Curti

Okay, I'm at an awkward place in my life... After being in various relationships for two and a half years, Im now single, and devoting my spare time into work and school, I've realized I have isolated myself from all of my old friends. Although we sometimes might talk via Facebook or text we never hang out anymore, most have married or moved on with their own lives. Now I'm stuck spending too many nights alone and I don't remember the last time I went to coffee with a friend. I want to know what success you have found at making friends as an adult. I don't have access to school or work to make friends, so what else do you have for me? Keep in mind, I'm sick of online apps, I want face to face interaction, I despise night clubs, bars are great, but not to meet someone new and I'm looking for friends, not a boyfriend.

I can not even believe Patrick! He's a whole smattering of dirty words that I want to scream right now. I hope he gets all the just deserts that he deserves. I can't imagine Jordan's father, a big city lawyer, would stand by this. Then again... I don't know how useful his father is with supporting Jordan anyways. Bravo on your visualization though. The whole chapter was very real and impossible to put down. You have a real talent for writing don't ever forget that. I am going to die waiting for the next chapter.

God I can't stand Jordan's parents!!! They are so self absorbed it drives me mad! The things that poor kid is going to have to face when they finally find out his big secret is going to be terrible. I hope if that time comes people like Sean and Malachi are there to stand beside him. And Sean! There might be a real possibility of something more in Sean. That would be great. Jordan certainly deserves it.

God I want to get in there and just smack Lain across his head. Totally uncalled for and Jordan deserves a hell of a lot better. I would be his friend if I was in his highschool. But no matter, he has Sean and Malachi to stare at and hopefully something more from at least one of them. Sean's artistic too which usually means a more open personality so who knows? I'm dying to find out what happens next!

Another great chapter! I know exactly how Jordan is feeling as he stares at the cute boy across the room. I always had the hardest time balancing time for staring and time to avoid looking in order to keep my secret from ever surfacing. Its a daily struggle. Malachi seems like a good guy though and I hope for Jordan's sake something could come out of it. He definitely deserves it. It doesn't seem like he's had a ton of good things going for him lately. I'm probably going to run off and read chapter three now. Thanks for keeping me intrigued!

The story captured my attention right from the beginning. Jordan is a very relatable character that will be loved by many readers. I know I'm certainly intrigued to see where this story goes from here. Please don't quit! You've got me hooked now there is nothing you are allowed to do but see it to the end.

I was just about to post this story! Hah. Its pretty awesome.

I have a brilliant idea! She claims being a bride would be the world to her and she'd be motivated to lose weight because all eyes would be on her. Hmm... And she can't get a job because she is "too fat to work." Maybe... just maybe... She should start losing weight now. hah. I know break through coming on here! THEN! She can find a job and HEY!! Earn 15,000 herself! Then she'll be the gushing bride with the carriage ride and the party in a castle and a honeymoon to Mexico. God! Sometimes my brilliance just astounds even me. Where do I come up with such ideas? Its almost like... This is what the entire fucking world does!!! (On side note... I'm not sure how the English welfare works but shouldn't they drastically reduce the amount of money she is allotted for food? Obviously they are providing her with too much and the excess can go towards a trainer or health coach. Isn't the goal of welfare to provide assistance in order to get off of welfare?)

I laughed for the future comment because in my personal opinion mixed race is by far the most attractive. Like... I date a hell of a lot of white boys because that is a majority here, but nothing takes my breath away more then when I see a mix of Caucasian and Hispanic or Caucasian and East Asian or in some cases Caucasian and African. I was down for the Mexican, Brazilian, Italian and Korean (I know they are hardly similar)... But can I just have the Brazilian with a bit of the softness of the Korean and harsh macho of the Mexican, the clothes of Italian men, the tattoos from the UK guy.... Can I just have it all? Or that dream mix man running around somewhere out there that I will pin down and make my own.

Happy Birthday Beautiful!!! You'll always be my favorite! Love ya!

Hey, in a sense I'm lucky I'm never going to marry. I don't think I could handle marrying someone like my father or mother.

I am sooo obsessed with these games!!!! One of the few games I can sit for hours, weeks on end and still love every second of it. I seriously have been dying for the day they released a new SimCity and even a few months ago I saw a little ad on Facebook I thought it was a joke and facebook was just fucking with me (which it tends to do, stupid thing). However, now that I know its real I'm DYING!!! I very well may not eat for two weeks just to afford to buy it.

Haha, I have to post my story because its pretty unusual, maybe on the verge of crazy... Maybe... I'll let you decide that. It was when I was eighteen, here we have a club that separates the bar from the dance floor, well I went with my boyfriend at the time. Of course before he took a few shots and actually got me to take one too, first time drinking actually. Well I met a few of his friends an we all drove in his girlfriends car. They of course ditched me to go to the bar and drink so I was left on the dance floor alone, left with the promise that they'd come back and dance with me after a drink or two. That was the last time I saw them. Given it was my first time at a club I had no idea what to expect, so I just kind of went and stood over in the corner alone. Didn't dance or anything, mostly just waiting for Josh (the ex) to come back and dance with me. Well this kid as he was dancing, practically reached his arm out and pulled me into the group with him and his friends. So I humored him and danced with him a bit, he was pretty decent looking. Well as I was dancing with him and his friends I looked over to my right and I swear to god I saw one of my idealistic boys. Don't deny that you don't have one, we all do. This boy, well he was just a splash taller then me I'd say maybe a bit shorter then 6' brown hair, brown eyes, lightly tanned, but in a natural complexion not those sun bakers that are oh so common. However, more then his looks were just his initial personality. He was a bit of a wallflower, which I'll admit to finding them attractive. He was literally just standing over to the side, looked a bit lost actually, danced with random people occasionally but more often then not pulled away to stand to the side... For lack of a better description though, I kind of just walked straight over to the guy, refusing to take my eyes off of him. From what I remember, none of the other people in the club even existed, I just went to him. I'm not normally the bold or forward type, hell I can't even smile at a boy even when I know he is interested, but for whatever reason, in that moment I had no problem with coming up to him and saying hi, then I kind of just got him to dance with me. We probably spent a good hour or two dancing together, once even going outside and talking for a minute. However, as the night came to a close, and the bars were closing soon, in my mildly panic state I realized I had no idea where my current boyfriend or his friends were. Sadly, I blurted to that guy the situation, that they disappeared, thank god I wasn't as bold as to say that it was my boyfriend. He offered to let me stay with him for the night, he just had to go and talk to his friends he came with first. So I stood there on the dance floor waiting for him, after about five minutes I started getting a bit panicked and left the spot the guy left me and went outside, hoping that maybe my ex was looking for me out there. Thing was, I couldn't find my ex or his friends outside either, by this point I was just about tear stricken panicked. I went back into the club one last time, hoping maybe I'd see the guy looking for me, I was stopped instead by the first guy. He could clearly see I was a bit upset. So I told him what happened, I didn't spare any details, including telling him my boyfriend ditched me at the club and now disappeared. Well I went home with the first guy. He was nice enough to let me sleep on his couch, though he did attempt to put the moves on me a bit in the middle of the night, nothing to horrible happened. The next morning he took me back to my ex's place, which was where my car was parked. Oh, trust me, I stormed up to my ex's apartment door and banged on it. When his roommate answered I was a tad bit forceful when I asked, "Did Josh come home last night?" The roommate actually had no idea what happened, he hadn't heard anything from Josh, but let me just stay there for a few hours to see if he showed up. I laid on Josh's bed for maybe an hour when he called me. He asked what happened and where I was. I just responded, "Oh, I'm just at your house, in your bed." This is when I found out that he had been drugged and rushed to the hospital. So lucky me I got the wonderful privileged of driving to the ER to discharge my boyfriend. Now I hit myself constantly that I even picked my boyfriend up, I understand it wasn't his fault that he was drugged, but at the same time he also made no effort to come and dance with me. I found out from the reports he was rushed to the hospital at 1:45, but that was still three hours after we got to the club. Plus, although Josh was the first gay boy I had ever met, I found out with successfully meeting two guys in one night that I had at least decent enough looks to move on. I was scared though, so regardless of how mad I may have been I proceeded to do a few other regretful things in place of breaking up with him. As for the first boy? Well four months later when I moved to West Valley with my sister, I walked into Starbucks to get an Americano only to run into the first boy working... Well, a few things went down between the two of us, but that is definitely a story for another time. Now I still think about the second boy from time to time, how could you meet one of your idealisms and not think about them? However, I do not remember his name, I just know he's 20 or was 20 that'd put him at 24 now... lived in California, I left him my phone number and never heard from him again. Its alright, there's plenty of other better boys out there. Anyways, there's my story for you, I left a bit out, honestly... Sad thing is... I wish it was the most eventful clubbing experience of my life, but its not. Oh far from the most eventful.

Actually.... In all honesty, the whole world really does Celebrate your Birthday!!!!! soooooooooooo... Happy Birthday Kyle!!! I'll tots be drinking to you

I refused to say this until the 24th, mostly because I'm a grinch and not overly fond of Christmas. However now its the Eve and I can't deny that I actually have been LOVING this Christmas season and its about to get even better soooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right after my ex and I broke up I went through almost a month of total intoxication every night. The best night to date, I woke up with my face next to the tub and my phone ringing. When I answered, swear to god the most shrill voice ever came on and is screeching who knows what. Finally I got her to talk slower and turns out I was missing one of my friends fairwells for his little mission thing. So I basically threw on a shirt and tie and upon glancing at the clock, realized I had to go forty miles in fifteen minutes.. Needless to say, I made it, with two minutes to spare. Kind of felt bad for he poor Mormon family I sat next to, you see, I forgot to brush my teeth and I"m sure I reeked of tequila. Oh the drunken stupors used to put myself in when I was eighteen I have a lot...

Ummmm... stupid... sorry, but real stupid. You're lucky you didn't get hurt or pulled over. 80 is fun, 165 is ridiculous. What kind of bike is it, anyways?

TRUE THAT! Let's be honest, that music video where him and Nikki Minaj are grinding up on one another, if it was at a club in real life she'd be like, "Boy, what are you doing touching me!?"

Thank God, the only outside validation I'm "pleaing" for is my own validation. I don't care what people think of the way I dress. I don't need someone to tell me I look good or compliment or even pay attention to what I'm wearing. I dress the way I do, with the utmost care and concern, because its one of the most important things in my life, its my love. Just like someone else might care for their lawn with detailed care. If anything, I'm the outsider in Utah because there are few people that dress like that. If I wanted people to approve I'd wear shorts and t-shirts.

As much as it kills me to admit this, in fashion, large shoulders, boxed waists and short midriffs are hot. Essentially if you buy a shirt three sizes too large, cut it half way down, discarding the rest and put shoulder pads in then its hot! Thank god this trend isn't going to last long and a lot of the Fashion Houses have already dropped it, we just have to let it burn its way through shitty ass stores like Forever 21 and Aeropostale. Oh and don't forget, scarves, bow ties, layering, sweaters, v-necks, color-blocking and high-waisted pants or skirts are definitely in and are all fabulous! And as far as what's not hot: flip flops, pink, baggy pants, sneakers, chains and velcro.

Pretty sure... I'm TOTALLY going!!!! Lets make this a party!

I think we need some of that rain.... It's always dry here, but I'm a touch sick of seeing plumes of smoke from wildfires and hearing everything from guns to cars parked in grass to backhoes started them. Then to see us listed as extreme drought on top of already being the second driest state, I'm actually getting nervous.

Thanks intune! Aww Andy!!!! It was quite amazing!!!!!!! Thanks! Aww Bill! I don't get to partake of your fabulous cake baking skills? lol its okay though! Thanks for the Thought! Thank You EmDee! You are awesome! Mike! It was fabulous! Happy Birthday to you as well! How did yours go? Tobias! Thank You soo much! Aww Anya! You are the bestest! Thanks!

LoL Thanks Tomas!!! But you're just silly! You're 74 years young!!! My grandpapa would look upon you and call you a child. Yang... Although I do appreciate the offer........... I might have to pass on the gonorrhea... Thanks though Audi!!! Once again! Thank You!!! Daniel... Then I may or may not be getting a cake and wishing terribly hard...

LoL Wayne! My Birthday is tomorrow! Thanks Though!