TrevorTime

Hmmm, seems like I missed reviewing quite a few chapters. I will correct that in due time. "Jason felt his heart rate go up instantly. “What I’m doing. Doing here, doing with you. Peter’s breath smelled like mint, making Jason suddenly very conscious of how bad his must be after dinner." Wow, the first time Curt and I kissed we had just eaten at Taco Bell, and we didn't even bother with the mouthwash. I guess desire trumped everything else, but then again, we were younger than Pete & Jason. "“Peter, I’m not confused, this doesn’t make me feel guilty. Scared maybe but not guilty.” He explained. “I just need to be careful how we go about this. This was all completely unplanned, that’s all. If I don’t go home, Darryl will ask where I was all night. I need to say something beforehand or it will be too hard to explain later.” I actually think this is a small turning point in the story (in that Jase allows Pete to "mentor" him in how it feels to be gay. Again, Curt & I traveled down this very same road and we were very careful when we first started seeing each other.

I am re-reading as well. And the more I think about it, the more I can see that Peter has a huge heart of gold and would do anything to help Jason through one of the darkest times in his own life. Three cheers for Pete in this chapter, hip hip hooray!

I've been watching The Weather Channel to see what all has been happening. Dayum, what a mess. I've survived some crazy Arizona monsoons, but those seem to pale in comparison to what is going on in Alabama.

Wow, I can't believe I forgot to review this chapter. In re-reading it, I noticed the part that made me really angry. “Fine, you know what; they gave you an ultimatum, so will I. It’s the classes or me. If you go to those stupid classes, we’re done. I won’t waste my life watching you wallow in self hatred until you decide to walk away.” Wallow in self hatred? Really, Pete? How much more immature can you be? I mean, your BF is in crisis mode here, and the best you can do is shit in his face? I don't mean to sound shallow, because I know what happens to Pete in the following chapter. But I can't imagine my own BF ever flinging such caustic words at me. If we have a disagreement, we work it out peacefully. (and luckily, I have never had to attend any "ex gay classes", OMG)

My straight younger brother asked me if taking it up the butt hurt me. I was like, dude, he doesn't just ram it in, he uses a finger first.

Nope, I believe that I was born this way. Initially I tried to fight it, but I soon realized that it would be a losing battle. And seeing as how my one clumsy attempt at hetero sex had to involve alcohol, I am firmly convinced that I have zero attraction to women (in that way). (yes, I wore a rubber, so no, I do not have any kids, LOL)

Yeah, EVE 6 is from La Crescenta, California (that's in Los Angeles County).

Here's To The Night by EVE 6. This is a really slow tune and is not typical of the band's usual up-tempo sound.

I PM-ed Steve with my picks, that way no one can laugh at me. I'm more familiar with the NBA anyways. Oh Krista honey, it's okay if you don't win. And when's the last time the Reds won a playoff game?

"Perfect" by Simple Plan 'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't stand another fight And nothing's alright

I did not "choose" to be gay, it's just the way things worked out for me. And I don't feel that I am living in sin. How is it sinful if I care about another human being? The fact that he has the same parts as me shouldn't make a damn bit of difference.

So glad that Dane and Tap got together at the end. I'm a sucker for a happy ending!

Wow, that was an interesting twist. I never expected the doctor--father to be gay. I guess the abusive parents found out that their son was gay and were trying to "purge" it out of him? How sick is that? I don't know if I can handle another abused kid story at this point, now I need to find something with a "happy" theme.

I'm in too, but we need to get our picks in soon. The Stanley Cup playoffs start this Wednesday. All of my teams made it, what are the odds?

I get up at 6 am, so I never have this problem. But if I did, I would watch C-SPAN late at night. That sounds like a sure-fire cure for insomnia.

"Do they have pay-per-view here?" Dane asked. "I've been wanting to see that new sci-fi one with the aliens in it." LOL, Curt's dad is a PPV junkie. I've spent many a Sat nite there with our own popcorn. Beats paying 10 bucks at the movie theater. Anyways, loved this chapter with all the CSI and Law & Order stuff. Too bad it wasn't an unmarked car parked across from A-hole dad's house; then they could have locked up his sorry butt.

"What your mother is trying to say is that you are a senior in high school, you've a commitment to your team to be focused on baseball." LOL, I got the exact same "lecture" from my mom, except I was a soph and my sport was swimming. But swimming was everything to me, being gay was just a side gig.

""Not a big deal? My entire school and all my friends turned against me when Trevor outted me. I've been so afraid of that happening again."" Yikes, when did I out someone? But yeah, I caught this right away. That should be, "when Trent outted me". And I understand Dane's situation. Back in HS, I made sure to only hang around jocks, so no one would ever suspect that I was gay.

"His dreams were not willing to wait however. He was sticky when he woke up and blushed when he remembered the dream that had gotten him that way. Stripping for his morning shower Tap grinned and shook his head." Yupp, I remember those mornings like they were yesterday. Thankfully, they don't happen anymore. "Tap's main love was baseball of course, playing it, watching it, even reading about it." My boyfriend is the same way (he played 2nd base in HS). It's interesting that when I read gay fiction, I seek out similarities to my own life. It must be on some subconscious level.

Awwww, they kiss for the first time. That was so sweet. I like that reverse stereotype that jocks just can't be gay. I'm sure I surprised a few people when they found out about me.

"Tap pulled his phone out of his pocket and sat looking at it for a minute. He had programmed the number to Dane's room phone." I wonder if this is a small continuity error, as we never saw Deputy Doofus return Tap's phone to him. Actually, the only reason I even noticed this is because my cell is always by my side, either in my backpack or in my pocket.

"Tap didn't want to tell Dane that he had been coiled, ready to leap from his wheelchair and track down Dane's dad and beat his face in if Dane had said he'd ever touched him." Wow, that was some powerful stuff. At this point you know that Tap really cares for Dane and would do anything to see him through this dark time in his life.

Okay, I did cry a bit during this chapter. Even though we haven't yet seen the reveal (that Tap is gay), I think it's obvious at this point.

Talk about a cliffhanger !! To be honest, I sure wasn't expecting something like this.

Wow, I just wanted to cry reading this chapter, but I couldn't, I was too angry. If I were Dane, I would just run away. No one deserves what he is going through.