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So this is What it's Like


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"I drank too much last night, got bills to pay,

my head just feels in pain"

 

~Dido Thank You

 

I love that song. I'm not sure why really. It doesn't really SEEM like a sound or style I'd like that much, but it's one of my favorites (gotta be since I still play it all the time and it's several years old). I think it's because it's kinda romantic if you think about it. She's singing about all this bad stuff happening to her, and then her guy calls (or hands her towel :P ) and suddenly it's the best day of her life. Anyway unfortunately the lyrics I quoted apply to me perfectly right now :( .

 

I went to an early Christmas party some people at work were having last night. I had a really great time. I got to see several people who I used to work with but had quit, and met some new people who were somehow attached to other people I knew. Anyway it was really fun, and gave me a nice excuse to dress up (which I always love lol). Actually I'm surprised what I was wearing didn't "tip anyone off", but I guess I just looked really metro. Well anyway I'm the kinda person who likes to taste a little of everything, and unfortunately there was quite a few different types of liquor, and it seemed like every time I turned around someone was handing me a drink. So anyway I had an awesome time, but I don't think I've been that drunk in 3 or 4 years. It's strange I thought I was like "immune" to hangovers. I mean I haven't drank much anyway in the last 4 years, but even when I used to I never got them. I always attributed it to the insane amount of water I always drink. Anyway today I definitely had one. I really wasn't expecting it, I guess it's largely because I didn't eat much yesterday, and I only got like 4 hours of sleep. I actually always feel like I have a "hangover" if I don't get a full night's sleep. In fact when I woke up I was thinking "oh wow, this is just like I feel when I don't get enough sleep, only worse!"

 

So I went to work, and I arranged to take off from the 28th-2nd in order to go to Houston (yep that's where I'm planning to move to now), and see if I can find somewhere suitable to live when I move. And I guess I'll check out the campus (even though now I really don't think I'm going to make the deadline) and try to get a feel for the city. So I'm pretty excited, I can't stand not knowing where I'm going to be living, and it just came time to renew (or in my case NOT renew) the leases at my current apartment, so I was pretty much really nervous about the fact that if I didn't figure something out I wouldn't have anywhere to live in May. It kinda looks like it's all falling into place though, I really do think this is the right thing for me to do (thanks again everyone! You guys really made me feel better about my decision.), and even my boss was like "yeah, I think you're making the right choice" (which is another relief, I didn't know how I was going to quit....LOL I guess you could say I put in my "5 month's notice" :P ).

 

Anyway so all of that's good, but unfortunately taking all this time off, combined with the fact that I was getting less hours anyway (it always slows down this time of year), means that my next check will probably be LESS THAN HALF of what I normally make :/ . And it won't pick up again for another month. Fortunately I'm obsessive about saving money and should be able to make do, but I hate that'll have to dip so much into savings, and reduce my lifestyle expenses.

 

LOL on a sidenote a gay friend of mine from work is trying to set me up with a girl. Goodness, I must really be off the radar :huh: . I know I should probably just explain to him why I'm not interested, but that'd seem kinda weird since I'm closer with alot of other people at work and I haven't told them. Plus I've always kinda gotten the feeling he was into me and while he's really sweet, and not at all bad looking, he's just not my type. Also he's not that great at keeping secrets, and while I'm sure he'd try it'd be really hard for him.

 

Anyway I think I'm just going to have a quite evening, go to church, wrap my christmas presents (kinda lookin forward to that!), take a nice hot bubble bath and probably play with those bath toys I bought awhile back (I know, I know, I'm like 8 :boy: ), then hopefully get to bed early. Have an awesome day/week everyone!

 

Kevin

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Actually I'm surprised what I was wearing didn't "tip anyone off"

 

Given that and your behaviour at the wake, you seem to be subconsciously determined to out yourself before you move on!

 

I sing in the Vancouver Men's Chorus; the boyfriend of one of my fellow chorus members visited rehearsal a few weeks ago and he sings in Houston's gay men's chorus. You could check to see whether they have a performance while you are visiting Houston. If you sing, there are few more enjoyable ways to meet people than joining a chorus. If you go to a show, as you watch ask yourself, "Could I do that?" It's not as hard as you might think, and way fun. If you're interested, google "Houston Men's Chorus," they'll probably have a web-site with concert dates and stuff.

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Given that and your behaviour at the wake, you seem to be subconsciously determined to out yourself before you move on!

 

I sing in the Vancouver Men's Chorus; the boyfriend of one of my fellow chorus members visited rehearsal a few weeks ago and he sings in Houston's gay men's chorus. You could check to see whether they have a performance while you are visiting Houston. If you sing, there are few more enjoyable ways to meet people than joining a chorus. If you go to a show, as you watch ask yourself, "Could I do that?" It's not as hard as you might think, and way fun. If you're interested, google "Houston Men's Chorus," they'll probably have a web-site with concert dates and stuff.

 

Hmmm I hadn't thought of that before. LOL guess I'd better watch it.

 

Thanks for the tip, I'll look into the chorus thing to see if I can catch a performance. LOL no one should have to endure my singing though.

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Kevin, I am excited for you for your trip to Houston...and hey why not see if you can visit the University too?

 

Its funny that your co worker wants to fix you up with a girl...well, now here is your Out (no pun intended) You may wish to say with your busy schedule, and plans to move away, dating is not on your agenda....(ok, so dating girls isn't on your agenda..but hey, trust your instincts if he is the type to "Out" you and you aren't ready for that, then don't go there.) Or you can just pretend you didn't hear him and then it never happened....

 

Beyond all that, you are doing just fine, IMO, in your coming out process....going at your own pace and when you get to a city like Houston with a pretty decent Gay population, you can make your own way on your own terms at your own comfort level...a win win win all the way around:)

 

Good luck and safe travels and enoy the Holidays with your family...BTW you really do have an AWESOME MOM:) send her our hugs:) and of course Holiday Hugs to you and your family..

 

 

Also, it sounds like your cousin is a Lesbian..so hey, you may have a cool Gay friend in the process to vibe with:)

 

Michael

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Hi Kevin

 

I so happy that your making the move. I felt deep in my heart that it was the right thing for you to do. Good luck on all your preparations and I hope you find a great place to live. :2thumbs:

 

It's strange I thought I was like "immune" to hangovers. I mean I haven't drank much anyway in the last 4 years, but even when I used to I never got them. I always attributed it to the insane amount of water I always drink. Anyway today I definitely had one.

 

Now it may sound strange me giving drinking advise to you, but I know something about this.

 

"Don't ever mix drinks. Find one type and stick with it. Mixing drinks is a sure fire way to guarantee a hangover." :wacko:

 

Hope to hear from you when you get back.

 

Merry Christmas

and a

Very Happy New Year :wizard:

 

Eric

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LOL no one should have to endure my singing though.
Yeah, I used to think the same way about my voice. But it's amazing what happens when you're around other people who sing well. When it comes right down to it, there are very few people who really can't sing. The hardest part about being in a chorus, for me, isn't the singing anymore, it's all the memorization (the VMC usually sings off-book). If I can do it, believe me, it's a cinch that you can.

 

The reason I suggested you look into Houston's chorus is that it's an excellent way to meet a lot of gay men in a new place without going to a bar or club. There are loads of other benefits, too. And if you are adamant about your singing, every chorus has non-singing members who help put on the shows, do publicity, etc., etc.

 

Like I've said, Kevin, sooner rather than later.... :D

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Kevin, I am excited for you for your trip to Houston...and hey why not see if you can visit the University too?

 

Its funny that your co worker wants to fix you up with a girl...well, now here is your Out (no pun intended) You may wish to say with your busy schedule, and plans to move away, dating is not on your agenda....(ok, so dating girls isn't on your agenda..but hey, trust your instincts if he is the type to "Out" you and you aren't ready for that, then don't go there.) Or you can just pretend you didn't hear him and then it never happened....

 

Beyond all that, you are doing just fine, IMO, in your coming out process....going at your own pace and when you get to a city like Houston with a pretty decent Gay population, you can make your own way on your own terms at your own comfort level...a win win win all the way around:)

 

Good luck and safe travels and enoy the Holidays with your family...BTW you really do have an AWESOME MOM:) send her our hugs:) and of course Holiday Hugs to you and your family..

Also, it sounds like your cousin is a Lesbian..so hey, you may have a cool Gay friend in the process to vibe with:)

 

Michael

 

Thanks Michael! Yeah I'm pretty excited too, can't wait.

 

I think I lucked out where the girl was concerned, he gave me her info and visa versa, but she never tried to contact me either, so I'm thinking it was really just him that was interested in getting us together lol. Not that I don't appreciate it.

 

Actually my best friend (and the first person I ever came out to) is a lesbian, and I know quite a few of them. I wish I got to hang out more with my cousin, I do miss her.

 

Anyway take care :)

 

Kevin

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Hi Kevin

 

I so happy that your making the move. I felt deep in my heart that it was the right thing for you to do. Good luck on all your preparations and I hope you find a great place to live. :2thumbs:

Now it may sound strange me giving drinking advise to you, but I know something about this.

 

"Don't ever mix drinks. Find one type and stick with it. Mixing drinks is a sure fire way to guarantee a hangover." :wacko:

 

Hope to hear from you when you get back.

 

Merry Christmas

and a

Very Happy New Year :wizard:

 

Eric

 

Thanks Eric!

 

I think it's the right decision too, and now that I'm moving along with it, I feel much better.

 

Thanks for the tip about not mixing my drinks, I'll try to keep that in mind. It's tough though since it's mostly my desire to try everything that got me in trouble in the first place lol.

 

I hope you have an awesome Christmas and a teriffic New Year too, take care :)

 

Kevin

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LOL no one should have to endure my singing though.
Yeah, I used to think the same way about my voice. But it's amazing what happens when you're around other people who sing well. When it comes right down to it, there are very few people who really can't sing. The hardest part about being in a chorus, for me, isn't the singing anymore, it's all the memorization (the VMC usually sings off-book). If I can do it, believe me, it's a cinch that you can.

 

The reason I suggested you look into Houston's chorus is that it's an excellent way to meet a lot of gay men in a new place without going to a bar or club. There are loads of other benefits, too. And if you are adamant about your singing, every chorus has non-singing members who help put on the shows, do publicity, etc., etc.

 

Like I've said, Kevin, sooner rather than later.... :D

 

Thanks Andronicus!

 

That's really good advice, I'll look into it. Though I really don't think I have such a great voice. Anyway thanks and take care! :)

 

Kevin

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