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Well, I wasnt quiet all day, but it's safe to say that no one at school heard anything from me today I stayed home lol

Here's an antholgy poem I wrote A day of silence by Nick The day of silence has come and gone But there

A day of silence by Nick The day of silence has come and gone But there

Well, I had it out with the old man tonight. He wants me to wuit my job because he says I'm too young to have a job and to be taking the kind of classes I'm in at school. I told him no way, but he pointed out to me that I was up last night past 3 in the morning finishing my hw. He's right about that part, but that doesn't always happen. Usually I can finish my hw before I'm off work. I do a lot of it while I'm at school and I try to finish it while I'm on break. But last night I had a lot of work to do, plus a book report I knew about for almost a month but I never started until last night. We read Grapes of Wrath in January, and she gave us until today to have the dang thing done. But of course I had to wait until it was panic time and I ended up with about 2 hours of sleep last night. So. I admit, I've been grouchy all day. When he said he wanted me to quit, I told him no way. Of course, he told me that it wasn;t my choice, and he's right about that. But, if he makes me quit, he know's I'll never forgive him. I mean, I really like having a job. There's something about going to work and making my own money and trying to do my job as good as I can that I really think is cool. Maybe I'm just a nerd, though. idk. I know that if I did have to quit, I'd have my evenings again for Taylor . I really miss spending all afternoon with him and having dinner with him here or sometimes at his place. But on my days off we still get to see eachother, so it's not like we NEVER get to spend time together. It's just not as much as we used to. Plus, I like having my own money, even if my dad only lets me keep 35 dollars out of my check and makes me put the rest in savings Anyway, we fought all the way home and even after we got there until my stepmom told us both to shut up so she could hear the tv So, we'll see. I guess that means I have to get my stuff done on time and not be up until 1 in the morning every night(actually, I do that anyway so I can watch Wondershozen)

Happy Birthday Dio

Happy Birthday !!!!!!! I hope you got a grip of presents and $$$$$$$ for your birthday...also, hopefully you get a car

Ok, so a lot has happened this weekend, and it hasn't been easy. But I know I have to keep moving, and I'm going to. Myr just posted the Anthology today, and I was proud to see my story there. I'm not saying it was all that, but to have a story posted on the same page as Lugh and RHawes and Viv was amazing to me. Also, I have goals and I have to keep working to get them accomplished. I started almost a year ago on xanga, posting What's the difference for about 5 readers, but that grew to about 20. Then I started posting it here at the Library, then at the efiction section of the site and that number got bigger. Then I met Talonrider, who got my story straight and got me hosted at CRVBOY and also hosted me himself at The Talon House . In the meanwhile, I started my own forum, Nick's Story Discussion and eventually, my own pageNick's Story Page . I also started on My Jump Off and started writing poetry. I know that in order to ever be considered good enough to ever be a hosted author here, I have to keep writing good stories and poems and posting them everywhere I can to make my audience as big as I can. Anyway, I had to stop and think about what I wanted to do. I don't ever want to leave this place. I love it here too much, and even if I never make it as a hosted Author, I promise to keep posting my work here and to make as big of a contribution as possible.

lol...actually, I dont know. Lots of people from our church call it that and before this topic came up I never called it that. Also, Nickolaslandville doesn't really exist (except in my head ) We do sorta live in the south though

It's belly wash in Nickolaslandville... it's always Belly Wash

Sorry it's late but Happy Birthday...I hope you got lots of presents and $$$$

A&W and Sprite are in a tie for first place with me After that, I like Sun Drop, Fresca and Coke Oh, and ANY kind of orange soda I also think from now on I'm gonna start calling it belly wash just to see how my friends react

Sometimes I hear people around here call it belly wash

lol....um. Who calls it fizzy drink???

This was supposed to be a good day. It's a Saturday, I only had to work a few hours and I got to go to the movies with Taylor and 4 of our friends. It was just a guy thing. Later we were going to meet up at Taylors and party and kick it in the pool even though it rained here. Well, when I got home and logged on to GA to see if there was any news about Green, I suddenly felt like I got punched in the belly. I'm sure most of you know by now, and it's probably the worst thing I've read. I want to go to the topic about him and post, but I don't really know what to say because I'm so sorry doesn't seem like it helps anyone. So I went into Live Chat to see how everyone was and in about 2 minutes, I was crying and had to leave the room. I usually don't talk about my emotions too much, but it was all too much for me. I just can't find a reason why it had to happen. I've thought about it and prayed about it and talked to Taylor about it, and part of me understands that everything in this world happens for a reason, and God's will and His plan is what it is. My mother died and it was God's plan. I was born gay and it was God's plan. That doesn't make this any easier. So for a few moments, I thought about my online life and what it really means. I mean, I used to say that there were only a few people who I knew from online that I really cared about, but maybe I'm wrong. For that few moments after I left Live Chat, I thought about taking the advice of the people who voted in my poll for me to leave the forum and asking Myr to delete my account so that if this happens again, I wouldn't know about it and I wouldn't feel any kind of pain. To be honest, this is the first time someone from a forum I belong to has passed away. I didn't ever stop to think about it, but Taylor reminded me that we're all human. Even though we just have screen names here and on AOL or whatever you use, we're all still people and someday we all die. I guess that's just a risk we take when we get close to people online, and even though Green wasn't someone I knew really good, he was still part of the GA family and now he's gone. Then I had to stop and think about his family and about Chaz. I mean, what now??? I don't even want to think about losing Taylor, and Green's mom and dad and even his no good brother lost him too. Also, there's all of his friends that we've read about in his blog. What about them?? I just wonder if it's really a good idea to let myself get too involved in the forums and in Live Chat. We lost a brother today here at GA, and it's not going to be the same here without him. Maybe Green doesn't get to see this entry, but I hope that he knew how important he was to Gay Authors and all of it's members. To Chaz, I know you've read this a lot of times already, but I'm really sorry. That's all I have to say now, because if I keep going, I might cry again. Nick

Okay, so I'm thinking about changing my user name for some odd reason. I'm not sure why, but I have this idea that somehow changing my profile name might make my stories seem more exciting and people would want to read them. Unfortunately, I went to change it, and the name I was going to go with (Nick) was already being used by someone who hasnt been on since like 2003. Oh well, I have a few other names in mind....here's the choices I'm considering Mikehawk(sayitfast) W00t1991 SouthsideNick Nicktheprick ********* (okay, this one is a secret because i don't want anyone to steal it) I'm open to suggestions if you think there's another name I should think about using Edit: 12:30 YAY!!!! So far, two people want me to leave the forum!!!! I feel so loved Thank you, thank you very much

Happy Birthday, Kurt..... Hope it's a good one and you get lots of presents and $$$$ w00t w00t

Hey Kevin, I know you made this entry a long time ago, but I just want you to know that I'll be praying for you. You're such a sweet guy and everyone here likes you, plus you're really smart. Anyway, I wanted to give you a and say hi

Happy Easter Ok, so I know I just updated this thing. I messed around and did the same thing on myspace. Anyway, I'm doing really good. I didn't have to work as much this last week as I thought I was gonna have to. But, I did get paid Besides that, it's back to school for this boy, and I'm actually ready to go back. I felt guilty about not having to wake up and go for some reason. Maybe it's because I have my routine down and I got to break it last week. Either way, I'm glad to be going back....btw, guess who got straight A's on his report card.....not Taylor Sorry, Taylor. I couldn't help myself. Also, I've been hard at work getting my story, What's the difference between me and you? edited and fixed, now I can start posting the finished work on Gay Authors again. I really love the way my editor worked hard with the mess I gave him and made it look so good My other story, My Jump Off, was updated today. I posted chapter 5 this morning and I have to say, I'm pretty happy with the character development. Also, I've been trying my hand at poetry. I've been getting some good reviews on it, but I posted a poem at Kaspers forum and no one has said whether or not they liked it...maybe they didn't Oh well, it's okay, because I'm gonna keep working hard to get better at it. The first poem I wrote was about dysfunctional relationships, and no, it wasn't about me and Taylor at all. The second poem I wrote was for my dad. I just got up one day and sat down and wrote it for no reason, but it basically said all of the things I wanted to say about how much I love him. That's the one I posted at Kaspers forum. The third one I wrote was for my boo, Taylor. It was all about us and our relationship and how much I love him and how we've grown in the Word of God. The forth one I wrote was for my mom. Even though she's been gone my whole life, I still love her and I miss having her in my life. I just wanted to let some of my sadness out and also to tell her that just because my dad and Lori are married, that doesn't mean I don't think about her everyday. Because I really do. I have dreams about her and I wonder about all kinds of stuff. Anyway, I'm gonna stop now because I'm getting all emotional and I don't want to do that. I have so much to be thankful for in my life. My family(that includes Taylor and his folks), my friends, my church and most of all, God, who sent his only Son to Earth to die on the cross for our sins. That's what Easter's all about, right? I mean, yeah, we have the easter egg hunt, and we eat candy and have Ham and Mash potatoes and rolls and brocolli and pies, but in the end, it's all about the miracle of Christ's resurrection. Okay, so I'm done now I just wanted to check in and spill my guts for a little bit. I hope everyone has a blessed week

My poems are cheesey????

Ok, so I've started a Poetry Series at the efiction section of this site. and I've been getting some good reviews. I mean, my first poem wasn't that good. It didn't rhyme, so I think people naturally hate it. But my other poems have gotten some good reviews. Of course, that doesn't mean that I'm not writing stories anymore. As a matter fo fact, I'm almost done with chapter 6 of My Jump Off. I'm going out tonight, so I won't get it done until either when I get home tonight or tomorrow. But I promise that it will be posted no later than tomorrow. Anyway, if you read my poems, please leave me comments and rate them. Even if you hate them and you think I'm the worlds worst poet and writer, I would like to here from my readers.

Happy Birthday Ben

Lizards are kinda cool.....the only way I'd get a cat was if it was a rat or a mouse......I'm freaked out whenever I see one. Otherwise, just leave it alone....maybe buy him some food(whatever lizards eat) and put some water out for him.

Maybe someday I can get enough people who are willing to stand up for our rights and we can march to Washington and stage real boycots like MLK did. I know there's nothing I can do right now, but in a few years, I think I'll try.

Here's the problem, Little Buddah........ Defense of Marriage Act (Enrolled as Agreed to or Passed by Both House and Senate) --H.R.3396-- H.R.3396 One Hundred Fourth Congress of the United States of America AT THE SECOND SESSION Begun and held at the City of Washington on Wednesday, the third day of January, one thousand nine hundred and ninety-six An Act To define and protect the institution of marriage. Be it enacted by the Senate and House of Representatives of the United States of America in Congress assembled, SECTION 1. SHORT TITLE. This Act may be cited as the `Defense of Marriage Act'. SEC. 2. POWERS RESERVED TO THE STATES. (a) IN GENERAL- Chapter 115 of title 28, United States Code, is amended by adding after section 1738B the following: `Sec. 1738C. Certain acts, records, and proceedings and the effect thereof `No State, territory, or possession of the United States, or Indian tribe, shall be required to give effect to any public act, record, or judicial proceeding of any other State, territory, possession, or tribe respecting a relationship between persons of the same sex that is treated as a marriage under the laws of such other State, territory, possession, or tribe, or a right or claim arising from such relationship.'. ( CLERICAL AMENDMENT- The table of sections at the beginning of chapter 115 of title 28, United States Code, is amended by inserting after the item relating to section 1738B the following new item: `1738C. Certain acts, records, and proceedings and the effect thereof.'. SEC. 3. DEFINITION OF MARRIAGE. (a) IN GENERAL- Chapter 1 of title 1, United States Code, is amended by adding at the end the following: `Sec. 7. Definition of `marriage' and `spouse' `In determining the meaning of any Act of Congress, or of any ruling, regulation, or interpretation of the various administrative bureaus and agencies of the United States, the word `marriage' means only a legal union between one man and one woman as husband and wife, and the word `spouse' refers only to a person of the opposite sex who is a husband or a wife.'. ( CLERICAL AMENDMENT- The table of sections at the beginning of chapter 1 of title 1, United States Code, is amended by inserting after the item relating to section 6 the following new item: `7. Definition of `marriage' and `spouse'.'. Speaker of the House of Representatives. Vice President of the United States and President of the Senate. This bill was supported by Democrats and Republicans.....President Clinton (D) signed this piece of garbage. My point in chat was that that Bush is no worse than Clinton was when it comes to gay rights. I haven't heard any of Clintons supreme court nominee's come out and say they were in favor of gay marriage. It's all the same, and I have no respect for anyone who chooses to support either one of the two "Republicratic" party's when it comes to gay rights.

This I'll never be sorry for Having my own opinion Being different from other people Telling someone that they're wrong Demanding facts when somoene tries to change my opinion or prove me wrong Winning political debates in the chat room (and I did rather easily) Well, for everyone who forgot why Myr closed The Soapbox, if you were just in chat with me, you now know why I'm never going to let someone tell me that my opinions are wrong without an argument, and then have them make statements they can't back up with facts. If you want to say someone did something, go ahead. But I wont believe you unless you can provide proof. Things got pretty weird in the chatroom tonight, but who cares?? I'm happy it happened, because I don;t want people to think Im just some dumb kid who cant stand up for himself in a political debate. Everyone just assumes that because I'm gay that I'm automatically supposed to be against our president. Well guess what.........that's not going to happen. I hate stereotypes, and one of the worst ones is that gay=democrat. What have the dems done to earn the support of the gay community?? Have they come out and said they would legalize gay marriage across the nation?? Did they oppose the Defense of marriage act?? Did the democrat who ran for president in 2004 say he wasn't opposed to gay marriage?? It's pathetic, and so is any self respecting gay person who supports the democrats or the republicans. As far as the president goes, I don't support him either when it comes to gay rights and abortion. he's wrong about gay marriage, and the fact that he says he wants to use the constitution to ban gay marriage shows how little he knows about the constitution. The purpose of the constitution is to limit the power of the federal government, not the people that the federal government serves. Of course, this is the same idiot who said that the United States is a democracy. We aren't a democracy. We're a constitutional republic. It's disgusting that our own president doesnt even know that. My point is that as gay Americans, we shouldn't be supporting ether party. Civil Unions are worse than a ban on gay marriage as far as Im concerned because they say that we're "seperate but equal". Sorry, but that's discrimination. The same type of discrimination that blacks went through in the 50's and 60's. It was wrong then, and it's wrong now. I just wish that the gay community had someone like Martin Luther King to wake us up and make us stand up for our rights. We have the right to marry, and we have the right to live free of harrassment and discrimination by our president and congress. Ok, I'm off my rant now. I just get so upset when ignorant idiots try to say that Bush and the republicans are the only ones who hold us down. It's basically turning the other way while the dems do it too. Have a good week everyone I'm off for spring break but I have a feeling that I'm going to have to work a lot. I dont have to go in tomorrow till 4, but then I get to see the schedule for the week and find out what they want me to do (hopefullly, I'm off ) Kisses Nick