Celethiel

well it seems when ever we have said: The ship is unsinkable, or this building is indestructable and so on we've always been proven wrong usually by nature it's self. The price of human huberous, and the consqiuences are always tragic. Worst Part is actually White Star never actually stated that it was unsinkable, it was British Newpapers at the time, the media.

Many of the ancient societies didn't beleave in a seperation between Church and state, Rome And Egypt were actually the most notably of these where Emperors and Pharoahs were considered gods in mortal flesh especially the second of the two, Alexander the Great actually was later percieved as descended from gods, and indeed he wanted to be thought of as such while he was alive, but that is off of topic....I think it's romantic as well though to immortalize your love that way.

I took that test once, I was a hawk, then i took again today and now I am an owl, i guess i am just a shape-shifting bird freak....lol But if there was an animal i think i'd be is some kind of Cat, OR a phoenix for some reason i like that bird a lot, I like dragons too but the Phoenix more. My Chinese Zodiac makes me a chicken...a rooster. and My western Zodiac makes me Virgo the Virgin, ruled by Mercury.

I take My Oreo's apart and consume the creme before eating the crust... Muahahaha! from the inside out Seriously though i used to get sick eating Oreo's....they do wierd things to my stomach @_@ which is why i don't eat Oreo's MY favorite Oreo's though are the mint Ones, i like mint @_@ To Nephy and Greg_A.... I like both biting and nibbling and Mark92 I'll eat you lol, actually i don't find the idea of being consumned that fun...

I discovered this formula in my dabbling in genetic Tampering and Male Pregnancy (thank my strait homophobic friend for that last part) that can turn a guy from strait to bi, then gay, and so on....sadly it's not for sale.... too many personal uses for one XD and for two IT DONT EXIST... fun if it did, and i could write a perverted story about that.... i doubt i will but i may...lol. Sadly there are strait people who think gays can turn straits gay, which is NOT true either it'd be fun if it was, and more so it would be a good thing in some cases >_> Infect people like a disease. Wow I read through this forum where it went to semi serious to down right rediculious, then to down right fighting mean...and back again. If he's bi or even secretly gay then he is and was and will be, but if he isn't then he isn't and you'll only hurt yourself even thinking about it, This is called un-requented love and it will only hurt you...as in cry yourself to sleep and depression type thing.

Titanic...or Britannic, Titanic is going to pieces...time and her visitors have have actually taken a sever tole on her remains. Britannic as i recall is also missing part of her bow. From Wikipedia---> The wreck of HMHS Britannic is at 37°42′05′N 24°17′02′E in about 400 ft (120 m) of water. It was first discovered and explored by Jacques Cousteau in 1975.[6] In 1976, he expressed the opinion that the ship had been sunk by a single torpedo, basing this opinion on the damage to her plates.[7] The giant liner lies on her starboard side hiding the zone of impact with the mine. There is a huge hole just beneath the forward well deck. The bow is attached to the rest of the hull only by some pieces of the B-deck.

Japanese Feudal society with Ripe with homosexual tendencies, indeed I was just listening to a history channel program on the Samurai and it was discussing things along the lines of Female/male marriages were things of the political and there was no actual such thing as the thoughts that this is homosexual, or bisexual behavior. yes Alexander the Great had a male lover, as did I beleave it was the Emperor Hadrian, which ever it was, he was one of the "better" Roman Emperors, his boyfriend though ended up drowning in the Nile river, and the Emperor turned him into a god, i found the tale to be very amusing, I am pretty sure it was Hadrian.

It is considered a mental disease by therapists and doctors, especially if it shows up and does not go away. hh5 by the way when i get in a seriously depressed mood i start doing things that I look at when i am feeling better and ask myself Why the heck did i do this, and sometimes things i don't even remember afterwards. Usually those who commit suicide have Manic depression which is different because they have the will to actually do things where as others just do not feel like doing anything at all... (which I am of the second class) I have been known to go on spending sprees when depressed, and seriously there are thoughts that go through my head when depressed that kind of scare me when i am feeling even a bit better. Suicide, alcheholism, thoughts of how to get rid of my ability to actually think.

That was originally a book written in the early 80's late 70's before they actually found the Titanic, by Clive Cussler. Creator of the Dirk Pitt Adventures, and the Real life NUMA who happens to be one of my favorite authors....the book ended differently from the movie... i do believe that book in middle school was what got me started like his books too...i was obsessed with Titanic Back then... wow....it was about 18 years ago that i was in middle school... I agree, but love of ships is probably as old as ships themselves....i mean kids used to play Pirates before there was a Star Trek and actually i was fascinated with Titanic before i ever saw my first Star Trek, though tng was the reason i like space ships... In some ways i kind of wish they could bring the old girl back up to the surface....Though it' would be easier and kinder to bring up her sister ship...(though not by much.)

*snickers* I'd laugh to no end, i think there was a famous Classical Composer that was of "questionable" orientation...but i am not sure which.

I too am an anime Fan Nephylim, Kio Kara Maoh! is a good one (and has serious gay undertones hahahaa!) Loveles, ....Towards the Terra (which i don't recommend...as after i bought that anime i was so frustated sad and angry i wanted to kill Mother then bring her back and kill her again...(mother being a character in the anime not my mother)) Black blood Brothers, Karas, Sayuiki, though my personal favorites are probably Kio Kara Maoh! and the original Full Metal Alchemist... though i like most (and mostly in their own original Japanese format and not "reinterpreted" In English...sadly though sometimes Translators go to far in most countries....

did he also paint mona lisa because there was some controversy that it was actually the painters male lover that modeled that painting.... which i would find horribly funny.

I don't know there are times i go into a depressive phase, then there are times i seem to try beating myself over the head with my own terrors fears and there are times i wallow in self pity. I try to keep myself out of it, and i try to pull myself out of it, which isn't easy. I have feelings of being alone and isolated, especially if i think about stuff too much and don't have anyone in general to talk to. I have considered Alchehol, or allowing myself to be put back on mood stablizers to cut out the pain of what i have been feeling especially lately, but then i go back to a note were i can think constructively and tell myself neither one will help only action for the good can help.... Which isn't what i can think of when i am in those moods. Though while i am in them Thoughts of ending it all come into my head, THOUGH i wouldn't carry them out, simply because that would require me to take a step even then that i am never ready to go into. Most of this i beleave crops up from the fact i have been multiple times abandoned by my family, since i was a kid and those that took me in never supported me in my life except where it suited them. So i tend to be as someone told me, overly critical of my work, and it is never good enough, doesn't help that i can never finish anything anymore for some reason...oh well strive ever foreward, by the way Mark92 i think you may have helped me in more ways then you know.

Titanic the ship was my first true love, *starts laughing* actually seeing it in national geographic got me interested in ships, when i was in Elementary, i've probably read more about that ship over the last 20 years.... Other ship disasters: the Morro Castle, 1920's or 30's i recall, American ship burned while at sea many lost their lives either to the frigid Atlantic or the fire, The Ship was on the Cuba New york Run. The Andrea Doria got ran into by the Swedish Ship the Stockholm, Capsized, 1950's World War I, Titantic's Own Sister the Britannia, sunk by torpedo, was a hospital ship, near Turkey. Sank much faster, then the Titanic did. As mentioned the Lusitania, same war, and between England and Ireland, loss of American life a lot less then what it could have been. There was also the American Cruiser the Indianapolis, during World War II, the German oceanliners the Wilhelm Gustoff (which was actually one of the first real Cruise liners), in the Baltic , and the Cap Arcona, all three with heavy loss of life. Also the Empress of Ireland, and the Edmund Fitzgerald, are casualties of history both sunk right here in north America (litterally). Really i don't like including warships in such listings simply because they usually were sunk doing their work in a time of war, Where as Ocean-liners are peace-time ships and usually are carrying people in a different fashion. Some of those ships were beauties and it makes one wonder if some of them had not sunk what the world would be like now...just because of the people who died on them. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_shipwrecks

Romans and Greeks were in many ways a very bi culture...as it is pretty well known... but then the Romans knew no limits in gneral.but i seem to remember reading the Mayans actually seperated their gays into seperate compounds, though i don't know what they did with them besides that, they may have been a type of preisthood for all i know. I don't remember what the Egyptian's veiws on them, i do know that the Hebrew/Christian societies were really the ones that truly demonized gays in culture, especially the later of the two. there are several famious people whom are thought of as gay or bi, some good some really bad, Elizabeth Batory for instance was bi, and completely psycho, as was was it De Saude. But then it is thought by some that Elizabeth the first of England was really a boy, and gay...which would be amusing to say the least, unfortunately she ordered before her death of no autopsy, so it will remain a mystery forever. of the Nazies there was a group of them, i beleave they were called the Brown Shirts whom were notorious for homosexual activities which eventually ended their brigade to the Gestapo. The Templars were accused of Homosexual acts in their liquidation, another thing that can never truly be proved, BUT this is an all male cult of church people....whom would be very sexually frustrated...and i am pretty sure they were no more inhibitied then modern people, they just didn't say it out loud. Being Publically gay in the Post Christianized Roman period was pretty much a death sentence, especally after a few Pope Mandates....

I liked orange as a kid then changed it to blue, then to green, though i still like orange. I really hate it when a strait woman after they find out especially someone the age of my younger sister, "cool we can go shopping now...." and i tell them "only if it's a book store...." And no i don't think i have a fashion sense... People whom are feminine/butch are, and those whom aren't aren't, it's personal taste nothing more. you can be as feminine or butch as you want, just don't try to make me that way or seem that way, and that is i think what the nightmare was about something trying to make me fit a stereotype because they wanted it that way.

wow should have checked out this site first thing XD Thank you all belatedly. to Nephylim...gods don't i wish XD

open my internet and check on the various sites i belong to, talk to online people and do such things.

Yeah i do not like being perceived or steriotyped at all, i personally don't like being grouped in any sort of way nor do i especially like being predictable. I personally never did like pink even before i knew i was gay, but that is my color prefference, I like greens, blues, and orange (last one not in combination with the first two) I don't know if i'd laugh at the person wearing pink felt or whatever it was tuxedo, I might be imbarressed if it wasn't his idea.... I haven't been to a wedding since i was a preteen, and i didn't even get to go to my brothers wedding, because i wasn't invited and no one was, and i doubt my sister will invite me if she even marries. Pink burns my eyes...at least, Neon pink and really powerful pinks.

the other day i had a nightmare that a gay designer for some wedding wanted to dress me up in a pink tuxedo... for some relative of mine's wedding, like pink felt some or other, because i too was gay. and i woke up pissed off, didn't help that my sister in law was talking about me being rude for not eating my mothers "tenderly" cooked food, when i got up. >_> Anyway i have this like deep rooted dislike for anything that's steriotypicaly gay, wearing pink, etc so forth... perhaps Scyhological...patheological.... anyone else?

um great smelling hair...how do you smell your own hair again? unless it's long enough to reach your nose, i can't.... I like good smelling shampoo but that's entirely different from goods smelling hair, after all it is a soap which reacts to water...etc...

It in a way reminds me of some of the poems i write, except outward seeing instead of inward. Dark painful and seeing someone lost, if i didn't know who it was about, i'd say it was written to me.

It burns my heart and tears at my soul. *hugs you* yer gonna make me cry...

tis sad...T_T....though i think i can guess knowing you what it's about... unrequented love....

Ok that sounds very much like me...