JamesSavik

In some ways I am the same. I don't know about this one. It's a memory long repressed and when it got triggered it really messed me up- I mean it had me raging, sweating, chest pains- 35 years ago and it gave me a full on anxiety attack. I've let a lot of stuff out of the box in my writing. I just don't know how I feel about this one. I probably need to write about it. I'm not sure how others would see me if they read it.

I didn't think that any story could punch my buttons until one did. It reminded me of something that happened a long time ago that I repressed and it just set me off in a horrible rage. Does anyone else have reactions like that?

With my Kroger discount, I paid 1.60 a gallon today.

I had an adventure at the gym last night. I blundered into a four twink orgy in the sauna. Being the gentleman that I am, I excused myself, told them it was cool and that I would stay out in the whirlpool bath and greet anyone else who entered loud enough to warn them. Am I a sweet old fart or whut?

As promised...

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"Outing" people is, under most circumstances, traumatic and potentially destructive. It can even be dangerous to people. It should only be done only under certain exceptional circumstances. Examples follow and then guidelines. Reverend Ted Haggard, millionaire leader of a mega-church, was a highly influential, outspoken critic of gay people and gay rights. He counseled parents to send their gay kids to pray-the-gay-away camp. He was caught with a hustler and crystal meth. More info: http://en.wikipedia....iki/Ted_Haggard OUT THE BASTARD Rep. Mark Foley never saw a piece of ridiculously anti-gay legislation that he didn't like. He also voted for and authored many bills that created severe penalties for illegal use of a minor. He was caught sending sexy texts to under-aged male pages. He requested that they take pictures of their junk and send it to him.' More info: http://en.wikipedia....l_page_incident OUT THE BASTARD Senator Larry Craig had one of the senates most anti-gay voting records. He was caught soliciting sex from a police officer in a airport mens room. For more info: http://en.wikipedia....y_Craig_scandal OUT THE BASTARD This is Dr. George Rekers(left). He wrote many of the basic scientific papers used by anti-gay hate groups to justify their bigotry. He did a study (federally funded) utilizing negative feedback (aversion therapy) to turn an effeminate male child "masculine". He touted his research with his test subject Craig as a big success. Problem was that Craig was a broken adult and committed suicide just shy of his 35th birthday after a long battle with drug and alcohol addiction and depression. Rekers was a board member of NARTH (National Association for Research & Therapy of Homosexuality) and co-founder of the Family Research Council. Dr. George as he was affectionately called by the board of directors of the Family Research Council (FRC), was the face of scientific credibility for their severely biased anti-gay propaganda. He was caught vacationing with a pretty young twink he met on rentboy.com He claimed to have a bad back and paid the poor deviant boy $5000 to accompany him on vacation so that he could minister to him. The rent-boy(right) didn't really know who Dr. George was. When he found out, he blew the whistle on Reker's lies. It turns out that sex doesn't count as ministering. The quack Doctor George Alan Rekers wrote many books including the steaming piece of crap below. There's no telling how many children have been tortured because they didn't fit Reker's or their parents image of masculinity. Both the FRC and NARTH continue to use Reker's work. More info: http://liftmyluggage.org Reker's unethical human experimentation: http://www.towleroad...troyed-a-m.html Once again: OUT THE BASTARD! A Good General Rule of Thumb: Never ever under ANY circumstances out a minor. Never out a private citizen. The way they live their life and handle their affairs is nobodies business but their own. HOWEVER- Celebrities and people in power, especially hypocrites that use that power to harm other GLBT people, ALL BETS ARE OFF. It's sort of a public service to out ass-hats like this. ______________________________________________________ Originally run in April 2012

Anxious to see more and get some insight into the hate thing going on with Evan.

Black Knight at King's Bishop 6 has the White King in check.

HAA. Last summer I climbed volcanoes! Dormant for 700,000 years but very, very dangerous!

I think I've been to Bumshart, Nebrahoma. It's just a little north of Norman and south of Lincoln.

Here are two of mine: The Cool Green Sea- it is a short story, and was included in a published anthology. Operation Hammerhead- is a serial novel I have underway that isn't quite complete yet. I recently read The More Things Change by Gee Whilikers and heartily endorse it.

I was thinking diagonal with the rainbow on top.

my software has limitations. That was my original thought but that is the best I could clip together.

This might be a bad idea. Probably- I've had them before. I think that it reminds me of the controversy over the word queer. To those of us in the South there's no word quite so hateful. Wrapping my mind around the concept of taking that word back took a lot of getting used to. Those of us that are either from the South or live here know a lot about hate. Just today in the local paper there was a whole editorial page dripping with it. They call us unstable- after tormenting us from childhood. They call us immoral- based on four or five vague references in their bible. They call us lots of things that I won't dirty up my blog with but none of it is nice. I used to get mad. Then I said fuck it. I'm going to take away their most prized symbol. It's ours too. We were born here. We can claim the same heritage if not for exactly the same reasons. What you are going to see behind the spoiler may shock you. If you were born down here in the South, you'll laugh and understand just how bat shit crazy it will drive the rednecks. Take it back. It belongs to you. You are a son of the South- even if only treated like a step-son.

I'm not at all pleased with that white privilege concept. Some whites (Ivy Leaguers in particular) are shitloads more privileged than others. Maybe rich assed honkies would be better and more accurate. I haven't seen much of it- but I live in the poorest state in the nation and the leadership here seems hell bent for leather to make #50 as backwards as humanly possible. As it said in the article, it depends on where you get prosecuted. Many jurisdictions are out to give as much time as possible to everybody so white privilege only goes so far.

This story has me hooked. Keep it up Rustle!

Russia has a long, ugly history of scapegoating minorities for mistakes that their idiotic leaders are responsible for. It's been that way since the Czars. If I were a Russian Jew, I would be very nervous. If history is any guide, they're next.

We didn't see that. The isolated rat's adaptation to his environment was to party till he dropped. The rat with a community had a different agenda.

Geek to the rescue! Here's what happened: The balls are pumped up to spec inside the field house. The HEATED field house. The balls are used on the field where the temperature is very COLD. Boyle's Law comes into play. Boyle's Law is a relationship between heat and pressure. Any volume of gas is going to vary in pressure given its temperature. When it's hot, the pressure is higher and the gas expands. When it is cold, the pressure is lower and the gas contracts. That's why you have to add air to your tires in cold weather. I'm shocked and appalled that no one seems to remember their freshmen chemistry.

I am always studying addiction. It is a science that far too may people think they have figured out. The reality is a lot more complicated. This is Whiskers the rat. I bring Whiskers into this discussion because almost everybody is familiar with the famous experiment where they put a rat in a cage with easy access to cocaine and the rat goes ape shit and does cocaine until he dies. The obvious things most people think about this experiment is that holy shit, cocaine is awesomely addictive. Another conclusion might be that rats aren't that bright. Some other scientists said- wait just a minute. You put a rat in a cage with nothing to do but cocaine. No rat gyms, no rat clubs, no rat buddies- just cocaine. So... is it the rat or is it the cage? That's a pretty awesome question. I think any addict might be fascinated with it. The experiment with a richer cage- one with things to do and rats to see- was quite different. The rat left the coke alone. It hung out with his rat bros. It ran around the hamster wheel. It talked to his rat buddies about what a sell-out slut Minnie Mouse is. It did all sorts of things but it didn't do cocaine until it died. That's a much better outcome for Whiskers. It also raises some interesting questions. Is it the addict or is it his cage? People are a lot more complicated than rats. So are our cages. Our cages aren't made of wire. They are a product of culture, family, religion and environment. When the rat said fuk that coke shit, I'm hanging with my bros, he was connected to something. In this case we might call it community. Anyone that has ever seen hard core addiction up close knows that is something that takes place in isolation. You can't stay up on a coke bender for a week at a time and hang with grandma. You can smoke crack in public. We call it anti-social behavior because most people don't want to be around that sort of behavior. They don't want to be around addicts. Addicts are disconnected in many ways both subtle and gross. The more advanced the addiction, the less connected they are. It's why so many people over dose and die because they use when no one else is around. I don't know what this means in terms of rehabing addicts. I think it is sort of obvious. The way we try to help addicts clean up is to connect them with a network of supportive people. That is one of the basics of 12 step programs. It's interesting and raises lot's of questions. Here's the article- it's well worth checking out. The Likely Cause of Addiction Has Been Discovered, and It Is Not What You Think SO.. just remember...

I used to be horrible at it- horrible about pulling them. The more creative the prank the better. Don't Never, EVER pass out drunk at a party. You're just asking for it. Forget the danger of being violated. You'll get pranked to death. One of my buddies got too trashed at a super bowl party (Giants-Bills) and went to sleep sitting up, head back, mouth open. Ingenious drunks that we were, had a Polaroid- We took a picture of him sitting there with our dicks out in his face. He looked like he was in heaven, head back, eyes closed dick-topia. Ever make a fake turd? It's easy- just get a cigar and a little peanut butter. Place fake turd in strategic place, wait for explosion. This one is a little dangerous. A classic prank is wait in a friends shower with a Friday the 13th Jason mask on. Just hope they don't have fire arms. You just might get pissed on. This one has to be done with lab work. There is a chemical reaction that creates methane- the gas that powers farts. Won't say what it- it's common. Any High School lab has the stuff to make fart-in-a-bottle pretty easy. It is heavier than air- unless its hot so you can put it in a bottle cold and put it in your pocket, let it warm up and you got fart-grenade-in-a-bottle. What you do with it depends on just how evil and creative you are. I used three to disrupt a Baptist revival meeting my parents forced me to go to run by none other than Jimmy Swaggert himself. It's OK, the statute of limitations has run out on that one. Run away! The foul flatulence demons are upon us!

After I sweated that junk out of my system and figured out what happened, I never fooled with it again. Oh there were plenty of other drugs around, but didn't make that mistake again.

It was that little dash of crack that made it so deliciously addictive.