The Secret Life Of Billy Chase 9 - 45. Chapter 45

Excellent chapter com. 

What?  Robin wasn't able to change AJ, and he just got used and dumped again? 😱 I'm so surprised!!!

Joking aside, though, I wonder what he was thinking when he said that.  I mean, he knows Billy's not available, so why is he doing this?  I really want to like Robin, but I just can't trust him right now, not after he traded in his self-respect for a bit of naughty time with AJ.

As for Jimmy, I think he's just trying to get attention.  I feel bad for him a little bit when all he wants is for Billy to give him the slightest bit of importance, but he brought this on himself, so whatever.  Billy was his friend, he would've been there for him any time, but Jimmy had to throw it all away to selfishly try to keep him to himself.  The fact that he'd rather have Billy be miserable with him than happy with someone else tells me that he doesn't really love him after all.

I don't get why Billy doesn't just block him and be done with it.

Aww Billy that was sweet! Totally get it about the bacon!

Battled myself so many times.

What I was isn’t what I want now.

We can seek denile and search for miles.

Blessed love, the love I need.

Rolling Drums, the Loveless bleed.

Take my hand.

In belief we trace our steps.

Understand, there’s no relief

In silhouettes.

XOXOX

Hi Com, been a while since I commented.

Loved this chapter, cant wait for chapter 50. Chapter 50 always has some crazy stuff going on!

I’m a little suspicious that Billy might be only seeing half the picture with Robin’s loaded invitation. I mean yes it could be that he’s not happy with AJ as well as potentially currently dumped by him meaning he’s now turning to Billy for sex if not even possibly hoping for an actual relationship with him considering how sweet Billy can be vs AJ yet I can’t help wondering if AJ is behind this invitation. AJ is twisted so I wouldn’t be surprised to find out he’s either just hoping to tempt Billy into cheating on his current boyfriend just because he enjoys causing trouble nor would I be surprised if it was actually a plan by AJ to get Billy to take part in another threesome with him & Robin. I mean AJ only cares about AJ so this possibly being a plan to get into Billy’s pants with Robin’s help wouldn’t surprise me especially as he seems to have Robin wrapped around his little finger so I doubt it would be hard to talk Robin into seducing Billy. I’m a little worried that something to do with Brandon and Stevie will cause Billy to end up back in bed with Robin if not Robin & AJ especially with this open invitation to “hangout”. Billy is in my opinion justifiably a little jealous as he has no idea what goes on between Brandon & Stevie when they are alone so I’m worried that eventually he’ll either see something fairly innocent between them that looks worse than it is causing him to make a impulsive decision he’ll regret or I’m worried there’s a chance that while he doesn’t seem like the type that he will actually find evidence Brandon is cheating on him. I always mention this which I know is annoying that I continuously mention it yet I still can’t get over the picture of Brandon & Stevie kissing that Jimmy showed Billy which was never explained away when he mentioned it to Brandon. I mean Billy seems to have forgotten it yet I recall Brandon just saying it was innocent when the photo was brought up by Billy and him not saying anything to refute it like the photo was taken before they broke up which would have been believable whether truth or lie considering he & Stevie used to date. The idea that he kissed Stevie while dating Billy just doesn’t sit well with me as while Stevie might be having a tough time lately you don’t comfort an ex boyfriend, especially when you’re in a relationship, by kissing them. Brandon doesn’t seem like the type to cheat but Stevie might be the type to tempt him which at his young, hormonal age along with the fact he’s not having sex with Billy very often might be enough to get Brandon to do something he shouldn’t. Brandon is also somewhat less experienced than Billy, not that he’s aware of this, so he might be more tempted than Billy would he in his place considering Billy seems able to resist Robin’s offer despite being in the same boat as Brandon when it comes to a lack of sex lately not to mention most of what we know about Brandon’s personality is from Billy’s POV so we can’t truly know with certainty that he’s not the type of cheat I suppose despite that fact it feels like that’s not something he’d...normally do. This story just has me imagining drama that may never come and at the same time despite their being no evidence to support it I have a feeling more drama is heading Billy’s way.

Well, that's great. I now know how not to have breakfast.
then Billy in the shop makes the big psychlogen.na then the daily phone call at Brandon.well Brandon and stevie are every Monday together .probably it would be interesting Mondays to see at stevie and brandon .

For shame, Billy! What teenager doesn't know how to cook bacon and eggs?! Jokes aside, I have to agree with @NimirRaj. Robin's sudden turn of mood seems like a trap to get poor Billy into a three-way with AJ. I hope Dizzy is okay. Comsie, you're such a Dizzy tease!  

Billy's life will never be "normal" until he become more assertive and demands to know what is going -on. There are too many secrets and not knowing is only causing Billy's stress level to rise. I really think that a very long talk between Billy and Brandon is very important to the survival of their relationship. When school starts Billy may be bombarded with others telling him what they know. School will be a deciding factor for Stevie, too. Will Stevie step-up and take his life into his own hands, thereby owning and controlling his life.   

On 20.12.2018 at 17:50, NimirRaj said:

Ich bin ein bisschen misstrauisch, dass Billy mit Robins geladener Einladung vielleicht nur das halbe Bild sieht. Ich meine, ja, es könnte sein, dass er mit AJ nicht glücklich ist und möglicherweise derzeit von ihm abgeladen wird, was bedeutet, dass er sich jetzt an Billy wendet, wenn es um Sex geht, wenn er nicht auf eine tatsächliche Beziehung mit ihm hofft, wenn man bedenkt, wie süß Billy gegen AJ sein kann, obwohl ich kann Ich frage mich, ob AJ hinter dieser Einladung steckt. AJ ist verdreht, also wäre ich nicht überrascht zu erfahren, dass er entweder nur versucht, Billy dazu zu verleiten, seinen derzeitigen Freund zu betrügen, nur weil er gerne Ärger macht, oder wäre ich überrascht, wenn es tatsächlich ein Plan von AJ war, Billy dazu zu bringen, ihn mitzunehmen Teil an einem weiteren Dreier mit ihm und Robin. Ich meine, AJ kümmert sich nur um AJ, also wäre es vielleicht ein Plan, mit Robins Hilfe in Billys Hose zu steigen, vor allem, da er Robin um seinen kleinen Finger gewickelt zu haben scheint, und ich bezweifle, dass es schwer sein könnte, Robin dazu zu bringen, zu verführen Billy Ich bin etwas besorgt, dass etwas mit Brandon und Stevie zu tun hat, was dazu führt, dass Billy mit Robin zurück im Bett landet, wenn nicht Robin & AJ, besonders mit dieser offenen Einladung zum "Hangout". Billy ist meiner Meinung nach zu Recht ein wenig neidisch, da er keine Ahnung hat, was zwischen Brandon und Brandon passiert. Stevie, wenn sie alleine sind, also mache ich mir Sorgen, dass er irgendwann etwas Unschuldiges sieht, das schlimmer aussieht, als wenn er eine impulsive Entscheidung trifft, die er bereuen wird, oder ich habe Angst, dass es eine Chance gibt scheint nicht der Typ zu sein, den er tatsächlich finden wird, wenn Brandon ihn betrügt. Ich erwähne immer das, von dem ich weiß, dass es unangenehm ist, dass ich es ständig erwähne, aber ich kann immer noch nicht über das Bild von Brandon und Stevies Kuss, dass Jimmy Billy gezeigt hat, gezeigt werden, was nie erklärt wurde, als er es Brandon gegenüber erwähnte. Ich meine, Billy scheint es vergessen zu haben, aber ich erinnere mich, dass Brandon nur gesagt hat, es sei unschuldig, als das Foto von Billy aufgenommen wurde und er nichts dagegen aussprach, als wäre das Foto gemacht worden, bevor sie sich aufgelöst hatten, was glaubwürdig gewesen wäre, ob Wahrheit oder Wahrheit lügen, wenn er & Stevie pflegte bis heute zu tun. Die Idee, dass er Stevie geküsst hat, während er mit Billy zusammen ist, passt nicht gut zu mir, während Stevie in letzter Zeit eine schwierige Zeit hat, trösten Sie keinen Ex-Freund, besonders wenn Sie in einer Beziehung sind, indem Sie sie küssen. Brandon scheint nicht der Typ zu sein, den man betrügen soll, aber Stevie könnte der Typ sein, der ihn in Versuchung führt, was in seinem jungen, hormonellen Alter zusammen mit der Tatsache, dass er keinen Sex mit Billy hat, oft genug ausreicht, um Brandon dazu zu bringen, etwas zu tun, was er sollte. t. Brandon ist auch etwas weniger erfahren als Billy, nicht dass er sich dessen bewusst ist, Er könnte mehr versucht sein als Billy, wenn er an seiner Stelle wäre, wenn man bedenkt, dass Billy in der Lage ist, Robins Angebot zu widerstehen, obwohl er im selben Boot wie Brandon ist, wenn es in letzter Zeit an Sex mangelt. Ganz zu schweigen von dem, was wir über Brandons Persönlichkeit wissen von Billy's POV, also können wir nicht wirklich mit Sicherheit wissen, dass er nicht die Art von Betrug ist, die ich vermute, obwohl es sich so anfühlt, als ob das nicht etwas wäre, was er normalerweise tun würde. In dieser Geschichte stelle ich mir Dramen vor, die vielleicht nie kommen werden, und obwohl sie keine Beweise dafür sind, habe ich das Gefühl, dass mehr Drama auf Billys Weg zusteuert.

 

 

a little more drama can be good

Ok.. so, I don't believe Brandon is doing anything with Stevie.. he definitely isn't the cheating type, especially since he was cheated on in his first relationship. Most people who have been cheated on by someone they really loved.. will never cheat on someone they love. Mostly because they know exactly how it feels. And, Brandon is a very smart boy.. he's not going to be tricked into cheating. As far as Robin goes.. I'm hoping he's just trying to make up with Billy. It could be something involving AJ.. so what if it is? Billy isn't going to be stupid and end up doing anything involving that piece of garbage. Great chapter... I'm so glad he and his mom are getting better.

Firstly...
Why the fuck hasn't he brought up Jamie Cross' party invitation yet? I feel like Billy's going to drag it out until the eventual party date and force Brandon with an ultimatum that may not bode so well for their relationship. 

Secondly...
A lot of people over the last few chapters have badmouthed Billy for his lack of maturity concerning his mother's stance on his relationship with Brandon. But the truth is he's come a long way to get to where he is with Brandon relationship-wise and Billy's mom is completely holding him back. Billy seems to glaze over the fact that how both he and his mother feel about his dad (and his departure), his mom forcing him to play nice with a man he hardly knew (all while she showed blatantly obvious interest in him without even considering how her son feels about the situation), and her forbidding him from spending any intimate time with his boyfriend are all completely separate issues. Sure he could have handled the way he treated the Mr. Franks situation a little better, but his mother is a grown woman. If she needs him for something, she could let him know beforehand and plan around his increasingly hectic schedule. Assuming it's to keep him from being with his boyfriend unsupervised, half of the stuff he's done over the summer didn't even include meeting up with Brandon (and that's outside of the days he had to work) so there isn't any reason for her to force such burdens on him during the time that he's supposed to be stress free and enjoying himself. She wouldn't even let him go to the hospital to see if his suicidal/depressed friend (at the time) hadn't done something stupid like try to kill himself again. And on top of that, she literally called him selfish so many times because he didn't want to waste his summer looking over a complete stranger fixing up her stuff. If she didn't trust him enough to leave him alone in the house while she was away, why let him in your home at all? If he works with you, why does he only ever work on the things that need to be fixed while you're not home? 

I just think that those reading this story and forming these harsh opinions haven't been paying quite as close attention as they think. 

Thirdly...
As for Robin, I also see all these remarks about him possibly being a puppet in some harebrained scheme to trick Billy into cheating on his boyfriend thought up by the fuckboy AJ. But I mean, he could very well just want to mend his friendship with Billy, who hadn't been talking to him for quite some time. We don't always have to assume the worst about everyone. But for the sake of exploring all options, even if it turns out to be a seduction attempt, Billy wouldn't fall for it. He literally saw Sam with a boner when he was whining about how horny he was with his frigid Jesus freak of a girlfriend. And he turned him down. His best fucking friend. That, to me, shows more maturity and restraint than I ever would have thought he'd have. I mean, this is Sam we're talking about!!! 

And lastly...
Regarding Jimmy, while I see no point in trying to argue with crazy, Billy could have had this whole situation over and done with by talking to him. 

"You keep saying you care about me, and you want to make things right, but you aren't showing me that you're telling the truth. And actions speak louder than words. You need to realize that Brandon and I are happy. We're a united front. All you and I will ever be is friends, I hate to be so blunt about it, but if you want to keep me in your life, that's what you'll have to settle for. Because I can't keep getting calls about broken windows or receiving texts with snapshots of my boyfriend and his ex. I already know what's going on with that whole situation, and that's Brandon and I's business. Not yours. Am I making sense? Is any of this getting through to you?" 

At the very least it will get rid of whatever rose tinted filter is stuck in front of Jimmy's eyes. It may even help to subside some of that rage. If he wants Billy in his life, he should be forced to play by Billy's rules or risk losing his companionship forever. But I'm afraid it may be too late for Billy to try to have that heart to heart.