I drank a little too much last night and I did something I shouldn't have done. I kissed a gurl I thought was a guy, who I really shouldn't have kissed because I have a boy, and this is why we don't drink on weekdays. I went to David's friends house with David. They were having a party I really wanted to go out but everyone else was busy so I went.
Turns out I knew most of the people at this party. Including my ex who was slobbing all over some poor fool and that culty guy I hit last week.
Today was a marvelous day. A marverlously horrible day and I want my revenge. It started with a call from Selene. She needed me to give her a ride to the airport, so she could go to her mother's house. An hour later I was stuck in traffic. Let's just say she never made her flight and she's probably still stuck at the airport right where I left her.
David moved into my spare today but I didn't think he was going to move in a whole entertainment system too. So now we have a movie theater in my
I went to a party last night. A couple of people from one of my classes invited me. They seemed like they were fun so I went to the party. I actually had a good time at the party and I went without any of myfriends because I don't like to bring people where they arent invited. My class mates made sure I felt confortable and introduced me to a whole group of people.
As the night progresses I end up with a guy named Tom and a girl named Tanya. We get into this really good conversation about m
Well things are settling down here once again. No drama, no exes today and Just aswell because I'm getting tired of feeling sad. I called Julio today and I told him just that. I told him that I'm tired of being mad at him and I'm tired of not being happy because he isn't. The weird part is he took it well. He told me that he was sorry for busrting back into my life like that. We decided to be friends.
Chaz came by tonight and I took him out for dinner. It was our first official date and thin
Last night around ten I received a phone call from my friends David, Rob and Selene. We were pulling an all nighter like we did when we were in highschool. We used to sneak out of the house and go do stuff late at night. I got dressed and tip toed around the living room I didn't want Julio to know I was out.
"Where are we going," I asked my friends.
"The beach, we're having ourselves a late fall barbecue party," Rob says. Rob's family owns a beach house they never use and it has this big
I'm drained right now. I did let him in and he's sleeping on the couch right now. Chaz is some where mad at me while I almost had to restrain Selene. I don't know what to do. I can tell that he really wants me back but at the same time I am getting used to the idea of having Chaz in my life.
Chaz came over and found us talking. His disappointment was clearly visible. He said he'd call me and took off. He hasn't called yet and it's worrying me. The last thing I would ever want to do is hurt
Today I ran into my highschool crush who so happens to be a good guy. First thing he asks me about Chaz. My face was so red that you put a heinz ketchup bottle next to it and not know the difference. He starts telling my how much he digs Chaz and how he would like to see him again. Meanwhile I feel like a deer caught in the headlights because of what happened last night.
"He's such a great guy I hope he gives me answer soon," he says as I slowly die before him. "Hey maybe you and your boyfr
I'm in a good mooood today. I went out for lunch with my friends David and Rob and they bought me a lolly. We even went to a toy store where I was hit on by an old lady that thought I was cute. We had a good time but that's when the weird crap started once again.
On our way home we saw my friend Selene yelling at someone on the side of the road. We were too embarassed to even ask so we kept on driving. David drove so we dropped off our friend Rob , and then headed towards my
I Just wanted to let you guys know what I've been working on. I have a new story that I'm working on. The first part to MR. Black is finished. I'm just waiting for my editor to return that one. I am working on book two to No Matter How far aswell as finishing At the Edge Of Our World. My friend Jonathan has done incredible artwork for my stories.
What happens when being yourself is not enough?
The rewritten sequel to A Hero in the Hallways. Two will be lost and one life will be cha
I woke up this morning, I made breakfast and I called Selene and Chaz over. When They walked in they immediately noticed that Julio and his stuff were gone. "What happened?" Selene asked. "Did you guys break up?"
I tell them whole story as selene gets angry. Chaz however doesn't say anything. He doesn't even look at me. Selene is angry not only with Julio but with me for not telling her. I gtried to explain what happened to her and how I felt like a jerk for asking them to give me some space
You know what I thought about what Libbonobo and the rest of you said and you guys are right. Maybe I was just hanging on to something that wasn't there. I decided to go back I'm actually back home now and I will tell Selene and Chaz what happened tomorrow. The thing is I think Chaz is attractive but I don't see anything beyond that. Even though he might, I just see him as a friend. A good one, dont get me wrong but that's all. I know what I felt for Julio is real but we weren't good for each ot
I am in a hotel room somewhere I can't pronounce. I am about a day away from where I live and I feel good. I guess you can always feel good when you drive away from the problem. I still havent told Selene and Chaz. But you'll be happy to know that I did talk to someone even if it wasn't face to face. It was on the phone. I talked to a friend that lives a few states over and I'm headed to him now.
Selene has called atleast twenty times I knew she'd call. Chaz hasn't yet but that is because o
I want to thank you guys for your words. I havent told anybody yet. He never called and I don't expect that he will. I am numb right now. Last night I went through the motions but today I'm just drained. I couldn't even tell my friends I feel like a fool in front of them.
I don't know what to do I'm restless. Things are definitely going to change and I don't know if I want to stay in this house. I am going to go away for a couple of days. I need to get away from everything that is my life.
Julio my BF is very mad at me these days. He's very jeallous of my friends and he thinks I'm going to leave him for Chaz. It freaks me out when he talks like that. I've already told him that my friends will always be there but that doesn't mean that he is second to them. I mean I planned on marrying him some day and he's the only person that I have dated I could ever say that about. I love him and it kills me inside when he says these things.
Today I told my friends not to come over for a w
It's started again. I found myself in the worst situation once again. Selene one of my best friends, not one of the good best friends but rather the evil one, had invited me to this hell night somewhere I never want to visit again with her annoying brother that should find a way to cease to exist. Whew mouth full. I went to the god forsakened thing making sure Chaz came along for moral support because I was one step away from killing someone.
alright so this place we ggo to is decorated or r
Midterms all is good all has been passed. House all is good boyfriend is great house is clean. Friends all getting along, no more ex's, no more stupid brothers of friends. Green seems healthy, no yelling feels calm. So then why is everything feel like it's going to collapse on me? Because it's going to.
Julio my bf decided that he was going to cook a fact that I descourage alot since he almost burned my kitchen down a couple of months ago. I wake up from a nap and I hear s
I wrote this two years ago and I just found it again. I wrote this after my ex broke up with me and I found out that he was cheating during our relationship.
I wasn't seeing what I was seeing run through my mind as I see it. How could he, was my first thought. Hate, anguer, betrayal strangle me, took my breath, would I think next. You lied to me, saw me cry you hurt me till I fell and I found that I was lost.
I gave you so much, You take, I lose, you walk you choose and I watch but
I received an email from my friend Jonathan from across the country. He gave me a name and a song to look up. The name of the artist is Sia and the song is breathe me. Alright so I am picky with music but I know good stuff. So I can't buy it of of I tunes so I go to the local record store and I find it. I put it in my car and I listen to this gentle, almost fragil voice singing what is the most relevant song I have ever heard at any given time.
As I drove I started to cry. I was crying so h
What is it about gossip that get's my blood fuming, even if it's about somebody I hate. But when it's about me for some reason I have to let them indulge themselves. I went to the library today with Chaz he was looking up some stuff and I needed to write a paper on an author. I finished early so I took the time to print a paper I had written that is due monday. When I was done I sat down near some people.
Alright so here goes a little background on myself. I was born in Guatemala. Even thoug
After yesterdays nonstop interruptions. I decided that I was going to take a day for myself. I went to the beach alone. It was cold but I always like to go to the beach when it's cold. For one no one is there and I can actually walk on the sand without falling into it and two sometimes you can see seals at the edge of the shore. I didn't see seals but I was alone for a good time and I could think about everything that is happening.
It was actually beautiful and I took out my camera and took
I thought today was going to be a normal day. I had no class to go to so I was just going to stay home and write some of the new chapters in my five stories I've decided to debut all at once which are coming soon I promise. but no I get home and my BF was entertaining some of his co workers. I really like them so I joined them, making sure that he didn't burn our kitchen again (That's another story altogether). So I had a nice converstaion with one of them, a nice lady and we shared a couple of
I'm angry right now.
I just received a call from my father telling me that he is proud of me for beating up my uncle. I guess my mother told him so I told him off. Twenty two years of anger, hate and regret spewed out of me for ten minutes and for some reason he actually listened. Then he had the nerve to say that he forgives me. What?
So I explained to him using a few choice words why I actually hit my uncle. For the first time in his life he took my words seriously. Like when i told h
I saw Chaz today after a week. He just smiled and kept on walking but I felt that I owed it to him to give him an explanation as to why I booked. So I catched up to him. I could tell that he was extremely uncomfortable speaking of this in public so I asked if he wanted to go somewhere private and he said alright.
I drove him to his dorm and I said I'm sorry for leaving and I explained to him how much I am in love with my BF and I could never cheat on him with anybody even if I liked him. He
The next morning I woke to find that Chaz had pringles all over him and my body was half off my bed. So I wake Chaz up and he goes gets in the shower and I clean up. An hour later were on the road again. Chaz is driving but I see that we're going back a completely different way.
"Where are we going?" I ask.
"Oh I know a faster way," he says. So I say alright and I fall back to sleep. About an hour later I hear squealing and laughter. I open my eyes to see two really attractive people loo
So you remember that hot guy we saw walking into the hotel? Well apparently he was staying in the room across the courtyard for us and we can clearly see into his room. Chaz notices this when he comes back from the convenience store acroos the street with alot of junk food. We were going to watch a movie that night and I really needed comfort food. So I took a shower and made sure my nose wasn't bleeding anymore. When I came out of the shower Chaz is sitting on the bed laughing but the TV or the