A way of life - 7. Friends and family

This is the 7th chapter of 'A way of life' and i hope you'll like it. In this chapter will happen some things between the friends and their families. Dan and Nate also got something to tell.  

Friends and family

After Nolan and his mom left, my dad and I chatted a little about love and what it means. He told me about things I should do and things I shouldn’t do. He said “A relationship needs two people who constantly work on it to keep what a relationship means. It’s not just good times, it’s also bad times. If something is wrong you have to fix it. Speak about problems or needs and always tell the truth. Otherwise the relationship won’t last long because lies always lost their covers and destroy what you’re working on. Keep all that in mind, son.”

Those words left a mark in my head I really needed. I don’t know anything about relationships and don’t really know how I would’ve reacted when something with Nolan and me happened. But those words could also help me with my concerns about Dan and Nate. The relationship with them is not like Nolan’s and mine but in some ways it is. Dan is my best friend and I really don’t want to lose him. Nate is my friend as well. Not as close as Dan but I don’t want to lose him as well. I care too much about them to lose them in a fight caused by my feelings for Nolan.

At 4 pm I left the house to go to Dan’s. I really need to talk with him about my concerns. My mind is spinning while I slowly walk to his house. He lives just a few houses down the road, so the way Is short. At the door is felt my nervousness building up. Before I could reach the doorbell the door opened and Dan came out.

“Hey bro, Lets go somewhere else. I can’t really talk in this house. Everybody in this house is nosy and I really need to talk to you.” Dan told me with a shy smile on his face.

“Ehhm, ok. Lets go to the park instead?” I asked him and he just nodded.

“What’s up dude? You seem a little out of line right now. Did something happen?” I asked after a few minutes without a word from him.

“heh? Oh yeah. Everything is just fine.” He didn’t even look at me but he then added “To be honest, no, nothing is fine right now. I hate my family. I talked with them about my uncle today and I couldn’t believe what they told me.”

“Just tell me, dude.” Is said to him a little concerned.

“I walked into the living room to ask my parents why I never saw my uncle again after we got the invitation to his wedding. Oh boy, they told me. They hate him, they hate him for being gay and marrying a man. My family doesn’t believe in god but they think homosexuality isn’t right.” He told me and after a few seconds he continued “I told them I want to see him. I told them I don’t have a problem with him being gay and he is still my uncle. My dad didn’t like what I said to him and started yelling at me. He accused me to be gay as well. I don’t really care what he thinks but it still hurts. I told him that I’m not gay but he won’t listen and just continued yelling at me. Before he could start again I told him about a friend of mine who is gay. I didn’t tell him it was you but after explaining him some things he started to think about it. He still don’t like the thought that his son got gay friends.” He started to cry when he finished but I knew that wasn’t all he has to say.

“Damn Dan, that’s fucked up and I’m sorry I caused so much trouble for you.” I said to him with a sad look in my face not really knowing what I could do.

“You don’t have to be sorry. None of this is your fault. I wanted to know why I can’t see my uncle anymore. You just got my thoughts together that I could talk with my ‘rents about him. I really like my uncle and I don’t fucking care if he marries a man or a woman but my family denied my own decision. That’s what bothering me. I called him today and cried into the phone what happened. He said he’ll come to visit me. Actually he’ll be here in an hour or so. I asked him if I could bring you along and he said yes. But stop talking about this now. You looked like you also got something to talk about.” Damn. That was a lot. Do I really need to tell him now? No, I think my problems can wait a few hours.

“Yes I have something on my mind but it can wait. Where do you want to meet your uncle?” I told him with a faked smile on my face. Sure it wasn’t nice to lie with a smile but this is what he needs right now.

“We’ll meet at the diner in 30 minutes. But I need to tell you this. I told him about you and I hope you don’t hate me for that.” He looked me into the eyes.

I smiled at him “OMG, you told a gay man about your gay best friend. I think he’ll hate me now.” He started laughing and I joined him. We then started for the diner and while walking he started to calm down and we talked about last night with Nolan. I didn’t tell him about the sexual details but I think he knows it already. We are still horny little fuckers with a libido old men could dream about.

At the diner He noticed the car of his uncle and walked a little faster but I noticed another car I know. The car of Nolan’s mom which was parking a few spots away. Is Nolan here? We walked in and I looked around to find him but didn’t really see him. We walked to a middle aged man and sat down and greeted each other. The last time I saw Dan’s uncle was 3 years ago at his birthday. He looked different but he is still a nice looking man.

We talked for a while until I noticed Nolan walking to us. He smiled at me and I only could smile back. I stood up and embraced him with a hug and a kiss. “Hey hon, what are you doing here? I thought you were shopping with your mom.” I said to him.

“Yeah. We were but we wanted to eat something so we came here. What are you doing here? Didn’t you want to hang out at Dan’s with him?” he asked and I noticed I forgot to introduce him to Dan’s uncle.

“Eh sorry, you’re right. Ehm… This is Dan’s uncle Tom and we needed to talk about some things with him. Tom? This is my boyfriend Nolan.” They shook hands and Tom invited him to sit down for a moment. We then talked about what happened at Dan’s house.

“My dad is just like that. He just dumped everything without even talking about it. That’s why my mom and I moved here. I don’t know if he got a problem with me or with me being gay.” Nolan said to Dan.

“The problem is my brother always knew I am gay but I couldn’t believe what he did after I invited him and his family to my wedding. He said I would fuck around with guys but marry a woman to raise my own children. I think with that invitation his dream to become an uncle died. After Dan’s birth something happened that his wife couldn’t get pregnant anymore. I don’t think he got a problem with me being gay. He saw me with my boyfriends when I was young and always said good things about it. Maybe it’s time to talk with him. I just stood away from him like he wished but now I can’t let this happen to Dan’s friends as well when he finds out.” He said to us. This is really fucked up what he told us.

“We should all make a big intervention out of it. Otherwise he won’t understand it. Mike? Nolan? Can you ask your ‘rents to be there as well? Maybe they can get some thinking in my dad.” Dan said and we all just nodded. That’s a really good idea. If we all come up with the same he can’t get away with his stupid thoughts. Dan added “How long are you here uncle Tom?”

“I staying ‘till it’s over. So is Doug. He is at the motel right now waiting for me to come back. He worries as well about what you told me on the phone.” I learned Doug is Tom’s husband.

“I go ask my mom right now. She went to the restroom.” Nolan said and went to his table while we talked about doing it tomorrow.

“He’s a nice boy, Mike. You got lucky to find a boy like him.” Tom said to me. I blushed a little but thanked him.

Nolan came back with his mom and told us we can count on her help. We then told her we want to do it tomorrow and she accepted it. Since nobody has to work on Sunday there wouldn’t be a problem to get everyone together. I just have to speak with my dad about it.

I kissed Nolan goodbye and asked him to come hang out with me later and he happily said yes. Now I have to speak with Mike about my ‘problem’ so I just asked him “Do you have any problem with the way it could happen that I don’t spend much time with you anymore? I mean, I just know I want to spend every minute I can get with Nolan but I don’t want to lose you. That’s what I wanted to talk about with you.”

“Are u stupid, dude? Sure, we won’t spend much time anymore because of Nolan but don’t you ever think about this bullshit again. Nothing will change between us. And by the way, we could spend time with Nolan together. You don’t have to hide anything in front of me and you should know that.” He said to me a little upset about what I asked him.

“For real? Sure we can spend time together with Nolan but some things I’ve to hide in front of you.” I said and blushed after I realized what I actually told him.

“Ok, maybe you are right. Some things I really don’t want to see.” He laughed about it. “I really don’t want to lose you as my best friend too and I kick your ass when you forget me.”

Now I know I don’t have to be concerned I might lose him. My mind just fucks with me sometimes and I really hate that. My dad told me that’ll happen in puberty and that sometimes I get confused about things.

“Ok boys, lets go and we’ll meet tomorrow 3 pm at Dan’s. Can you invite Nate as well? He is still you friend and wants to know what’s happening in your lifes and maybe he has something to say.” Tom asked paying the small bill of our drinks. We nodded, went out and said goodbye to him after Tom gave me his mobile number and said I can call whenever I want if I have some questions about this whole gay-thing. Of course I have questions but they can wait. I thanked him and walked away with him after he got to his car.

“Where are we going now?” I asked.

“I want to go to Nate’s. We need to talk about something else with him and we need to ask him about tomorrow.” He answered. What does he need to talk about with us? Didn’t we just talk about everything? Since he won’t tell me right now I have to wait until we’re at Nate’s.

On the way we talked about the whole gay-thing and he actually asked me if I already had sex with Nolan. I didn’t need to answer because my blush told him what he needed to know. We arrived at Nate’s and got in and walked directly to his room and sat down on his bed and small couch.

“Before we start to speak about what happened today” he looked from me to Nate “we have to tell him something.” He looked back at me after Nate nodded “I told you I told my dad I’m not gay and that’s true. I’m bisexual. Nate on the other hand is gay. And what I need to tell you is that Nate and I are a couple. I know this is a little shock for you but like you told me a few days ago, I don’t want to hide anymore. Especially not in front of you. It made me crazy for month and Nate told me he really want to tell you but I always stopped him.”

What the fuck? Why didn’t I notice that? Dan and Nate are a couple? Was I that selfish or scared that I didn’t notice what was going on between them? Damn it. He noticed me being gay a few years ago and I didn’t even realize they are a couple? I’m a really bad friend.

“Why didn’t you just tell me? You said you always knew I’m gay. Why didn’t you just tell me?” I asked.

“I couldn’t tell you. I was too scared. Stupid, when I think about it but you have to know since Nate came in our life 2 years ago we quickly got together and maybe I got scared about hurting your maybe existing feelings for me. I don’t know why I never told you but since this shit happens at my home and that you got together with Nolan I don’t really want to hide anymore.” 2 fucking years? They are a couple for 2 years now and I didn’t notice just a little thing? Where was I with my stupid head? I know they spend a lot of time together but I never even thought about them like that.

“Wow, two years? And I never even realized a thing. You two are really good at hiding stuff. I need to think about this, sorry, but you just told me you and Nate are a couple for 2 years without telling me and knowing I’m gay. That’s really fucked up, dude. We’ll see us tomorrow.” I said and walked out the door. He tried to get me back but I told him “Dude, calm down. I just need to think about that. Alone. Today happened a lot and I really need to get my mind on the right track again. Sure, I’m a little bit upset about that but I’m not going to dump you because of that. You’re still my best friend and nothing will change that.” He just nodded and I went home without saying one more thing.

At home my dad asked me what happened after he saw my face. I sat down beside him and told him everything what happened today, including the little sexual thing with Nolan, Dan’s uncle and what Dan and Nate told me. He listened to everything I said without saying anything. After I finished my whole day he came closer and hugged me.

“Son, Sure I’m coming with you tomorrow and don’t think anything will change here when Dan and Nate are hanging out here. Sure, today happened a lot but just calm down and don’t think a lot about it. Everything will come to a logic point with time. Don’t overthink you still growing brain. You just end confused or angry and that won’t help you.” He said to me and it made a lot sense to me. So I calmed down a little and since Nolan will arrive in about half an hour I asked my dad if he can sleep over another night and he just nodded.

I got my phone and called him to ask his mom and she said yes as well. Next thing I did was texting Dan.

Me: Hey dude, don’t want to disturb anything but Nolan is sleeping over again and I want to tell him what you told me. If you’re ok with it I’ll tell him, if not I won’t.

Dan: Sure, he’ll know it anyway when we got to speak with my dad tomorrow. So, yes, you can tell him.

Me: Are you going to do what I think you are going to do?

Dan: I think so. I told you I don’t want to hide anymore and that includes my family. I’ll tell them tomorrow.

Me: Ok. That’s a really big step when your dad is such a prick about Tom.

Dan: I know but I need to do it. Better tomorrow when I’m not alone then when nobody is there.

Me: I got your back, bro. We’ll talk tomorrow. Nolan will be here any minute.

Dan: Thank you, bro. Have fun and don’t do anything I wouldn’t do. J

Me: I don’t know what you wouldn’t do. In any case since today. xD

Five minutes later Nolan rang the bell and I ran to open the door. I threw my arms around him like I didn’t see him for weeks. It felt like weeks but I needed it like hell. After a few kisses we got in and my dad ordered Pizza which arrived 25 minutes later. After dinner I excused us and we went to my room. We got in to my bed and cuddled a few minutes until I started to tell him about Dan and Nate.

He looked at me with a little smile and said “I knew something is going on between them. The looks at each other. I knew it. Not that they Dan is bi or that they’re a couple for two years but something was happening between them.”

Shocked is asked “What? You knew it? Am I the only fucking guy on this planet to notice something? You met them a few days ago and already noticed something?” Am I really that stupid?

“Don’t sweat it, hon. It’s called Gay-dar and when you don’t know what to look out for you just couldn’t know. I learned what to look out for back in San Francisco and you didn’t know any gay dude ‘till we met and you were scared about all this.” He said to me to calm me down and added “I can teach you to notice those things if you want.” I nodded and continued cuddling with him.

This night we never started anything sexual because I was still a little bit ropy about what happened today. We kissed a little and cuddled a lot until we both fell asleep. I woke up a few hours later on a nightmare which scared the shit out of me but Nolan was already awake.

“It’s ok honey. You just got a nightmare.” He said with his calming voice and hugged me tight with a few kisses on my forehead ‘till we both fell asleep again. I really love this boy. He can calm me down with just a few words. The next thing I noticed is the morning sun coming in trough the window.

I opened my eyes and saw Nolan still asleep. I snuggled up with him and thought about today. It’ll be just another really stressful day and with a lot of tears. I only hope everything will work out for everyone. I’m most concerned about Dan. But as my dad said, I shouldn’t overthink everything. As I noticed Nolan wakes up I kissed him until he was fully awake.

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