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Yo Kevin, This is really good so far, I'd give more but I'm still feeling the characters out and thats all your fault Nicky is still too mysterious for me to peg. He is at once charitable and scathing. Which is sorta perplexing but Ive seen the trait in real life. People helping people and complaining every step of the way. Not to mention what ever happend in his past that 'shattered' his life. I guess I'll have to wait to find that one out Donny and Beth, I found that bit slightly confusing, not that I dont understand the mechanics of it. Just in the first chapter it seemed to me like Donny was scared to death of being in the house alone with her and her inuendo, then the next we see they are in bed. They both seem very very caring though. Looking forward to more! Steve.. ps, u have to leave me a comment now thats how this works....

Ok, I can settle for that, OMG Ive finally written something that you like more then Bourbon? I don't believe it, honestly... but You misplaced them? Wow! I have never... Steve

HAPPY B"DAY Just wanted to throw my voice in with the crowd... Steve

Alright, So I just posted the first chapter of my ongoing rewrite. What was once Failure of the Heart has morphed into Living in Surreality. Im very interested in what everybody will think of it. What I have gotten back from my circle (darker, more sinister name pending ) has been very encuraging including the following bit I got from my editor concerning My worries about chapter five. Seriously an amazing story you have here! I can't wait to read more... you have this amazing ability to make everything seem surreal in the moment but then the emotion is very real. I can't help but smile when ever I read that, plus she helped with the whole nameing problem with that one little compliment. So Hugs to Viv Thanks for editing and putting up with me Now I hope the rest of you enjoy and send me a note letting me know, or if you dont shoot me a note and let me know whats wrong! Steve Well that was stupid! wrote this yesterday, forgot to publish... what can I say always a writer never a publisher...

No no aircompressor Did I say that? I must have been excited But yes there was a jackhammer and a generator. and yeah that was alot of equipment to haul for a three day trip but very very essential! we couldnt hack it with a regular old fire pit :pickaxe: Luckily we rented that equipment in Kingman, I t would have been a pain hauling it all the way in from soCal Thanks for enjoying the camping scene, Just thought Id throw some of my own experiances in there, while taking some liberty with acctual happenings! And about Jeff, yeah Jeff is based on an acctual relative... We'll just refer to him as Vegas Tony... Steve

Have I garnerd another 'good goat seal of approval'? Oh wait, need conner to chime before I can claim that! **waits paitently for conner...** Thanks CJ! and a bigger thank you for including a link in your sig! Camy! Thanks for reading and throwing your two cents in, Dont worry about Bourbon, I hear they are developing a 12 step program as always... Thanks guys! Steve

While I have yet to read Shane, (its on the short list I swear!) I think of everything Vance has offered so far Tyler is by far my favorite. I think its the character I find in Tyler that attracts me the most. Strong and compasionate in spite of the circumstances life has thrown at him. Good Job Vance!! Steve

Hello guys and gals! As some of you know Ive been working on a rewrite of one of my older projects. 1-5 have been completed and should be going up at a rate of one chapter every seven days, give or take a few days. Anyhow Im rather nervous about this one so Id love to hear what everyone thinks of it, some of you may have already read the rough copy in sneak peaks but the polished and final is avaible below. Living in Surreality Let me have it guys, All comments welcome good and bad! Steve

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Has anyone else had the misfortune, or good fortune, of knowing when a plot thread or indeed a whole story must die for its own sake? Just curious, I'm working on one of my older projects. Just finished chapter 5! YAY Anyhow, what I originally based the story on failed to pan out. Without that plot element its no longer the same story, just something inspired by the orginal. In the begining I fought off the notion that the plot was flawed, using the its my story to tell line. But as I have revisited it with new eyes I decided that indeed that was one spark of imagination that had to be snuffed out. Just curious if anyone else has had similar experiances... Steve

My frailty was you, perfectly damaged you. What was at first forever, slowly faded, into something more like maybe never. Yet I remained steadfast for you, shunning all else who came. For simply complicated you. Even when you said when we have nothing left to loose, I still remained true. I still do. I still do. My frailty is still you, and I have nothing left to lose, except, for perhaps you. The one thing I'd never wish to loose. That fate, however, has already come true. So now all I am left with is, my frailty of you. Did you think you were undeserving? Did I seem self serving? If either seemed true, it was neither of the two. It was always only you; impeccably, faulty, you. I loved my frailty of you. Somewhere I still do. I still do

Whoa! My head is spinning now! I too worry for all of the characters safety, yes Nick! Oliver as well! I think I have to read that chapter again Steve

...... starts proofreading.... again....

Hey Conner! Thanks for enjoying! Never seen a five-foot deep fire pit? ever? geez... I'll have to share pictures Either that or I just participate in extremem camping, which is probably true. The trip out at the begining of the summer we had to rent a jack hammer to break through rock so we could get the pit deep enough That was different, HEAVY, but different. And I was vibrating for the rest of the trip! lol, thanks again for enjoying. Steve

A Shot of Bourbon 4 is up! I hope yall read as this is the only place ya can! give me a shot with your thoughts and opinions! https://www.gayauthors.org/eficiton/viewsto...0&chapter=4 Steve

Ahh I see said the blind man.... I enjoy writing bourbon for that reason. Its the only story I write in the First person. So Im allowed to get into all of those descriptive feelings. Which brings up an interesting question Ive never really pondered. Is there more of me in Bourbon or more Bourbon in me? Hmm I guess I could say that he is my care free alter ego of sorts. Which mean some of my 'descriptions' might be a little telling ! LOL But ive always maintained if there was one character I could pull off the page to be a real person it would be Bourbon. I cant say I have those feelings for totally unselfish reasons! And from one inner wild existance to another..... good luck with getting it out into the open! If you ever do let me know the seceret! Hey Jalaki, Thanks for taking the time to read! and then wandering over to CRVboy! Im in the process of cleaning the stories up to be re published both on CRV and here in the Efiction section. Hopefully the story Im working on will be equally well recieved as Bourbon was and still is! Steve

Viv! Great story! too bad it took me this long to find it I especially liked your use of visuals from the skateboard to the birthday cake with its black and red decoration. You hinted at a continuation... If there is I'll read it, then again I think Id read anything you offered up! Steve

Thanks! and even bigger thanks for reading! Steve

Thanks! it does sort of fit him doesn't it? truth be told I was worried about that at first. I read somewhere that characters shouldn't have odd names that normal ones like Bill and Dave are just as good as any others. I can say though, ever since Steele Magnolia's I wont use steve as a character name. Nor will I ever mention track lighting in a story. Ok maybe I would for giggles alone. Also giving an update! Episode three House of the Mad Cow has been added! Whohoo one week till chapter four! Honestly let me hear some feed back on the latest guys! Steve

yeah thats it...... steve

This story is Horrible! Not the writing, The writing is superb! Not the premis, I always find stories that with homosexuality and religion intriuging. Its the whole situation Ian finds himself in. Who should ever have to hope for reform school as an escape? The are many characters to dislike Id say hate but I dont want to stoop to that venom spewing preachers level. I am however disapionted in Ian's English teacher. He showed such promise when he questioned Ians paper as if he knew something wasn't kosher. Then to turn around and tell the kid that looking at Ian made him sick? That was a horrible tresspass in my opinion. Definately looking forward to definately reading more... I need an outlet for my anger anyway! keep up the good work! Steve

Thanks Kevin! its good to be here! and well I might as well jump on the bandwagon because I always answered yes when my mother asked 'If all your friends jumped off a bridge would you too?' Heres a Fourth Welcome to Graeme! Steve

LOL Conner, Im glad you enjoyed! Im certinly glad you followed CJ's good goat seal of approval! (is there a graphic for that?? ) this next part is a bit embarassing.... I had to look up kinesthetics....... But, OH! I recieved an email when I first posted it to nifty... Apparently the reader had 'finished' as Bourbon did and felt it neccecery to share this detail with me. I guess thats as sincere a form of flatery as one could achieve. It was fun nevertheless. Thanks for reading! btw... Im still looking for a smiley with a cigarette....... when in doubt ==== Bourbon came about when I was writing Destiny of Time. I was hanging out in the niftywriters chatroom on nevernet IRC at the time. Back when JustinCase was still around. He and Rimpig where basically razzing me about the character names I had choosen. Demitri and Caleb (Im partial to Caleb.) At the same time Justin was pressuring me to write something that he could post on JustinsCorner. He wasnt a fan of scifi and couldnt read past the first chapter of Destiny. The next day I was at work on my lunch break when this kid came into the station wearing full riding garb looking dusty and just haggared by his morning ride. Fifteen minutes later I thought 'Bourbon! yeah Bourbon. They want to pick on my character names I'll give em something to pick about!' Thus Bourbon was born. Funny thing, no one ever razzed me about the name...... Steve