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“Chase? Please listen and try to not hate me. I have so many regrets, but doing that to you, sleeping with him, it didn’t give me any satisfaction at all“ Why do we call it “sleeping with” when sleeping isn’t what is going on at the time? (Maybe afterwards) A spade should be called a spade, or a fuck a fuck (for the PC amongst us, sex should be called sex) ”Poor Kevin? Please! He knew exactly what he was doing. My side of the bed wasn’t even cold when that little weasel slid into it, so don’t expect for me to feel sorry for poor Kevin.” Brava Chase!! 👏 Interesting that Hank would feel guilt for leading Kevin on, when he should have realized that Kevin wasn’t really being a good friend to him....just goes to show that guilt provides a very distorting flavor. I could see a reconciliation between Chase and Hank....personally this felt too soon. The heart wants what it wants though and sometimes a big leap of faith needs to be taken instead of baby steps. What was interesting to note was that the dynamic of their relationship seems to have changed in every way, as it appears Chase was previously the bottom in their relationship and Hank let him top in their reunion sex. “Once their foreplay reached a fever pitch, Hank made him aware of what he wanted, and while it surprised him, he didn’t question it. They’d had mostly defined roles in the past, but this was now, and Chase adapted happily.” This will be a relationship between equals, where one shores up the other when needed. Love may not always be enough to save a relationship but when you are willing to work so that love has a healthy place to thrive? Then, love is everything. Unhappy endings= 0 HEA=♾ (that’s supposed to be infinity) 😄 🍻

Nice cliffhanger to end Part I. I’m on a love/hate see saw about Part II because I fear what it means for this foursome. Great writing, Katya. Stay safe.

MmmHmm. That’s why I said what I said I’ll deal with dangled with cliffhangers (though the other dangles might’ve been more fun.)

I don’t know what it would take to convince our esteemed author to post more than once a week but I ain’t holding my breath about it, lol!! You know he thinks the double chapters he occasionally posts (which are deeply, deeply appreciated thankyousomuch) are more than enough. He likes dangling things in front of us. 😉 (Well some of us....being that I’m a chick) 🤷‍♀️

And a correction: I don’t know why I’m saying “would be” to that asshole being a sexual predator or rapist when he clearly is; Chase was not an isolated incident and definitely not the last person he put those “moves” on. It seems “Endings” is his hunting ground (or one of many?). I’m surprised someone hasn’t put an “ending” to his reign of terror. Fucking Sleaze. 💩

Umm, yeeeaaahhh....and water is wet.

Maybe that’s what happens when you order a Corona nowadays....😳 Bits and pieces of that momentous night come back to Chase post mortem but I think it’s a good thing; He is emotionally stronger now and that can only be a positive in his dealing with whatever he finds out. Part of that is that everything that happened that night wasn’t his fault-yes, he ran away from Hank but a pushy would be sexual predator and a boyfriend hair triggered to have a nuclear reaction to someone he loved “betraying” him in such a manner was the perfect shit storm. (Nitro meet glycerin 💣) Based on what it appeared Chase and Hank had before, what happened could and should have been a stumble on his and Hank’s road together, it was Hank’s reaction that ended their romantic journey, just like it was Hank’s reaction that destroyed his relationship with Lilah. I actually think it’s a good thing Chase ran into Hank at “Endings”; Hank came there hoping to bump into Chase, as it was stated he didn’t really favor the place and only went there because Chase liked it. There is unfinished business between them that needs to be addressed and I think that is what Hank went there to do. I don’t know how much (if any) of the confrontation between Chase and Mr. Would be Rapist Hank saw but his reaction to it will be an indication if he listened to anything Chase told him that evening and that will determine if they have a future relationship of any kind. Nice cliffy, Gary.

Wayne❣️❣️ This was beautiful....perfect; Both the story and the poem. “I see you inherited your grandfather's head of hair." That line made me laugh, as for a while it was believed baldness was inherited from your maternal grandfather, lol.

WHEW!! Leave my Desmond alone!! What an unholy alliance between these four (plus Nex, for the moment), lol. There are few things that can stop their combined forces in this world, let’s see if Doriel is one of them. At least we know Vivienne is truly dead.

Without proof or confession, a previous chapter points to the new school baseball coach via some of the more homophobic teammates who didn’t want Levi and Brody on the team. From “Outted!!!” (Chapter 3) ”Coach Broman located Jasper who played catcher for the team, who also happened to be the player he overheard ranting about the pair. “Jasper,” he called out, “a word with you!” “Yes, Coach?” Jasper answered as he ran to the man’s side. Broman’s face contained a snarl, “those two… you know light in the loafers kids…” he made a limp-wristed hand motion, “if you want team captain take care of them. I want them off the team as much as you do.” Jasper nodded his head, “’N I get no repercussions from the team?” “Zilch,” the Coach said, “I don’t care how you do it. Just get it done quickly.”

Thank you. 😘 Guess I’m a mirror image of you, then. 😉

I like to think he recognized that his hero was his mother, instead of his father. His life blew up at fourteen because of what he thought his mother did-but it was his father’s actions that destroyed his family. His mother gave him fourteen years of a solid foundation in the guise of a happy childhood (at great cost) and never gave up on the hope of reconciling with her only child. To me, that actually goes beyond heroic.

That would be WONDERFUL!! There is a heartfelt sympathy in my soul for marginalized populations and the struggle endured to just be. I’ve always felt like a rounded square trying to fit into a perfectly round hole....not the least of which is because I’m a black woman who doesn’t really conform to the perceptions or expectations general society has of a black woman. (sometimes even among my “own”) At times, I wrap my differentness around me like a favorite blanket; Other times, my unique mantle feels like wet wool upon my shoulders; Depends on the day, depends on my mood.

Nuh uh. Faith=Power. Every time.

I agree....with both your concerns. ❤️ 😘

May the escape this story provided you be a turn in your gloom and concern. Be safe.

A-MEN.

Congratulations on your turn to healthy self preservation and sobriety.

The situation of Hank’s family begets no winners. It is a parent’s responsibility to protect their children, from danger as well as things they may be too young to understand. Lilah (beautiful name and lovely spelling) was doing her job as a wife and mother....initially thinking she was helping her whole family, coming to the realization that there was a bigger problem than she was aware of. The one thing she could control was the safety of her son’s world, which is what she was trying to do, even as her marriage fell apart. Hank’s father had his reasons for dating Lilah, the most obvious appears to be some type of emotional (unsuccessful) conflict resolution; No matter how much he loved Will, it appears he made the choice to be without him romantically; This could have been Will’s decision or conflict but it appears to be more Hank’s dad’s, given how Will treated Lilah. This wound up involving him in a romance he never really stood a chance of being fully committed to; Pregnacy exacerbated the situation, no matter how much he loved his son, as he felt compelled to “do the right thing” and marry the mother of his child. Maybe at the time of Lilah’s pregnancy he realized he couldn’t be in a heterosexual relationship and then was trapped by the pregnancy; Maybe he was thrilled to be a father but didn’t want to be a husband; There are so many different scenarios that could have been playing in Hank’s dad’s head (did I miss his name?) but none of them would have made him happy....even being true to himself. This conflict, coupled with his predisposition to anesthetize his problems with alcohol guaranteed his alcoholic future. He wasn’t fair to Lilah or Hank but his pain was such that he was only focused on himself, even though he created this problem. (to me his functionality referred to his employment status, not his stature as a spouse or parent). Lilah had no choice in the actions she took but so successful was her enabling that any break in his parent’s relationship would have been a shock to Hank. ”Sorrows....” was a kind introduction to this chapter- I haven’t even touched on the interaction between Hank and Chase throughout this because the details of Hank’s family life was so much to digest. I do wonder if the situation were reversed and his father was the cheater, would he have been as protective of his Mom? This was a good chapter Gary, even though it was deeply sad.

Nan passed, but her spirit coming to avenge her babies would be so her, lol.

I was thinking at the beginning of this chapter how I missed Nan; Funny she was brought up. *Sigh* I truly wish this didn’t happen to Levi but this is an unfortunate reality for people who experience head injuries. It’s going to be a roller coaster of a ride for the Waters family, with deeper loops and turns than usual; Seems just the right time for some “Sage” advice. I’m also wondering if there will be any clarity on how Jonathan is Blu’s son if he was never intimate with his mother? There was some speculation about Blu’s dad but it was never confirmed. Thanks for the update, stay safe.

I like how you portrayed Chase’s physical progress through this. He didn’t emotionally eat and gain a ton of weight; He didn’t pine away to depressed emaciation; Instead, the chrysalis of his emotional maturity shone through in his literal being: “You look good, Chase.” The man darted a glance his way while they waited for the traffic light to change....” ....“You look heavier, though. In a good way,” he added with a tilted grin. “You look older… I noticed that the last couple of times I saw you. “Older, huh?” Chase returned the grin. “Well, you’ve filled out, and I guess that’s made you look more… mature.” “Thanks, I think.” “It’s a compliment.” From “Girls’ Night”: “....I heard what Stacy said when you arrived, and she’s right. You have gotten hotter.” Chase laughed. “Okay, guys, enough with trying to make me feel good, but Hank and I are finished, and we both know it.” Trey shook his head emphatically. “No, no. I’m serious. You carry yourself different. It’s the first thing I noticed when you walked out here.” “My boyfriend’s right, Chase. You always seemed, like, younger than the rest of us, but, baby, I see all man now.” One could say he was at caterpillar level maturity before....now, he’s a butterfly. 🦋

MmmHmm. 😉 I know a Headstall story usually has a happy ending and the great love these two shared (share?) has been well established. You’ve done a good job of showing this can go either way but again, this is a Headstall story so....

We aren’t islands and while I’m not always about tit for tat, Chase had to put on his big boy underwear without Hank, it just seems unfair to me that he should expect Chase to be there for him now (even though Chase will be if he asks). Why not Stacy or members of the chew crew? They are “friends” too, no?