When I graduated from high school, I had big plans for my life. At that time, I wanted to be a nurse. I tried being a CNA for a while, but it just wasn't for me. I later decided to try paralegal. I took a few classes, but the luster eventually wore off. Last summer I started some IT classes. Then I dropped out. Now, I'll be starting new classes on 8-20. It's a different school, and I don't know if I'll actually be able to use a lot of the credits from the first which really sucks. I owe the old school $1,000, and I won't be able to get my transcripts until I pay them off. That sounds simple enough, but wait I don't have $1,000 to spend. I dropped the last two classes right after I moved to Kansas, and that is the reason they sent money back to the lender. I was so stressed out and severely depressed at the time. I also can't seem to write much of anything these days. I have no inspiration. Here I am with lots of story ideas, including 2 remaining parts of a trilogy, but the inspiration to actually write is just not there right now. I don't know what to do about it.

Another thing is that there are really no potential partners around this area. It's definitely too rural for my personal taste. I really need someone. There's also this problem that there are a few that I do like, but they don't live in my area. Maybe I spend too much time online. Well, that just seems to be a pattern with me for several years now. I need to snap out of it. Oh well... I might as well forget about that for a while. I would like to think that there's someone wonderful in my future, but I honestly don't know if that's the case or not. I suppose for now I'll just focus on making improvements in my own life to make it better overall. I need to free myself of these chains, so I can finally be free to life the way I really want to live.