Well, my internship with the state park did not work out. I'm pretty shocked and sad about it.

Long story short, they felt like a particular incident showed that I had not gotten over my behavior problems from a decade ago, and given that I had a lot of baggage with them from that time period, they did not feel like I was a fit with them. I was given a second chance and I blew it.

It sucks and I'm pretty angry at myself. I know I'll move on- I closed a door with ever working with the state park system in Delaware, apparently, but it's not the end of my career. I might really want to start thinking long and hard about staying in the state of Delaware, however.

Right now my immediate course of action is to just go ahead and start increasing my volunteer hours at another museum I work at (thank god I didn't actually leave the place), do some soul-searching about why this internship did not work out like the previous 3 I've worked in, and get back on the horse and try again. Luckily I've got this side job cleaning apartment buildings a couple weekends a month so I'm not completely at 0.

Ugh. I guess I just have to remember that this was a learning experience, even though it wasn't in the way I wanted it to be.