Nephylim

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I hate hospitals. I’ve always hated hospitals but the hatred soared when I was in the psychiatric hospital and now, as soon as the smell hits me I find my legs backpedalling and trying to take me back to the door. This time it’s different. This time, as much as I hate the hospital and the smell, there’s no way my legs or any other part of me will dissuade me from my goal – to see Daniel. Sara leads me through the corridors to a room. “Wait here,” she says sternly and slips inside. Wait? How ca

Thank you so much. I think you'll like the way things go from here. For once I'm not lingering over the low points.

They'll be together again soon. Promise

Thank you. I will. Promise

Better than that. He gets hit by a Daniel (metaphorically)

Thank you for your comment. I couldn't keep Rayne and Daniel apart for too long. Andy is a nightmare and he hasn't finished yet but he has severely underestimated our boys, especially Daniel

I’m pacing around the office when it hits me. It really should have hit me sooner but, in my defence, I was almost raped, beaten up and dragged away to wait for the police and the prospect of a night behind bars. When it hits it hits me hard; bloody hard. “Daniel,” I gasp and lunge for the door. I find myself flying. Someone had grabbed me by the collar and swung me. The next thing I know I’m slamming face first against the wall. Fuck it hurts. I seem to have hurt my ribs somewhere along the wa

Clearly this wasn't and was never going to be a rape in the physical sense of the word. Andy was never going to penetrate Rayn there and then. It was a matter of psychological rape - the way Rayn felt about it, and it was always more of a method of control as far as Andy was concerned. Andy truthfully believes that Rayn still loves him and is just angry with him for abandoning him after being thrown out by his parents. Like many manipulators he is not able to accept responsibility for his actions and genuinely can't understand where Rayn is coming from. Rayn says that the method of sexual assault Andy uses is something he has clearly done on more than one occasion. In the past, Rayn has responded, as he finds himself doing on this occasion, and Andy has used it firstly as a control and secondly as a method of reminding Rayn how good he can be. It's not 'just' a plot device. It has far reaching consequences, and the situation with Andy arises again, and is instrumental in a number of issues. I really hope you'll realize, by the time you get to the end of the story, why I've gone this way.

You're right. There is an awful lot unsaid. There are now 5 books altogether, and I'm still deciding what to do with them. Very tidied up versions of I and II are now published in ebook and I think I'll be looking to getting book III and IV out this year. I'm not certain about V because that's set 10 years in the future and is a definite end, and I'm not sure if I'm ready to let go of Silver yet. With regard to Silver and Asher, I think it's something that had to be. The relationship with Silver and River was unequal from the start. Silver (as far as he can remember) has never had a relationship. The one with David doesn't count because it was doomed from the start and could never have been a natural one. To a great extent Silver was totally reliant on River, and I don't think they could ever have stood a chance of having an equal relationship until he had been with someone else. Put simply Silver needed Asher in order to find SIlver and until he found Silver he could never have a proper relationship with River, if that makes sense. Please remember that Silver is not a normal person and cannot react in the same way a normal person would. He has lived the whole of his life that he can remember as a conditioned slave and he has no experience of independent living. He relied on River for everything and is literally cut adrift without him. Silver has no experience of normal life or even of making decisions for himself. He has no frame of reference and no chance of understanding the situation with River and Ben. River, is caught in a difficult situation, literally stuck between a rock (Ben) and a hard place (Silver) He naturally feels a strong protectiveness about Ben because he's his brother and because of what they've been through BUT what he's refusing to acknowledge is that Silver actually needs him more. Ben, even though hes much younger than Silver has a much better grasp of the situation and is happy staying with Sam, while Silver is not. In my opinion River was cruel to Silver - unintentionally so, but cruel nonetheless. Silver had to lave or he would have been irreparably damaged because River could never have given him what Ariel and Asher did. Freedom in a way that he could understand. I hope that makes things a little clearer.

Indeed. He's in for a bad time. Fortunately, he has Daniel. I will try to get the next chapter up more quickly.

Isn't he. He's gloriously evil and quite mad, I think. He isnt finished yet but has some surprises coming. Thanks!

It moves on fast, I promise you. I don't keep anyone hanging or suffering long in this one. It will all be resolved over the next two chapters an in story period of only one day, Daniel doesn't suffer long.

All I will say is that I don't torture Daniel anywhere near as much as I usually do, and things with Daniel, if not with Andy will be resolved within the next two chapters, although the situation with Andy won't. I think the resolution of that one will surprise you - in a good way. And there is very very very definitely a happy ending.

Andy is kind of crazy but in a cold, manipulative way. He wasn't happy with Rayn being in the closet, so he outed him. He wasn't expecting the fallout and didn't want to get involved, so he bailed. He wasn't about to let Rayn get away, though because he's kind of obsessed. For some time Rayn was out of his grips because he was in hospital etc, and then he went away to university. Andy's been looking for him this whole time. Andy didn't think he was raping/sexually assaulting Rayn. In his mind Rayn loves him but is upset and angry with him and he needs to re assert his dominance. That's what happens when someone is obsessed - they just won't take no for an answer. As for turning into a homophobe? Nope. He didn't do that. It was self preservation. Plain and simple, Andy lied trying to get himself out of trouble. I hope you're less confused now. I'm sorry if I got you muddled

Shit happens It happens a lot in my book. Rest assured I don't torture Daniel as much I have most of my characters. and you KNOW there's going to be a HEA

I didn't do anything. It was Andy's fault!

I didn't do anything. It was Andy's fault!

I didn't do anything. It was Andy's fault!

I didn't do anything. It was Andy's fault!

Who on earth had the bright idea of going out for a formal meal? Sara thought it would be less stressful than eating at home, more impersonal. It seemed like a good idea at the time but now, I’m sitting in the car outside her door – a position I’ve found myself in far too often over the last six months – in my ‘smart’ clothes and wondering what the hell I’m doing. We’re going to a posh restaurant, somewhere they lay the table nicely. Daniel doesn’t have the best table manners and he’s likely to

I think with someone like Daniel it has to be taken very slowly. Also there is some history with Daniel, his mother and Sara. Although it isn't true, Daniel has it in his head that his mother blames him for his father going to prison. It's all taking a long time to sort out, and they're taking it very, very slowly. I have no idea whether father is still in prison but he definitely isn't on the scene at all

I'm so sorry I missed this review. I try to respond to all of them very quickly. I totally appreciate my readers, especially those who take the time to comment. I'm glad you enjoyed the beginning. I hope you will continue to enjoy as the story progresses.

Thank you! I'm happy you came back.

Thank you Daniel and Rayne were made for each other. Daniel's voice in my head is so full of life and laughter. Rayne was lost in sadness, but there's no room for that with Daniel. Rayne wanted a new start and by God he got it