So It has been a while since anything crazy has happened in my life. I mean weird crazy. Today I went to my therapist. when I got there her receptionist told me that she was running late. I had nothing to do today so I wasnt in a hurry. There was this guy there also waiting. He was looking at me really weird. So naturally my paranoid ass sat as far as I could from him.
I picked up a magazine and was really into an article I was reading when i hear a voice ask me if my name is Green. I was li
I cooked dinner last night for everyone. We had a family night of sorts. My mother was here with my stepfather and The Liar. (oh by the way I had the talk with him about not being a jerk to my stepfather but that
I met my brother and his girlfriend today for lunch. Sometimes I wonder where my brother and I got so different. He's my twin brother and sometimes we can do the same things. We look identical but that is where our similarities end. He can be a little cold with people, something I am not capable of doing. He's never been shy but I seem to be. Ever since I came out to my family my brother seems to want to find reasons for he and I to relate. Normally I would welcome it but today he crossed the li
David's brother arrived today, from New York City. My first impression of him is that he really does care about David. I almost cried when I saw them hug each other for a long time. They held each other for a long time. It was like watching years of anger and pain melt away right before our eyes. I pulled Chaz away to the kitchen and let them have their moment in private. I am so happy for David. He finally has a real connection you know?
They joined us a few minutes later where proper intr
I am the first to reach a hundred blog entries in a blog. Too bad its an angry one.
I am fuming right now, I just heard some news I really didnt want to hear. A certain supposed friend is spreading rumors about me. He knows who he is and I know he reads here. I am very angry because when he left our group I was the only one to make an effort to talk to him.
I feel like he's stabbing me in the back, but rest assured that I will not be making the mistake of talking to this person again.
I had the Liar over tonight against my better judgement mind you. I cooked dinner for him Chaz and I. Chaz has an early morning, or so he said so he went to bed. I stayed up and the Liar and I spoke for a while. The first thing he says is that he is going to move in with my father. Fair enough, I thought. then he starts talking about personal stuff I really didnt want to know about. I let him indulge himself.
I had the Liar over tonight against my better judgment mind you. I cooked dinner for h
So we decided to go out and meet David's sister tonight. It only took us a few minutes to get to her apartment. David seemed anxious about it all and he nearly turned the car right back around. It pains me to see him in such a vulnerable place. But when we finally saw her he almost ran to her and gave her the biggest hug. I pulled Chaz and Selene away letting David and his sister have that moment alone.
We met her a few minutes later when he brought her over. She really seems like a genuine
So I received a call this morning before school. It was from David's sister. I told her I would go get him but she said she wanted to speak to me. I asked her why she would want to speak to me about her brother considering what his family had done to him. She seemed taken aback by what I had said and then she said that she was sorry about that. I wanted to reach through the phone and beat this woman. I asked her what she wanted from me. She said she wanted to see David, that it had been a long t
Green is out with Julio right now and I'm freaking. Julio said he had some surprise for Green. I mean for some reason Julio makes me nervous. I know Green would never leave me and that is some comfort but Julio is his ex and he knows him in the same way that I do. The problem is in the fact that I know what I have with him. How can I not be cautious with our relationship when were just trying to just get used to each other. I dont know maybe I am being too honest here. What do you guys think? A
The lights went up again. Both Plato and Homer were back on the stage. This time Plato had on white wings and one of those fake halo things. Homer had the same thing on in black without a halo. My boyfriend Chaz finally joins me. He sits next to me and leans his head on my shoulders.
So Chaz wants me and him to share this blog. I said I'd put it to a vote.
Let me know how many of you want us to share it, and how many of you want him to get his own.
GREEN
I fell asleep after the most boring night in my life. I woke this morning after a long night of tossing and turning. The first thing I do is put my arm on what used to be Chaz's side of the bed. Fully expecting him not to be there but I felt something there. A body and it was breathing lightly on the back of my head. I turned to see who it was.
"Hello," he said.
I was shocked. First I didn
I want to thank you guys for everything. I am taking everything you guys are taking to heart. Libb You are totally right and I am taking yours to heart most of all. Sometimes you need someone to make yousee how stupid you are and I thank you for that. I thought on everything that was said and I thought back on my previous relationships. I pushed Julio away too. He wanted to be there for me as much as I needed to be there for him but I never let him and look where that ended.
I wrote a lette
I parked my car in front of my house this morning. Selene is there and she runs towards my car. When I step out of it she hits me hard across my head. I walked away from her she was angry. She walked back over to me and hit me again. Then she hugged me. She told me not to ever do that again, then she took off.
When I walked into the house I walked into the worst thing I could ever see. My boyfriend sitting in the living room talking to my mother worried about me. It broke my heart even more
I sat down with my mother last night and we talked. I told her everything. She cried which really made me sad, but what really broke my heart was when she asked me to stay and watch a movie with her. It was important to herthat I stay. We watched the movie me and her watched the night my father told us he was leaving. The Liar came in at one point and he looked at us. I dont know something in him looked real sad. I noticed that before he walked away. We didnt talk about him last night but my mo
I thought about everything that happned last night. My mental break down. I reread what I had written. It really felt good to write that but In the same sense it made me think about where I was mentally last night. I could have easily told my friends yet I am always hesitant to hinder then with my problems. This si why I feel like I am losing my mother. I wanted to tell her so many times in the past week but I always failed at it.
I came home today with every intention of telling my friends
So dinner, yes dinner. Dinner turned into an unexpected disaster that ended with me falling out of my chair, and me yelling and me hitting the Liar with my fist.
I went to my mothers house because apparently she wanted to cook for me. I was weary of this but as I wrote before I wanted to talk to my stepfather about her behavior. So much to my surprise the Liar is there cooking with my mother. My stepfather had to stay late at work. So I said crap just get it over with. Naturally I called Ch
My mother called me and asked me to come over. She said she needed help going through some of the stuff we have in the attick, you know old furniture and pictures my mom has. I know this was an effort to get us close again, and I caved in. I mean she was reaching.
Chaz, Selene and David invited themselves as usual. I really don't know what they were planning on finding. I dont have alot of pictures. I dont take them. Its a personal thing for me. I have an average of two pictures taken of m
Chaz and I had our first real fight this morning. It made me feel good. I know what your thinking, "Green is crazy." But I kid you not I am happy because it makes our relationship real. I was worried that if we kept on like this for ever we would get bored of the happy relationship routine. I really love Chaz and his family except for his brother, were not there yet. My mom and my friends love him too, granted as long as he brings no unwanted birthday cakes. Even my ex's like him.
So this mo
The lights on the stage go off as the kid walks through the door. The shadow boys reappear under a new light a moment later. This time they had taken the pink make up off and they were wearing white tuxedos. One was smiling while the other frowned.
I decided to take everyone out for dinner tonight. We went to a fancy restaurant downtown. My mother knows the owner so we got a good table in a private area of the restaurant. He even tried to give us free food but I insisted on paying, besides I think we all needed a nice night out. So everything is going good when I realize who our waiter is. Our waiter is someone who I kind of had a big fight with in high school. He and I never saw eye to eye on anything. We were rivals kind of.
Well
When I got home from school and David decided that he needed to tell me that Chaz was an asshole. I asked him why calmly at first and David told me that he was furious over the birthday thing. I told him that Chaz didn't know about the no birthday rule and that he was sorry. But then he started digging at me.
"How could you tell us to break up? How is our relationship any of your business?" He yelled at me. I turned around and walked away because he was clearly annoying me and I'm not known
This saturday is Chaz and I's three month anniversary. I'm freaking out and apparently so is he. We both wanted to plan something so we compromised. One of us will plan the night when the other can have the day. We played rock paper scissors and I got the night. So I feel like cooking and Selene and I poured through several cook books. I found something I wanted to make. I found out he's allergic to something in it.
So i found something else I want to make but it requires alot more time than
