darkfoxprime

Yay! My partner / "boyfriend" / OneTrueLove came into my work, brought me a bouquet of 17 roses (one for each year we've been together), and proposed to me. We're going to get our license on our actual 17th anniversary, and have our wedding ceremony and celebration next year (assuming the marriage license lasts that long...) - dfp

My photo depends on my mood...

Easy one first: The Internet- I have no real fears with the Internet. maybe I'm too trusting in my own system administration abilities. The World Around you - spiders and snakes are easy. I grew up in the desert, with rattlesnakes living in the area and black widow spiders everywhere. The hard one for The World Around You is my "Other" fear - of going blind. Since grade school, I've been terrified of the thought of going blind. Everything I do for relaxation, for enjoyment, for my job, *everything* relies on sight. Without the ability to use the computer (for programming, reading, writing, playing games, everything), I'd almost feel like it's not worth living anymore, except for the love of my life partner. For Personal & Relationships, I voted "Other" - my irrational fear (which might not be so irrational) is of getting attacked whenever I hold my partner's hand in public. Every time I do so, I unconsciously look around to see who's going to beat me up, and I hate that I do it. It sucks to be afraid to show your love.

For me, a lot of it is stability. I like my world to stay the same. I also feel like my OTL completes me. I can't imagine not having him around, to talk about stuff, to snuggle, or just to be ignoring each other in the same room while we're both playing different computer games. Even after 16something years, I still can't sleep well if he's not home. It was never a conscious choice for me, it's just the way it is.

I've only ever been in one relationship. It started in mid-1991 and is still going strong. Before I met him, I hadn't had any sort of a "relationship" beyond friendship. I never even dated in junior high or high school. Wouldn't have known what to do if I had, anyway.

I voted for the second one, since I tend to pronounce it closer to "mir" (short i sound). When I first saw the thread, though, I was thinking in my head "dubya" and "shrub" O.o

I put in the 18-24 range (21) as being the time I officially came out. I had always fantasized about boys - as far back as like 2nd or 3rd grade, in non-sexual ways - but all through highschool and the beginning of college, I still kept thinking it was wrong to be thinking about boys like that. Of course, I never tried to do *anything* with girls; I only even ever had two friends who were girls, and one of them laughed in my face when I said I thought she was a good girlfriend. In some ways, I wish I had figured it out for sure before I did - but in other ways it was just right, because me figuring it out was part and parcel in getting together with my One True Love. I came out, became suicidal because of it, spent a week trying to figure out how to kill myself without it hurting (yeah, I'm lame...), then got introduced to my love by a mutual friend, fell in love over the phone in a single evening, and we've been together for coming on 17 years. - dfp

I don't know if there's any one particular time when I get the *ideas* for stories, but they always seem to flush themselves out while I'm trying to get to sleep at night - I always end up having to get out of bed and spend an hour or four writing before I can actually sleep. - dfp

Have a great birthday; I hope all your wishes come true

Yup, Spiderwick Chronicles was pretty good. It didn't follow the books literally, but it did a good job of following them in spirit. There were a few editorial problems, and a few look-at-the-watch moments, but overall it was worth the price of the discount movie tickets. My next movies coming up are Prince Caspian and Wall E. I remember seeing trailers for others I might be interested in, but I forgot what they were called O.o

Blasphemy!

Currently reading At All Costs by David Weber, the newest book in his Honor Harrington series. Before that, it was Waterways by Kyell Gold, a Furry novel about coming out and coming of age, and before that, an old novel Dragonworld by Byron Preiss, Michael Reaves, and Joseph Zucker. Next up after that is the first historical romance I've ever bought, Venetia by Georgette Heyer, hopefully followed by Bridge to Terabithia if I manage to buy it in time. - dfp

I just really "discovered" this song yesterday - after having heard versions of it in movies and tv shows everywhere, I finally went and did a systematic search for covers. My favorite version is KD Lang's, I think.

ROFL!

What's an ex? I never had a boyfriend or girlfriend all the way through schooling and college, until I was introduced to the person who (within the span of a few hours) became my "One True Love", and we've been together for the 16 and a half years since. Given my personality, if I had an ex, I'd probably be in the "stop talking to them completely" camp; I never give up grudges O.o - dfp

My valentine card is finished, complete with sappy fold-out "i love you" panels and a glowing heart instead of the sun on the beach-sunset picture and I bought some gourmet truffles (all-dark cocoa liquor, mexican chocolate, and grand marnier) for him.

Right now, the only thing I have planned is attempting to use my nonexistent drawing skills to draw a picture of a sunset at the beach, since I've owed him a walk on the beach at sunset for about 13 years now.

Definitely. I don't really mind the incest thing *if* it's written well and written into a story, as opposed to just being incestpr0n, and if it's between similar ages. And yeah, I agree with other folks that the male-female thing manages to tip over onto the taboo side. - dfp

There's lots of ways to love more than one. Even if you're limiting it to romantic love, though, people have more than enough love to share with more than one person. There's a place in my heart that is reserved for my OneTrueLove. He knows that he'll always be The One for me, and I know that I'll always be the same for him. I also know he loves several other people. There are people I could easily grow to love. None of that changes the fact that we are together and a couple if every way that's good and loving.

My favorite youtube music videos right now are: KT Tunstall - Black Horse And The Cherry Tree - showing how she sets up the backgrounds using a time-delay loop in order to do the song solo in a live performance Barbie Girl Lip Sync - A hilarious lip sync video.

I'm currently on a Carrie Underwood kick, but the lyrics to her song "You Won't Find This" really hit me. I don't know if I'm reading something into it, but it really sounds to me like it's about a boy who knows he's gay but grows up and marries and such anyway, and is unhappy. You Won't Find This written by Tom Shapiro and Cathy Dennis sung by Carrie Underwood Did you check the tires Put gas in the car Don't think you'll need too much 'cause you ain't gonna get that far Did you pack the good times Don't forget a map Just in case the route you take isn't there to take you back (chorus) You can hold any girl that you like Fall in love when it's easy at night But you'll wake up wonddering why She ain't ever something better When you're lost and you've run out of road Find what I already know In the end close is all there is But you won't find this No, you won't find this Now there's once in a lifetime And there's once in a while And the difference between the two is about a million miles Oh, you might get lucky While the moon is looking on But in the truth of the morning the stars will be long gone (chorus) (chorus)

I don't think it's "weird", but I'm definitely uncomfortable with the idea of kissing friends. I'm not even that comfortable kissing my parents. My kisses are reserved for my OTL.

ISFJ - 67% 75% 25% 11% You are: * distinctively expressed introvert * distinctively expressed sensing personality * moderately expressed feeling personality * slightly expressed judging personality Some parts of the description (the one by Butt and Heiss, not the one by Keirsey) really fit. * ...for instance, they are notoriously bad at delegating ("If you want it done right, do it yourself"). (in my case, "Just give me the keyboard, you're typing too slow!") * ...their families are the centers of their lives. (my OTL is my life.) * ...ISFJs take infinite trouble over meals, gifts, celebrations, etc., for their loved ones (like taking three months to make a christmas gift O.o) * ...they are often unable to either hide or articulate any distress they may be feeling. (unable to articulate just about any feeling, most of the time)

Even though the colors and sounds and everything were muted, it was still a vividly-felt dream, one that I've had every few months for years. ---- I woke up with the alarm clock, hitting it and wishing I'd gotten rid of it, but it didn't matter anyway. Rolled out of bed, checking that the roomie was really gone before pushing down the sweats I slept in and mechanically getting dressed. Sitting down at the dorm room desk, I realized I didn't even know what I had on. Didn't matter anyway. Looked at the paper on the desk, the scribbles from the last time I'd been to class. Random geometric figures, various renditions of "I hate this", places where I'd blackened the paper with the pen so hard that it had torn holes. Looked from there to the stack of books. Picked up the top one, wondered if I should even bother trying to go to English class today, since I'd only made it twice in the last month. Didn't matter anyway. I was going to fail all my classes and get kicked out of college because of academic probation and it didn't matter anyway. ---- Like I said, it was a vivid dream, if only because of the intensity of the non-emotion. I've never been in this situation. I have no real idea where the dream comes from. The one time I ever fell that far, due to a bunch of stuff all coming down at once, I was suicidal for about a week before I decided I was too much of a wimp to actually carry it out. I didn't want the pain, didn't want to hurt people I cared about. Then sunshine came into my life again in the form of (as Grasshopper writes) my OTL, my one true love, and I've not been down that road in the 16 and a half years since. I guess the only reason I wrote this up is to say that I hope that everyone who's feeling this way can find someone to talk to, someone who can safeguard their trust, help them to see that there are reasons to care about the world, reasons to find a way to get help getting past what they're going through. With love and hope. dfp

Rafa wins over Nole anyday, looks-wise. But this is gonna be an awesome final, I hope. Djokovic is fast, has great court coverage, and a good variety of ground strokes. Tsonga is fast, has good court coverage, and a great variety of ground strokes. The only question is: Will Tsonga go insane at how slow Djokovic serves before Djokovic goes insane at how fast Tsonga servers?