Okay, so I know I always make this excuse, but I get busy with school and all the crap that I'm in that I seem to put off coming to GA on occasion throughout the year and then I feel really shitty when I come back how many months later and yeah .

Anyway!

Spring play! We did Peter Pan! I got a somewhat big part this time....Smee! You know, Hook's fat little assistant stupid guy . It was awesome! I got to wear this fat suit belly thing, lol. And our school doesn't have a fly-space, so I made the flying scene with green screen because I'm just cool like that , hah, lol. Our performances went great - better the first night though, because the second night, some freshmen were encouraging this one "special" guy to try and trip the fairies as they danced around down stage .

Kay, so I've been wanting for a long time to come out to someone other than people I know online, whether it be Justin (more on him later), my current good friends, or the openly gay guys here. Well the one openly gay guy, Jacob, I've gotten to know better the last couple of years and I trust him as a friend and everything...so..................(drum roll please...) I told him I was gay!! Like I told Viv, I decided that if I didn't just do it and get it over with, I probably never would have, but you know, now that I did, I don't really see the big deal about it, because you know, another gay guy isnt going to care....that really didn't come to me until afterwards.

So last year was when I learned about the Day of Silence, and I was going to do something myself for it, because I live in a completely right-wing town, there is no pre-established Day of Silence organization set up. Well....I got involved with something else, I can't really remember, but I completely forgot about it and it went by and I felt crudy that I didnt do something for it . But this year, Jacob heard about it (I'm assuming that he just learned about it this year, I don't know for sure) and he started to get names and stuff a while back. Well the other night I noticed that Day of Silence was less than a week away and I noticed that Jacob hadnt emailed any of us, so that was when I made my bold move to tell him I was gay, following it by saying that "I guess this kind of explains my interest in the Day of Silence, huh?" and asked him what was up with it. Apparently, he got really busy and involved with some other things (sounds familiar, no?) and that it kind of snuck up on him, but me and him have been emailing back and forth and we are working the whole thing out. Jacob had talked to the principal friday after school and he said that we more than likely would be able to (Jacob commented that he had knew better than say no, because he would have had a lawyer talking to him by the end of the day, heh) but that he wanted to talk about it to a few of the other head ones. So this morning, they called an all-staff meeting, which I thought was pretty cool, heh, explaining to them what it was all about and everything. I'm sure quite a few of them weren't too happy about it, because I know one teacher for sure that is anti-gay, because I had her freshman year. It was an Intro to Computers class and we had to do a final powerpoint project thing, and one of our choices was "Marry your friends" in which you would have it as if a couple of your friends got married, and you had to make a powerpoint and invitations and all that fun stuff. While the teacher is explaining it, she comments that she won't tolerate any same-sex marriage projects, because to her, marriage is a union between a man and a woman and that is the way it should be. Well how do ya like them apples? Gay-power! So I put posters up all around the school this morning with my and Jacob's email address, and we had a little planning meeting this afternoon after school, and we're going to have another tomorrow. We're having shirts made as well...I had made a design myself, which was the Day of Silence logo on the front, then on the back was the symbols for men and women....two girls, side by side, a guy and a girl side by side, and two guys, side by side, and above it, it said, "Support Love". Well Jacob told me that he had another design in mind, and I didn't really protest, because it is his senior year and his first and last high school Day of Silence organization, so yeah. So on the front of the new shirts, it says a quote by Martin Luther King Jr, which is, "In the end, we will remember NOT the words of our enemies, but the SILENCE of our friends." and on the back, it has an text explanation from the Day of Silence website, which says:

So yeah, it's gonna be awesome. I am a little concerned about gay-bashers and such, as are the principals, because that seemed to be their top priority, but I guess if anything gets out of hand, we're protected under the constitution, and I guess that's what cops are for...to arrest dumb-ass discriminating hicks .

Then about Justin...you know, I decided quite a while back, which you guys would have heard about had I been on here more frequently, that I'm done with Justin. Not in a way like telling him to f**K off, go die, but in a way that I don't really care what he does. I mean, I still talk to him and treat him as I always have, but I'm not tagging along with him anymore or begging for attention. I never hang out with him anymore, but he's okay with that, as am I now okay with it. I have better friends now...friends that actually care to be a part of my life and want to do things with me. Hell, like one of my best friends moved to Canada and I bet we talk more than Justin and I do when we have half of our classes together. But, I'm in a good place right now. Good friends, good people...smart people....people that don't get into trouble. Heck more than half of the people participating in the Day of Silence thus far are from my extended group of friends from drama and interp and such, so yeah. I'm doing great!

Leave some comments! I haven't heard from all of you guys in so long!

Ronnie