Albert, your entry today brought tears to my eyes. In a good way. Your attitude, fortitude, and genuine willingness to better yourself and others is commendable. Sometimes it's hard to see how far we've come because we're too close to it. But you've come so far, just in the time you've been posting your thoughts here. You're hurting, yet are looking to the future, to ways you can help others overcome the same thing you're going through. That is the mark of a good human being. In case no one has told you this... I'm proud of you. And you should be proud of yourself. I wish you all the best for the future.