really should be a counselor of some kind." HAHAHAA....bad bad...church is for worship not epiphany's!!! lol The church I attend has 64 pipe organ thingies for the organ up front. 14 hanging lamp's each with 6 candle looking lights and each lamp it self has 108 small pieces of stained glass in it. Let's not go to the stained glass window. I could tell you how many little individual pieces of glass are in it too! I count A LOT while in church. I mean it's basically what I was thinking all along, but I let myself get turned off by the research that would be necessary to get a PH.D in psychology (boo scientific research ). Then of course I started thinking I might worry too much about my patients and not be able to relax at home. But now that I really think about it, it is something I've always imagined myself doing and I think I'd be pretty good at it. Details Details...you'll be great at it. All you need to do is just get it over with, the research won't be that bad and you won't have to do it forever, just enough to get you through grad school. Don't worry about the details, they'll come and go and you won't even know they were there. lol, at least that's what I'm hoping for...I have to write grants... pages and pages filled with words and the off chance/hope someone will like what I wrote and give me some money so I can go play. Bah! And I don't think I'm too bad at giving emotional support. Besides all those silly tests always indicate that as a good option for me. So I think I'll do it! You're great at giving support! That's so cool. Good for you, I'm proud of you! Sooo....will you be able to get one of those cool couch thingies for the patients to lie on???? That'd be so neat. Hmm....I just had a thought but maybe you've already thought of it...would it be possible to do an internship with a counselor of some sort? Do they even do that? Just an idea. I still want to write though, but I guess that can go back to back burner dream status for now. Oh yeah, I've thought up this wonderful (I think) plot for a story, and I even ran over some dialogue I really like in my head...but I'll probably never actually sit down and write it . **Sigh** if I were half as disciplined as I am fanciful I could probably have written a novel by now. You'll get to it someday. Just don't forget the plot. Ok, so now you know your career path that's great. Is there a good school where your moving? I hope so, lol that'd bite to move and realize that you need to move 2 hours in the other direction. lol Keep us posted!!! Take care and I hope your week is awsome. - Kaiten

Hi Luc, You are very right about memories being incredibly odd things. I am very sorry to hear about your guy. I don't know exactly what it feels like to loose someone that you obviously loved so much. I did loose my older brother though a few years ago, and while different it's still pretty similar. I completely understand about how random memories will just appear. Smile at them, that's the only thing you can do. I had a small break down a few weeks ago and the one memory that kept coming back was of my older brother telling me with a smirk on his face to walk towards him. Me being the 12 yr old idiot did so only to have him laugh and say "I just wanted to see how far I could get a jackass to walk w/o a rope!". Take Care and I hope your're feeling better soon. - Kaiten

Hi! I just read your story. Very interesting. I am incredibly confused and very intrigued. I can't wait to read the next installment! Thanks for sharing it with us. Hope you have a great week! - Kaiten

Happy Birthday!!! I hope you have a great day!! - Kaiten

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I am so happy for you both! That's awsome!!! Since this is kind of ment to be your last blog I'll just say I wish you both the best in life. It's really been something else watching your relationship develop from the begining and now your engaged! I'm so excited for you two! I can understand though how it's time for you to move on. Please don't hesitate though to drop in a line every now and then. Your blog entrys will both be missed. Green, I hope your back heals completely and that you have no more troubles with it. Good Luck and Best Wishes to you both!!! - Kaiten

Hey Kevin! Good grief, I hope everyone's doing better? or at least ok. So how was your lunch?? It sounds as if Claire's an awsome person...how is she doing? I hope your mom's feeling better as well. Were you able to catch a movie with her?? And finally... I hope your remaining exams went well. hehehe...I know I'm to late for the vote..but when in doubt ALWAYS go for the tight! Take Care and I hope you're having a great weekend! - Kaiten

Happy Birthday!!! - Kaiten

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I wish you many many more great birthdays!!! - Kaiten

Happy Birthday!!! I hope you had a great day! - Kaiten

Happy Birthday Tim!!! - Kaiten

Hey Kevin! Your Job counselor sounds just like mine was last year. It must be a universal thing or something. Anyway, so how did the appointment with the career counselor go today?? I hope it went well. This is a website I've looked at before and it's sometimes helpful: www.monstertrak.monster.com or just simply monsterTRAK.com . Good Luck though and let us know what happens. I am so sorry to hear about your mom's cat! That's horrible!!! It's always said when you loose an animal that you were close too, and now matter how long or short of time that animal has been with you you still end up loving it very much. Sad story. Is she going to get another cat?? Or is she the type of person who waits for the animals to come to her? I tend to do that. I think your friend Stacy is just like my sister in laws best friend. That girl is spastic and is nothing but a flirt. It's just who she is. Stacy probably doesn't (and I say probably...maybe she does) even know what she's doing...it's just natural to her. It does stink though, b/c some poor person could be completely confused by her flirting. It's always a very risky business to be an "open" flirt like that. But you are right...A LOT of fun! That's funny about inviting you to go with her AND her boyfriend. I wonder what he'd think of that!!! hehehe Let us know how that one plays out as well....now I'm really curious....mind drifts off... ....okkay! Back to the present! heheheheeee How'd your exam go tonight??? You had a night exam tonight correct? I hope it went well. Is this the class that you keep "missing" ?? Good luck on your other exams this week as well!!! I'm sure You'll do great. You get a shiny gold star for being so cool. Now don't you feel lucky! lol Good luck and take care!!! I hope the rest of your week goes great! - Kaiten

Green!!! YAY! So I take it your back home??? I'm so glad to hear that it went well and that none of the lumps were cancerous. That's awsome!!! It sounds as if you have your own personal chef...good good. Get plenty of rest, I'd say go ahead and take the pain pills an hour earlier than recommended...just make sure and STOP taking them when the pain is gone. That's my only real fear with pain pills, they can easily become addictive. YAY!!! YOUR OK!!! Whew! Sweet, go rest...enjoy the pampering, let Chaz pamper you ...might as well take advantage of it while you can!! Good luck and I wish you both the best!!! - Kaiten

lol Apparently I am 33% gay and it claimed I was a girlie girl with just a hint of my "butch" side showing up every now and then. Whatever that means. This is fun. I like quizzes!