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Find happiness and keep it, there are many more but if i am happy then it wont matter to me if i don't acheive them.

I just finished reading it and it is one amazing book and far surpassed any expectations i had, It was a very emotional book and i think it wrapped everything up well but i was still wanting more at the end of the story but i think that is cause liek most people i don't want the story to end. Spoilers below I am so happy i was right about Snape i said when he killed dumbledore that he did it because he was dying and wanted to save draco for some greater good, Ron and hermione were both adorable was so sweet when they got together and i loved that teh final battle took place at hogwarts like i thought it would. Loved it but wishing there was more. Mark

Hey guys, well many of you know Luc and will know about the nasty bite he got from his cat (if not read his blog) well he got a bad infection and has had to have some operations on his hand, he hasn't been able to send me much info because of his hand and being high on drugs but he said he is in until monday at least so hoping he will be home soon but i know i am not the only one who misses him and wants him to get well soon. Hope your home soon Luc and that your soon able to get back to typing to us all and writing more stories, love you.

*grins* were you typing with your tongue? if so you really should take a pic of that I TOLD you that it shouldn't be hurting so much but you never listen but i'm glad you got it looked at sounds nasty as hell but yay for the happy drugs right *smiles and hugs you * yes you need to finish the anthology even if you have to get your mic out and tell someone what to write cause so far i love it and need an ending get better soon

more info about the renewal and air dates here http://jerichoboard.cbs.com/n/pfx/forum.as...&redirCnt=1 glad it will be renewed Mark

Happy birthday Vic *send the stripper * he will be there soon

good to know would think any court that allowed a paedophile to see his child that was conceived during an act of child rape would be insane, of course the courts are often insane and do worse but glad this has worked out. Mark

yeah i posted in teh tv show thread that it has been cancelled and there is a petition teh renew it, they have said if it is cancelled they will provide something to give closure to the series which i think sucks its a great series with easily more seasons to it. Mark

lol your very right james however it seems you can be insured against aliens and various other things Burgess

Ok.......... so I just saw an advert for insurance whiich had aliens invading and I wondered aloud to Ben if companies actually offer cover against alien invasions lol, so say your house was blown up would you be able to ring the company and say aliens blew up my house how do i claim? or i have been hit by an alien raygun how do i claim for the injuries caused? Just wondered.......... Mark

*smiles and hugs you tight* hope you have a great day babes, happy birthday, love you hope it is as special as you are which is so very special i suck at birthday posts but sent you an email Mark

Who isn't he is the star of the books, and rupert grint is very cute, have to remind myself he is younger than me lol but that does look cool would definetly try and go. Mark

LMAO This just made me crack up laughing. And no i don't pull faces in the mirror as i tend to avoid mirrors at all costs and when i can't avoid i don't look for long but each to their own lol Mark

A few of you posted you watch Jericho, i love this show so was saddened to learn it has been axed with no plans for another season, i have managed to keep up with teh series ahead of the uk schedule due to illegal viewing and have just watched the final but one episode and in my opinion it is one of the best series around and it has more to give, there is online petitions and such but yeah i don't think they work *is cynical* but yeah thought i would abuse this thread to pout and moan a little rather than start another post my moaning is boring lol totaly off topic (like the rest of my post) my neighbours always argue and she just shouted at him to go f**K his boyfriend lol always thought he was too cute to be with that ugly wench (doesn't hate women just that one) , yeah sorry will shut up now i have been working nights and get a little crazy around this time, feel free to delete this post as spam Mark (who needs meds)

good post cause i am addicted to tv shows hmmm current 1. Jericho 2. Greys anatomy 3. Lost Always 1. Roswell 2. Buffy 3. 24 Mark

that is great and being honest liek that will bring you closer together and you can move on adn who is to say that he won't return your feelings one day? may just be that right now he doesn't. Either way i hope you two remain close and stay honest well done for telling him. Mark

I think a rich man is someone who has more than he needs of the things that he values

i used to start chats and add loads of people from ga will be happy to do it more if i don't have your msn just let me know and will start some group chats mark

Happy birthday Rob, hope its a great one. Mark

oh that is so adorable i loved that the gay falmingos tried to steal other babies i bet they were so happy to have a baby of their own at last thanks joey Mark

Not too sure if i would change stuff in my life, would i be me if i made changes? i loved the movie butterfly effect because that is how i t hink of this question what would i change? if i changed things in my life would something worse have happened ? would i have changed things so that the path led to my death one day? would i be an inconsiderate dick who thought only of himself? its just hard to imagine what my life would be like if i went back and changed things, but of course there are things i wish were different, i wish my sister had not died that kind of led to everything else, my mum getting mentally ill and dying my dad beating me and eventually dying and in between it led to alot of my issues that i am still trying to deal with BUT it also made me the person i am today, going through that crap makes me value life and people and the close friends i have now and i think that despite everything i turned out fairly ok but yeah i wish i hadn't lost my family i think my longing for them would always win out even if i knew i would be someone completely different so yeah that is really all i would change, my sister would have lived. What have i learned? I have learned alot, i am still fairly young i guess but my life has been far from sheltered i have seen enough to learn things. I have learnt that, Everyone will hurt you esp those you love and those that love you, Anger will destroy you more than the person your angry with, You should take every opputunity to say i love you and avoid saying goodbye, Your friends are the most important people, they are the family you choose to have and you would be lost without them, It's ok to be me. My worst descision? its a joint one has to be running away/ trying to kill myself. My best? would have to be coming online and finding friends who became a family to me. Mark

It is a serious problem and not all kids get thrown out but leave out of fear. I spent 6 months on the streets when i was just 13 before i was forced back home and in that time i saw just how many gay kids there are on the streets and heard alot of awful things that happened to them. Trouble is many kids leave their home out of fear but fall prey to people who abuse street kids. It is good to read about these places and i hope more open and more kids hear of them, i never thought to seek out a shelter when i ran away because i never really knew of them, i hope that more kids benefeit from these places and find somewhere to belong and feel safe. Mark

Happy birthday Natey hope its a great one Mark

I think i am always myself but there are times i am more myself than others, there are only about four people i will be completly myself with i will say what i am feeling no matter what it is and will act an idiot if that is what i am in the mood to do i am just me how i am feeling at that point in time. That said i have irrationale moods and go on a downward spiral and will tend to hide my moods when i feel that low simply because i feel like shutting everyone out when i am like that but i amw orking on it. I am many things just like Luc listed there is not just a few things to describe me parts of me are confident or insecure or irrationale whilst i can be very rationale, i am friendly but anti social, i have fun but get depressed, just too many parts to list really and it all depends who i am with at any given point in time and of course how i am feeling and if i want to share those feelings with the world.

*hugs you close* its good you got that out there, even if you cannot ever tell your dad how you feel i think just talking about it helps. There is nothing harder than being angry or hating someone you also love, and we can hate them and love them and it does make you feel like your the one in teh wrong for feeling that way. I am sure your dad did what he did because that is the only way he knew how to handle that, doesn't make it right and i'm sure he knew later on when it was too late that he made a mistake and whilst he was probably tying to save you from further hassle and torment and having what happened publically reported on it only served to make you feel that you are not important. I hope this somehow helps, we never get to say all we want to the people who hurt us even if you do let them know how you felt it never all gets across, you have spent years feeling that way and it could never be summed up in words and emotion to your dad even if he was still here, but its a start and a good one, it shows your willing to accept that anger isn't unfounded its a part of you because of what happened not because your a bad person and writing this here wont heal the wounds or let you forgivr your dad and let go of the anger you have for him, but hopefully it will help you start to heal a little bit and start to realise you are important, wont happen overnight but its a start *smiles* a good one, all this time i have known you, i have never known you to really talk about what happened, you told me about it in a detached round about way and you danced around the details and dismissed it as nothing and you have never come out and expressed how angry you feel towards your dad, i have seen the anger there but you have never connected that anger to him and i'm glad you are finally starting to, that is the point where alot of things in your life went bad and its not hard to see why they went bad but i know myself its not alwayseasy tos ee that from the inside, i just hope that by starting to look at this you can begin to heal and that youw ont shut it back down. *smiles and hugs you* and thank you for telling me to tell my dad how i felt before he died, it did help, didn't cure things or heal everything but it did help it was the start of healing and i'm still in the process even now it just takes time and i know itshard that you never got to tell your dad how you feel but i remember john made me write that letter to my mum once a letter filled with anger towards her i didn't know i had and i remember him telling me that we don't always need the right people to hear all we have to say, sometimes we just need to say it, and he is right, sometime syou just need to say it to take steps into letting it go and i know you will get there eventually because i happen to know your that great *hugs you tight* have rambled now i blame the high temp Mark