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Identity


Who am i? It’s a question i think we all ask from time to time. i've been asking that a lot recently. i’m doing some work on myself, talking with a therapist almost weekly and it’s been a really good thing.

Except.

i'm discovering that i’m not who i thought i was.

Kind of.

i’ve discovered that i really am “good enough” and that “good enough” isn’t “average” or “meh” in the way that it was in my head. “Good enough” always had a negative connotation. But it’s not really a negative.

So, yeah, i am good enough. i’ve discovered that i am damn good. That the fear that was activating, ramping up, encouraging my anxious responses was just that, fear. It wasn’t that i wasn’t “good enough” or “a failure.” It was that i had thought, i had believed, that i wasn’t damn good or good enough or that i was a failure.

Some of that was input from authority figures growing up, from other managers, other authority figures in past jobs. Almost a brainwashing… although i’m not sure if my therapist would agree with that term.

The process hasn’t been, won’t be, easy. Just saying those things isn’t enough, i have to believe them, honestly in my heart and in my head believe them.

The thing is this isn’t just how it affects my professional life. i’ve uncovered how it affected my personal life. That i am worthy of the love i receive, i am worthy to see myself the way Phil sees me, i am confident in what i do.

So, who am i now? I’m still figuring that out.

i am confident, capable and worthy. i am “damn good, not just good enough.” i am not a failure.

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8 hours ago, Mikiesboy said:

Haha..yes, it's an adjective and also, a Norwegian metal band.  :) 

Good to know!

The appropriate word pops into my head just when I need it . Most of the time, I double check the meaning with Google to make sure I’m using the correct word, but this time I decided to wing it, because this one seemed just right. 
 

As for the band name? They’re “ thinkers” that’s for sure. 

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MichaelS36

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On 4/7/2026 at 7:09 PM, mollyhousemouse said:

y journey is far from over, in fact today i sent a message to my therapis

tim still struggles if there is too much noise, from the people around us, even though he's not worked for a few years and no longer has to worry about getting enough sleep on a work night.  he talks to himself about it...says that he can deal with it and that there is nothing to be worried about. So you may never completely lose that feeling, but you will learn how to talk yourself down and deal with it without completely coming apart. 

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Gary L

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44 minutes ago, MichaelS36 said:

tim still struggles if there is too much noise, from the people around us, even though he's not worked for a few years and no longer has to worry about getting enough sleep on a work night.  he talks to himself about it...says that he can deal with it and that there is nothing to be worried about. So you may never completely lose that feeling, but you will learn how to talk yourself down and deal with it without completely coming apart. 

Great advice for many of us.  Thank you. 

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mollyhousemouse

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On 4/9/2026 at 2:18 PM, MichaelS36 said:

tim still struggles if there is too much noise, from the people around us, even though he's not worked for a few years and no longer has to worry about getting enough sleep on a work night.  he talks to himself about it...says that he can deal with it and that there is nothing to be worried about. So you may never completely lose that feeling, but you will learn how to talk yourself down and deal with it without completely coming apart. 

thanks You Sir 

my inner dialogue is a recurring theme in my sessions. i'm also using like affirmations around my work space 

i'm so glad that tim is ble to talk to himself in such a way to get out of that trap.

my therapist congratulated me in my progress recently and that felt good

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MichaelS36

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14 hours ago, mollyhousemouse said:

thanks You Sir 

my inner dialogue is a recurring theme in my sessions. i'm also using like affirmations around my work space 

i'm so glad that tim is ble to talk to himself in such a way to get out of that trap.

my therapist congratulated me in my progress recently and that felt good

Having been through a lot with tim's journey, I've learned that's what it is. A journey with no real end. It's trying things and repeating what works. tim made the decision to try CBT after years of depression that stopped responding to talk and meds. Not that you are in that space, but I mention it as an example. Try things, keep working with your doc/therapist, try meds if necessary. You'll figure out what works. 

And keep telling us how you're doing, me privately if you wish... because saying positive things is good for you. 

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