JamesSavik

A poem written at 3am. https://www.gayauthors.org/story/jamessavik/insomnia/1

Insomnia haunts me and taunts me, Mind racing and chasing details of the day. Plans of tomorrow, no time to borrow, Always behind as time grinds, Past and future together in the breathless present. I am so lost, I don't know the cost, Of the things that I've been or the things that I've seen, In the night they are burning bright, Restless azure darkness impaled, By the fires that rend the eternal night. There is no peace when the wars never cease, even though its been over for decades. I close my eyes and I am there, Once again in the fire of pain and desire, The unending battles still rage. Beware my friend not to live too long, And see entirely too much shit, Because in the night, it will never feel right, And it can be a hell to live with it. "Night Fire" by Gaziano

Don't know what state you are in but homosexuality is grounds for divorce in all of them. You can count on the courts really screwing you over for it too- especially in a "red" state. Child support and custody can get really messy. What YOU want doesn't matter- if she files, get a lawyer.

I'm curious to see what and how people are using their computers.

I used to have some very unhealthy responses to anxiety. Drinking and smoking grass was one. Fighting and sex-4-kicks was another.

I was looking forward to the drunken, naked hot tub reconciliation between Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy.

Geaux Cajun or don't geaux at all. This is a basic staple of Cajun cooking: shrimp boiled with potatoes and corn. Of course it is boiled is in mixture of spices heavy on cayenne. Cayenne pepper is a staple of Cajun cuisine. Red beans on rice with Andouie sausage. This is an old New Orleans favorite. Seafood gumbo is amazing stuff. It's rare but wonderful to find a place that makes their own. Don't eat it out of a can- that's just disgraceful. The po boy is a style of sandwich that is real New Orleans. It made on sour dough bread and can be shrimp, roast beef, sausage, soft-shelled crab- all sort of stuff. ---------------------- A favorite lunch in New Orleans: Gimme a cup of gumbo, shrimp po boy and a glass of ice tea.

It's shaping up to be one of those days.

Happy birthday pal. Take care and enjoy.

It's on the kindle.

I need a psychedelic ranger to save me from this psychedelic danger. Mushrooms always make me barf but not as much as peyote. This is the best part of the trip... this it the trip, the best part. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1XlqCFi6o-E

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aMfkVGCU_BA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_jmDscGi7E

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bbEEhkuhV3w

Swallow with a shot of tequila...

I'll vouch for Graeme- he's a great guy. If anyone knows what you're going through, it's him.

One of the key signs is coping with sexual identity issues relatively late. You might not believe how common it is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bng3agUOYiI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_VbImuG71M

It's 1970. Vietnam is raging. Love is free. And so was I. Take a bong hit and remember. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yRkovnss7sg http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qswm7lHp7oY

I didn't mean to be mean. It's a tough situation you're in and it'll take a while for you to figure it all out. Before you were 17, was there a religion? Were you into it and something bad happened? This is nobody's business so I'll say this in private:

Happy Birthday Drewbie! Have a great year!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3HBZ76FDbes

I simply can't get how someone would get to 21 and finally be having these questions AFTER getting married and popping out a baby. I knew very early on and didn't need an instruction manual. I'm guessing that you've been in a lot of denial. Probably a lot of hyper-masculine behaviors and perhaps there is some oylde tyme religion lurking in the background? I can't tell you to just be yourself, you'll figure it out. You've already made serious life-choices that involve other people. What I will tell you is that you have a child and you owe it to him/her to be a stand up guy. And YES Chase is right. 21 is much too young to get married. You are a prime example of why. How can you make a life-long commitment when you don't even know yourself?