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Annoyed & Frustrated


Renee Stevens

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So, the title says it all, I'm annoyed and frustrated. At myself more than anything else at this point. I sit here day after day and try and write. I pull up one story after another and every single one I just stare at for a few minutes before moving onto another one. No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to write. Well, at least nothing worth reading.

 

I have been determined that I was going to get some stories out this year and I've got so many good starts, but that's all they are, starts. Some are upwards of 5 or 6K and there's even one that if I remember right, is up to nearly 12K, but they're stalled. I have probably a dozen or more stories in some form of completion on my computer, including two completed stories that need revised. Usually if I can't write new material I can go to a story that needs revision and get something done. I mean, the story is already there, it's just a matter of tweaking things here and there. This time, even that's a no go.

 

I really want to do a story for the spring anthology but that is nothing more than a disaster. I have dozens of ideas floating in my head, but then I sit down at the computer and write about two lines and then scrap the idea. Just can't get my head around anything to actually make it go anywhere.

 

What's even more frustrating is that this is NOT like me. In the past, whenever I've had a lot of stuff going on, I was able to turn to my writing as a release. I could sit down and lose myself in a story for a couple of hours. Writing has always been an escape for me and a way to cope with life when it seems like nothing is going write. At the moment, even that is denied me.

 

I don't know, maybe one day my muse will just jump up and bite me in the ass, but at this point, I'm seriously doubting it. I've tried to do the prompts to get me out of whatever funk I'm in, but either I write a couple hundred words and scrap it or I write nearly 4k and then get stuck.

 

*UGH* Hopefully I'll get whatever this is worked out and will be able to finish Forging Trust and perhaps even get a couple new stories out there. Guess we'll have to wait and see.

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:hug: I know how you feel Renee

 

Been there, done that, drunk the litre bottle of scotch :lol: (definitely would not recommend the bottle of the scotch)

 

I've got more stories half-written than I know what to do with (one I haven't written anything for in over a year but just can't face chucking out), but at least I've been able to write something for one of them.

 

Hope you get out of this funk soon.

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Sometimes I just run whatever story I am working on over and over in my head until I formulate a plot-line. I try to remember the good plots and get those ideas down on paper or computer. Then, like a puzzle, I piece the story together. Sometimes I borrow ideas from one story and use them in another. My head is full of all kinds of stuff :/ I bet yours is too.

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I know the feel, sometimes you have ideas bouncing in your head but when you sit down for some reason they either don't come out, or you just can't write. For me, I've always done several things to try to get me into a mood where ideas can solidify:

i) Take a long bath/shower (always works for me)

ii) Take your smart phone or notepad and go out for a walk, or just do anything but stare at your computer screen, and go fantasize about your story.

iii) Screw up your sleeping schedule big time by sleeping really, really, reallyyyy late (I mean like 3, 4, 5, 6am).

iv) Take drugs. (no I'm just kidding)

Anyways these things work for me, so I'm not sure if they will for you. Good luck!

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You say that writing for you is an escape...what about when the writing is a problem? What would your "escape" be then?

 

If you don't have one in that scenario...this may be the time to get one. Crazy...but who knows? It might just help. :)

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:hug: I know how you feel Renee

 

Been there, done that, drunk the litre bottle of scotch :lol: (definitely would not recommend the bottle of the scotch)

 

I've got more stories half-written than I know what to do with (one I haven't written anything for in over a year but just can't face chucking out), but at least I've been able to write something for one of them.

 

Hope you get out of this funk soon.

:hug:  Thanks Andy.  Not a big scotch drinker anyways, but been really tempted lately to delve into either the Malibu Rum & Pineapple juice or the Bacardi Silver Raz. 

 

The really sad part is that a couple of the stories sitting on my computer could probably be finished up in only a couple thousand words.  Grrrrrr...

 

 

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:hug: back at ya!  Thanks Cassie!

 

 

:hug: I totally understand - i am at a totally similar point with writing :)

 

PM me if you want to chat about it :)

 

:hug: Thanks Johnathan.  It's been going on for a couple of months and is just really really bugging me.  I'll definitely keep your offer in mind and same goes for you!

 

 

Sometimes I just run whatever story I am working on over and over in my head until I formulate a plot-line. I try to remember the good plots and get those ideas down on paper or computer. Then, like a puzzle, I piece the story together. Sometimes I borrow ideas from one story and use them in another. My head is full of all kinds of stuff :/ I bet yours is too.

 

I've ran every story I've got going on over and over in my head.  I know where all of them are going to go as far as the plot goes, it's just getting it written down that is the problem.  I think my biggest issue right now is focus.  I have none.  When I'm up and about, I'm thinking of my stories and then when I sit down to try and work on them, my mind wanders to something else or I think of something I just have to do. 

 

 

I know the feel, sometimes you have ideas bouncing in your head but when you sit down for some reason they either don't come out, or you just can't write. For me, I've always done several things to try to get me into a mood where ideas can solidify:

i) Take a long bath/shower (always works for me)

ii) Take your smart phone or notepad and go out for a walk, or just do anything but stare at your computer screen, and go fantasize about your story.

iii) Screw up your sleeping schedule big time by sleeping really, really, reallyyyy late (I mean like 3, 4, 5, 6am).

iv) Take drugs. (no I'm just kidding)

Anyways these things work for me, so I'm not sure if they will for you. Good luck!

 

I've tried sooooooo many things lately to try and write.  And a couple of them are usually fool proof methods for me to write.  One of them is putting music on.  For some reason that has always helped me focus, but this time, it's a no go.  I've even tried getting out paper and pen since that has also always worked for me, once again, not helping at all.  I stayed up until 4 o'clock yesterday morning and tried to work through it and all that did was leave me tired and frustrated (hence the very early morning blog post).  I've tried baking, I've tried cleaning, I've tried cuddling with the hubby, I've tried playing fetch with the dog.  I've tried everything I can think of and still, it's a no go.  Even sat down and tried to brainstorm with one of my beta's and even that didn't get the juices flowing like it normally does.  ARGH!!!!  Thanks for the suggestions, I'm beginning to think I just need someone to hit me over the head a few times... Maybe my brain got scrambled or something and needs to be scrambled back!

 

 

You say that writing for you is an escape...what about when the writing is a problem? What would your "escape" be then?

 

If you don't have one in that scenario...this may be the time to get one. Crazy...but who knows? It might just help. :)

 

I actually do have an escape from my writing as well.  I like to make quilts.  I can sit and sew for hours and actually feel like I've accomplished something.  Unfortunately, even that can't keep my focus and after a couple of screw ups on a quilt, I had to set that aside as well.  Hopefully I'll be able to get my focus back here in the very very near future, otherwise, I might just go insane!

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Sometimes crap happens. I still think you should just say I am not going to worry about writing at all for 2 weeks. Then re-address in 2 weeks and see how you feel. Give yourself permission not to have the expectation that you should be writing.

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 Writing has always been an escape for me and a way to cope with life when it seems like nothing is going write.  At the moment, even that is denied me.

 

Hi Renee,

I think Cia might  have something going with her comment.  You say writing has always been an escape, a way to cope.  It could be what you want to cope with or escape is the reason for the muse disappearing. You might be so worried about it and not dealing, because you're not dealing, it's affecting the writing without you realizing it. I think it would be great to step away from the writing and focus your attention on why you need the escape.  Once you know the problem. even though there is no solution at hand, at least knowing what the issue is might jump start the muse.

 

Otherwise tight tight, :hug:

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