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This afternoon when I got home from school I was soooooo hungry, so I opened the refridgerator and looked inside to see what there was to eat. I found some leftover steaks from last night so I had my stepmom heat two of them up for me. I don't know if it was because she heated them up wrong, or because she didn't add enough salt to them, but when I took my first bite, I didn't bother chewing because I was so hungry, and I got a huge chunk of unchewed steak stuck in my throat, making it hard for me to breathe and impossible to swallow anything. So for about 30 minutes, I did everything I could to try to make it come out. Everytime I tried to drink water or rootbeer to force it down, I had to hurry and run to the bathroom and gag it all up because it never made it past the steak. Finally, I got sick of choking on it and took matters into my own hands......I stood over the toilet and shoved my finger down my throat until I gagged the meat up.....it was brutal. Anyway, I looked in the mirror while I was brushing my teeth aftertward and I have all of these red splotches on my face from straining to gag and I look like a monster, or like a vistim of a mugging. I don't know what Im going to do about tomorrow at school......this really sucks, but it still gets worse...... My dad freaked out when he got home and found out about it and wanted to take me to the emergency room even though I already got the meat unstuck and was fine. He saw all of the splotches on my face and tried to say I was bleeding internally and he needed to get me to the hospital..lol...luckily, my stepmom told him he was being paranoid and to leave me alone. So at dinner time me and taylor come downstairs to eat and he's standing at the breakfast island cutting my meat up for me!!!! I was sooooo humiliated, but I wasn't too shocked. Earlier I was chatting online with someone and I told him that my dad would try to cut up my meat for me from now on...lol.......so now I just have to wait for him to calm down about this and let me cut my own meat up Nick

LOL... YES!!!!

I can't even remember the last time we went to Blockbuster.....we go to Movie Gallery because I can buy Ice Cream when we go there I guess i should sit down and work on chapter 41 of my story but I haven't really had any time...I have way too much homework to do.....anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I really love DD....it's always been my favorite of all of your stories, and it was worth waiting almost six months between chapter 8 and chapter 9 because it's better than ever, even if Luke and Grandma Alice don't end up hooking up. Kisses Nick

I used to climb all the time until I was in the seventh grade and i fell off of some high bleechers at school and broke my arm and cracked my sternum ....it was pretty wack

Happy Birthday (whips out a paddle and gives you 18 swats on the butt)

A woman was in a coma. She had been in it for months. Nurses were in her room giving her a sponge bath. One of them was washing her private area and noticed that there was a slight response on the monitor when she touched her. They tried it again and sure enough there was definite movement. They went to her husband and explained what happened, telling him, "As crazy as this sounds, maybe a little oral sex will do the trick and bring her out of the coma." The husband was skeptical, but they assured him that they'd close the curtains for privacy. The husband finally agreed and went into his wife's room. After a few minutes the woman's monitor flat lined, no pulse, no heart rate. The nurses run back into the room. "What happened!?" they cried. The husband said, "I'm not sure - I think maybe she choked."

I know this is kinda depressing, but I decided to write this here because it's my blog, and I feel like this is a good place to get things off of my mind that I don't feel comfortable talking about with too many other people. I've been thinking about my mom a lot lately, and it's kinda had me bummed out. I know that there's no way to go back in time or to bring her back, but I have so many questions that I know I can never get the answers to. It's like Rory in DD, but I wasn't ever lied to by my mom. I feel like Im being lied to by my dad, though. At least Im being kept in the dark about a lot of things...... My dad and I have been having this war for a long time about what kind of questions I should be able to ask and what's none of my business. I want to know as much as I can about his relationship with my mom, and what kind of couple they were. I talked to some of my family and they told me stuff like, They always fought really bad after I was born. Someone even told me that my mom stabbed my dad and that he broke her arm, but then they made up. The same person also told me that before I was born, they NEVER fought. But when I ask my dad about that stuff, he tells me to put it out of my head and that it's the past and that it's none of my concern. So I feel terrible sometimes because I have no idea if I ruined my parents relationship or not. I'd at least like to know what kind of stuff we did as a family and whether or not my mom and dad would've gotten married if she wouldn't have died, but he doesn't even answer those questions for me. The biggest thing for me is wondering what my mom would think of me today. Would she accept me for being gay? Would she be ashamed? Would she be proud? Would she like Taylor? Would she forbid us from dating? I don't even know if she was homophobic or not. My dad says all of that stuff is irrelelvant, but it hurts my feelings that he won't at least answer the questions about the two of them. He used to smoke a lot of weed when I was little. I wonder if she smoked it with him, or was she a drinker? I know she got good grades, but what kind of crowd did they hang out in? The main thing I want to know is, Did I ruin their lives? Or maybe I should ask, Did I ruin their plans? I know they were together from the 7th grade until she died, so maybe they had plans for their lives and I came along and they had to change them and it drove them apart. I don't know. Besides that, tomorrow is Taylors birthday He's a month and 8 days older than me, so he can't brag for too long. He's having a huge party at his house, and he invited like 45 people...we're gonna try to cram as many people in his pool as we can to see how much water we can knock out of it, like we did to my dads hot tub Anyway, sorry for being such a downer......btw, to anyone who might be reading my story, chapter 41 is on it's way....but please, leave comments, good or bad...the good ones encourage me and the critism helps me improve Nick

Happy Birthday Jim

Happy New Year Kevin....good luck in Houston....Im not too sure about the whole chocolate thing. I could never do it. I have chocolate everyday, and peanut butter too...actually, I have reeses cups almost everyday, but I love Take 5's too...hmmmm, nope, nope. I could never do it... Kisses Nick

Happy Birthday Green!! (sings the happy birthday song).

But if 2005 had never happened, I wouldn't have found Gay Authors...... :wacko: :wacko: :wacko: lol......oh, now I get it.....lol Happy New Years Everyone

Congratulations are due to The Great One for winning the 2005 Nickolas James Story of the year Award for Gone from Daylight.

The Nickolas James Awards 2005 Before I begin to anounce tonights winners, let me take this opportunity to thank the authors and the readers that make the Nickolas James Awards possible. Without you, we wouldn't be here. So, without further ado, let's get to tonights winners. Tonights first category is the 2005 Blog of the year, and the winner is: VIV!!! Or second category of the evening is non-hosted GA author of the year, and the winner is: GREEN!!! Our next category is 2005's Site administrator of the year, and the winner is:MYR!!! Up next is the 2005 GA Forum Member of the year, and the winner is:SNOWDOG!!! Our next award is for Cliff hanger of the year, and the winner is, THE LOG WAY, CHAPTER 28!!! This award is for the 2005 coolest heterosexual character of the year, and the winner is: RYAN FROM THE LOG WAY!!! The next award is for the 2005 GAC of the year, and the winner is:JamesSavick!!! Our next category is 2005's most hated character of the year, and the winner is: JANIE FROM THE LOG WAY!!! Up next, the most popular character of 2005, and the winner is:OWEN FROM THE LOG WAY!!! Tonight we would like to take the time to honor who we think is 2005's Most Improved Author of the year, and the winner is:UNDERTHEHOODSTER!! Our 2005 Character of the year award goes to none other than: DAVEY FROM DO OVER!!!by dkstories Tonight we'd also like to take the time to honor 2005's Domoholic of the year: NAPER_VIC!!! Our 2005 story of the year award goes to :COMICALLY FOR GONE FROM DAYLIGHT!!! Finally, tonights ultimate prize, the 2005 Author of the year award goes to the one person who has taken Gay Authors and Nifty by storm: DOM LUKA!!! Congratulations once again to all of tonights winners. I would also like to take this opportunity to thank the judges and the awards committe for thier hard work and dedication to this long and thought out process. Goodnight everyone, we'll see you all next year .........

I think that anyone who says 'Smiles' is gay ia a gaylord....lol......ok, I know, Im gay too, but I think it's funny how people call stuff gay......kinda like me. I call everything I think's silly or dumb gay, and everyone don't agree with is a gaylord...btw, I say kisses, and I KNOW that's gay Also, good luck at the 2005 Nickolas James Awards...I heard you were nominated in several categories Kisses Nick

Merry Christmas Dom Thanks for the awesome short story...... I loved it Also, I think DD is going great......Im so happy that you got interested in it again... Nick

Ok, so with the official GA awards going on, I've decided to pass out my own awards.......The Nickolasjames Awards...calender year 2005 (please note that Gay Authors does not endorse or support the Nickolasjames Awards in any way, although they probably should. There are no monetary or material prizes associated with The Nickolasjames Awards) So here are the categories: Story of the year::::::::::::::::: Author of the year::::::::::::::::: Domoholic of the year:::::::::::::::: Character of the year:::::::::::::::: Most Improved Author of the year::::::::::: Most Popular Character of the year::::::::::: Most Hated Character of the year::::::::::::: GAC of the year:::::::::::::::::: Coolest Hetero Character of the year::::::::::: Blog of the year::::::::::::::::: Cliff Hanger of the year:::::::::::::::::::: Site Administrator of the year::::::::::::::: GA Forum Member of the year::::::::::::::: Non Hosted GA Author of the year:::::::::::::: The candidates for these awards are selected by a secret committee. The names will then be fowarded to a select tribunal of judges who will foward the results to the Awards Committee. The winners will be listed as the results are tabulated. Good Luck Everyone

Merry Christmas Kevin

Ok, I know Im asking for it, but I did it anyway......I posted chapter 37 of my story and I know I was a real jerk in it....I just couldn't help myself.....my emotions were out of control that day and my dad and James were teaming up on me....well, thats how I felt. When I look back on it now, I feel ashamed of myself for doing it. I took something horrible and used it againsy my cousin because I was a jealous little brat......the cool part is that forgave me somehow....Im not sure why, but he did Well, in case this is my last entry until after Christmas, Merry Christmas everyone...I'll try to knock out as many chapters as I can while Im out of school :pickaxe: :pickaxe: :pickaxe: Ok, I leave you all with the one question that no one has been able to answer for me. Maybe someone here can answer it for me........... Why is it called Pro Wrestling if it's fake??? What's proffesional about it?? Nick

(long sigh).......I feel like a total jerk right now because I keep dissing Taylors play. My bf has been rehearsing for his play for months, and tonight they finally did it, and I have to say (yawn)...lol.....sorry. I feel so bad for my boo right now because even he knew it was boring. Anyway, he did a great job, and I give him a lot of credit for getting up in front of 600 people (or more) and remembering all of his lines and doing his part so well.....I think it woulda been better if some of the other people in the play woulda did a better job with thier parts...a lot of them seemed like they were just saying thier lines, not acting them out, but Taylor and a few others did a really good job. I felt really sorry for him though, because thier were some people up there that you could totally tell didn't want to be there, and it must have made him feel nervous. After the play, he told me that he was embarrassed by how they acted disinterested.....here's hoping that the ones who ruined it for the ones who worked so hard to do a good job get F's and the ones like my baby, who actually tried to put on a good play, get A's Nick BTW....Chapter 36 of my story is posted

Hi Kevin, I wish I could give you some kind of advise, but I really don't know a lot about where you live. One thing though....Where we live is considered the south, and trust me, there are A LOT of rednecks here, but Im totally out, even at school...of course, like a friend told me once, me trying to hide being gay is like trying to hide a whale in a broom closet..lol...anyway,my point is, if you do come out where your family is, it might not be so bad. Good luck either way, though....... Nick

Um.....ok. I don't really know how to say this without sounding like a dork. I already knew about Santa not being real but you're actually the first adult I have ever really known of who said it....I guess it's just kinda weird to actually hear it (or read it) from an adult for the first time. Like I said, I already knew the truth a long time ago, but I guess I kinda held on to the idea that maybe since I hadn't heard it from a grownup that maybe I was wrong..lol...I know it's silly

Hi Kevin I get cramps from writing too long too, so I just shake my hand when it starts to happen, then I carry on Nick

Well, I just posted chapter 35, and I want to say sorry in advance to anyone who reads and notices a bunch of spelling errors......it was a hard chapter to write. I actually started crying at the end when I was remembering everything that happened that day...in a lot of ways, it was harder for me to write this chapter than it was to write chapter 4, which was also a crying chapter for me...anyway, I had so many tears and my mind was so clouded that I forgot to edit it for spelling and puncuation, so I have go back over it.....promise I will...anyway, it's posted. Besides that, Im just getting ready to start my week. I have everything ready and in my backpack, so when I get done getting dressed, I can just grab it and go...lol. I hope you all had good weekends and that you all have good weeks Nick

Sounds like what I did to our counter with red Koolaid ....Good Luck Kevin Nick