SilentandBroken

Ugh… I would lose my ever loving mind in that house. The twins parents..how awful are they!! The twins aren’t their children, they’re their collectibles. I don’t blame either of them one bit.

The sum ? Perhaps in part.

It absolutely is

Me too. I’m right there with you. I’m 45 now and some coming to age stories are …negative experiences and some are positive but resulting in what should’ve been for me. So I’ll live vicariously through those stories. I pulled myself out of the ashes of a horrendous teen years life and into a young adult life to have some semblance of stability now. I still struggle with my past trauma. Yes I’ve had professional help. I was pretty touch and go for a bit there. But to say I wear it like armor now? I have no idea. I’m just here trying to survive day to day without folding. I’m night and day better than where I was at my worst absolutely. But, none of my story happened overnight. Nor will I heal overnight either. I don’t have expectations that I will be 💯 healed ever because trauma doesn’t leave you. It does shape you going forward however. Does it define me? I don’t know. I don’t know if I’m the one to speak on that. Those in my inner circle might be better positioned to speak on that. That said, if I were a betting man, I’d say it’d be a split vote.

I won’t look at another swimmer now without thinking of that story

Tis is beginning to have a Dead Poets Society feel to it only Mr. Keating is a student named Jonah. i literally was cracking up at the exchange in the bedroom between Nick and Jonah. Then to have my emotions completely nearly wrecked with Mr.G. Sigh…this could go either way this “plan” Nick and Christian come up with. And it may not matter. Jack is in danger now . Nick needs to show those pics to the Dean and to his mother. Great chapter

I am really hoping those boys can help Joel learn to let his guard down some…that he can start to learn how to trust again. Right now, he’s still wanting to but scared & rightly so.

I think if Joel doesn’t warm up and open up to Celia very soon, the heat from his family will be too much for him to handle by himself. They’re not done giving him stress yet.

I think the brothers are exactly the thing Joel needs after that phone call. Shit even I was starting to feel the anxiety. Celia has put the numbers together and is waiting at half way for Joel to come to her. I have a feeling Joel is going to make a lot of ground up and start to open up.

Do I need to provide prove that bears shit in the woods? Because I can. Of course we want a sequel. 😂

He’s got like 5 out now. Each one a lyrical heartbreaker

MORE! Such a great chapter.

Oh my he’s cute but this hits. Grab you some tissues

Great story. I have to agree with the opinion of others here that Brett couldn’t get off the fence loss in himself. The idea that Brett loves Corey more than a friend but less than a lover is absolutely spot on. Had they stayed together the cycle would no doubt continue. This was the best ending possible

Well I mostly called it. I honestly expected Adrian to get beat worse and be in ICU. Still though, getting rocked by an iron fireplace poker on the side of your head can cause some serious serious damage. Adrian is lucky he didn’t catch him in the temple, as that likely would’ve killed him. Or cracked his skull. Adrian’s mother is also lucky she didn’t catch a beat down for siding with Adrian. Corey better watch his back. There’s no restraining order for him. As for Corey facing Brett, they need to come to an understanding. Brett needs to make up his damn mind. He forced the issue. He pulled away. I get why Brett’s mom was pissed. She wanted them to talk before the game so Brett could focus. She probably has idea what happened with Corey and Adrian prior to the game.

I agree. I feel Adrian’s father is gonna beat him and put him back on the hospital and this time, with serious injuries. Then he’s going to find Corey, which will be is last move. Corey’s dad will destroy him

First time reading this story but so far, I’m seeing Corey is happily in love with Brett but completely oblivious to Brett no longer feeling the same way. Brett tried a few times to talk to Corey, refusing his touch and advanced which here hard for him because he still cares for Corey and doesn’t want to hurt him. During the flashbacks of younger days, it seems Corey fell deeper in love with Brett while Brett found it harder to reciprocate Corey’s advances. Finally Brett couldn’t take it anymore and realized the only way to break away was to break Corey’s heart which he didn’t want to do either. Fooling around with that other girl at the party was low but I can see how Brett felt it would be easier than trying to continue to talk to Corey and have him see the writing on the wall. I feel for both boys here. As for Corey’s parents, his mother is abhorrent. Trying fix Corey by shoving more biblical crap at him is not the way to go. His dad was surprisingly not confrontational. How that plays out is going to have fireworks I’m sure.

He tried. Corey didn’t want to hear it. All he wanted was Brett’s ass.

Maybe he’s suffering from the same thing as me… CRS! Can’t Remember Shit! 😂

Yes thank you albeit not unscarred. I still deal with trouble sleeping, depression, terrible low self esteem, and anxiety but they’re manageable. I get by I guess. I could have made something more of myself so I’m told. But the talents as a musician and vocalist I have (er had) that were never realized and steered into direction to truly grow. Sigh..alas, it’s now a hobby whose flame has blown out and my heart is no longer in. There was a chance once or twice however. Opportunities not taken I guess. Close friends back then believed they’d see me on stage performing one day instead of bonfire concerts to a few friends but, as it goes, too many barriers including trauma made sure none of that happened. I’ve got a completely different life now that I’ve made peace with and for the most part am mostly content with. But still, you can’t help but wonder “what might’ve been” ya know? I’ll admit I was good. Maybe not good enough to even go big enough to stay on the local circuit or whatever but that was never why I did it. I did it to escape reality. To live out a dream in a dream I guess. I don’t know. Unfortunately all that takes funds and resources and space to play and practice etc etc etc. I was never encouraged by my family. They’re shallow and never shared any interests with me to pursue something like this. They never took the time to show me affirmation with their shallow affection. That’s not entirely their fault though. I kept all my shit to myself (because I was terrified of their reactions). They don’t know I’m gay. Having a narcissistic mother and a father who didn’t know how to show affection, held expectations and standards I knew I’d never please made it easier to stay quiet. Affirmation is someone with my affliction of C-ptsd desperately needed then even still at times now some 30 years later. Instead I quazi isolated myself at home while maintaining a decent grade for the most part. Never finished college. Now I hold a blue collar gig but keep to myself and work and turn away opportunities to still play at work parties where I could perform. People are just too shallow and judgey and sigh..yeah people suck. I’d much rather lurk and stay closeted and dream. It’s safer. But thank you for asking. I’m ok I guess.

As I said it may have been a different story and author. Ive read waaay too many 😂

I thought Nick’s dad was a police officer. I may have this confused with another story though. Harrison West can’t be cheap either for sure.

I feel like Nick’s mom is torn between her obligation as a Dr and that Nick is essentially self- sufficient, it allows her to work as much as she does. That said. She may too still be coping with the loss of her husband by diving into work. I don’t think she’d be able to as easily pull away from Nick if he were younger. Whereas Jack’s folks sound…well, let’s just say would replace Jack as their showpiece rather quickly if it came to it.

That said, I feel the need to add, in time, the truth will force you to acknowledge its existence. Whether it be by your choice or not, it will be known, one way or another.

You just described my life as a teenager to a T. It only took 25 yrs to catch up to me.