Every once in a while we lose sight of what is most important in life. Chief among these important things is taking care of one's self. That is something I had forgotten for a while. I had allowed myself to get caught up in something that just isn't needed right now. The only way to fix it is to distance myself for a while. I would like to personally thank Trebs for the advice he has given me. I have gained new perspective where a lot of things are concerned. I was at a point where I wanted to believe in something that, for the time being, can only be destructive. I had to stop and think about it for a while, but it makes sense to me now. I cannot allow myself to fall into patterns of the past. I have to understand my own self and understand others. I do have introspective tendencies, but I can easily lose sight of that ability, thus impairing my judgment and making everything unclear. I'm still struggling right now, but I am going to come out stronger than ever before. I'm treating my depression through medication and therapy, and I'm going to work through other issues I have. I happen to be a believer in having a guide through difficult problems such as these. For anyone who is reading this, if there's anything in your life such as issues like these, it's best to seek help. You have to be honest with yourself. That is the only way you will ever be right with the world, and it's the only way you will seek healthy interpersonal relationships, including the romantic variety.

As for me, I have figured out that I need to reduce my online time. I need to focus on other things. I spend way too much time at my laptop, and it has gotten to a point where I'm missing a lot, and that is certainly not a good thing. It's also perpetuating some other patters that I thought I had broken but obviously haven't. I have a therapy session coming up next week, but in the mean time, I need to think about a lot of things in my life. There comes a time when it's time to stop worrying about others' problems and take care of your own needs, even the ones you don't know you have. Some of what I'm saying may seem a little cryptic. I'll help solve some of the mystery right here and now. I will not mention a name, but some of what I am saying is directly speaking to a friend of mine. I won't say anymore than that, but I thought I would mention it for those who may not understand some of my words and what the mean. I may have a lot to figure out, but I am still a fairly decent judge of character and will always pay attention when someone wiser than myself brings new evidence to my attention. Some of us want to believe that because we're at least in our mid-20's we have a great understanding of life. Compared to people over 40, I don't have a damn clue. That's the plain and simple truth.

I'll probably update my blog more now that I have uninstalled all methods I have of instant messaging for the time being, so look for new entries more often for a while. I'm also going to try to write, so in case any of my fans are wondering, I'm going to try to have a short story within the next month or so. I'm going to be dabbling in another genre, but I think I can handle it. I think you'll find more of me in this one, at least that is one of my goals. Until next time, be well!