xander

Hi, I'm Xander, Xan, Ron, Ronnie, what ever you wanna call me, lol. I'm not exactly a senior here but I'm not a newbie either, just thought I'd welcome you too, lol. I'm either gay or bi really leaning towards guys but thats where I'm confused too. I'm attracted to guys, but I've always wanted to have a son or daughter that I helped create, or that is a part of me. I know there are a lot of kids out there in adoption places, and I would never have a problem with adopting, but I would also like to have one of my own. So yea...thats my confusion. Welcome again, Xan PS. Youre going to have to go by Julia...we already have a Jules, lol....Julian_Alexander..yep thas him

Yea man, it freakin cold out!....Btw guys, school cancelled again tomorrow

"Get up Ron, you gotta get up early so you can start the car and have it warmed up" "Yea, I'm gettin up" I shower, get dressed and go and start the car around 7:00. I come inside, get a bowl of dog food for Xander, go out and feed him and come back inside. I get all my school stuff ready and by this time my brother is just getting out of the shower. "Hurry up, remember I gotta get there by 7:45 for early bird!" "I'm hurryin, shut up" he says. "Did you feed your dogs!?" mom says. "Yes, I did" "Oh shit" my brother said. "What you gonna feed Jayne" mom says. (I fed his dog for about 3 months and lets just say I'm sick of supporting his, I-dont-care-if-I-get-my-brother-paid-back,-who-i-just-happed-to-owe-about-$250, ass) So he went out in the freezing weather to feed Jayne a salami, bread and marshmallow silage, and I was about to walk out the door. Here comes Xander running for the door, but I was too late to close it, sneaks in and runs through the house with his poopy paws . I run to get him out of the bathroom and tell my brother to go put him back in the kennel. We finally get in the car to leave for school and luckily the window is defrosted. It's now 7:35 and I knew I could make it, and even if I couldnt the icy roads wouldnt really allow me to speed. I pull around the corner of the school and see that the parking lot is bare. "Where the heck is everyone? Is school canceled? Turn on the radio." I tell my brother. Just as he gets it to the right station, I'm pulling up to some crazy person walking in front of the school. "Mr. Hillesland (English teacher from last year)!!" "Oh hi Ron." "What time is school closed till?" "I'm not sure, probably a few hours late" "Oh okay, thanks" "....closed. Pierre, Virmillion, Watertown, Hamlin, Clark, all closed. That's the first time I've ever heard all those closed folks." So I get home and go inside and call the radio station to see if schools closed all day. Yep it is! Snow day!...er..more like Ice and Wind Day!! Well it seems God likes procrastinators because I didnt get my 130 pages read over the 4 1/2 day weekend... ...heh...

Well I always remember being gifted in art class, though I suck at drawing people...But with almost anything else I can sit and sketch it pretty good, but I'm more interested in photography....I've had a few digital cameras in my day, but now I'm interested in the big boy's toys....all the good photography cameras in the $500 range...not the $1000-$2000 range yet, I'm not that good! lol, but amazingly I've gotten some really cool pictures with my previous ones. Our english teacher is trying to teach us different writing tricks, and it's showing a few poets in our class by her having us read our example aloud, but I'm not good at any of the tricks shes showing us, lol.

Yep, Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I took over the meal today....I followed some recipes from Food Network and I must say, my turkey was freaking awesome ... I made all this last night and this morning, with little or no help: Brined Roasted Turkey, Mashed Potatoes with white Roux chicken gravy, Mashed Sweet Potatoes, Homeade Cranberry Sauce, Green Bean Casserole, Sauted Carrots, Corn, Rolls, Jello wit mandarin oranges, Red Roosters (a little cranberry juice (1.5 liters), orange juice concentrate (6oz), and a wee bit of vodka (475 ml ) And I was gonna venture into the world of homeade pumpkin pie, but we dont have a food processor , lol. My mom was getting kinda mad that I wanted to do everything but by time the meal came, and saw what I all made, I think she was glad she didnt have to do all that work lol.

Mom? That you? What you doing on GA? lol....it seems like you've been talking to her or something, because since a year or so ago, partially with her associating/thinking about getting back together with her disgusting (long story) ex-husband and partially with her making me mad a lot and partially with her saying hurtful things about gayness being disgusting (not knowing that her own son is), I havent been to keen on affection and giving her hugs a lot, so youre sorta freakin me out there, lol.

I don't know how many of you I told, but a couple weeks ago I had the most minor fender bender possible - I pull up behind a lady at a stop light and I dint realize how close I was and I bumped her maybe going 5 mph and put a tiny scratch, thas it, on her fender...the lady was really pissed at first but she was really surprisingly nice to me by the cop had wasted half our night away. The f**kin cop gave me a $94 ticket for careless driving to be an asshole and another ticket that shouldnt have been in my name...good ol mom didnt have insurance on our (her's, my name on it) car, so they said that if we had insurance, we could just go get it taken care of, otherwise we had to be there in court and crap. So I miss about 2 and a half hours of school while they go through all the cases ahead of me....all the under the influence drivers, all the insufficiant funds check writers, all the robbery/breaking and entering....before they finally get to the traffic violations, mine first. We go up there and we were gonna try and give a sap story that I'm a good kid and all that , because I am, believe it or not, and my mom said she would do most of the talking. When we got up there, my mom asked her if she could speak and she said no, lol. She kind of just ignored the careless driving one till the end and skipped to the no insurance. We/I explained that I didnt know we didnt have insurance and that we wished that the no-insurance one be re-enstated in her name so it wouldnt ruin my record so early, because that clearly wasnt my fault... I admit the other was, but that other wasnt. The judge was really nice and lowered my fine to $50 and put the no insurance in her name, gave her a $100 fine and took her license away for 30 days. Ha! I love it! She used to never let me drive a whole lot but who's got the license now ma? AND, she had to go blab to my aunt and a few of her friends about my "accident" if you could even call it that, right after it happened, and they all said that MY license would probably be revoked! Lol, it was a better day than I thought it would be, yep .

Okay, I think Ender gave us a new template, heh.. 5'10"ish Medium brown hair 16 Male Right Handed Gay, or Bisexual really leaning towards male Open minded? A Cancer A Catholic tho I think I might be Lutheran I try to write stories? Dont write music Our home network admin Interested in programming but have little knowledge or experience I like games like THPS's and different adventure games I guess, like Ratchet and Clank, lol Tried making a game, need to know programming A good reader, just dont do it that often Like punk rock, rock, a few country songs.... Single Wishing to tell a certain male (best) friend my feelings Pretty smart I guess? I'm in all the advanced classes that I can be and get mostly A's an occasionally a B I also suck at sports...you should see how off I am at trying to catch a ball...lmao I lie very seldom, just keep it to myself I guess, depending what we're talking Yep, lol

Oh god do I know what that's about. I met my best friend at the start of 6th grade and have grown to love him, and even though I'm not sure if I would be able to tell him my feelings, I don't think it would be the best time to when his bitchy girlfriend is in the picture and almost forcibly consuming all his time. See, from what I can tell, theres like a 50% chance of him being gay....yea I know thats like saying a baby has a 50% chance of being a boy, but that's all I've got to work with right now. He occasionally gives these weird hints (?) but I'm not sure if hes goofing around or what. He used to kiddingly act homophobic, like this guy we knew was just acting gay one day, and Justin (that's his name for those of you who dont know) would kinda like back up and act freaked out, but he was kidding or something, because he was smiling while doing it. That's one of my quirks right there....I can read him on just about any topic except sexuality. But then one day as we were leaving track, somehow "gay" came up and he moreless said he was okay with them..... But he's still my best friend, through all he's put me through with his girlfriend (read my blog) and I forgive him because I know its her fault. I pray and pray that they eventually break up, because two people couldnt be any more uncompatible, and before they started going out, he was always happy, and that was one of the things that made my day, seeing him smile. But since she came along, at least once a week he's down and out and I cant seem to comfort him. Anyway, back to me, since I guess that's what this is about, heh. I'm 16, my name is Ron ("Oh my god, ur name is ron? noo, it cant be... Are u sure?) Yep, my name is Ron guys, sorry. I live in a smallish town in SD. I got a mom, a dad, a brother, my elderly dog Oreo, and my 4 month old puppy XANDER . My mom and dad are divorced and I live with my mom, but I see my dad like every weekend and my mom and him are still pretty good friends. That seems strange I know, because most divorced couples want to tear each other apart. I guess I'm a bit of a health nut too. This summer I started listening to Kevin Trudeau's book on CD...."Natural cures they dont want you to know about" and its changed my life in a good way. I completely stopped drinking pop, I absolutely wont eat fast food, except for like Dairy Queens ice cream because I dont really feel there is anything wrong with that cept for the sugar and stuff... I wont eat MSG (monosodium glutamate) or aspartame (an artifical sweetener). The only thing I basically drink is reverse osmosis filtered water, except for milk at school. I don't believe in prescription or nonprescription drugs and I would only have them given to me in case of emergency, like I was bleeding to death or something. Although I havent gotten to give it a try yet, I believe him when he says that sickness lies in the body's pH level...if ur body is acidic, you are vulnerable to disease and sickness, if ur body is alkaline, you virtually cant get sick, and if you do, it would be very minimal and the virus or bacteria would have to been pretty strong.. Obviously then, I dont smoke or do drugs, lol. If someone I know is getting themselves into it, I try to help them, and have gotten pissed at many a time. I'm a pretty good student, most of the time will get all A's except for like one B+, which pisses me off because I knew if I would have worked like a speck harder, I could have had the 4.0. My music taste is pretty much punk rock like linkin park, blink 182, green day...yea. I dont really like country except when I'm trying to go to sleep on the way home from a trip, but there are a few country songs I like. I'm kind of confused on my sexuality feelings. I mean I'm definately attracted to guys, and I like girls as friends (another one of my peeves is when a gay guy goes "ewwww" when a girl comes up in a convo , I mean, grow up, lol) but ever since I've been little, I've wanted to be a dad, like actually my own kid. Im not thinkin that's gonna be possible when Im gay. Guess thats all I have for now, feel free to ask me something if you want.

lol, not like that, but I just have to say, did I call that one or what... Okay, heres what I mean. Sherry (Justin's mom) works at the cable station, and my mom went there the other day to pay our bill, and her and my mom got talking. Well I've obviously told my mom about some of the stuff that's gone on with Justin and her . My mom gets home and tells me that all on her own, Justin's mom started talking about Lorena, and that her and Curt don't like Lorena, and that theyre trying to get Justin to break up with her!! I LOVE U SHERRY! lol Lorena is always pressuring him and now his mom and dad are pressuring him, so if they can do their paternal and maternal magic, I'll be more than willing to back off for a while. So definately the best news I've heard in a while...yup.

Lol, I think we may have a different breed of preps here where I live because the kind of preps I'm talking about are ones who think they HAVE to have the most expensive clothing and feel they are better than everyone else and crap. I'd know because my brother transformed into one in the past year. He joined wrestling, became anorexic because the f**king coaches are pressuring them to "make the weight" and shit. He lost a bunch of weight and made his way into the prep crowd, and even when he knows we arent even close to being rich, he expects and pressures my mom to buy him the best clothes. God, I'd just like to smack him sometimes because he is such a little dickwad about things. So I don't have anything against people who wear nice clothes, I just cant stand people with the prep attitude.

Before I say about today, I want to tell about last night. So last night was our chorus concert, and Justin evidently got a ride with this weird kid we kinda know named Shawn, because he's giving him guitar lessons, but he doenst know that much himself, so I guess it's like the blind leading the blind. After our group sang, Justin and him went to leave, and that kind of bothered me because it was a Lorena free night, so I thought maybe him and I could hang out a while, but I knew Shawn wasnt really competition so I just shrugged it off and went to watch the rest of the concert. Well I was sitting next to my aunt and she asked me to go give my baby second cousin's baby seat to my cousin so that my other cousin could get her vehicle back or something. As I'm exiting the auditorium, I see Justin, Shawn and this hot guy named Allan talking. This really caught my attention because my watching him every so often in chorus, I assumed Allan was a prep and stuck up and stuff. So, I went over and said hey and evidently my prep-dar is broken and this Allan is really cool, and now my only way of knowing if ia person is a prep is watching for people wearing only Hurley, Abercrombie and Fitch, and Quik Silver shirts, lol. Justin was talking about some crazy idea to start a band, and while he's talented on keyboard, none of us really know how to play anything, although it'd be interesting seeing that Allan playing his violin (he's in orchestra) in a band . So as the classic moral goes: don't judge a possible prep by watching from afar (or more classical, a book by his cover...lol). TODAY WAS LIKE THE BEST DAY I'VE HAD IN A LONG TIME! I had made plans with my old teacher/mentor, if you will, to come show her my puppy, Xander , because she hasnt't seen him since he's been like a month or so old and he's 4 months the 18th. I took him there and him and their dog, Moses, played good for a while (and Xander's horomones kicked in a few times, for the first time, and he tried "humping" Moses while he was laying down ). Well then she had to take Moses to get his shots so I was driving home, and I decided to swing by Justin's and let him see Xander while getting to see him. We talked outside for a while and Justin started talking that his back tire was low on air, and it was...it almost looked flat! So he asks me if I want to run to the gas station with him, so he goes and tells his dad that we're going. I was pretty damn sure most gas stations had an air gauge, but Justin's dad dint think so, so we tied Xander in back and go anyway. We get to the gas station and ask them if they have a tire gauge. They did (ha! take that Curt ). We fill up his tires to 44 PMI and go back. After a little while, Justin said something I didn't expect him to - if he could come over later. I wanted him to so bad, but my mom SUCKS with a capital SUCK at keeping up house, not that she's bad at it, its just that she doesnt do it period . So I negotiate with him that I'll go home, clean up and then I'd call for him. It took me about an hour and a half to clean the entire house because my mom still had boxes and crap from when we moved sitting out, and we had like 5 chairs, a couch and a loveseat in our living room because we recently got the couch and loveseat and the obsessive compulsive mom didnt want to take her chair down to the basement. Well screw you mom, I did it anyway. I got it all cleaned, I'm talking litterally almost spotless, and I call him to tell him he can come. He quick called his mom to double check and didnt call back, but instead shows up 10 min later with his guitar. We messed on the keyboard for a while, then played the PS2, I made us a gourmet meal (hotdogs wrapped in a wet paper towel microwaved then put in a piece of bread with mustard, canned corn with margarine and salt, and a glass of hot ovaltine ) and then after about 2 hours or so after him being there, my mom gets home. Well when I made that food, I didnt eat much because 1. I dont eat pork or margarine, and 2. The grand opening of our Applebees was supposed to be tonight, but it wasnt so my mom and dad decided to order pizza. We invited Justin to stay for pizza and we watched a movie while we where eating, but half way through his mom called and told him to come home because they needed to go to Wally World to get groceries. My mom speaks up and say that she needs to have me get some stuff too, so suggests that I go with them. So to make all that you didnt care to read above short, I got to spend from about 4:10 till almost 11 with my best friend, the entirety being Whorena free (the nice thing about us hangin at my house is that she can't call to check up and keep him from spending time with me). *Sigh* Yep it was a good day

Wow, Viv...this story soooooooo rocks! You have true talent and if you havent found it already, this is your niche. I just love this/your type of writing style, and you definatly have talent. For those of you who have yet to read it, get going. I can pretty much guarentee that you'll love it as well as the rest of us who have. GO VIV!! Xan

I don't think I've been making this clear when I tell about what is happening....the only time I've ever told him what I thought about her is when I spilled my guts in that email after the homecoming incident. It's not like I'm constantly telling him how bad she is, because I know that will just drive us further apart until he realized what she is doing to his friendships.

Oops, thanks Greg and Vic (he PMed me) ... fancy dancy Publish button... dint even see it . Thanks guys!

Lol, sorry about my rage in the title. For those of you who know about the Justin and Lorena deal (those of you who don't can ask Val, Viv, Joey, Jules and proble a few others that i forgot, lol, sorry, I just don't feel like explaining that part again), the whore has struck again. This happened on Halloween but I want to write about it anyway. So I go over to Justin's house around 7 pm Halloween night with my mom's van. I knock on the door to make him (he usually hands out the candy) think I was a trick or treater. Adding to my costume from homecoming's "hippie day", I was dressed up as a zombie hippie....long sleeve tie die shirt, baggy jeans, bandanna around my forehead and the glasses, of course. Well I guess I wasnt really the zombie part yet, cause my mom failed me after I asked her to buy washable markers and baby powder . So I guess I was a hippie at that point. He lets me in and lo and behold "Whor-ena" is there. Well I try and ignore Lorena as much as I could and she kept like fooling around with Justin, in my opinion not because of no reason, that theyre going out, but rather to spite me, because I think she either knows that I'm gay and have a thing for Justin or that I'm really longing for some time with my friend. Well his mom went way out on outdoor AND indoor decorations ( to you Sherry) and she's like the coolest mom probably ever, btw. His whole family is cool, except it bothers me too that Justin's dad always thinks that he's stupid or did something wrong. Anyway, his mom and his sister and her friends were all getting ready to go out trick or treating, and last year me and Justin went with them with the excuse that "we were helping taking them" and getting candy too , lol. Since I assumed this, I asked Sherry to help me with the zombie part of my costume. She was gonna try getting me to put on a white facial creme but I more less said, "gee...u kno vat? uh uh". So I suggest flour and she agrees that would be better. Then she let me use this really dark make up around my eyes and I feathered it and looked really cool. I go outside with Justin and Lorena, and Lorena was filming the house and his sister and friends coming out with Sherry's camera. We screw around for a few minutes and then Justin and Lorena start walking towards his car. So I say in a subtle tone, "...so what's going on?" He says, "Uh, we're gonna go to her house....so I'll talk to you tomorrow". So my best friend ditched me again, leaves me outside standing there by myself with his family inside. I probably could have gone with them and his mom could of comforted me because I think she wonders about Lorena sometimes too, but I was so hurt, I just went home. Anyway, I havent talked to him since that night...I don't know what to do.... Viv kind of gave me her advice last night, and I liked her idea, which was give him some space and not make him feel forced to do stuff, like Lorena commonly does, that he might find comfort in that. I most likely will try that as I can see her reasoning in it. I just want my best friend back and Lorena out of the picture. Theres my week in a nutshell.

Lol, that'd be my synonym for thingy..... "....tried my go on a blog thingy.." My english teacher would smack me if she saw my lazy writing, lol Get it? Sorry, I forgot that that was something my friend came up with and most people wouldnt just ignore it, lol. Yea.....

Lol, hey guys, I tried my go on a blog dealer, go ahead and check it out if u want. Xan

Lmao, don't feel bad slave, I didn't get it until I read the replies posted for you, lol. I always say I'm a blonde, but with brown hair......or it could be that I haven't watched Cinderella since I was 7-8...whatever..lol

Whoa, I didn't really think we were talking about childhood experimentation, so... -yet to come-, -yet to come-, 5, -yet to come- ....yea...lol

Yea me too .

I've never used AOL but for some reason I've always hated them, lol...me and my brother always fight over who gets to break the CD in half then I keep the cool metal tin and put CDs in them....though lately they've gotten cheap and are using cardboard magnetic boxes or somethin .

Happy Birthday .

Yea, and I can send you a picture of Justin's girlfriend for you to follow (sorry that you people that dont know about Justin and that stuff are lost, heh). Btw, I'm gonna be a zombie hippie and screw around at Justin's house and try and scare their trick-or-treaters...heh .

Hmm...my celebrity one would have to be the a-bit-younger Erik von Detten and then my friend Justin would have to be the person-you-kinda-know, lol.