Depression

[Zolia Lily]

whoah whoah whoah - what's going on here?

I feel like i've missed something -

Marky, what ever has happened, please don't shut yourself away from the world.

lots of love and lots of hugs - i think all our thoughts are with you....

[Mark92]

Calm down Lily, I'm fine. I will write you an email soon

 

I am on a high this morning. It's spring

 

Sun is shining, birds are singing, my beloved blue bells will be out soon. Aaaahhh me naked laying in them, the smell heady as I fall asleep . Sheer bliss.

 

Hopefully this thread has become a place where anyone can come, and kick their shoes off. Grab a drink and a cookie, and relax. Say what day they have had. Good or bad. Somewhere you can say, " I've had a shit day," or "OMG this amazing thing happened."

 

I have found if I say here, what my day is like then I feel so much better. I dont do it for sympathy I do it because, I feel cleansed, Its not so big because I have told everyone.

 

Things on the up! Well, I've pre-sold all my pigs that are going to market, and got a good price. I'm also looking for a good pedigree boar to play footsies with the 5 sows I am keeping. The land is good and well tended, my wood is healthy and full of wildlife. It's an awesome place to live. I have Stuby every day and night. I have so many friends here. It doesnt mean I wont be a bit down tomorrow or maybe I will still be up.

Baz is grinning a lot too he's expecting a huge prank back, But the joy of pulling a prank is to wait and wait until it's unexpected mwahahaha

 

Love and hugs to all

[Mark92]

Hey all how you all doing?

Spring is my busiest time of year its also my favourite.

I got myself a blue ball today LOL. One of the piglets was getting a rub down with sun block. She leaned forward then nutted backwards and my tackle was in the way

I think Joe has lost the internet, not sure about you other guys? Talk to me

Hugs all round and Marky out

[acht-acht]

Hi Marky - glad things are good and busy for you. I was curious and looked up the breed of pigs you raise ... they are cuuuute! And I bet they make tasty bacon (I know, I´m cruel ...) Busy too, with renovations, moving, legal crap ... Hugs!

[Mark92]

Hi all

 

I need to vent, I hope nobody minds?

 

This thread used to be my first port of call. After my chores and a shower, and something to eat. It was a place to come and loosen up a bit more of all the shit that is in my head.

Now I feel guilty for doing it. It's why I hav'nt been for a while.

I was told that I only did it for sympathy, That I should grow up, and face things straight on.

That a lot of people have suffered abuse and they got over it..

Well to answer that, I dont think you ever "get over it". You find a place to put it, that doesnt hurt as much.

Some have said I have helped them by trying to move on myself. Isnt that because I actually care? and give a fuck?

I really dont know anymore. And Sympathy? Really? It's the last thing I want.

OK thats me vented. Take care guys Marky xx

[CassieQ]

Feel free to vent Mark. I come to this thread all the time too. I just haven't said anything because I'm too shy

[Mark92]

You? Shy? In the great words of Weeble and Bob, where Bob is given a tricycle instead of a super fast bike he says: Ahhh C'mon! LOL

And if you have never seen Weeble and Bob then shame on you

Thanks Cassie,

[acht-acht]

I think I need to find out who Weeble and Bob are.

 

Mark, you´re supposed to come here for sympathy, and to vent, at least that´s how I understand this thread! I know it can be hard for people who live with someone who´s depressed or dealing with a traumatic experience in real life, that they sometimes don´t want to hear any more about it, that´s just human. But that´s why we come here, right, because it´s a safe environment and we don´t haveto fear that we´re just getting on people´s nerves.

 

And you´re over things when you´re over things - or not. I mull over the same things in my head I´ve been mulling over since I was 12, and I haven´t even been abused, I´m just neurotic and miserable sometimes.

 

Have a good night everybody. Where´s Joe btw? What´s happening in your life?

[K.C.]

Marky, I come into this topic every day and read what is posted. I've never been good at helping people with their problems when I can;t always solve mine. You don't post painful and personal things for attention, it is a topic for advice and understanding. I've fought depression and now with the issues I'm facing today, I'm fighting hard, and trying not to let my life spiral. I put on a happy face since that makes others feel better, but I don't let people see the real me...and probably never will.

 

I'm glad this thread is here to help those who need it. If anyone thinks otherwise then they should avoid it!

 

Hugs to all who need it!

[rustle]

Marky, I come into this topic every day and read what is posted. I've never been good at helping people with their problems when I can;t always solve mine. You don't post painful and personal things for attention, it is a topic for advice and understanding. I've fought depression and now with the issues I'm facing today, I'm fighting hard, and trying not to let my life spiral. I put on a happy face since that makes others feel better, but I don't let people see the real me...and probably never will.

 

I'm glad this thread is here to help those who need it. If anyone thinks otherwise then they should avoid it!

 

Hugs to all who need it!

 

You underestimate yourself, ya fuzzy purple sock-wearing animal, you.

 

back atcha

 

And to everybody, please talk to someone when you're down. In this thread, in a PM to someone you trust, an email, whatever it takes. Just reach out for help. Don't suffer in silence and solitude. Keep trying until someone hears you.

[comicfan]

Marky, I come into this topic every day and read what is posted. I've never been good at helping people with their problems when I can;t always solve mine. You don't post painful and personal things for attention, it is a topic for advice and understanding. I've fought depression and now with the issues I'm facing today, I'm fighting hard, and trying not to let my life spiral. I put on a happy face since that makes others feel better, but I don't let people see the real me...and probably never will.

 

I'm glad this thread is here to help those who need it. If anyone thinks otherwise then they should avoid it!

 

Hugs to all who need it!

 

My dear KC,

 

If you think your friends can't tell when you are hurting you are missing the signs. We know, we care, we wait and stand by if you need us. It is the reason you call us friends to begin with.

 

 

Mark,

 

No one ever thought you were looking for sympathy, or at least most of us didn't. You come in to talk and by sharing your pain lessen it. A load shared is a load lightened. Not everyone can do it. Some are better at trying to hide it or trying to deal with it all on their own. Sometimes it is just the idea you aren't alone that allows you to continue on.

 

Lilly,

Glad you were honest and got that out in the open. Sometimes the best way to deal with a problem is head on. Doesn't make it easy, or less painful, just the best way sometimes.

 

 

For those who were concerned about me, well I am still here, still pushing on, and still doing my bit to try to help others and maybe help myself along the way.

[rustle]

For those who were concerned about me, well I am still here, still pushing on, and still doing my bit to try to help others and maybe help myself along the way.

 

Glad of it.

[Mark92]

Thank you Clara Joe is JoeKool I think he lost the internet. I do miss him he was a regular in this thread

 

KC What are you on about, that you dont know how to help people? You were one of the first that talked to me on GA, and you told me a little of your past. It was enough. It convinced me there was a place for someone as broken as me. So thank you too

 

Rustle thank you You're one of the wise one's here. And that doesnt mean old GA is my extended family, and you are a part of it.

 

And Unc (Comic) You are one of the closer one's. And I am so grateful and thankful for all your help and advice. And the kick up the backside when I need it

 

Hugs all round and watch Weeble and Bob

[comicfan]

I am so going to have google Weeble and Bob and find out what the heck that is. lol

[Mark92]

Hey folks

I did the gate again today yay me!

Actually it took a couple of hours, to close it from the other side. I clung on for dear life. Shouted from one to fifty. And got the hell back in LOL

That took a lot of huffing and puffing, pacing and giving myself a damn good telling off. But I did it. So I'm triumphant

Today has been a good day.

I also got Baz jogging, to him it's me pulling another prank, to me it's helping him lose a few pounds he keeps complaining about.

Thing with Baz is, He will do anything I say. LOL So........I told him to drive the pick-up to the gate and come back jogging. It's about a mile. He came back puffing and panting and threw off some of his clothes, but not all of them

And then we jogged together back to the van. All in all he did about 3 miles to my two. But I did do most of the harder chores this morning.

 

Hugs to all

[Billy Martin]

Mark

[Mark92]

If you need to vent privately. Then email me

[acht-acht]

Hi Mark. My life is so much better now I know: Must watch Weebl & Bob. Must not trust Dishonest Jim!

[Mark92]

LOL Hi Clara who the hell is Dishonest Jim?

 

Glad to hear things are getting better, hopefully that will continue. Who knows you might get called "normal" one day LOL You know i'm kidding

That label wouldn't suit me one bit. I'd hate NOT to be the Wildman

Things are pretty good my end too. I've started to draw. I used to do it loads when I was younger, and work took over. It used to be animals and plants and now its scenery for a Dark Eldar Base board and a temple too.

[acht-acht]

Dishonest Jim apparently sold Weebl (or Bob ? ) a "Mongolian Snail Race" playset that wasn´t the proper/ original Mongolian Snail Race set as seen on TV/the internet or whatever but a cheap knock-off ... even though Bob (or Weebl?) told Weebl (or Bob?) explicitly NOT to buy from Dishonest Jim - who can´t be trusted. Apparently. Okay, now you all know I´ve been watching Weebl and Bob on YouTube all afternoon instead of working.

[Mark92]

Hahahaa Oh Clara that is so funny

Laughing out this loud is good for the soul I think.

Weeble and Bob was shown to me and Stuby by his sister, We howled with laughter for the rest of the night.

[JOeKEool]

Hey Mark Clara Comic Everyone.!!

I am so glad to be back. I tried to keep up with my phone access. Could not log on to comment. Sounds like things are going well for the most part here.

I will have to see this Weeble and Bob. I need a good laugh.

[Mark92]

Hey!! Welcome back Joe we missed you

 

Weeble and Bob and Simons Cat are so very, very funny.

 

How are you Joe? Everything OK?

 

to all

[comicfan]

Glad you are back Joe. Missed you.

[JOeKEool]

Hi Mark HI Comic !!! It is good to be back here. I was able to follow some with my dreaded phone. Could not really do much.

 

Mark, I was sorry to see all the drama over your new pic. I think you should use it. It was a good pic.

I am doing OK I think. I've been a bit down. That is what makes the good days what they are. We have to have both. My mood seems to be picking up.

 

I have been writing more without my PC to distract me. I have a few to post.

I was able to read some too, but not at GA. This site is too big . I can manage IOMFATS or awesomedude a little better with my phone.

 

Hey Comic. Are you caught up now on your beta duties? Sounded like you were stressing there for a while.

Comic, I wrote a poem for one of the prompts. Now I can't find it in the forum to refer to a number. It was to take a local legend and add our own spin on it. If you remember or can find it will you let me know? Thanks.

 

Clara Hi again. I've missed you. I'm sure glad to be back.

 

Billy Brat Hi A new face here. I hope you can share or benefit from this thread.

 

HUGS !!! everyone