Why you're not on my Facebook
If you haven't noticed, I don't publish who I am on here. There's a reason for that. I'm not out and I frankly have no interest to be out right now. I'm not in denial with myself, I just cannot afford to be out. In terms of my personal priorities, if it means I have a roof over my head while I bounce around trying to pay off my student loans mean that I can't live my life openly as I wish, so be it.
Some of you know me on GA via Chat. I am able to truly be myself in the chat most of the time, and I am glad that you all are able to communicate with me that way. However, I generally don't mix my RL stuff with my GA activities.
If I actually trust you to be on my Facebook friend, it generally means that I trust you well enough to know that you wouldn't be blabbing my RL details to others here on GA.
Not being out and open about myself is a choice I make unwillingly, and I don't wake up in the morning, smell the fresh air around me, and decide I'm going to confine myself in a false persona. It's not like enjoy hiding myself from who I truly am.
I hope you understand the basic mutual decency and privacy that I exercise, and why I seem distant whenever you ask me about personal details. Don't take it the wrong way, but I've probably trained myself long enough to keep my defenses up so no one can get close enough to me to make me feel threatened. And until I meet the one who will bring me out of my shell and face life the way it is, I believe that staying the course I have laid out thus far will be what I end up doing for the foreseeable future.
It's ironic, even if I live in the most liberal cities in the entire US, I still cannot afford to be myself... to say it's sad would be the understatement of the millennia.
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