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    What comes next

    What comes next? After getting ready and going out to meet Dan and Nate for school my mind was still worried about what could happen today. With Nolan holding my hand while walking I felt safe but I don’t know how the other two will handle their relationship since they came out to Dan’s whole family. As we approached them we saw them holding hands and smiling at us. That should answer my question. “Hey guys.” I greeted them and they greeted back and we started walking to the school. Noticing they never stopped holding hands I then asked “Are you sure you’re ready to do this?” Dan looked at me a little confused “What do you mean? Oh.. Us, yeah we’re more than sure about that. We talked about it forever. We said we won’t hide anymore when I finally came out to my parents. It’s a little scary though, but the time of hiding is over. The last half year was pretty hard to not touch or kiss in school and we don’t want that anymore.” I smiled and nodded at the things he told me. I’m really happy to not be the only gay couple with Nolan at school anymore. The fact that we are all friends is even better when I start thinking about it. We care about one another to back them up and getting backed up from them. Now there are more than just one couple with the same sex in school. At the school we got to our lockers like every other day and got our books to get ready for the first period. First thing I noticed were the looks from other students. Sure, they knew about me and Nolan because we never really wanted to hide but now they have to deal with Dan and Nate as well. It’ll be hard for them the first days. Nolan I still got those looks but I’m more concerned about the other two. “Let’s get to class, Mike.” Dan said to us. First period is like every other day, homeroom, where we 4 can sit together. It’s the only class we have in common. But in every other class we have one of them at least with us. The worst time is 5th Period. Dan will be alone until we all go to P.E. I don’t really know why but I have a really bad feeling to leave him there alone. I hope my concerns are pointless and nothing will happen. In homeroom nobody really cared about the teacher. All boys and girls were talking about Dan, Nate, Nolan and me. The teacher then stepped in and asked what’s going on today. “Now we got 4 fags in class, sir. Can’t we just throw them out of school?” The bully of our class said without even thinking about what it meant. “I think we should throw you out of school Mister Michaels. For your bad comment and worse words. Don’t you know you can hurt people with words you use? And what a problem do you have with them? Are they in any kind bothering you? Are they trying to kiss you or touch you? If not just leave them alone. They just want to live their life like you do without getting disturbed because of the way of life they take.” The teacher said to him and continued to the rest of the class “Gay people are like everyone else, they eat, breathe, love and shit like every other human being. If you don’t like the fact that we got a few gay people in school just ignore them and leave them alone. They won’t bother you when you don’t bother them. Let them be who they are and they will let you be who you are. I you try to hit them they will hit you as well. Even if you don’t believe me but gay people are like every other people.” Michaels stood up and wanted to say something but sat down after thinking. I think he lost the words he wanted to use. What the teacher said surprised me. It’s not that it will change the mind of some stupid Assholes who will try to beat us but it made me feel safer. Just a little bit at least. Those words were nice hearing it from someone who isn’t gay and a teacher. Maybe he can repeat the words in other classes. I’ll ask him after class and thank him for the courage he showed. After class Michaels and I were the only ones who were still in class. I wanted to be there but Michaels got called in to a chat after class from the teacher. “Mr. Michaels, the words you used weren’t appropriate and I hope I won’t hear them again from you. Nonetheless you made a bad decision and you need to accept the consequences. Two days detention after school, 2 Hours a day and I want you to write an essay about homosexuality and what differences exists between straight and gay couples, excluding sex. 4000 Words at least. After reading the essay I will decide what to do then. You’re excused now.” The teacher angrily told Michaels. He wanted to protest but just stormed out of the room. “I wanted to thank you for what you told the class. Why is it so hard for them to just accept other ways of life? It’s not like I go to some boys and try to kiss them. I’m with Nolan and I don’t want to change that.” I said to the teacher. “No problem, the thing is, Nolan and you are a couple and because of that they don’t try anything really bad on you. If you were single and out of the closet they probably bully you because they can’t understand what you are feeling. They are scared of the looks in the locker room or elsewhere. A boy who is lusting after other boys is what freaks them out. If it were a girl there wouldn’t be a problem. Just be a little patient about their feelings too. After all they are human beings with feelings like you or your friends. Just a few people out there are really against gays. Even less then gays exist at school, believe me.” He told me and it really meant something to me. It all made sense to me but my concerns are still there even with some things I now know. “Why are you doing this? I always thought you were married with a woman and have children.” I asked him still a little confused about what he did today. “That’s the point. I’m a father of 2 boys. One of them is a senior at high school and one is in college. I had to learn the things I told you the hard way. My son came out to me 4 years ago and I didn’t take it very well. My whole life broke in pieces. I didn’t know what I could do to stop that. I didn’t want this life for my son and I tried everything to stop his feelings. It drifted my family apart and I realized I had to be the one who has to change and not him. I realized how much my words hurt him and the rest of my family. After realizing what I’ve done I had to do things right. I did my best to get my family back together. It wasn’t always an easy task but I finally got them all back. Now I am a proud dad of 2 boys of whom one I gay. It doesn’t matter for me anymore. The love for them was bigger than my stupid mind and I won the battle in my head. Now you know why I did what I did. I did it because I learned my lesson and as a teacher I have to give those lessons to people who need them.” Wow. I couldn’t believe what ii just heard. He told me about his past and his son. “Thank you for trading those things with me, sir. I really appreciate it. I learned that people can change because of their feelings. Everybody feels and those feelings matter. Is it ok to tell my friends what you just said to me?” He nodded and said to me “Yes, It is ok to tell them but only to your three friends please. I’m not ashamed of my son but I don’t really want everybody know about what a stupid man I was. I think the only ones who can understand that are the four of you.” I thanked him again and asked “Can you tell other classes what you said in class today? Maybe it will change something.” He said yes and we both left the class for the next period. The rest of the day went by as usual but after 5th period Dan came to P.E with a bruised eyelid and a bleeding nose. He told us what happened and he washed himself clean and Nate tried to patch him up a little. In the Gym the teacher asked what happened but Dan said nothing. We did what the teacher wanted and after class we got back to the locker room where the real shit started. For the showers I got a little late and I noticed some boys laughing about something. As I got into the shower I saw what they were laughing about. Dan, Nate, Nolan and I were the only naked boys in there. All other boys were wearing boxers or their sport shorts. They laughed at me as well but I really didn’t care. They all saw me naked like a hundred times but the feeling they did that because of us is bothering me like hell. “What are you dudes afraid of? You have nothing I never saw. Or are you afraid I will bite it off of you first thing when you turn around? Whatever, I don’t really care. The only problem I see is that you guys have to carry your soaked shorts back home.” I said a little amused about those cowards. “Thompson, I don’t like you guys looking at me. That’s all.” One boy said. “There is nothing I didn’t see over the past few years, dude. The thing is I’m with Nolan and I don’t care about what you have down there. Just back off your stupid thoughts. None of us wants your dicks.” I said getting a little angry. “I don’t care with which guy you fuck, I look after girls even when I am in a relationship. So don’t fuck with our minds guys.” Another boy said. “What do you guys think? Do you really think you’re the wet dream of every gay guy in the world or what? A straight guy is the one thing no gay guy would ever hit on, you get that? Put a hundred straight guys in a room with one gay guy and see what will happen. Nothing will happen when the gay guy knows that all guys are straight. He won’t even try to hit on one of them. I’m with Nolan and Dan is with Nate and we don’t want any other boys, you got that?” I literally yelled at them. They looked like I punched my fist in their guts. After what I said Nolan came to me and kissed me. Naked and in front of the other boys we kissed each other. After about one minute we got back to showering and rinsing off. The look in the eyes from the other boys was fantastic. They looked like they saw a ghost, or a gay porn. I mean, if we didn’t stop it could have been a gay porn for them. Dan and Nate laughed their asses off. “Sorry Mike, I thought we do that and everything will be ok because nobody is naked. It’s not like I hate gay people, I just don’t like the looks on me from another boy. I never thought about what that made you guys feel. I’m really sorry.” The boy who said those things first said to me with a worried tone in his voice. “Dude, calm down. Nothing really happened. It’s just that I don’t like the fact everybody is treating us different. We are still the same guys than before you knew. Look at Dan and Nate, they’re a couple for 2 years now. Did he or Nate ever look at you like he will eat you alive, like he is lusting after you?” I said to him and he shook his head. The thing is, after coming out and getting together with Nolan I changed. In those few days I changed from a little shy boy to an open gay guy defending what he got. I never thought I would react like I did in the shower. A few weeks earlier I would’ve just left the shower without saying a word. I feel much stronger now since I met Nolan and came out to my friends and family. The only place I feel safer is in bed with Nolan in my arms. Leaving the school yard we met the two jocks who helped Nolan and me last week. They asked Dan directly what happened because they saw his bruises. “It was just a mistake, dudes. One guy in class thought I wanted to hit on him ‘cause I touched him on the shoulder wanting to ask something. The thing is he apologized instantly after I explained him that I don’t want to get him ‘cause I’m with Nate. It’s no big deal.” He told them. “But it is a big deal. You got bruises all over your face because he thought you wanted to hit on him. That shouldn’t be the norm. What if a girl tapped on his shoulders? He would’ve smiled and answered the question the girl would’ve asked. Because you prefer boys he hit you in the face and you have to set things right. Tell me his name, I want to talk to him. Don’t think I would hit him, I just want to talk to him.” Tom said to Dan. Dan was thinking if it really is a good idea to give him the name but after a few seconds he gave him the name. We also told them about what happened in the showers. They thought we reacted like we should’ve reacted. Not with aggression but not backing off. We just defended our way of life. But what comes next? I don’t want to deal with more of those idiots who can’t think before they do something. I mean, the boys in P.E. got the message but what about others? There are still some haters in school who didn’t start anything but waiting for the right time to ruin our lives. I think I is time to learn some self-defense just in case we get into trouble for being gay. I knew it wouldn’t be easy but we’re out now and can’t go back into the closet. But with the four of us and Tom and Isaac we don’t have to fear very much. Walking home we talked about the day and what I planned on doing. The topic self-defense got accepted very quickly and we all want to ask our parents to sign us up for the same class. We want to be prepared for things which are coming, for things we until now never thought about. And the fact making sport is good. I can gain some muscles to protect my boyfriend. The boy I learned to love over just a few hours who loved me just the exact same way. While walking we always hold hands or on occasion stopped to kiss a little bit. This is the way I want our lives to be. Loving without fear. But what comes next? It is scary not knowing the future.
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    Dads

    Thank you for your nice words. I really like the outcome about what happened as well.
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    Friends and family

    At that moment he doesn't know it. he will learn it in the next chapter.
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    Dads

    Dads Getting started for the day, Nolan and I went to the bathroom to take a shower. Just as the day before we washed each other but this time we didn’t start anything sexual. I don’t know why but even with each other touching we didn’t get hard like the day before. We both just knew this would be another stressful day with a lot of emotions and problems to solve. “I’m starving honey. Lets eat something.” Nolan said to me while we dried our bodies. “I love the way you think. Aaaaaand I love you babe. Can I kiss you?” I said to him. “I love you too but why do you ask me if you can kiss me? You don’t need to ask. Just do it though.” He said to me with a confused look in his eyes. “I don’t know why. I just felt like asking. Maybe it was because of the nightmare or because what will happen today.” I looked into his eyes and put on a little smile. “Don’t you ever ask me again if you can kiss me. Just do it, ok?” I nodded, stepped closer and kissed him with all love I could give him. The kiss lasted at least 20 minutes. Ok, it was just 5 minutes but it felt like a long, long time. We finished dressing and went to the kitchen where my father already waited for us to start breakfast. This is still unusual for him to get up that early AND fixing breakfast. But we sat down and started eating. After finishing he excused himself like the day before and left the house. We cleaned the kitchen and went back to my room to talk about what could happen later that day. But we didn’t get there because Nolan noticed a Mail on his phone and after checking what it was he froze in shock. “Dad.” Was the only word he could get out of his mouth. He sat down on the bed and started reading what his dad wrote him. He then started to cry and I went to him to embrace him in a hug to calm him down and asked “Was it your dad? What did he tell you?” “Here, read for yourself.” He gave me his phone but he didn’t look sad or upset. He looked quite happy. I stared at the screen and started reading: Dear Nolan, I’m really sorry I reacted the way I did. I don’t really know what came over me with this but I do know now it was just my head fucking up with me. I didn’t really thought in the slightest way my only son whom I dreamed of with a nice woman and a lot of children in his life, could be gay. I’m sorry to just walk out without saying a word. I can’t give you enough apologies that you could forgive me. What I did was wrong in every way. I was a little disappointed coming back to the house to find it abandoned with a little note but I know why you left. It’s all my fault and I want to do all I can to be the father you deserve. I know a mail is nothing like a letter but I needed to let you know how I feel and that I’m sorry about what happened. I already called your mother and we want to meet today. I’m ready to sell the house and move to Oakland to be near you and your mom. I love you with all my heart and nothing will ever change that. I was just too stupid and stubborn to accept it at first. I really hope you can forgive your old man for the big mistake he made. I’m glad to hear you have a boyfriend and I really want to meet the boy who stole the heart of my son. Maybe we can meet today as well because I really miss you but your mom told me about an intervention planned today and I don’t want to disturb that. I love you Nolan, Dad Damn. Now I know why he cries because I started crying after the first few words. I’m happy about what he wrote and that Nolan can now be happy. One dad is now from the list, another one to go then. I knew this day will be emotional but I never imagined something like this would happen on the same day. “Are you ok babe? I first thought you are sad but after reading this I know you’re happy. What do you want to do now?” I asked him. “Yes hon, I’m more than ok right now. He never wanted to disown me, he was just confused about it and scared to even talk about it and even a little disappointed. But he still loves me. I can forgive him in an instant because if he never did what he did I wouldn’t have the chance to meet you. Now I have both of you and that makes me more than happy.” He happily cried in my arms. “I love you and I never want to lose you.” I said before I kissed him until we needed to head to his mom. At his house he stormed in and ran to his mom and starting to cry again flew into her arms. She knew what happened and hugged him tight. To see this just melt my heart and I know I should just go and sit down on the couch to let them have their private moment. “Where are you going Mike? Come here, you’re part of this family now.” His mom called after me. I turned and joined them in a three-way-hug. “This is really not what I expected from him after what he did but we can make the best out of it, don’t you think?” she added. “Yes mom, I want him back so bad right now. He wrote he’ll come to visit us today? But we have the big discussion today with Dan and his dad.” Nolan asked a little confused about what he want to do. “Sure, we’ll go to that discussion but your dad will be here in about an hour so we have enough time to talk with him and got to Dan’s after that.” She told him and Nolan froze for a moment not knowing what to feel right now. “WHAT? Why didn’t you call me? We just have an hour ‘till he gets here? I need to change clothes. We need to change clothes. Damn it. What can I wear?” Nolan went insane about the arrival of his dad. I just laughed and tried to calm him down. It was cute to see him go crazy like that. “Nolan babe, calm down please. It’s just your dad. I know this is special but he is still your dad. Don’t go crazy like that.” I kissed him so he can’t talk anymore and I think it worked a bit. We went to his room and he searched for clothes until he found something to wear and asked me to change as well but I denied. I already have my good clothes on. He was just anxious about what could happen. The doorbell rang and he ran like a flash to the door to open it. Without even greeting he embraced his dad in a tight hug that could’ve killed a bear. He cried the third time today but like the previous times they were happy tears and noticing what’s happening I started to cry as well, so was his mom and dad. After a few minutes hugging he led his dad inside and tried to introduce him to me but failed because of the crying. His dad laughed a little about the try and reached out his hand which I took but instead of shaking he pulled me to him and hugged me. It was really a special moment to get a hug from the father of my boyfriend who left him without a word, now knowing he was wrong and coming back to apologize. He then got to his wife and embraced her in a hug and kissed her on the cheek. I think he didn’t know if he can kiss her on the mouth or not and what happens with their relationship. Nolan led all of us to the living room and the couch to sit down and talk. His dad started “Nolan, I’m sorry for what I did to you.” But Nolan stopped him with a sign. “Stop dad, I already forgave you. Sure, the last to month was hard but if you didn’t do what you did I never had met Mike and now that you’re back everything will work out for us. So please stop to apologize to me. After your mail it isn’t necessary anymore.” He told him and his dad started crying again. Without noticing I grabbed for Nolan’s hand and we were getting closer. It was normal to us but Nolan noticed where he was and with whom and stopped holding my hand. “Don’t son, don’t hide in front of me because I was an asshole. I can see clearly you two love each other. Don’t hide your feelings.” His dad said and Nolan’s eyes grew wide and looked at me. I smiled at him, moved closer and kissed him. His dad smiled at us and blushed a little. After breaking the kiss we all laughed about the awkward moment. We then talked about what will happen now and what the plans for today are. At 1.30 pm Nolan’s dad invited us for dinner and since his mom has some things to do before heading to Dan’s the three of us left the house looking out for something where we can eat. At a diner we ordered our meals and we talked a bit about the discussion today and Nolan asked his dad if he want to come along as well. He nodded and said “I really want to but I don’t want to disturb anything. I don’t know anyone of them.” “I know this is fast but you can tell Dan’s parents what you did when I told you about me. Maybe it can help him understand. Look, I am still the same with the only difference that I like boys instead of girls. Dan likes both but is in love with another boy. It’s not like they can lose their hope for grandchildren on him but he needs to tell them.” Nolan said to his dad and he nodded. At 2.50 pm we went to the car and drove to Dan’s and met everybody outside on the sidewalk waiting for all to arrive. We introduced Nolan’s dad to them and headed for the door. Dan led us to the living room and we sat down and went to get his parents from the backyard. When they got to the living room they froze and asked about what’s going on and who the people are. “Mom? Dad? We need to talk. And I have to tell you something.” Their looks on their faces were pure shock but they sat down as well. “Ok, this is not easy but we need to do it. Dad, I know why I can’t see uncle Tom anymore and I hate what you think about it. You asked me if I’m gay as well and I said no, which is the truth, but just the half of it. I told you I have a gay friend. Actually I have three gay friends and all of them are here.” He said and pointing at us he continued “Nate, Mike and Nolan. I know you don’t like that but I need to tell you this. I am bisexual and I’m madly in love with Nate. I was too scared to even tell you this but since I now know about Mike and Nolan and what is going on with Tom I needed to do it. Nate and I are a couple for about 2 years now and Mike just met Nolan. I invited them today to speak with you. Everybody has gone through the same feelings you might have but it had to be done. I don’t want to hide anymore” His parents sat there in pure shock, not knowing what to say. His mom started to cry but instead of running out she ran to Dan and hugged him. His dad on the other hand didn’t move for 10 minutes. He then stood up and said “Son, don’t get me wrong. As you said I don’t really like the thought about you with another boy but that won’t change my love for you. Sure, it is a really big shock for me right now and I really need to think things through but that won’t change anything. I just need to calm down right now ‘cause that is not what I planned for your life.” “I know, but I have to plan my own life, dad. There’s nothing you could do to change my feelings for Nate or the plans I have in my life. I know that parents feel that they have to plan their children lifes but to be honest, everybody has his own dreams and desires. That’s another reason why everybody is here. I want Tom back in my life and I need you to accept that. He is your brother for gods sake. You always knew about him being gay and instead of supporting him you abandoned him and made a choice for the whole family without asking what we want.” Dan said to his father. His dad started to cry “I know but I couldn’t live on with knowing he married a man and won’t have a family like normal families would have.” Tom said “If you would’ve come to the wedding you would know we actually have our little family right now. A few years ago we adopted a beautiful little boy who just lost his parents on a horrible accident. I know it is not the same as having a child born with my blood but we managed to give a little boy a second chance in life with parents who love him.” WOW. Everybody now looked at him in shock now. “Why didn’t you tell me that? Why do something like this has to happen to tell me that?” Dan’s dad asked. “It was a surprise for everyone at the wedding but you never joined it and after telling me to fuck off and never call or visit again there was no chance to tell you that. Think about it, you are an uncle of a beautiful boy. He turned nine last month and now visits Dough’s parents so we could come here.” Tom said to his brother. He took a picture out of his pocket and gave it to him. He started to cry again. “Ok guys, this is really a lot right now and I really need to think about things now but to let you all know. Nothing will change except one thing, I want my brother back in my life right now.” Dan’s dad said stood up and went Dan to hug him like his wife already has done. After telling his son that he can love who he wants he went to his brother to hug him as well. Dan was happier then I have ever seen him and he ran to Nate to show him that. In front of everyone the kissed for the very first time. Even for me it was new to see my best friend kissing my second best friend. It really was an emotional day. Dan told his parents about his feelings for Nate, Nolan got his dad back after 2 months and Dan’s dad got his brother back in his life. Dan’s dad called out a party for the next weekend and a little celebration for today. He invited everybody for a barbecue. It was a nice day and a better evening. Dan and I talked a little bit about Nate’s and his relationship and why they never told me while knowing about my secret. At 7 pm Nolan’s dad has to go back to San Francisco but will visit as soon as possible with plans for the future. We said goodbye to him and went back to the backyard. My dad came to me and said “I talked with Nolan’s mom and we agreed you two need to calm down a little and the best way to do that is another sleepover. Since today is still Monday and both of you have to go to school we pulled up a few rules for tonight and nights that will come. Sharp 10 is light out and both of you have to be ready like you would every day. If you both get late for school you won’t have the opportunity for another sleepover for a few weeks. I have to work tomorrow and so does Nolan’s mom. Let us go home now, pack your bag and calm down about what happened this weekend.” Wow. I never thought about sleeping over with Nolan today but now that he mentioned I really need to be close to him right now. I ran to him, told him what my dad said and kissed him passionately. This was also the first time kissing in front of Dan’s parents but they didn’t mind it at all. We said our goodbye’s and got to the cars to go home. At home I packed a bag and took my backpack for school. I kissed my dad on the cheek and went to Nolan. As exhausting as the day was we still sat down on the couch to watch some TV. The next morning I noticed we never made it to bed. We just slept on the couch, arm in arm and cuddling. Realizing what day we have I got a little anxious about school today but after waking Nolan and kissing him I lost my concerns. Now I look forward to a new day with my sweet and cute boyfriend. One thing still flies to my mind. What are Dan and Nate going to do? Are they now open about them or do they still want to hide their feelings in school. This could be another exciting day.
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    Friends and family

    Friends and family After Nolan and his mom left, my dad and I chatted a little about love and what it means. He told me about things I should do and things I shouldn’t do. He said “A relationship needs two people who constantly work on it to keep what a relationship means. It’s not just good times, it’s also bad times. If something is wrong you have to fix it. Speak about problems or needs and always tell the truth. Otherwise the relationship won’t last long because lies always lost their covers and destroy what you’re working on. Keep all that in mind, son.” Those words left a mark in my head I really needed. I don’t know anything about relationships and don’t really know how I would’ve reacted when something with Nolan and me happened. But those words could also help me with my concerns about Dan and Nate. The relationship with them is not like Nolan’s and mine but in some ways it is. Dan is my best friend and I really don’t want to lose him. Nate is my friend as well. Not as close as Dan but I don’t want to lose him as well. I care too much about them to lose them in a fight caused by my feelings for Nolan. At 4 pm I left the house to go to Dan’s. I really need to talk with him about my concerns. My mind is spinning while I slowly walk to his house. He lives just a few houses down the road, so the way Is short. At the door is felt my nervousness building up. Before I could reach the doorbell the door opened and Dan came out. “Hey bro, Lets go somewhere else. I can’t really talk in this house. Everybody in this house is nosy and I really need to talk to you.” Dan told me with a shy smile on his face. “Ehhm, ok. Lets go to the park instead?” I asked him and he just nodded. “What’s up dude? You seem a little out of line right now. Did something happen?” I asked after a few minutes without a word from him. “heh? Oh yeah. Everything is just fine.” He didn’t even look at me but he then added “To be honest, no, nothing is fine right now. I hate my family. I talked with them about my uncle today and I couldn’t believe what they told me.” “Just tell me, dude.” Is said to him a little concerned. “I walked into the living room to ask my parents why I never saw my uncle again after we got the invitation to his wedding. Oh boy, they told me. They hate him, they hate him for being gay and marrying a man. My family doesn’t believe in god but they think homosexuality isn’t right.” He told me and after a few seconds he continued “I told them I want to see him. I told them I don’t have a problem with him being gay and he is still my uncle. My dad didn’t like what I said to him and started yelling at me. He accused me to be gay as well. I don’t really care what he thinks but it still hurts. I told him that I’m not gay but he won’t listen and just continued yelling at me. Before he could start again I told him about a friend of mine who is gay. I didn’t tell him it was you but after explaining him some things he started to think about it. He still don’t like the thought that his son got gay friends.” He started to cry when he finished but I knew that wasn’t all he has to say. “Damn Dan, that’s fucked up and I’m sorry I caused so much trouble for you.” I said to him with a sad look in my face not really knowing what I could do. “You don’t have to be sorry. None of this is your fault. I wanted to know why I can’t see my uncle anymore. You just got my thoughts together that I could talk with my ‘rents about him. I really like my uncle and I don’t fucking care if he marries a man or a woman but my family denied my own decision. That’s what bothering me. I called him today and cried into the phone what happened. He said he’ll come to visit me. Actually he’ll be here in an hour or so. I asked him if I could bring you along and he said yes. But stop talking about this now. You looked like you also got something to talk about.” Damn. That was a lot. Do I really need to tell him now? No, I think my problems can wait a few hours. “Yes I have something on my mind but it can wait. Where do you want to meet your uncle?” I told him with a faked smile on my face. Sure it wasn’t nice to lie with a smile but this is what he needs right now. “We’ll meet at the diner in 30 minutes. But I need to tell you this. I told him about you and I hope you don’t hate me for that.” He looked me into the eyes. I smiled at him “OMG, you told a gay man about your gay best friend. I think he’ll hate me now.” He started laughing and I joined him. We then started for the diner and while walking he started to calm down and we talked about last night with Nolan. I didn’t tell him about the sexual details but I think he knows it already. We are still horny little fuckers with a libido old men could dream about. At the diner He noticed the car of his uncle and walked a little faster but I noticed another car I know. The car of Nolan’s mom which was parking a few spots away. Is Nolan here? We walked in and I looked around to find him but didn’t really see him. We walked to a middle aged man and sat down and greeted each other. The last time I saw Dan’s uncle was 3 years ago at his birthday. He looked different but he is still a nice looking man. We talked for a while until I noticed Nolan walking to us. He smiled at me and I only could smile back. I stood up and embraced him with a hug and a kiss. “Hey hon, what are you doing here? I thought you were shopping with your mom.” I said to him. “Yeah. We were but we wanted to eat something so we came here. What are you doing here? Didn’t you want to hang out at Dan’s with him?” he asked and I noticed I forgot to introduce him to Dan’s uncle. “Eh sorry, you’re right. Ehm… This is Dan’s uncle Tom and we needed to talk about some things with him. Tom? This is my boyfriend Nolan.” They shook hands and Tom invited him to sit down for a moment. We then talked about what happened at Dan’s house. “My dad is just like that. He just dumped everything without even talking about it. That’s why my mom and I moved here. I don’t know if he got a problem with me or with me being gay.” Nolan said to Dan. “The problem is my brother always knew I am gay but I couldn’t believe what he did after I invited him and his family to my wedding. He said I would fuck around with guys but marry a woman to raise my own children. I think with that invitation his dream to become an uncle died. After Dan’s birth something happened that his wife couldn’t get pregnant anymore. I don’t think he got a problem with me being gay. He saw me with my boyfriends when I was young and always said good things about it. Maybe it’s time to talk with him. I just stood away from him like he wished but now I can’t let this happen to Dan’s friends as well when he finds out.” He said to us. This is really fucked up what he told us. “We should all make a big intervention out of it. Otherwise he won’t understand it. Mike? Nolan? Can you ask your ‘rents to be there as well? Maybe they can get some thinking in my dad.” Dan said and we all just nodded. That’s a really good idea. If we all come up with the same he can’t get away with his stupid thoughts. Dan added “How long are you here uncle Tom?” “I staying ‘till it’s over. So is Doug. He is at the motel right now waiting for me to come back. He worries as well about what you told me on the phone.” I learned Doug is Tom’s husband. “I go ask my mom right now. She went to the restroom.” Nolan said and went to his table while we talked about doing it tomorrow. “He’s a nice boy, Mike. You got lucky to find a boy like him.” Tom said to me. I blushed a little but thanked him. Nolan came back with his mom and told us we can count on her help. We then told her we want to do it tomorrow and she accepted it. Since nobody has to work on Sunday there wouldn’t be a problem to get everyone together. I just have to speak with my dad about it. I kissed Nolan goodbye and asked him to come hang out with me later and he happily said yes. Now I have to speak with Mike about my ‘problem’ so I just asked him “Do you have any problem with the way it could happen that I don’t spend much time with you anymore? I mean, I just know I want to spend every minute I can get with Nolan but I don’t want to lose you. That’s what I wanted to talk about with you.” “Are u stupid, dude? Sure, we won’t spend much time anymore because of Nolan but don’t you ever think about this bullshit again. Nothing will change between us. And by the way, we could spend time with Nolan together. You don’t have to hide anything in front of me and you should know that.” He said to me a little upset about what I asked him. “For real? Sure we can spend time together with Nolan but some things I’ve to hide in front of you.” I said and blushed after I realized what I actually told him. “Ok, maybe you are right. Some things I really don’t want to see.” He laughed about it. “I really don’t want to lose you as my best friend too and I kick your ass when you forget me.” Now I know I don’t have to be concerned I might lose him. My mind just fucks with me sometimes and I really hate that. My dad told me that’ll happen in puberty and that sometimes I get confused about things. “Ok boys, lets go and we’ll meet tomorrow 3 pm at Dan’s. Can you invite Nate as well? He is still you friend and wants to know what’s happening in your lifes and maybe he has something to say.” Tom asked paying the small bill of our drinks. We nodded, went out and said goodbye to him after Tom gave me his mobile number and said I can call whenever I want if I have some questions about this whole gay-thing. Of course I have questions but they can wait. I thanked him and walked away with him after he got to his car. “Where are we going now?” I asked. “I want to go to Nate’s. We need to talk about something else with him and we need to ask him about tomorrow.” He answered. What does he need to talk about with us? Didn’t we just talk about everything? Since he won’t tell me right now I have to wait until we’re at Nate’s. On the way we talked about the whole gay-thing and he actually asked me if I already had sex with Nolan. I didn’t need to answer because my blush told him what he needed to know. We arrived at Nate’s and got in and walked directly to his room and sat down on his bed and small couch. “Before we start to speak about what happened today” he looked from me to Nate “we have to tell him something.” He looked back at me after Nate nodded “I told you I told my dad I’m not gay and that’s true. I’m bisexual. Nate on the other hand is gay. And what I need to tell you is that Nate and I are a couple. I know this is a little shock for you but like you told me a few days ago, I don’t want to hide anymore. Especially not in front of you. It made me crazy for month and Nate told me he really want to tell you but I always stopped him.” What the fuck? Why didn’t I notice that? Dan and Nate are a couple? Was I that selfish or scared that I didn’t notice what was going on between them? Damn it. He noticed me being gay a few years ago and I didn’t even realize they are a couple? I’m a really bad friend. “Why didn’t you just tell me? You said you always knew I’m gay. Why didn’t you just tell me?” I asked. “I couldn’t tell you. I was too scared. Stupid, when I think about it but you have to know since Nate came in our life 2 years ago we quickly got together and maybe I got scared about hurting your maybe existing feelings for me. I don’t know why I never told you but since this shit happens at my home and that you got together with Nolan I don’t really want to hide anymore.” 2 fucking years? They are a couple for 2 years now and I didn’t notice just a little thing? Where was I with my stupid head? I know they spend a lot of time together but I never even thought about them like that. “Wow, two years? And I never even realized a thing. You two are really good at hiding stuff. I need to think about this, sorry, but you just told me you and Nate are a couple for 2 years without telling me and knowing I’m gay. That’s really fucked up, dude. We’ll see us tomorrow.” I said and walked out the door. He tried to get me back but I told him “Dude, calm down. I just need to think about that. Alone. Today happened a lot and I really need to get my mind on the right track again. Sure, I’m a little bit upset about that but I’m not going to dump you because of that. You’re still my best friend and nothing will change that.” He just nodded and I went home without saying one more thing. At home my dad asked me what happened after he saw my face. I sat down beside him and told him everything what happened today, including the little sexual thing with Nolan, Dan’s uncle and what Dan and Nate told me. He listened to everything I said without saying anything. After I finished my whole day he came closer and hugged me. “Son, Sure I’m coming with you tomorrow and don’t think anything will change here when Dan and Nate are hanging out here. Sure, today happened a lot but just calm down and don’t think a lot about it. Everything will come to a logic point with time. Don’t overthink you still growing brain. You just end confused or angry and that won’t help you.” He said to me and it made a lot sense to me. So I calmed down a little and since Nolan will arrive in about half an hour I asked my dad if he can sleep over another night and he just nodded. I got my phone and called him to ask his mom and she said yes as well. Next thing I did was texting Dan. Me: Hey dude, don’t want to disturb anything but Nolan is sleeping over again and I want to tell him what you told me. If you’re ok with it I’ll tell him, if not I won’t. Dan: Sure, he’ll know it anyway when we got to speak with my dad tomorrow. So, yes, you can tell him. Me: Are you going to do what I think you are going to do? Dan: I think so. I told you I don’t want to hide anymore and that includes my family. I’ll tell them tomorrow. Me: Ok. That’s a really big step when your dad is such a prick about Tom. Dan: I know but I need to do it. Better tomorrow when I’m not alone then when nobody is there. Me: I got your back, bro. We’ll talk tomorrow. Nolan will be here any minute. Dan: Thank you, bro. Have fun and don’t do anything I wouldn’t do. J Me: I don’t know what you wouldn’t do. In any case since today. xD Five minutes later Nolan rang the bell and I ran to open the door. I threw my arms around him like I didn’t see him for weeks. It felt like weeks but I needed it like hell. After a few kisses we got in and my dad ordered Pizza which arrived 25 minutes later. After dinner I excused us and we went to my room. We got in to my bed and cuddled a few minutes until I started to tell him about Dan and Nate. He looked at me with a little smile and said “I knew something is going on between them. The looks at each other. I knew it. Not that they Dan is bi or that they’re a couple for two years but something was happening between them.” Shocked is asked “What? You knew it? Am I the only fucking guy on this planet to notice something? You met them a few days ago and already noticed something?” Am I really that stupid? “Don’t sweat it, hon. It’s called Gay-dar and when you don’t know what to look out for you just couldn’t know. I learned what to look out for back in San Francisco and you didn’t know any gay dude ‘till we met and you were scared about all this.” He said to me to calm me down and added “I can teach you to notice those things if you want.” I nodded and continued cuddling with him. This night we never started anything sexual because I was still a little bit ropy about what happened today. We kissed a little and cuddled a lot until we both fell asleep. I woke up a few hours later on a nightmare which scared the shit out of me but Nolan was already awake. “It’s ok honey. You just got a nightmare.” He said with his calming voice and hugged me tight with a few kisses on my forehead ‘till we both fell asleep again. I really love this boy. He can calm me down with just a few words. The next thing I noticed is the morning sun coming in trough the window. I opened my eyes and saw Nolan still asleep. I snuggled up with him and thought about today. It’ll be just another really stressful day and with a lot of tears. I only hope everything will work out for everyone. I’m most concerned about Dan. But as my dad said, I shouldn’t overthink everything. As I noticed Nolan wakes up I kissed him until he was fully awake.
  6. TimmY92

    Why don’t you just leave us alone?

    People have to be mean because they don't understand. if they could understand the feelings those two or many others are feeling they wouldn't bother them. Haters gonna hate. The problem is when those haters start to get violent. As you noticed with a comment in the chapter "The way home" i write those chapters without thinking too much what happens next, so i don't really know what Nolan's dad is going to do. At the moment i deal with the friendship between Dan, Nate and Mike and their families. But that's for tomorrow. Todays chapter is way 'different' from the others.
  7. TimmY92

    The way home

    Thank you. i write my stories without reasearches and not knowing what i really want to write. So, i just start until i think it is good. In germany we only have the metric system and i use it because i grew up with it.
  8. Why don’t you just leave us alone? Finally I could sleep really well and I got up pretty happy to start the day. I hope Nolan is in a better mood today. Yesterday he seemed a bit sad about his dad. He said he wanted to write him a letter. I really hope it works out for him because I don’t like him being sad. I love his white smile in his face. After thinking a little my dad yelled at me to get up ‘cause I’m a little late. I looked at the clock and ran fast to the bathroom, peed, showered and got dressed. Running down into the kitchen I gulped down a bowl of cereals and got out of the house where Dan and Nate already waited for me. “Mornin’ dude. Pretty late today. But finally you look better. You slept good?” Nate asked. “Yes, finally I could sleep more than just 4 hours and just got up a little late. But lets get moving. Nolan will already be waiting.” I told them and we began to walk. Just a few minutes later we were at Nolan’s place and he was really waiting for us. Looking at me he smiled and came closer to us. “Hey babe, U look good today.” He greeted me and kissed me then he greeted Dan and Nate. “Thank you honey. You wrote the letter for your dad?” I asked. He nodded and said “You guys know where a mailbox is? I want to get rid of the letter before school starts.” Nate told him there is one on the way to school and we began to move. At the mailbox he looked at the letter a last time and tossed it inside. He looked at me and I could see the relieved pressure fading away from him. I got closer to him and hugged him. After that we had to move fast because we were already late for school. It seemed the other students calmed down a bit because nobody really cared that we were walking in holding hands. Some guys still looked at us but nobody said anything. We got to our first period and after counting through the class the teacher talked directly to Nolan and me. “I heard you two confused some students yesterday. Can you tell me what this is about?” “They found out that Mike and I are a couple and that freaked out some other people.” Nolan told him and I added “We just don’t want to hide. Every other couple can openly show some affection but when some like us is going to do the same everybody is confused or upset ‘cause we show just the same affection for one another in the hallway.” “You’re right. It shouldn’t be so complicated to just let you live your lifes but even in the modern world we’re living in some people can’t accept such a couple like you.” The teacher told us. “But what is the problem with that? This is our way of life and not theirs. We love each other and don’t even bother other people. Even god says you should love one another but those people who can’t accept us will always say something instead of leaving us alone.” Nolan said and I nodded approving about what he just said. “Sure, but those people will always be like that because they can’t understand that two people with the same gender can love each other as well as straight couples, sometimes even stronger. Those people think you should hide and do what you have to do in the private.” He said. “But why? Why can’t we just show the same affection to each other than ‘normal’ couples? We don’t want to hide and if they got a problem with that they can just leave us alone. We’re just like every other couple. We show the love we feel about one another in the open if we want to. That’s just stupid thinking from those people.” I said and looking across the class I added “If you got a problem with us just leave us alone.” “If someone got a problem with them you got a problem with me as well.” Dan said. “Call me in, bro.” Nate than said. A few others said the same but some guys just grumbled something with an angry voice. “Ok guys, lets start the lesson for today. I want a sheet of paper full with this topic. Write down what you think about this whole sexuality thing. What bugs you or what you want for the world. You still got 30 minutes.” The teacher said to the class and everybody began to write. I really want to know what others think about this but if I know I would be really mad at some people. After the bell rang we gave our sheets to the front and left the room. The four of us went to our lockers and changed books for the next period and started walking to the next classroom when two boys came to us and said “Why can’t you faggots just hide like the freaks you are? Nobody wants to see two ugly guys kissing each other in the hallway.” “Why don’t you idiots just leave us alone? This is our life not yours, so piss off.” Nolan angrily said to them. “Be careful about what you say, fag. Next time when you’re alone you won’t have such a big mouth.” One of them said walking away but elbowed Nolan in the rips while walking past us when suddenly two big jocks stepped closer. “You should be careful what you’re saying, dude. If you got near those two again I beat the shit out of you, you got that?” One of those guys said and the two boys who just threatened us backed up. “You defend those fags? Are you a fag, too? You’re a fucking jock and a fag? Maybe I should tell your coach about that.” One of the boys said. “No I’m not but that’s none of your business. You should just shut the fuck up. Tell the coach what you want. I don’t care but if you step too close to those two dudes again you’ll regret it. Now get the fuck out of here.” The two boys started walking away mumbling ‘fuck you’s’ at the jocks. Why are these jocks helping us? I always thought they would be the ones who beat us up like the two who hit Nolan 2 days ago. “Why are you guys helping us?” Nolan asked. “Because we don’t have a problem with you being gay and we hate bullies. Sure, we’re jocks but not every guy who plays sport is a bully and a homophobe. If someone bothers you again just tell me.” The bigger guy said. They introduced themselves to us. The bigger one is called Tom and the other guy is called Isaac. They walked with us to the next class and told the teacher why we were late. In class the teacher then started the same questioning like last period and pretty annoyed I said “Why is everybody interested in our fucking love life? Can’t you just leave us alone?” “Sorry for worrying about my students. But you don’t have to get angry like this.” She said to me. “You’re not worried. You’re just nosy like everybody else. Every teacher and every student is asking us the same questions since we arrived to school today and it starts to get annoying.” I angrily said to her and everybody else. “Ok Mr. Thompson. That’s enough. Detention after school for you.” She glared at me with evil eyes. “I won’t go there because of me telling you the truth and saying to just leave us alone. Call my dad if you want but after school I’ll go home like every day.” I yelled at her. “You can go to the principal now.” She fired back. “Lead the way ma’am. I’m pretty sure the principal will understand what I am going to tell him.” I still angrily spoke to her and added looking at Nolan “be right back.” He looked shocked at me and my little disagreement with the teacher but nodded. The teacher led the way and I followed her. Still angry sitting in the room in front of the office waiting for the principal to let us in she still glared at me. The principal called us in and my teacher told him what happened and then I told him what happened. “I think Mr. Thompson is right. If you just left him and his boyfriend alone this problem here didn’t has to happen. You can go Mr. Thompson. I’ll have a little talk with your teacher and she’ll be back in a few minutes.” I left the office and went back to class were everybody was waiting. Sitting down Nolan asked me what happened and I told him, Dan and Nate about what the principal just said. 10 minutes later the teacher came back and said “I’m sorry for what happened Mr. Thompson. But for your words you still got yourself into detention.” “I still won’t go so just leave me alone now. You can still call my dad but don’t expect he’ll accept what you have to tell him.” I told her still angry. “We’ll see what he has to say about that when you don’t show up for detention and get a suspension.” She told me and finally started the period after 20 minutes lost. After class I went to the principal again but this time Nolan came along with me. We told him about what the teacher said when she got back to the class. “Don’t get me wrong. What your teacher said was wrong but she has the right to give you detention.” He told me. “I know but I won’t go to detention for defending myself and if I have to I’ll tell my dad about this. He’s a lawyer and will call the school board if he has to. It’s not right to get detention for defending myself ‘cause she is nosy and want to know about my love life. It’s none of her business. I hope you’ll speak to some other teachers and let them know to just leave us alone. It starts to get really annoying. Nobody cares about other couples.” I said to him getting angry. “It’s because you two are not like every other couple and that’s new to most of them. That’s why they’ll keep asking. There are no other couples like you. I’ll call your dad today and tell him what happened and the detention is off the table right now.” The principal said to me in a calming tone. “There are a lot of couples like us, sir, but they hide because of what happened today and what’ll happen in the future. Today we got bugged with questions all over the place, some of them even asked about sex. We were threatened by some guys and then what happened last period and the day isn’t over at all. We just want to be left alone, sir. We deserve the same treatment like every other couple but what we got today no other couple had to deal with. Sure, the teacher didn’t know of any of this and maybe Mike got a bit angry but if she had just left us alone there wouldn’t be a problem we have to talk about right now.” Nolan said and then smiled at me. “I didn’t know about that as well. But tell me if something like this happens again. You’re right to defend yourselves but just do it politely.” The principal said but before he could’ve said more I said “You would react exact the same when everybody is asking about you, your partner and your love and sex life. This whole problem started ‘cause we didn’t want to hide in the closet, ‘cause we want to show one another our feelings. That’s the whole problem. If something like this happens again I’m pretty sure I’ll react the same way as before.” “Mr. Thompson, I hope something like this won’t happen again and I’m sorry that others are treating you different but right now you have to deal with it. It’s new to the students but it’ll calm down in a few days.” He told me. “That’s not fair that we have to deal with their stupidity when ‘normal’ couples don’t get any comment for showing some affection in the hallway. We have to deal with a lot right now even without those people bothering us.” I said standing up. “I can’t promise you to not get angry about this but I’ll try.” “That’s all I could expect from you. If you got any problems today or in the future just come to me. Have a nice day you two.” The principal said to us. “Thank you, sir.” We both said to him and left the office. In the hallway I looked at Nolan and he said to me “Damn. What a fucked up day and we still got most of the day to go. I’m really proud of you for what you said, honey. I really love you. “He smiled at me and kissed me. “Thank you, babe. And I love you too.” Kissing him is the best to calm down. I could do this for the rest of my life. Just standing here and kiss him, day in, day out. His lips are so soft and he tastes a little like OJ. We then walked to the cafeteria, sat down at our table and told Dan and Nate what happened at the principal’s office. “This is really fucked up. I hope they’ll leave you alone now. He can at least control the teachers to not bother you anymore.” Nate said and I just nodded. I really don’t want to talk about this anymore. I just want to sit at this table and cuddle a little bit with Nolan. The rest of the school day went over without much problems. Two little things happened but nothing really bad. First thing was that a guy in PE didn’t want to change with us in the same locker room but the coach just led hit out and gave him some work to do outside on the field. The others just changed like nothing happened. The other thing was that another gay couple came to us at dinner and we talked a little bit. John and Tim introduced themselves to us and we got along pretty good. We traded numbers to hang out sometime soon. On the way home I felt relieved that the school day finally ended. With Nolan holding my hand we headed home. I kissed him goodbye and asked if he want to stay the night today. “I ask my mom and call you later honey. Love you.” He said “Love you too babe. See you later.” I told him. With Dan and Nate still walking with me we talked a little and finally said our ‘goodbye’s’ and I walked in to the house. I tossed the backpack out of the way and walked into the kitchen to prepare dinner for me and dad. At 3 pm my dad got home and told me he need to talk to me when I set the table for dinner. While eating he began to speak “I got 2 calls today. One from a very angry History teacher and one from your principal. Can you tell me what happened?” I nodded and started to tell him what happened today. He listened to every word I was saying. “Ok son, first things first. I know this is new to you as well but you have to accept that some people have questions. I know it’s annoying but you have to deal with it. What you told your teacher was your right to tell her. If she really got detention for you I would have told her to back off or she would’ve dealt with the school board.” “No dad, I don’t have to deal with it ‘cause if they have a question or an issue with that that’s not my problem at all. Nolan and I just want to be handed like every other couple. And if they don’t stop with that I’ll ignore them or get angry. Why do we have to deal with this shit when no other couple have to deal with it? Just because it’s new for them and not ‘normal’? We don’t care what they think. We just want to be left alone. That’s all we’re asking for.” I told him getting really annoyed about the whole topic. “You’re right, Mike but just wait a few days and everything will get back to normal. I’m sure about that. Maybe Monday nobody really cares anymore. Just calm down and enjoy the weekend.” He said to me. “Can Nolan stay the night dad?” I asked him but it was more like begging. He smiled at me “If his mother got no complaints and I can call her I don’t see a problem.” I jumped and before finishing dinner I called him. We talked a little and he told me he can stay the night if his mother can talk with my dad. I just laughed and told him about what my dad just said. We said goodbye and handed the phones to our ‘rents and they talked for about 20 minutes. I wanted to know what they are talking about but I was too happy that Nolan can stay the night. After they hung up my dad told me Nolan would be here in about an hour and I have to clean up the mess I call my room. He giggled about his last comment and after cleaning the table I got to my room, cleaned everything and got a quick shower before head down to wait for my boyfriend to arrive. I can’t wait to just cuddle up with him in my bed and make out a bit. This would be our first night together.
  9. TimmY92

    First times

    First times Nolan was a little late and my nervousness hit the max level. When he finally arrived I calmed down a little. I thought he couldn’t come anymore but now I can hold him. Now I can kiss him. And the best part of him being here is that I can do all that until tomorrow afternoon. I couldn’t be any happier. We took his backpack to my room and changed in more comfortable clothes and got back just in time for the Friday night movie on the TV. My dad already sat on the couch and waited for us. Still with a little awkward feeling to show affection in front of my dad we cuddled up while watching. The awkward feeling put on to hold and this just feels right. I can cuddle with my boyfriend in front of my dad and don’t have to hide my secret anymore. While the movie goes on Nolan and I made out a little until we both fell asleep around 9.30 pm. When the movie ends my dad woke us and told us to go to bed if we can’t stay awake. “Lets go to bed, Mike. I’m not really tired anymore but I want you all for myself.” Nolan whispered in my ear. We got up, said goodnight to my dad who hugged both of us and went to my room. Nolan sat down on my bed and said “I really think it’s too early to actually do it but we really have to talk about this. What do you think about sex?” I’m stunned for what he asks me “Ehm. I don’t know. I didn’t really think about this. Sure I think about sex, actually a lot but why are you asking something like that?” He looked me in the eyes “’cause I really want to do it with you. I want to try everything with you but I also think we should wait with that. We’ve known each other for just a few days and I don’t want to destroy this because I really love you, even when this is new to both of us.” “In the last few days I really thought a lot about sex with you but this is not what I want from this. I want you and if we’re both ready we can have sex. I just want to hold and kiss you. Right now it is all I really want.” I told him and it was true. At least most of it. Sure I want sex with him, even right now but I’m also scared about that. I never tried anything like that. “I’m glad you think like me, Mike. I want this to last. I want to learn everything about you and I want to tell you everything about me.” I sat down on the bed on his side, hugged and kissed him deeply. I then said “Lets get ready for bed and start to get to know each other. How does that sound?” He just nodded and we got to the bathroom to brush our teeth and take a leak before going back to my room. We got down to our boxers and got into my bed and snuggled up. Then we began to talk about us and about our lifes. I told him everything about me I could think of. I told him about my family and about my mom and while talking about her I shed some tears which he gently wiped away. Then he told me about his life in San Francisco, his friends back there, about his father and the rest of his family. He told me how much he missed his dad but he didn’t really lost him like I lost my mom. His dad is still alive but in a way he died when he left his son and his wife. With tears in his eyes he told me about the letter he wrote to his dad and what he hoped would happen. “Let us stop talking about sad stuff, please. I’m here with you and want this night to be a happy night. In a way sharing this with each other it makes me happy but sad at the same time.” He said to me in his hypnotizing low voice and we then talked about school, my old friends Dan and Nate who also getting Nolan’s new friends. “Dan never told me about his uncles and I really don’t know why. Maybe we could ask him sometime why he never told me about them. I thought I know his entire family. I even know the uncle who he talked about but it never occurred me that he is a married gay man.” I told Nolan. We stopped talking and started the fun. Kissing him while holding his almost naked body sent shivers through my body. I got hard in an instant when we first started. I didn’t want him to know I’m that aroused so I lightly drifted away from him but he already noticed. “Don’t sweat it, hon. I’m hard as well. I really wanna do stuff with you but we really should wait.” He said to me and even while it’s dark in my room I knew he smiled at me. I then cuddled up with him again and he really was hard. I could feel it. We made out for another half an hour when we finally stopped and drifted off to sleep. Cuddled up with the boy you love is the best feeling in the world. This is the first time I cuddled with another boy in my bed drifting off to sleep. Sure, Dan and Nate slept over around a hundred times but we never cuddled. We briefly even touch. On occasion we woke up with an arm draped on the body of the other but never cuddling. With Nolan in my arms and hearing him breathe very low as he drifted away felt just right. I don’t really want to stop this. I really want to hold him until I die someday. Eventually I fell asleep as well and as I woke up the next day he was still in my arms. I watched him sleep for about another half an hour. He looked so peaceful and sweet. I noticed he slowly woke up and I got the urge to kiss him and as I did he opened his eyes and looked at me. “Good morning sweety. This feels nice. Nobody woke me up like this. I want this every morning now, you know that?” He said and I started kissing him again. Another 10 minutes we just caressed each other and kissed until our stomachs grumbled and the urge to empty the bladder could not be stopped anymore. So we got up and went to my bathroom. I never really saw him completely naked but now as we both approached the toilet he just dropped his boxers and tried to pee with his wild morning wood. Actually staring I tried to get conscious again and did the same after a few seconds. “You are so beautiful.” I said to him standing beside him and looking in his eyes. He really is beautiful. I want to see him naked all the time now. “Don’t you think I’m a little small? Look at you. You are way bigger than me.” Sure, I’m a little bigger then him but that doesn’t matter but was he really concerned about his penis size? “You are not small. A few months ago I was the same. We are both still growing. And I really think you are beautiful. Don’t ever question that again, please.” I said to him in my lowest and most loving voice I could manage. He smiled at me “Thank you. You are too. And I try but all I ever heard in school is that I’m small and skinny.” I got closer to him and simply kissed him. That should tell him how I feel about that. “I love you, Nolan. Size doesn’t matter. Not for me. I love you and not the size of your penis.” I said to him and leaned against his chest to hear his heartbeat. I was curious to know what he feels about what I said to him without using words. His heart was racing and as I got up and hugged him close I could feel it steel beating. After a few minutes it calmed down and we went to the kitchen to get something to eat. As we approached the hallway I could smell bacon. Was my dad already awake and was making breakfast? He never did that before. Never. Normally I got up before him and fix it for us while he slept in late. “Good morning boys, I hope you slept well?” He looked up and smiled at us. We were still only in our boxers but he never complained about that. Just men who sit down at the table very comfy. “Mornin’ dad, yes, we slept really well.” I said to him while looking at Nolan who nodded and I added “Why are you already awake? It’s 8 am and you never stay up ‘till 10.” He smiled at me and said “You’re right but I have something to do this morning so I’m leaving after breakfast. You boys got the house for yourselves for at least 3 hours.” Now I knew what he was up to. He wanted to give Nolan and me some space. We sat down and eat our breakfast. My dad made a really good omelet and bacon. After clearing our plates he stood up and excused himself and walked out of the house. Now we got the house for us and could do whatever we wanted to do. At first we cleaned the little mess we produced while eating and after that Nolan suggested we could get a shower. I was getting nervous. Sure, I saw his penis and he saw mine, hard as well and that’s why I don’t know why I was getting nervous. He sensed my feelings and got close to me and hugged me. He took my hand and guided me to the bathroom. I went to get some towels while he started the water in the shower. Now my own heart was pounding like hell. What am I fearing? We’re not going to do anything. It’s just a shower with the boy I adore so much. With the boy who melted my heart every time he looked into my eyes and smiled with those crystal white teeth. As I got back to the bathroom I could hear the shower already splashing water and as I got inside I could see that Nolan was already inside the tub. Smiling at me when he saw me he motioned to me to come over. I quickly pulled my boxer down and climbed into the stream of hot water to the side of my really hot boyfriend. This is the first time I saw him completely naked. While peeing this morning I just saw his throbbing morning wood but now I could see him in all his glory. “You’re just staring at me or do you want to help me?” He teased me and I took the hint and started to work my hands around his body. After he shampooed his hair and rinsing of I did the same with my hair. Before I finished with my eyes still closed I could feel him leathering my body. He said I have to let my eyes shut. I nodded as he cleaned every spot of my body. I got hard in an instant and even while we said we don’t want to do stuff with each other he even cleaned my throbbing dick. An electric shiver went through my body when he first touched my steel erection. Nobody ever touched my dick before. Not like this. I was getting close and I told him to stop before I start to make a mess in the tub. He giggled, stopped cleaning my dick but started with my butt. Damn it. That felt so good and even as he stopped ‘cleaning’ my dick and was just caressing my butt I was getting even closer to cum. When he hit my tight little hole I screamed “Aaaaahhh, Nolan, fuck.” I then came. I came so hard that I could barely stand on my feet anymore and Nolan had to hold me. He rinsed of the remaining lather and said “I’m so sorry Mike. I didn’t meant to do that. Please don’t hate me.” I got back to the world when I noticed he looked scared into my eyes. “Everything is fine babe. I just never saw that coming. I still love you, you just surprised me a little.” I said to him looking into his eyes. It was true. I was shocked what he just did but I couldn’t be mad at him for something felling as good as this. “I really don’t know why I did that, Mike. Please forgive me.” He said to me looking away from me trying to get out of the shower but I didn’t let him. I stopped him and started to gently caress his body while lathering him up. Now he looked as surprised as I had to be looking while he did the same to me. I started with his upper body and slowly went further down until I reached his rock hard erection. I started to masturbate him with my right hand and used my other hand to massage his balls. He begged me to stop or he would cum. I didn’t listen and just went on. I could feel his orgasm approaching and as he moaned louder and started to scream a little bit he shot his cum in my direction. The cum was washed away before I could really see it on my body because of the water but I absolutely loved the feeling that his sperm hit me after I got him to cum. “I love you Nolan and now you see that there is nothing to forgive.” I said to him while holding him in my arms. After a few seconds of recovery he looked at me and shyly smiled at me “You didn’t have to do that just because I did it to you.” “I know but I really wanted to do that for you. I could see that you needed it as well as I needed it. To hell with waiting. We both know that we want each other. We couldn’t even hold our promise for 24 hours.” I said starting to laugh. He then began to laugh as well and finished rinsing off. We then stepped out of the tub and dried our bodies. Without putting on new underwear we went to my room and got into bed. We cuddled up against each other and started kissing. The whole time we never really lost our erections so we just started the next session. This time though we masturbated each other at the same time. We both reached the point of no return at the same time and he shot his load out just a second after me. We both knew we wanted more. Not right now but we wanted each other as often as possible because this feels too good to wait until we could do that again. “Damn Mike, I couldn’t believe we just did it again. I never felt like this in before while jacking off. I love you so much.” He said to me and kissed me deeply. We never got to French kisses before but as he opened his mouth a little I slipped in my tongue and as he noticed what I was up to his tongue glided against mine. He tasted so good and I didn’t want to stop but after just 30 seconds we needed to breathe. “I Love you too Nolan. I never want to get out of bed again with you. Those hours with you were the best in my life and I can’t wait to get more of time with you.” I said to him and after we both got our Breathe back we started kissing again. This sleepover was the best thing I have ever done. So much ‘first times’ that I can’t wait to explore more of that with Nolan. I just hope we’ll get more time with each other. But I also worried a lot about Dan and Nate. Am I going to lose them because I won’t spent much time with them anymore? Are they going to be upset about the time I want to spend alone with Nolan? I really need to talk with them. As a matter of fact, we already agreed to hang out later at Dan’s. I also need to ask him about his uncles. Right now I just want to enjoy the time Nolan and I got left alone. I didn’t notice falling asleep again but a light knock on my door got my conscious back. Not giving an answer the door opened and my dad stepped in. He looked at us with a little smile on his face when I realized we were still naked and not covered. I managed to get the covers up what wakes up Nolan and he looked at me with a questioning look. He then saw my dad and froze. “Sorry to wake you boys up but Nolan’s mom already called. Dress up and come down please.” He said to us and left the room. “Your dad just saw us naked Mike. Shit. That shouldn’t have happened.” Noland said with a scared sound in his voice. “Calm down babe. If he really is upset about this he would’ve said something when he saw us. Just calm down and stop worrying.” I tried to calm him down but he stood up and hectically began to start to dress. I followed suit and after we finished dressing we went down but he didn’t stop walking. “I’m sorry Mr. Thompson. Goodbye.” He walked to the door but my dad just said “Nolan, please wait.” And with that he stopped but didn’t look back at him and my dad started to speak again “You didn’t do anything wrong Nolan so don’t act like you just killed someone. As a matter of fact is was a young boy too a few years ago. Sit down with us and let us talk about this. You mom will pick you up in 30 minutes. She wants to go to the mall with you.” Nolan didn’t move so I went to him and led him to the kitchen table. Still holding his hand we were sitting at this table and my father told about his time when he was about our age and what he did. We both felt embarrassed but listened to what he had to say. “You don’t have to worry about that Nolan. It’s perfectly normal for boys your age to do stuff like that. I see that you two love each other and I never got that experience with another boy but I’m sure you didn’t do anything wrong ‘cause you both sit here still holding hands. I don’t know what gay sex is all about so I can’t answer most questions about that but if you have a question you can always come to me, both of you.” My dad said when the doorbell rang. He stood up walked around the table and kissed both of us on the forehead and went to the front door. Nolan’s mom came in and talked a little with my dad and asked what happened after she saw the looks in our faces. “Nothing happened. We just needed a little chat about some confusing stuff.” My dad told her and she just nodded. Nolan stood up and wanted to walk over to her to go but I stopped him, embraced him in a hug and kissed him goodbye. He smiled a little at me and walked out of the house following his mom. I can’t wait to see him again. I already miss him and he just left a few seconds ago.
  10. TimmY92

    The new life

    Lets hope for the best for him. Its a bad way of his dad to 'disown' him but with Mike he got a little distraction at least.
  11. TimmY92

    The way home

    Thank you, i'm using metric 'cause i'm from germany and don't know what to use. I only know what an inch is.
  12. TimmY92

    The way home

    The way home After school, Dan, Nate, Nolan and I met at my locker to go home. We all live in the same neighborhood and can walk together. My emotions at this point were out of control. I don’t really know what to feel. Happy that I don’t have to hide me anymore in front of my friends or should I be scared that the people I don’t want to know about me could find out? As we walked out of the schoolyard Nolan sensed my feelings and asked me “Hey dude, what’s wrong? You seem very silent the past few minutes.” “Heh? Ohh. Sorry, my head is driving me crazy. I don’t know what I can do now. My friends know about me and that’s really good. But I’m scared that my dad finds out. I don’t know what he thinks about gays. And I’m his only son. He’ll be disappointed, I know it. That freaks me out.” I told him. “Don’t freak out. I don’t like the look in your eyes when you’re like that. I like it better when you smile at me. If your father really loves you he’ll understand. But if you don’t want him to know about you, you can still keep it a secret. But what if he is like your friends and knows about you? You can tell him when you’re ready.” He said to me walking close beside me. “I know. And that’s why it’s so scary right now. If he knows why don’t he speaks with me about it? If he knows why didn’t he treat me like nothing happened?” That’s the only thing I’m thinking about. And I hate it. I shouldn’t be so scared. “’cause nothing happened, Mike. You’re the same person you have always been. You just like boys instead of girls. You will do the exact same things what you did before you knew. And there is nothing wrong with you. I know those feelings. I was in the same fucked up situation but it worked out and anybody who got a problem with me or my way of life can go to hell. I don’t want those people in my life. Think about it.” What he said makes sense. But it is still a lot to think about. I can’t just go to my father, tell him that I like boys and if he can’t accept it he should go to hell. That’s my father and not someone on the street that I just met. I really need to think about it when I’m in my room tonight. Dan and Nate are a few meters away from Nolan and me and talking. I don’t know what they are talking about but I really don’t want to know. I really want to be close to Nolan. The fact that I just came out to my two friends is still in my head but so is Nolan. As we walked we spoke a little bit about his life in San Francisco and about living an openly gay life. He told me that he once got a boyfriend back there but they just hold hands and kissed a few times. Sure, it’s the only thing I can think about when I see Nolan. I want to hold him. I want to kiss him. But what if he’s not interested in me? I can’t really risk that. At the next corner Nolan said “This is my house. You guys want to hang out later? If you want you can come by at 5.” “Sure, sounds good. What do you want to do? Just hang out, listen to music and play video games?” Nate asked. “Yeah, that would be nice. I got some nice games. Just come by.” Nolan said. Nolan asked me if he can get my mobile number and I eagerly gave him my number. Then we said goodbye and he stepped closer. I don’t know why but I hugged him and kissed him on the cheek like he did today. He looked surprised like Dan and Nate. I just blushed, said goodbye and walked away with some looks back to him. Damn, I just hugged and kissed him. On the fuckin’ street. It was just a kiss on the cheek. But still, everybody could have seen it. I hope nobody saw it ‘cause I would be in deep shit with that. I was shaking like I’m freezing. Dan and Nate walked on my sites and looked still a little bit surprised. “What was that? You just kissed him.” Dan asked. “I know. I don’t know why I did that. It just felt right.” I honestly answered. It really felt right but after the kiss I got really scared about someone seeing what I just did. “Do you like him? Damn, what a stupid question. Sure you like him, otherwise you never would’ve kissed him.” Nate said. Yes. Yes. Yes. I like him. I like him very much to be honest. But what can I tell them? But my mouth is faster than my brain. “Yes, I really like him. Since I first saw him today in class. I never felt like this before.” I said and added with a sigh “I think I’m in love.” “Wow. That’s fast. You want to tell him?” Dan said. “What? NO, I can’t just go to him and tell him I’m in love with him. Not today. I’m still freaked out about everything that happened today.” I told him. “Sure, today was tough for you, but look, I think he likes you too. So don’t waste time. Ask him out later.” Nate said. We stopped at my house and I said “Maybe. I have to think about it. You want to come in for some time? My dad is still working and I don’t really want to be alone right now.” “Sure.” Both of them said and we walked into my house and then into the kitchen. I got 3 cokes out of the fridge and gave each of us one. After some of that coke we went up to my room and watched some TV till they had to head home for dinner. My dad is always back home at 3 pm so I have to cook our dinner. I got the chicken breast and the potatoes out of the fridge. I sliced the potatoes and put them into the oven and fired up the grill and grilled the chicken. At 3 pm sharp my dad opened the door and walked in. Dinner is just ready. “Hey dad, how was work today?” I asked like always. “Hey son, same shit like every day. Nothing special. What about you? How was school?” he answered. “Same thing like every day. But we got a new kid to school. He seems nice and Dan, Nate and I got along pretty good with him. We’re going to hang out at his place at 4. He just moved here from San Francisco into the next street.” I told him. I really don’t want to tell him everything what happened. “Sounds good. But don’t be late tonight. You got school tomorrow. I expect you home at 8.30 the latest.” I just nodded and played with my meal while thinking about what happened today. As my dad finished his plate he saw that I didn’t even start mine and he looked at me suspicious and asked “Son? Everything ok? You seem a little bit out of place right now.” I looked up and said “Yes. I just have something to think about, that’s all. Don’t worry.” “But I do worry. That’s my job as a dad. You know you can talk to me about everything? And I really mean everything.” He said and smiled at me. I just nodded and walked to my room. What does he mean with ‘I really mean everything’? Does he know? I don’t think he meant sex ‘cause we already got ‘The Talk’ a few months ago. This whole thing is so confusing. Why can’t I just live like I want and don’t have to hide anything? Yes, I like boys and I really don’t like the fact that I have to hide it. It’s who I am. But if I tell him and he can’t accept me for that? What am I going to do? This is so fucked up. I need to know what I have to do. Am I going to hide it any longer or just tell the world? Maybe Nolan can help me with that. Nolan, sigh. Shit, I forgot the time. It’s already 3.55 and I have to change clothes and walk to him. I changed my clothes as fast as I could and ran to the door. My father stopped me and said “Have fun. And remember, don’t be late.” I just nodded and stormed out of the door and up the street. A few meters before I got to Nolan’s house I stopped and gained some oxygen. As I walked to his door my heart pounded in my chest. Not from running but because I can see Nolan again. I pressed the doorbell and waited till his mom opened the door. “Hello, you have to be Mike?” she asked and reached her hand out to me. As I took her hand I said “Yes ma’am, I’m Mike, I met Nolan in school today and we wanted to hang out a little while.” She nodded and led me into the house. The house was not really big but I would call it ‘cozy’. She said Nolan is in his room and I can just walk up. As I walked up the stairs and to his room I got really nervous. I didn’t hear any noises from his room. Aren’t Dan and Nate already here? I’m 5 minutes late. Maybe they will join in a few. I knocked at the door and Nolan said I can come in. My brain couldn’t believe what my eyes just saw. He sat on his bed in only his shorts. I must have looked very crazy because he said “Don’t drool on the floor, dude.” And grinned at me. This was so embarrassing for me. What do I do now? Should I go to him and sit beside him? Or should I sit on the floor? “Come here and sit on the bed. Are Dan and Nate on their way?” he said. “Don’t know. I thought they are already here ‘cause I’m a little late. They’re never late. Maybe Dan’s ‘rents gave him some chores to do.” I told him still a little embarrassed about what happened. “Ok. We can wait for them. You want to watch a movie? I got some nice stuff on my Netflix list.” He asked. “Ehhm. Before that, can I ask you something?” He nodded and I told him about what my dad said at dinner and about what bothers me. He listened to everything I told him and sometimes he nodded or smiled at me. “Ok. First thing, maybe he knows, maybe he doesn’t. But don’t freak about it. He can’t do anything to change what you are. If he really loves you he’ll accept you for who you are. If he doesn’t he can’t just throw you out of the house. He is still your father. And from what you told me he loves every bit of you. You’re his only son. If you don’t feel comfortable telling him then don’t do it.” Nolan said to me. “But I can’t hide this my whole life. He’ll be disappointed ‘cause I didn’t tell him. Why is this shit so confusing? Why can’t I just be normal?” I just let my emotions free and cried like a little baby. The second time today. That’s so fucked up. But Nolan just smiled at me, came closer and wiped my tears out of my face. His fingers are so smooth and his touch send an electric shiver through my body. He looked me into the eyes and then it happened. Out of instinct I kissed him. Not on the cheek this time. I kissed him on the lips. It felt so awesome. His lips are so soft. After some seconds we broke the kiss and he smiled at me and blushed a little. I think I turned crimson at this very moment. I was shaking like hell and couldn’t believe what I just did. But Nolan sensed my feelings and came closer and kissed me this time. This time the kiss ended after an eternity. At least it felt like that, but in real life it was about half a minute. Now I know I want to kiss him more. But someone knocked at the door and we separated from each other. “Come in.” he said loud and his mom came in. “You boys want something to drink? I have cold cokes, OJ and water.” She asked We both said “OJ, please.” At the same time and giggled about that. “Ok, I’m back in a few.” And she left the room. After about 3 minutes she came back with some cold OJ and some cookies. At this moment I calmed down a little and I smiled at Nolan. I just have to look into his eyes. Those hazel brown eyes got something why I can’t look away. As he looked up and saw me looking he smiled. “You know. The first time I saw you today I knew I liked you. Now I learned something about you and like you even more. I don’t know why but I think I’m in love with you. That never happened to me before. Sure. I was in love before but not at first sight like with you. I hope you don’t hate me for that.” Nolan told me and I couldn’t believe what he just said. Before I could say anything I swung my arms around him and kissed him again. We made out about 4 minutes till I had to breathe at least a little bit. “I got exact the same feelings when I first laid my eyes onto you. Do you want to be my boyfriend?” Did I just ask him if he want to be my boyfriend? What the hell? Like always my mouth was faster than my brain. He smiled at me a little bit shocked but nodded and kissed me. We didn’t hear the doorbell and the light knocks on the door and we were a little surprised when Dan and Nate suddenly stood in the room looking at Nolan and me still kissing. Shocked and embarrassed we broke the kiss and swung around to sit on the bed. “Sorry we disturbed the fun. We can leave if you guys want some privacy.” Dan chuckled. “Don’t leave. We just thought you guys won’t come anymore.” I said to them. “My mom gave me some chores to do and Nate helped me. Sorry for coming a little late. Looks like you wanted to watch a movie. Let’s get started then.” Dan said Nolan told them they could sit where they wanted and they positioned themselves in front of the bed on the floor. Nolan started the film and after a few minutes Dan asked “You told him, Mike?” Nolan looked into my eyes and I shook my head no. The questioning look on Dan’s face was very obvious. “He didn’t told me anything first. I told him. I really, really like him. And we just got carried away a little.” Nolan giggled to Dan and I blushed a little. “Seems like you to hit it off at the first day. I’m happy for you two.” Looking at me he added “Are you going to tell your dad?” Why he had to remind me on that? AAAAAHHHHH. My dad knows I got something on my mind. I can’t tell him. Not right now. “I’ll tell him. But I don’t know when. I can’t just go to him and tell him ‘hey dad, I’m gay and by the way, I got a boyfriend.’ He would freak out. I need to think about it.” At this moment I just wanted to snuggle up on Nolan. While we kissed his body felt so good against mine. His scent was intoxicating. I think he sensed my feelings, ‘cause he came closer to me and hugged me tight. He then looked into my eyes and kissed me again. He kissed me in front of my friends. This is so confusing but this just feels so right. “Ok you two lovebirds. Lets watch the movie.” Nate giggled and we stopped kissing me. Nolan cuddled beside me and we watched the movie. I’m so happy right now. I got a boyfriend and I got my first kiss today. Ok, I have to deal with my dad but right at this very moment I couldn’t be any happier. At 8.20 we said goodbye to Nolan and I even kissed him one more time before we left his house. On the way home Dan, Nate and I talked a little about today and they told me that they’ll have my back forever. I am so relieved that the day ended with this happy feeling in my got. When I got home I went straight to my bathroom, brushed my teeth and went to bed. I already missed Nolan in my arms. I can’t wait to hold and kiss him again. Lets see what the next days will bring up.
  13. TimmY92

    The new life

    The new life I started the day as always. Get up at 6.30 am, try to pee with my morning wood, get a fast shower, step into my clothes for the day, walk down to the kitchen and chewing in the food my mom prepared every morning. But my whole life changed since I told my dad that I’m gay. He abandoned me without a word. I still feel sad about this. I can only hope he gets his shit together and comes back to us. But right now I’m just happy. I fell in love with this beautiful boy I just met 2 days ago. Mike. Even his name sounds sweet. My stomach makes a front flip every time I think about him. I walked into the new school that day I met him with a really bad feeling in my guts. I was led to the class where the teacher introduced me and the first face I saw was Mike’s. I instantly fell in love with him. I don’t know why but I could feel that he just felt the same. The looks in his eyes said everything I needed to know. Like yesterday I got out of the house and Dan, Nate and my sweet boyfriend waited for me to step out of the house. That sounds so right. My boyfriend. I can’t say or think that enough and as I saw him my stomach made another front flip. We greeted each other but this time I didn’t kiss Mike. I saw on his face that something was bothering him. As we walked we separated from Dan and Nate and I asked him if everything is ok. “Yes baby, everything is ok. I was just thinking about something.” He told me. “Tell me!” I smiled at him. “I really want to shout to the world that I got the cutest and sweetest boyfriend someone could get and that I love you but I’m scared. This is all new for me and after the incident yesterday I don’t know If I can just kiss or hold you like I can at home or at your house. What do you say about this?” he said to me in a very serious tone. “I know that this is a really tough topic and I don’t really know what to do. I mean, I can’t really hide my feelings for you in the class or the hallway. And I know that you got the same problem. If you don’t feel comfortable about this we can try and hide it in school. I don’t really care who knows about me but I care about you and your concerns.” I said to him looking deep in his beautiful crystal clear blue eyes. “Damn it, I really have to think about something stupid like this when you got those issues with your father in your mind. Your problems are way bigger than my little anxious attacks. But let’s just hide it a few days so I can think about it a little.” He said. “Don’t feel bad about this. The problem with my dad will work out. If he loves me he’ll come back and if not I’ll live on. And by the way, you just make me happier than I ever could have dreamed about. I felt so bad when I first stepped into the school but at the moment I saw YOU I calmed down and I knew everything will work out just fine. Don’t worry about my dad. And if you want to kiss or hug me in school just do it. If not than kiss or hug me at home.” I said to him and he began to smile. “I really missed you last night. I don’t know why but I really wanted to sleep into your arms. Can you ask your mom if you can stay the night at the weekend? But only if you want to.” He said to me and I smiled at him. Does he want to have sex with me or does he only want to hold me and kiss me? Whatever he wants I’ll do it in an instant. “I ask her later ‘cause I really want to cuddle with you. Damn it. We already got to school. So, this is the last chance to tell you this: I love you my sweetheart.” I looked around and when I was sure nobody looked I planted a little kiss on his cheek. “I love you to, babe.” He said to me blushing. I hope this day will work out just as the last day but without the beating I got. My nose still hurts a little. But my knight in shining armor will be on my site the whole day. First period is homeroom like always and we got through it without problems. At lunch after 2nd period we sat together and were talking when a girl approached us I noticed earlier in homeroom. She went to Mike and said “Hey Mike, I wanted to ask you if you want to go out with me sometime.” She blushed a little and added nervously “You know, I really like you.” He looked shocked at what she just said. “Ehm, sorry Amanda but I’m out of the market.” He looked at her with a shy smile. She looked surprised at him and asked “Who is she? Or are you saying this ‘cause you don’t like me?” “I won’t tell you who it is and no, I really like you, but not in this way.” He nervously told her but one look at her says the she doesn’t believe him. “Liar, just tell me who she is. If not I assume there isn’t anybody and you just don’t like me.” Shit, now he is trapped. What is he going to say? I looked at him and he got this scared look in his eyes that I noticed a few times the past 2 days. But what came next surprised everybody. He leaned in to me and kissed me. He kissed me in front of the whole school and especially the girl who just announced that she likes him. Damn it. Her eyes told everything. There was no disgust but a whole lot of disappointment. She looked angry at him and after we broke the kiss he said “Sorry Amanda, but I love him. I know you’ll hate me from now on but it’s who I am.” Still with an angry look on her face she said “I don’t hate you but somehow I knew it. Nobody ever saw you with a girl and I really wanted to know if I’m right. Sure, I’m disappointed but I can live with that.” She sat down at our table and after a few minutes she calmed down and smiled at us. Dan looked at Mike and said “Dude, you just kissed Nolan in front of the whole cafeteria. In fact you just outed yourself and him to everyone in school. Aren’t you afraid about that?” “I’m pretty scared right now but I knew I couldn’t hide it very long with Nolan around. They would’ve known by the looks I would’ve thrown at him and his looks at me and even I freak out about this, I don’t really care if I tell them all today or next week.” Mike told him and he reached for my hand and he added “I already talked about this with him. He got no problem if the school knows about us but he’ll hide it till I feel comfortable with it. But I doubt I’ll ever feel that way so I just took the opportunity.” He looked at me and kissed me a second time in school. Now I noticed some kids around who looked at us. A few with disgust in their eyes but the most with happy and approval looks in their faces. After the bell rang we got up and left for next period. Still a little bit shaky we walked hand in hand to our classroom and sat down. We got some stupid looks and someone said a few stupid things but after all nobody really cared. The teacher sensed something was up in class and asked what is going on and someone in the middle row told him that Mike and I are a couple. After a few seconds the teacher said down on his desk and told us to put away our math books. He then talked with us about homosexuality and other ways of life. Within 10 minutes it got into an open discussion and Mike and I were in the middle of it but the teacher fast told them that this is our thing and if we don’t want to talk about it we don’t have to. Finally the bell rang and we got up and left the class without much trouble. There wasn’t a big problem in the class but if 26 other students are talking about your love life it gets annoying. At Mike’s locker I asked him “Are you ok sweety?” He looked at me, smiled and said “Yes. Everything is fine. The last 2 days were my happiest but scariest days ever but I don’t regret anything ‘cause I’m with you and I love you.” He blushed and I kissed him for the 3rd time today in school and now in the crowded hallway. We still got some stupid comments but nobody really bothers us. After we broke the kiss I said “I love you too baby. I ‘m so happy right now. I’m in a new city and at a new school, got the sweetest boyfriend who I really love and I can kiss him in the hallway in school.” We then kissed for another few minutes when the bell rang again and we had to head out for next period. The rest of the day went the same way. I couldn’t believe they all accept us for who we are and my dad who lives in the gayest city in the world can’t even try to accept me. This is really fucked up but I had to live on. Otherwise I would be sad and depressed for the rest of my life and I don’t want that to happen. After school we teamed up like the last days and walked home but this time mike invited me over for dinner. I told him I’ll ask my mom when we were at my house. On the way we talked about some boy stuff like sports, girls, boys, music and holidays. At my place I ran inside and asked my mom if I can have dinner at Mike’s and she said yes but told me to be home at 8.30 pm. I nodded, ran to my room, tossed my backpack onto my bed and ran back down. I said goodbye to my mom and walked out with a big smile on my face. Mike smiled at me and we walked to his place holding hands like it’s normal. I can’t get enough of that. At his house we said goodbye to Dan and Nate and stepped in. After tossing away his backpack Mike asked me “Would you help me fix dinner for us?” I nodded and followed him to the kitchen and we started cooking. We made a big pot of Lasagna and 10 minutes before dinner is ready his dad came in and greeted us. “I see, I have to get used to see you more often now.” He said and smiled at us. Mike said “Yes. This 2 and a half past days were very hard. Even today something happened. A girl from our class came up at lunch and tried to ask me out for a date and even after I told her that I’m off market she wouldn’t believe me till I got annoyed and just kissed Nolan. I practically outed us in school today and nobody really cared. Even Amanda said she knew it and just wanted to know. I still can’t believe it.” His dad smiled, shook his head and said “I thought you wanted to wait.” I nodded but said “I really wanted to wait but it doesn’t matter if I do it in a week, a month or just today. The reactions would be the same and after coming out to Dan and Nate who already knew and you who obviously knew I didn’t want to hide anymore so I took the opportunity and came out at school as well. Maybe it was a mistake, maybe not but I don’t regret it.” After a few minutes dinner was ready and Mike brought the Lasagna onto the table and we started eating. While eating we talked a bit about family and Mike told me about his mom who died 6 years ago in an accident. He saw in my eyes and saw how I feel and said “Don’t feel sad honey, I miss her and it still hurts but it happened a long time ago. She would’ve loved you if I could introduce you to her ‘cause you make me so happy.” Tears running down my face he came closer and wiped the tears away, smiled at me and kissed me. “Sorry sweety, I can’t help it feeling sad about this. The problem with my dad seems so small against that. Damn it, I need to speak to him. What if I’ll never get the chance to tell him how I feel.” I said to him. I really need to talk to him or at least write him a letter. When I get home tonight I will write him a letter. After dinner we cleaned up together and Mike led me into his room. He turned on the TV and started a movie and laid down on the bed and waved to me to come to him. I laid beside him and we started to cuddle and started a little make out session while trying to watch the movie. At 8.20 his dad knocked at the door and told me to get ready to go home. I awoke and noticed that Mike and I both fell asleep while cuddling in bed and I really don’t want to stop that. We stood up and he walked me out of the house. Out in the open I told him I’ll write my dad a letter tonight and he nodded and wished me good luck will hugging me. We then said our goodbyes, our ‘I love you’s’ and kissed a last time without bothering anybody could see us boys kissing on the street. After 50 meters I turned around and waved at him. At home I talked a bit with my mom and told her what I’m going to do. She just said “That’s a good idea but be prepared that you could get no answer or a bad answer.” I nodded and walked into my room and sat down at my desk, pulled out a few sheets of paper and started writing: Hey dad, I know you don’t want to hear from me but I have to write you. The past 2 months were really hard because you left us without a word but I have to accept that you don’t want to be part of my life because I don’t live the life you wanted me to have. Sorry, but this is so stupid. This is the way I am and nothing could’ve changed that and this has nothing to do with you. If you can’t accept me then tell me what is on your mind and don’t run away like a little girl. Another ‘sorry’ for that but you could’ve just said anything but leaving us without a word is childish and you’re an adult. I still love you and I want you back in my life but if you can’t accept me for who I am you have to stay away. Finally I got happy in California. I like the school and I found a few friends the first days in the new school. I know you don’t want to hear that but I even fell in love with a boy in my class who is my boyfriend now. Right now I am really happy but there is still a big hole in my heart and only you can refill this hole. I never thought me being gay would be such a big problem for you. Damn, we were living in the ‘gayest’ city in the world and you never said a bad word about gay couples. I just hope you get your mind straight. I love you dad, Nolan I read the text a few times before I put it in an envelope, filled in my old address from San Francisco and put a stamp on it. First thing in the morning I would go and throw it into the mailbox on the way to school. I feel relieved that I wrote this. I never really thought about writing or calling him. I even gave him our new address if he wanted to visit, call or write us. I just hope he thinks about what he did 2 months ago. I really hope. But for now I just want to sleep. I’ll be happy to see Mike again in the morning.
  14. TimmY92

    Talk to me

    Talk to me I just got 3 or 4 hours of sleep ‘cause I had to think about Nolan and my dad the whole time. I couldn’t stop thinking. Thinking about my dad confused and scared me but thinking about Nolan just made me happy. I really miss him right now. If he only could sleep in my bed, I never would’ve a problem sleeping. At 6.30 am my alarm goes wild and I got up and was going to go to the toilet to release my bladder. I hate being in puberty, ‘cause my damn dick won’t stay down in the morning. Every morning I had to fight against it to pee and I hate everything about it. I then walked into the shower and started the water. The first cold streams of water flowed over my body and woke up my body. I do this every morning till the warm water begins to start. After drying myself up I got into my clothes I’ll wear over the school day. As I got to the kitchen my dad sat at the table and drank his coffee like every morning. He looked at me, said good morning and then locked eyes with me for a moment. “You look awful today. Didn’t you sleep at all?” he asked. “I sure slept a little but only for about 4 hours.” I answered. “Are you sure you’re ok? Since dinner yesterday you look like someone killed your dog.” He seriously said to me. “Yes. I just got something on my mind that don’t want to go away that easy. It’ll go away, promise.” I told him. “Ok, but If you need someone to talk about then just say so. Maybe I can help you.” I just nodded and I gulped down my breakfast, got my backpack and ran out the house. I don’t know why I can’t just tell him. It’s not like he is a homophobe, he is just my dad. Damn it. What if I just tell him tonight and get it over with? Then I don’t have to deal with this anymore. But it’s scary to tell him ‘cause I don’t know how he’ll react. Ok. I’ll tell him at dinner today. I have to. Walking up the street I saw Dan and Nate waiting for me. They saw me and waved into my direction but after a few meters they saw why I didn’t wave back. “Dude. What’s up? You look awful today.” Dan asked without even greeting me. “Don’t know. My mind is driving me crazy. One minute I think about Nolan and feel like the happiest person in the world and the next minute I think about my dad and freak out and get scared. I need to tell him and get it over with. Otherwise I’ll freak out tonight.” I told them. “If you have to then let me stay with you. I’ll got your back and you know that.” Dan told me with a serious voice. “He sensed something is up. This is freaking me out. I need to do that and yes. Please be there. I don’t know if I can deal with it when I’m alone.” I begged. “Sure. Just tell me when I have to be there.” I just nodded on his comment. As we got to Nolan’s house we stopped and waited for him to come out. It feels like we did this for our whole life. It just seems right. Nolan came out, greeted us and grinned at me. He came close, and gave me a little kiss on the cheek. I blushed a little but this time I didn’t stood there in shock. I just grinned and we then walked to school together. First period was homeroom so got in and waited for the teacher. After 20 minutes since the teacher came in Nolan asked if he could go to the toilet and the teacher gave him a hall pass. Now he was gone and I already miss him. I don’t like this feeling and I hope he’ll come back fast but after about 10 minutes I wondered why he didn’t show up again. I asked the teacher if I could go and check on him and she also gave me a hall pass. Going to the boys’ restroom I heard loud voices out of it and I fast ran inside. There were to Jocks beating the shit out of my boyfriend. “Go kill yourself faggot. Nobody wants you here.” One of them screamed and I instinctively ran up to them and tossed them away from Nolan. His nose was bleeding he hold his stomach. Until I turned 14 I practiced some self-defense sports and fought the two jocks away but they didn’t stop and started to beat me as well. After some minutes a teacher came in because of the loud noises and separated us. After explaining to him what happened we were led to the principal office. The two jocks got a 3-day suspension and the principal told us we didn’t do anything other than defense ourselves but he has to call our parents and tell them what happened. After he told us we can go we had to go to the nurse to get Nolan fixed up a little. The nurse told us we can stay there for the period that just started and calm down a little. Nolan lies on the mattress and without even thinking I grasped for his hand sitting on a chair beside him. The nurse looked at us with a confused look and I asked her if someone can tell Dan and Nate that we were here. She nodded and walked away. “You’re my hero, Mike. Thank you.” Nolan said, sat up and gave me a kiss on the lips. Can someone pinch me please? My boyfriend just kissed me in school and thanked me for saving him from more beating. Still holding hands we talked about what happened and why those two jocks started to beat him. He told me they assumed he is gay because he comes from San Francisco. They asked him if he want to suck their dicks and he just said ‘Sorry guys but I don’t like small dicks’. I couldn’t stop laughing about this. “You know that you’re insane, do you?” I snickered while asking him. “Yeah, I know. That was stupid ‘cause I was alone. I should’ve known better. I couldn’t stop saying that. And I’m not ashamed to admit that I’m gay. If someone asks me I’ll tell them.” He shrugged his shoulders and added “I hope you’re not mad at me.” “Mad? No, not about something like this. I care too much about you to get upset. I don’t know why but I feel like I’ve know you forever.” I said with a blushing smile. “I know it is too early to say that but it just feels right. I love you, Mike. I really do.” He said to me and that shocked me a little because I just feel the same way. “It’s not too early at all, ‘cause I just feel the same way. I love you too, Nolan.” And with this I leaned to him and kissed him passionately on his lips. We didn’t hear the nurse coming in but she said” Ok you two lovebirds. Time to get up and leave for lunch. I hope I don’t see your bums again in the next time.” She chuckled and got out of the room again. We just sat there and laughed ‘cause she busted us kissing. But it doesn’t seem wrong. It felt right and I hope someday we can do this in the open. But that’s in the future. At first I have to deal with my dad. Shit, he knows I got into a fight today and he knows why I got into a fight. There’s nothing I can do but tell him the truth. We got up and walked to the cafeteria and sat down with Dan and Nate and told them what happened. They looked angry but we told them the jocks got suspended and that this won’t happen again. I really hope that something like today will never happen again. The rest of the school day went past without anything happening. On the way home we talked about my dad and what I need to do and I told Dan that if he wants to help me he has to be at my place at 3 pm. At home I got dinner ready and just cooked a little more because Dan would come along and will eat with us. When my dad came home he doesn’t look very happy and I know exactly why. He greeted me and sat down at the kitchen table. A few minutes later the doorbell rang and I opened Dan the door to let him in. I told my dad I invited him over for dinner. They greeted each other and we began eating. After a few minutes my dad asked me what happened today and I told him what he needed to know at the moment. He said we didn’t do anything wrong and said he won’t ground me about this. Now I feel nervous. “Dad? There’s something else I need to tell you but I don’t really know how to tell you.” I said to him. “Just tell me. If you didn’t murder someone nothing can shock me.” He told me. “Just tell him, Mike.” Dan said. “Ok. Eehhm. Shit. This is not easy. Dad, I’m… I’m gay.” I finally got the words out. “Ok, son. Tell me something new.” Shocked I first looked at him and then to Dan. “What? You knew? How does everybody know about this? Why didn’t you talk to me? ‘cause I always freaked out when this topic came up in TV or someplace else.” I couldn’t believe he knew. Ok, actually I could believe it because I thought he might know. “You’re my Son, Mike. I’ve know it for years now and it’s not my place to talk about something like this with you. You have to come to me what’s bothering you. I knew the day will come and I appreciate you finally told me. And to calm you down, I’m not mad at you or disappointed. It’s the way you are and nothing will change that. You’re still my son and I still love you.” We then talked a little about the whole topic and why I have to be careful about what might happen in my life. There are people like those jocks that don’t like gay people and they’ll violently defend their opinion about being gay. “Does anyone knows about you other than Dan?” My dad asked. “Seems like everybody knows but only Dan, Nate, Nolan and the Nurse knows.” Shit. Why did I tell him about the nurse? “Why does the nurse knows about you? Did you tell her?” he asked. “Something like that.” I then said and blushed a little. “Ok now I know why. You got yourself a boyfriend, am I right?” he smiled at me. Blushing with a really dark red in my face I said “Ehm… Yes. I have a boyfriend. That’s why I had to tell you. I don’t think I could hide that when I’m with him.” “Since you don’t look at Dan the whole time and Nate is not here as well it has to be that new boy you just met a day ago? What was his name? Nolan?” He asked me and I just blushed more. “Yes, it’s Nolan. I don’t know why I tell you this but I fall in love with him at the very first moment he went into the class. And he felt the same. We met yesterday and talked a bit ‘cause Dan and Nate were pretty late and we got emotional and then we kissed. That’s why the nurse knows about me. We kissed in the emergency room and didn’t notice the nurse walking in on us.” I told him and felt relieved. “I’m really happy for you and I’m very proud of you that you got the guts to talk about all this with me.” Looking at Dan he added “And thank you for having my sons back.” Looking back at me he also said “I really want to meet the boy who stole the heart of my son. Can you call him and invite him over?” What? He wants to meet my boyfriend? OK, I don’t really have a choice anymore so I got up and called Nolan. Nolan: Hey sweety, did everything went well? Me: Hey, yes, everything worked out but he wants to meet you. Can you come over? I send you my location so you can find it. Nolan: Sure, let me talk to my mom I’m over in ten? Me: Sounds good. Did you just call me ‘sweety’? Nolan (giggling): Yes, ‘cause you’re sweet and I love you. Me (giggling): Ok, I love you too, cutie. Nolan: See ya in ten Me: See ya. I hung up the phone sent Nolan the address and got back to the kitchen. “He’s telling his mom and should be here in about 10 minutes.” “Ok, lets clean up the table and wait in the living room.” My dad said. We cleaned up the little mess from dinner and went to the living room. Before I could sit down the doorbell rang and I ran to the door to open it. There he was, the cutest boy of the school running into my arms and started kissing me deeply. When we calmed down a little from that passionate kiss I grasped his hand and we walked to the living room. My dad looked up and I said “Dad, this is Nolan.” My dad stood up, walked over to him and reached his hand. Politely Nolan did the same my dad introduced himself and told us to sit down. Nolan and I sat close together holding hands. My dad saw that and grinned at me. “Nice to meet you, Nolan. I heard what happened today in school and I’m happy my son could help you.” He said and then he started the whole ‘the world is dangerous’ thing at the beginning. After he finished Noland said “I know about all this but I’m not afraid about this. If someone has a problem with my lifestyle he don’t have to participate in my life. My dad was a homophobe and when I told my ‘rents he left without a word and we had to move to California where my aunt and uncle lives. It’s pretty tough but otherwise I never met Mike. Sure, I love my dad but If he can’t accept me for who I am I don’t need him in my life. The first 3 weeks after he left us were pretty hard for me and my mother but it had to be that way. I really miss him and if he wants us back I would be pretty happy but I have to live on without him.” Damn. I didn’t know that. In fact, I don’t really know much about Nolan. I just met him a day ago. “Sounds like you’re accepting that your father don’t want to live with his gay son.” My dad says. “I have to accept it. I can’t do anything to change his opinion when he don’t even want to speak with me. That happened 2 months ago and it’s still hard to believe he left us without a word but my mom and I are happy in California. And the best part about California is that I met this boy who saved my ass today.” he pointed out at me. Without even thinking I reached over and kissed him. Damn, this is all too new to me. I just kissed my boyfriend in front of my dad who I just told that I’m gay, but he just smiled at me and I blushed and backed up from Nolan. “Mike, you don’t have to hide your feelings in front of me. If you feel like kissing your boyfriend than just do it.” And then like every dad or mom he told us about sex. That’s a really good topic but I really don’t want to discuss sex with my dad but I couldn’t stop him. Damn it, why does he have to do that with my boyfriend in the same room. Dan, who sat on the other site of the couch just laughed the whole time while Nolan and I blushed like hell. “DAD, enough. I don’t want to talk about this with you. I didn’t even talk with Nolan about this. We just met a day ago. Calm down.” I yelled at him a little angry and embarrassed. My dad laughed and said “Ok Ok, good to know you won’t get him pregnant.” That was enough for and we all roared up laughing out loud. For the rest of the day we watched TV together and Nolan and I cuddled up on the couch with a few little kisses and some glances from my father and Dan. At 8 pm Nolan said he had to go home and Dan said the same. I told my dad I’ll walk Nolan home and will be back in about 30 minutes. He nodded and we got ready to leave. We said our goodbye to each other and Dan walked in the direction to his house and Noland and I walked in the other direction. We talked a little about what happened at the dinner and he just grinned at me and said “Told ya.” At his house he asked me inside to talk a little with his mom. He now introduced me as his boyfriend and we talked a little bit and she did the same as my dad. The damn ‘sex-talk’ but Nolan just stopped her and told her about my dad and what he said. After about 20 Minutes I had to leave and said goodbye to his mom and stepped out of the front door. Without thinking I stepped closer to him and kissed him goodbye like it’s the normal to me. “See ya tomorrow, baby. I love you.” I said to him. He looked into my eyes and said “I love you too, sweety. Can’t wait to see you again.” I then left and thought about the day and what happened. I still have a problem believing I just told my dad about my little secret, introduced my boyfriend to him and kissed Nolan in front of him. I can’t be happier. But one thing bugs me a little. The issue with his dad. I really hope his dad will get his problems together and will get back to him and his mom. I can’t wait to see Nolan again. I already miss him. But what am I going to do in school? Do I really want to let them now about Nolan and me? I really need to talk about this with him. Maybe we can work something out.
  15. TimmY92

    First sight

    Thank you. i wanted to let him deal with it in the first chapter. But only with his friends. The subject with his Father will come.
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