I've always thought that song was a was not only super-fun and catchy, but also conveyed a very attractive life attitude. The whole idea of everything being the same even in vastly different times and places. The endless history; the endless future. Shakira's "Whenever, Wherever" is somewhat reminiscent, but while Shakira definitely has the bouncier, I-want-to-dance version, "It's All Been Done" conveys a more bittersweet, almost hopelessness when it comes to trying to change fate. Plus "Whenever, Wherever" is mired down by being just another love balled. "It's All Been Done", while also easily interpreted as a long song, could also apply to the general nature of all relationships, life, and time in general.

In the same thread there's a quote from a scene in the movie "Vanila Sky" that I've always really loved. David (Tom Cruise) has already been in the accident and gotten disfigured and he's trying to "win bacK" Sofia (Penelope Cruz). So he's trying really hard and they're dancing at this club and she says something to Brian (Jason Lee) and David demands to know what, but she says she'll tell him later. He presses the issue and demands to know when. Finally she just blurts out:

"I'll tell you in another life when we're both cats"

I just love the blithe tone of the whole thing, the whole way of thinking. I don't exactly believe in reincarnation and past lives, but I do believe in the essential fluid yet unchanging nature of life and time and the inexplicable ways in which people's journeys seem to become tied together.

Similarly I never like to leave anything or anyone without the option of returning, in some way, to their lives or the setting in general. Why say "goodbye" when you can say "goodnight"?

That's sort of the thing about cats, out-door cats anyway, they don't really make any promises about coming back, but there's never any excuse needed when they do. They might be gone for weeks, months even, and one day you open the door and there they are like nothing ever happened. Alternatively you may see them everyday for years then one morning they just disappear for good. You never really know.

Anyway, to be completely honest with everyone I suspect evening is falling on my day here at GA. I know there's been some rumours around here about various bits of drama etc., and I want to state categorically that I'm not at all displeased or personally offended by any admin, team member, member, policy, or practice. I don't feel alienated, unwanted, or mistreated, and I definitely don't love any of you guys any less. And I'm not "leaving" either. For the foreseeable future I'll stick around for some behind the scenes projects, and remain at least somewhat active in various forums and blogs. I also have no "intention" of making this my last blog entry. I firmly retain the right to at any moment hurl myself headlong into all the activities I can find around here and be 3x more active than ever before and to remain so for years or decades God, Myr, and the internet willing. However, my life does seem poised to carry me in a new direction. There're any number of things which could occupy my time and attention such that I slowly, or even abruptly cease to come around. That doesn't mean that I won't finish what I've committed to do or ignore people if they try to contact me. There's also quite a few people around here, and you know who you are, that I don't EVER intend to leave behind and whom I sincerely hope I'm always in touch with regardless of whether it's through GA or not.

As of right now I have every intention of finishing Indefensible and even have plans for other projects. However, as some of you have probably noticed, I've hardly been on the last month or so. I've gone days without logging on at all. I've been in various nooks and crannies of the internet for the past 7 or 8 years and I know the cycle well enough to know that when this happens it often means that before long I'll be completely swept up in some new "real life" thing and that by the time this "real life" thing is over there's every chance my "residential" status in my previous internet community will become "visitor" status. What's always happened in the past is that people have worried that something has happened to me, that I'm sick, dead, hurt, angry, or otherwise disillusioned or incapacitated. This has never actually been the case. So I just wanted to relieve those worries before they develop. If I abruptly, or gradually, disappear - even though it probably does seem out of character - I'm probably fine and I'll still more than likely drop by every now and then, sporadically at least, for as long as the place still exists (my other previous internet homes have ceased to be). Remember also that while I usually do wander off from particular places and activities I never lose a place in my heart - or my life - for the people that I knew there. Be it PM, email, MSN, mail, or phone I'm sure most of you can contact me if you want to, and I definitely intend to contact/stay in touch with you all too. Besides even if I do disappear, or you disappear, we'll meet again eventually... some time in another life when we're both cats.

Goodnight all