I sent this to you in a PM .. but I'll put it here too: 

Wayne, you're a good man. All you can do is operate trying to do the best that you can. 

What happens if you close a site down?  Are your folks given the best protection? 

Choices are hard. Medical people are like cops, or military, they put themselves in harms way for the benefit of others.  As a cop, and now, I would step in front of a gun to protect someone. You are doing the same thing. 

I'll add: So are your staff. It's just how they are made. 

27 minutes ago, MichaelS36 said:

I sent this to you in a PM .. but I'll put it here too: 

Wayne, you're a good man. All you can do is operate trying to do the best that you can. 

What happens if you close a site down?  Are your folks given the best protection? 

Choices are hard. Medical people are like cops, or military, they put themselves in harms way for the benefit of others.  As a cop, and now, I would step in front of a gun to protect someone. You are doing the same thing. 

I'll add: So are your staff. It's just how they are made. 

Thanks, Mike.

It's tough when I know and cherish these people. I realize our role in this, and if I could manage our system of clinics and work the lab I would. My boss has already told me that's a last case scenario ... that my current role is too important to risk through exposure at the sites.

That feels so shitty and I hate it. This morning after I spoke to my worker, I told my boss how I felt, and she asked, "Who would do your work if you got sick?" The answer was "Me." I'm sitting at the center of all of our testing/lab staffing/result communication/lab supply tracking efforts. I wrote a list of minimum tasks that need doing daily, approved by her, in case I do get sick. Because, there's no not doing them. It doesn't matter how bad I feel, these things will have to be done, no matter what.

Still. I'm safely away from the front line while I send people there. While I have the bigger picture in mind, and I know why this is necessary, it still feels bad.