Puberty hit and my faith left. Not because I was gay, that took longer to sort out. The loss of faith was almost palpable at first. Like losing a limb. I still swing between envy and ridicule for those who still believe, including my husband. He is at least now free of the ludicrous church which made him chose between them and me.
Your debate made me wonder if losing faith is a bit like losing that heterosexual future we're all brought up to expect once our sexuality becomes apparent. Now I see neither as a loss and both as a blessing. Still love old churches though, especially if they smell of incense.
Thanks for the writings.