SilentandBroken

Sigh… yep 😭

My name says it all but I’m 43 now and living a very different life in the real world. I’m a suicide survivor and narcissist abuse victim and rape victim at 13 by said narcissist. I cannot thank you guys for this free group enough. This is finally what I’ve been looking for. A safe place to be open but still incognito. Much love to my closeted pansexual, gay and bi folks here. Hugs and peck on the cheek. -Silentandbroken

new kid must continue! Those kids are just..ugh!

Ugh! One chapter and completed?! Why? MOOOOORRRRREEEEE! Asher is just as cute!! Ugh you’re killing me with all this teasing and toying with my emotions Cosmie!!

You know Andrew is so ready to pop, if he sneezed at any moment in the kitchen. He’d make a helluva mess in his pants. This kid is so cute

Much better. I’ve read a few of these but..they’re old enough now that the pics originally posted are often no longer there 😞

The only link that works is the YouTube video

You know I truly can appreciate this rage Danny experienced. I can remember being so pent up as my perceived helplessness built up. Unfortunately for me, I shut down and became a mental hermit. I, like Danny here, NEEDED a someone like Brice to see what I was doing to myself and love me because I sure didn’t see it .

Yeah and t-shirts are waaaay overrated. That said, I still appreciate these stories.

Well shit.. now he’s gotta explain that hot mess to his mom. Then wake the hell up bc Brice is much better for him

“It's taken me an entire year of pain to even get this far in my recovery from the last vicious heartbreak.”- ugh I never recovered in high school. I didn’t allow myself the chance to date until college and I was nearly a sophomore when my heart was broken

“It's taken me an entire year of pain to even get this far in my recovery from the last vicious heartbreak.” ugh I never recovered in high school. I didn’t allow myself the chance to date until college and I was nearly a sophomore when my heart was broken

It’s harder still to tear them down brick by brick petrified to trust again, to hope again but knowing you must to do either of those things again. Because to not to is mental death. Yeah you’ll physically live, but your spark is gone

Aww I’ve always wanted a Randy in my life..but definitely agree that New Kid should’ve continued like Billy. I never want it to end. Sorry Cosmie, I’m selfish here. I mean come on it’s Randy, blow me 😂😚 I can say unequivocally that this series and it’s related series’s of Kiss and these all intertwine as your best written and my absolute fav. Billy for me is..idk it’s hard to get started and stay in. I guess I just need to knuckle down into it. All I know is God I WISH I had a Randy, or hell I’ll take a Ryan in my life, even as different as it is from my true reality. There’s just something about these characters.. I have an insatiable desire for more!!!!!!!

Guilty of all this too. I’m glad I’m not the only one💔

And idc maybe it’s because of my own trauma that I can relate so well to Zack idk but him is by far the best written character I’ve come across from you. Randy is a close second.

Ok but there is soo many ..where is the beginning of it all? What is the first story??

Maybe i do need to read that series. Fantasy isn’t something that’s been an interest with these types of stories. I’ve always been more of a realistic story fan. I hate these stories that start out great until a 14yo has a 8” cock. Gtfoh with that bs.

You know? I’m pretty sure I felt that rain. Damn you can write. Wtg Cory.

And so it comes… when you it true bottom…that cold unforgiving concrete bottom… the point where you can’t even talk yourself out of that empty unresponsive detachment, as if you’re watching yourself in third person from behind a bulletproof glass window unable to scream loud enough to be heard by yourself… Jesus Comi you can write😭

Finally… damn Cory you’re blind. Now, be courageous enough to make Ben listen to you. Tell him what you missed and that you didn’t even realize it was him you were seeking this whole time. This is not going to be easy. Ben has every right to tell you to disappear from his life. Be ready for this to really hurt

It’s sooo easy to get broken down by temptation and keep making the same mistake. It seems Cory is seeing that chandler is only there for sex. He needs to wake up fully to that

Well…shit. I did not see that coming. Cory tried to own it ..sort of at first but Ben made sure he did. I feel for Ben.

You’re not wrong. I’ve followed AB from the beginning, and Creed before them as Mark Tremonti has always been an idol of sorts. Most of the first album is written by him, which this song is off of. A lot of Mark’s messages in lyrics are like exactly what you’ve said about being positive about yourself and keep moving forward while acknowledging your hurt. And Comi you’re so right. You cannot allow pain to be your anchor and hold you down. Healing absolutely fucking sucks. Therapy absolutely fucking sucks. I’m at the point now in my life where I’m having to come to terms to learn to accept I’m at least pansexual or bi at the very least. It’s not how I was raise to think. Nobody knows it. But learning that it’s ok is where I’m battling right now. No, I know it doesn’t mean I have to trade what life I’ve built for something from my past, that’s not it at all. It’s not even embracing it. It is however, me learning to be ok with its existence that I’m struggling to adjust to. I don’t even know wtf that even looks like. If that even makes any sense. I know a HUGE part of all of this is the fallout from my trauma. But one thing I am still afraid of is other people’s reactions to what that fallout changed in me. It makes me feel fucking outta my head crazy and that’s why I relate to Zack so damn much.

Sorry for the huge font holy fuck