{September 14, 2010}

Dear Lovers and Friends,

How are you today?

Oh so your feeling good today? Good. Now I need some words of wisdom from you.

What does it mean to take a "chance?" How do we define such a thing and must it only occur once a life time? I, for one, have learned about the many places I've wanted to, dreamed of, and spoke of going to. But in reality, I hadn't actually set foot outside my door. Why was that? To be frank, I still had no idea what stopped me from the pursuit of happiness, love, and life. Maybe it was because I was afraid of rejection or that such a pursuit is absolute falconry?

So what if this supposedly pivotal moment in my life was to come unexpected, do I go for it with open arms, or do I let it go and submit to my own tragic destiny?

There's a reason why I keep ranting on and on: it's because I feel that there might be someone special in my life at the moment. However, where our relationship is situated at the moment is still sort of a mystery to me. This is because I've been asking this same question all week over and over again: "Should I let him be a part of my life? Yes? No?" If I do, this would dramtically change things for me... Adjustments would have to be made blah blah blah. I'm just scared that if things go to fast, that like a strike of lightning it would only end quickly. What was your first love like?

What do you guys say about taking chances?

Am I ready to jump off the edge with him?

I would appreciate any advice, since you guys rock! <3

xoxo,

MidnightSecret<3