Not too sure if i would change stuff in my life, would i be me if i made changes? i loved the movie butterfly effect because that is how i t hink of this question what would i change? if i changed things in my life would something worse have happened ? would i have changed things so that the path led to my death one day? would i be an inconsiderate dick who thought only of himself? its just hard to imagine what my life would be like if i went back and changed things, but of course there are things i wish were different,
i wish my sister had not died that kind of led to everything else, my mum getting mentally ill and dying my dad beating me and eventually dying and in between it led to alot of my issues that i am still trying to deal with BUT it also made me the person i am today, going through that crap makes me value life and people and the close friends i have now and i think that despite everything i turned out fairly ok but yeah i wish i hadn't lost my family i think my longing for them would always win out even if i knew i would be someone completely different so yeah that is really all i would change, my sister would have lived.
What have i learned? I have learned alot, i am still fairly young i guess but my life has been far from sheltered i have seen enough to learn things.
I have learnt that,
Everyone will hurt you esp those you love and those that love you,
Anger will destroy you more than the person your angry with,
You should take every opputunity to say i love you and avoid saying goodbye,
Your friends are the most important people, they are the family you choose to have and you would be lost without them,
It's ok to be me.
My worst descision? its a joint one has to be running away/ trying to kill myself.
My best? would have to be coming online and finding friends who became a family to me.
Mark