Ashi

Happy birthday Comsie!

Younger people don't wear cologne nowadays, except the smell of deodorant... which might be a turn on to some.... B.O. might not be so nice, but scent is definitely something you should consider. The other day someone gave me Tom Ford Tobacco, which is a very nice smell (though the name Tobacco turns me a little off).

Oh, how happy!

I love how the end of the video, Buzzfeed decided to cross-promo a video called Models React to D*ck Pics.... After all, size does matter....

Anyways, many medical insurance may cover HIV screening without pre-authorization (doesn't need your primary doctor's referral), do a check if your insurance covers it. I know at least Medi-Cal (California's Medicaid) covers it.

Not a plus size model! A hug size model!

Well, some of you guys know I had a job change. Part of my job is to change primary care physicians for people who request them. Today I received a report from a county hospital system, and on that short report, there were two people changed their primary doctor to one that specialized in HIV/AIDS (and that doctor doesn't accept anybody else, so it's not your typical family doctor). I've not even worked for this place for a month, and I already saw three people admitted to the HIV/AIDS department. Among them one was only in his 20's. I don't know this person..., but when I read his medical record, an surreal feeling rushed within me. I wanted to know why a young man in his prime must face this adversary; I wanted to know how he contacted with this devastating disease, and I wanted to know what he felt when his doctor announced his diagnosis. I hope this post would bring forth an AIDS awareness. I did a little research and found this data visualization tool from CDC (Center for Disease Control): http://gis.cdc.gov/grasp/nchhstpatlas/main.html?value=atlas There is no latest date for Year 2015 and 2016 yet. The general trend is the case of HIV diagnosis has been going steady throughout the years CDC had obtained official data (though it irks me some data don't adds up, like the sum of diagnosis broken down by genders don't add up to the number broken down by age group for year 2008 and 2009). Seeing the Year 2014 figure is the first year that HIV diagnosis has increased, and given more people are at ease with their sexuality, it alarms me that there is a possibility that 2015 and 2016 figures could be on the increase as well. The highest risk group remains to be men who have sex with other men. This group account for ~75% of all HIV diagnosis. Anal sex is a very efficient way to spread STDs. So the lesson here is: Play safe! There is no reason people's comfortable level with their sexuality should automatically translate into higher HIV/AIDS rate. Indeed, the rate of HIV/AIDS can be kept at bay if people can talk honestly and comfortably about the importance of getting tested. In fact, according to the study, almost 1 in 6 (15.8%) HIV carriers don't even know they are infected1. Don't be shy! Talk to your partner! While I think it's nice more people are coming to term with their sexuality, but at the same time, seeing the advent of cruising via Grindr and Craigslist personal ads..., I highly doubt it would be the last time I had to change a young man's primary doctor to an HIV/AIDS doctor. Don't make Ashi cry. Please.

This video was quite refreshing after I had just watched the Anderson Cooper multi-part report on how ex-gay therapy ruined someone's life. Not I am saying Anderson's very professionally done journalism was bad (it is wonderfully executed), but I felt this innocuous, shy boy made a more positive impact in the direction of convincing there is nothing wrong being gay. The boy is so cute in a nerdy sort of way. He wasn't even trying to make a crusade. He just wanted to deliver a proper valedictorian speech; it just so happened he was also announcing he is gay. The entire speech was light-hearted, slightly cliche in a way that rekindled my memory of what it was like being a high school nerd. From the very beginning, you know he was just a normal boy, perhaps with an obscenely high GPA, but still.... Anyways, I almost felt if I were to live my life again in high school, I wanted to be him. So funny, smart, artless, and humble. It's a shame he made a few political references, so I could only share this in my blog instead of sharing it in other places, but I am not complaining. The video needs more air time! When he read that "love letter" to a girl he didn't truly love (totally understandable, as that's part of our "try to fit in" stage), and revealed he was gay, that truly impressed me. When Ashi was that age, he would never be that witty and funny enough to turn an awkward moment to something memorable and diplomatic. Ashi instead, probably hurt a girl's heart by not responding. It was a very gracefully executed coming out. No drama, no political agenda. Just a boy being honest of himself. It's a shame the school didn't let him deliver the speech during graduation. I am so happy young people can live at their full potential nowadays.

OMG.... It's too gay! GAY. GAY. GAY!!!!! (*Ashi explodes and dies of hypergayosis*)

Life is what you create. Nice poem, Alex.

Happy birthday. (*wraps pink feather boa with glitters around Fieldy's neck*) :D

Why divide? Multiply!!!

Happy birthday Clo!

You're going to make me blush! Thanks.

I Simply Cannot Say Never I will kiss Jack before I kiss you which is like saying, probably never. I know it's a horrible thing to say, so why don't you kiss me, before I can have time to make an indecision.

LOL

Happy birthday!

Oh my.... Didn't know what to expect. But brave honest words.

Happy birthday!

Thanks. I like nature. Not sure about my imagination.... It tends to go off tangent a lot.

Thanks Emi. Every season has its own reason.

Moi? Sing? EWWWW!!!! LOL I used to able to sing nicely. But not since I hit puberty. Maybe you could sing for us?

It's better to remember you have loved than never have experienced it. I think someone wise once said that (or very similar to it). I am sure you'll find someone better, Emi.

Sometimes people's path converges, but a lot of time it's divergence. It happens... but I guess when you care about someone that much..., and there isn't a proper closure, it's hard, isn't it? I feel for you, man. I know how it feels like when it's zombie inside, too. My ex was like that. He gave me so much happiness then suddenly... WHY!!! Then you just have to accept you can't change people. They'll just be the way they are, because they are not us, or a function of us. It's like living with a cat.... Good luck trying to change the nature of a cat. You love because you want to love... and you expect very little back. Otherwise, it'll just be a bucket of disappointments. You have us, by the way. You're not alone. Those of us who replied to this heartwrenchingly difficult to read story is because we truly feel for you, man. Honestly, you sound like a nice young man. Do you remember my Winter Barren? The passage about the breath of Southern breeze.... LOL When someone was breathing down the back of your neck, the little hair on the back of your neck would tinkle. Kind of sensual. I don't know..., reading part of this story reminds me of that. I think I am rambling.

Winter can be a lot of fun!!! Even if it's cold and chilly, but you gotta appreciate diverse feeling, right?